As the heart weeps I strugle
as the years pass and space moves
I wonder how the Earth and I will die
my mind can not control and I do not wish it to
but forcing notice and loyalty into my sole is one
one of many things I can not stop
I can not contol and I shall not whisper
as in the night my heart will linger
the skys will close and stars will fire
but our hearts will surely die
as I age the Earth ages with me
and as blood starts to slow and muscles disapear
the world I live, time is almost here.

A casual kiss to clear the mess  
Lips tracing your face N ya neck
slowing down as I near ya breast
It has you arching ya back
And relaxing ya chest
Inch by inch gets More tense ,
Creating Moments with less stress
Against your throbbing ***** I'll press
Touching it gently with all my breaths
Never letting you know my next move, Like it's chess
Hair pulling.  Toes curling.  And tounge swirling
Relaxing and zoned out.  Can't contol yourself.  So u moan loud

Foam cup, remote control
Foam heart, recycle me
Please
Trash it, bag it
Fill me to the top
She drank my heart
She ate her feelings
One foam cup of decaf, black
My entire life has changed
Gain my contol back

How often?
Are you gonna keep defending him?
When it's him giving you blackeyes and broken noses.
You can't keep blaming it on walking into cabinets.
Let alone a door.

How often?
Are you gonna be afraid?
That anything you say.
Just might tick him off.

A insecure man seeks this control.
Maybe because he has none at all.
So telling you when to speak.
When to walk or simply to move.
Give him this false sense of worthy.
That without him.
You can't accomplish too much.

So, how often?
Are you gonna tolerate this crime?

In truth.
You can't really hide.
We see people trying this.
And seems to end up dying.

Many men to this day is serving time.
For which they should.

No one should contol another.
So make a decision about yourself.

I have this crush
Who is refreshing as cascading waters falling off a steep cliff giving me an invigorating rush.
Making me blush, Just from every gentle touch.

I got him thinking his brain must have a leak because I hear and understand the words he doesn't speak.
He holds me closely to him like Im his favorite guitar
As he plays powerfully singing heavenly giving off frequencies and vibrations of how strong our love is as it travels distances near and far.
My heart is is hiding a secret its complled to tell.
As if he has it under a spell
He is the sweetest taboo
Possessing stronger power and better magic than the African's voodoo
Its a divine kinda of love from Man who is Hebrew
Its Authentic, Pure and True.
Like A yo yo I unwind as I plunge endlessly into the endeavours of his wonderous mind.
This place in his mind was beautifully unconfined.
I almost went blind after being exposed to that radient light inside that shined.
It sparkled like galactic milky way.
He had me intoxicated as if I was sipping on Chardonnay.
He really had me feeling some type of way.
My soul was lit by a flame that I myself couldnt tame everytime his voice would uttered my name.
Its ashame how it drove me insane.
He waters me as the Earths summer time rain.
The temperature swealters like the Summer's blaze with every single, "I Love You" Pharse that potrays his passionate praise.
The affectionate chocolate kisses puts my mind at ease like the light wind blowing on my skin during the summers breeze
He makes my thoughts freeze like the chill of winter that nature's nose sneeze.
His fragrance smells like Hawaiian Febreeze
Like calgon he take me away like a plane flying overseas.
I escape off to my fantasy land
Where I am holding on to his hand
As I listen to the rhythm of his heart's beat and with him I slowly dance.
We become stuck in a trance of romance
Star gazing at one another looking starry eyed
Feeling the pits of our stomachs full of butterflies
Eating each others vibes like my mama's homemade sweet potatoe pie
The atmosphere shifts quickly like the autumn wind blowing ever so swift
The ambiance is amplied as our intense feelings electrifies as if we were the fireworks on the 4th of July
The sparks fly
Lifting our spirits as they acsend Toward the blanket of soft white cotton filled clouds in the sky.
The rapid beating pulse in our sweaty palms tells me that the engery doesnt lie.

The Fire has been kindled.
We have by passed the physical
Entered into the mental
To explore the Church's scared temple
Submerging One another in the pool of love as if its a ceremony for our own secret baptismal
Letting love take contol
Getting lost in each others soul as we close our eyes willingly letting go.

A casual kiss to clear the mess  
Lips tracing your face N ya neck
slowing down as I near ya breast
It has you arching ya back
And relaxing ya chest
Inch by inch gets More tense ,
Creating Moments with less stress
Against your throbbing ***** I'll press
Touching it gently with all my breaths
Never letting you know my next move, Like it's chess
Hair pulling.  Toes curling.  And tounge swirling
Relaxing and zoned out.  Can't contol yourself.  So u moan loud

You have such wicked contol

Over everything

Always

Ignore me

Forget me

Use me

Who cares right?

Once needed,

A smile

A **** promise I’ll believe anyways

I’ll bend over backwards

Do as you wish

Just so you can walk again

I’m stuck

Trapped

I can’t move

Breathe

or escape

And worst of all

You know

You’ve given me hope
Not in the sense I imagined
But  none the less

I feel a sense of calm
Burning in my mind
Taking contol
Taking me away from myself

You give me hope
Your given me dreams
I know what I desire
I know what my heart says is true

You’ve shown me your light
You’ve shown me my life
I brought my own emotions out of my head

I can tell what I want
I know what I need
It’s not what I imagined but it’s here

The answer lies in the next step of our lives
And yet at the start
Keeping me glued together
Yet pulled apart

Why do I feel this way
Oh help me through this hell
You have brought me heaven

I am whole alone yet still broken without the pieces of my brain

Inside me there is a evil that grows when my anger grows i lose contol and go insaine.

Lets play a game a game of ******* up peoples minds

The demons will play so will i agame you will never beable to survive


On my body my mind will scream for how may weeks i havent slept


Night go by awake all night with nothing but the engery of life


Your regrets are real its time let the demons escape into reality letting the ugly side of you terrize the life you chose to live



My pure heart is what has kept me alive no evil could break my pure heart the leads and guides me threw the gates of living hell




Lets play a game a game of twisted minds will you dare to play the game of twistdd minds unleashing your evils ugly side out



I thing you should you will purify your own self and let your wounds heal


Will you like to play my game and see what will arrive

This life is very uncertain,
contol, your mind & train!