"cjw" poems
you painted a beautiful sunset,
full of color and life,
and said it represented me.
you said i was art.
three months later,
you poured black over the canvas
(cjw)
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 11:44 PM UTC
there were galaxies in your eyes
i reached out to grab them
but you turned away
when you turned back to face me
all that i could see was
a black hole of lies
where your heart should be
why won't you let me touch your stars
tell me all you know
show me all your scars
where did you go wrong
i guess i was too late
the starry gleam is gone
(cjw)
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 8:07 PM UTC
i see you in my dreams
kissing girls who are not me
cjw
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 8:13 PM UTC
and i started to choke, not from the smoke of the cigarettes you seemed to love more than me, but from the decay of the flowers you left in my lungs and forgot to water.
and i couldn't see anything, tripping over those hollow words you said three months ago, trying to grasp some root or branch or some last string of love you could have for me.
my body hit the current
(cjw)
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 11:31 PM UTC
i've been sleeping with skeletons again lately
and drenching myself in purfume
so no one can smell my dead passion or the inspiration i always seem to lose
i keep hearing what you said and
i'm hearing dead poems being recited in my head again and i know my words will outlive me like they outlived you and that keeps me company
i've been writing things that don't make sense and sitting outside burning books again
*i've been sleeping with skeletons
again
they tell me not to write these things down again*
(cjw)
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 12:49 AM UTC
everyday is a saddening bore,
every fiber of my being knows
i could have been, should have been something more.
mice crawl through the vines
that intertwine through the depths
of my darkened mind.
i should have been a pair
of ragged claws, scuttling across the
floors of silent seas.
i should have been falling down
twelve stories silently, beautifully,
tragically, not making a sound.
i should have been sinking
with rocks tied to my heart and ankles,
so maybe i could stop thinking.
instead, i countinue to breathe.
***but sometimes I still think of ropes
swinging in the midnight breeze
when i look at the trees.***
(cjw)
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 10:10 PM UTC
it's been raining here so long
and everyone i have ever loved is gone
i'm alone,
a flightless bird
with no song
or star to wish upon
it's been raining here so long
i think i'm ready to be gone
(cjw)
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 10:48 PM UTC
long sleeves in the summer time
tell me what's on your mind
(cjw)
Jul 26, 2015
Jul 26, 2015 at 11:45 PM UTC
it was pouring when i left your house that november night and everything reminded me of you
like the spot that the windshield
wipers can never reach
god, i didn't see that car coming
but i swear you were the last thing
going through my mind
before it went through the windshield
(cjw)
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 4:14 PM UTC
i've been listening to classical music lately
because it soothes my ill mind
and the melodies all remind me of you and your many sides;
the soft piano chords that chime
and the terrifying bass lines.
i think i've fallen in love with the heartache-ink that makes
up these tunes,
i just wish i had fallen in love
with you
(cjw)
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
and i still wait for you everyday;
the trees are green
then brown
then only the branches remain
the flowers bloom
then die
then nothing remains
nothing
and i still wait for you everyday;
your eyes are getting dark again
your walk is getting slow again
you're too far gone again
*but i still wait for you everyday
until i'm gone too*
(cjw)
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
this void i am made of
disintegrates
when i look into your eyes
and your hand touches mine
(cjw)
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 5:40 PM UTC
where is my mind
where did it go
i must have lost it
while searching for you
and the gun that destroyed
your lovely eyes
and blew your ******* brains
all over the driveway
and all over my mind
maybe it should stay lost
maybe i should too
(cjw)
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 9:45 PM UTC
it's hard to remember i'm alive
and that the sky is endless
and this life is relentless
and that not everyone i love will love me back
and i'm made of the very breath of the stars
that's true
but the stars are already dead
and you said i was too
and now i believe you
(cjw)
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 10:57 PM UTC
i'm walking through the woods
without shoes
feeling the earth beneath me
hoping i'll step on a piece
of you
of the love you said you would have for me
forever and ever
until our bones became dirt
(cjw)
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC
it was soft tidal waves
it was the grass browning
it was the last leaf falling
the last breath
it was winter
it was pure
it was beautiful
it was free
when i gave up on me
but when you gave up on me
my veins screamed
and my heart burst too
cjw
Jan 2, 2021
Jan 2, 2021 at 1:28 AM UTC