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bow down to women your superior admit it deep down inside you know men are inferior always ***** hormonally driven a slave to their desire whacking off watching **** chronically ************ for six hours a day in modern times men are useless obsolete it's a new age of girl power female ********** gynarchy
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Aug 27, 2021
Aug 27, 2021 at 4:35 PM UTC
gynarchy
Three-legged spider on a ***** tile Eyeball rolls, clean in hand Massive metal door opens, up top a hill Graveyard of ever-ringing cells. What's real creepy to you? Enclose the city, lock us out ..for good Condemned as doomed, living dead Big guns survive in metallic domes See the crass ******** shoot us down! Wanna talk about what's creepy, huh? Plunderers now lay down new laws Can't fight the sick, red sway Random acts of violence bay Armoured eyes see all from lofty towers. Creepy autocrats hide the truth, right? No soaring when blood runs rivers Tripping over rotting corpses Decaying stench of hope dying Help will come, we must believe! Do you believe lies to your face? Infrastructure's down, no services Power's out, no more flushing Car carcasses aflame on every corner, yet How come big brother's eyes still move? Are the gullible ones really stupid and feeble? Sun shines, but nothing grows Rain seeps red away into sewers Crops of twisted metal, hoards of guns Skeletal trees adorn our landscape. Why hold askance your glance skyward? The gates will open to let us in Surely, they witness our hardship! There must exist a life beyond this strife Uproar, bombard, gas, artillery....then no more.... Can you ever cease to have temerity? In face of adversity, calamity and injustice We should NEVER cease to be exasperated! Hope must prevail; faith must live; Thoughts expressed; love and respect must survive. Can you afford your spirit just to let go....? Think about it. Creepy autocrats eternally rank ... Chronically..........Insidious Repressively........Deleterious Egotistically.........Inadequate Eruptively............Odious Pretentiously.......Tedious Yucky...................Scum! S T, 31 May 2013
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May 31, 2013
May 31, 2013 at 10:30 AM UTC
Creepy Autocrat
Three-legged spider on a ***** tile Eyeball rolls, clean in hand Massive metal door opens, up top a hill Graveyard of ever-ringing cells. What's real creepy to you? Enclose the city, lock us out ..for good Condemned as doomed, living dead Big guns survive in metallic domes See the crass ******** shoot us down! Wanna talk about what's creepy, huh? Plunderers now lay down new laws Can't fight the sick, red sway Random acts of violence bay Armoured eyes see all from lofty towers. Creepy autocrats hide the truth, right? No soaring when blood runs rivers Tripping over rotting corpses Decaying stench of hope dying Help will come, we must believe! Do you believe lies to your face? Infrastructure's down, no services Power's out, no more flushing Car carcasses aflame on every corner, yet How come big brother's eyes still move? Are the gullible ones really stupid and feeble? Sun shines, but nothing grows Rain seeps red away into sewers Crops of twisted metal, hoards of guns Skeletal trees adorn our landscape. Why hold askance your glance skyward? The gates will open to let us in Surely, they witness our hardship! There must exist a life beyond this strife Uproar, bombard, gas, artillery....then no more.... Can you ever cease to have temerity? In face of adversity, calamity and injustice We should NEVER cease to be exasperated! Hope must prevail; faith must live; Thoughts expressed; love and respect must survive. Can you afford your spirit just to let go....? Think about it. Creepy autocrats eternally rank ... Chronically..........Insidious Repressively........Deleterious Egotistically.........Inadequate Eruptively............Odious Pretentiously.......Tedious Yucky...................Scum! S T, 31 May 2013
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I took a walk today and listened to the birds choking on the smog, broke my mother's back with every step and outran a stray dog. I picked you a bouquet of dandelions from the field because flowers can't grow when the sun's always concealed. I put them in a vase and filled it with water from the tap they died within an hour, now I know for sure you won't come back. I always swore I'd never own a broken home but it's hard not to when the only one's who stay are the garden gnomes — but someone's been smashing them in the middle of the night, or maybe they're blowing out their brains to escape my company and the blight. There's no magic left in this city, so chronically gray storms are always passing though and the rainbows are too scared to stay... I wanted to run away with you from the hood and past the burbs to somewhere where the air is clean and filled with singing birds. But instead I'm stuck here on this couch, microwaving Ramen while I search for words.
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Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 2:00 PM UTC
Rhyme for Detroit
What gives you the right to judge me, criticism wasn't asked so why you open your mouth, What's your prerequisite to make assumption's & judgments- Constructive criticism my *** My ADHD PT-SD Dyslexia Anxiety & dealings with you caused me a break down, got me chronically depressed, You say you only want the best for me, Well shut up & let me be! pill popping just so my E.E.D. (Emitted explosive disorder) wont cause me to become sentience with life new labels would say ****** if you keep bothering me I ain't stupid- So stop talking down to me Im not illiterate ******* I read So let me be No I don't have TS (tourette syndrome) I ******* cuss cuz I wanna so shut the hell up I know right from wrong I'm no psychopath Then again I just might be since I could give a flying **** about you weather you live or die I wouldn't cry. Your making it harder for ya self not me just go way Doc Do ya got **** Job, I don't want to talk anymore My past is where I left it Behind me You deal with it Cuz I already did & do For you that call your selves wanting to help.... My OCD (Obsessive-compulsive disorder) is personal So what if I wash my hands& *** 3 or more times I'm not stupid or deaf I have Selective Hearing Nor am I ******** that's how I say hello with my middle finger I told you, I'm not ******** ***** I'm Special! Always Me Ayeshah
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Mar 10, 2010
Mar 10, 2010 at 7:15 PM UTC
***** I'm Special
When I'm alone at night Laying in my bed The demons come out Attach to my head The voices whisper Never knowing what they said But every time Fill me with overwhelming dread My body only has evil fed And all emotions have completely fled My grey sight Has just turned to red And the rage takes over Arms turn to bull dozers Anybody in my path will be run over I'm a *** addict Popping perks Like i gatta have it Coke in my pocket Gotta grab it Your ******* throat I gotta stab it Living in poverty Blinded by hate Until i can't even see That demon i hate is me Deep inside it breathes Blood it needs And death it seeks My cheeks turn red My head starts to spin My mouth opens up No words appear Constantly trembling in fear Knowing my death is constantly near Pills in my pocket Take them with beer Start shedding tears I spit poison My mind is toxic My heart is frozen Brain with no logic Speak without a topic My evil is atomic Zoned out like im bionic My life is chronically chaotic And i smoke until im hypnotically psychotic Stuck in a constant fight or flight So much dark no hope for light The darkness has taken over my eye sight I'm a monster Prepare for a fright No bark all bight And when i attack i come with all my might Stuck in this eternal night
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May 14, 2013
May 14, 2013 at 3:30 PM UTC
Chaotic State Of Mind
It’s about the American dream To make more than you need Through corporate greed And pyramid schemes, So I guess I’m not asleep Since I eat rice and beans In a crummy C.F. Apartment, Or what’s left of that Ten by ten compartment I can barely afford, Like the ****** Degree that was supposed To reward my hard effort By leading me toward A corner office Or something Like that I should desire, But **** it, Let’s get higher, I’m getting bored, And my heart is heavy, And I’ve been Forsaken By the country that Bred me Yet expects me To slap on some flak And attack Fathers and sons and brothers In Iraq Over nothing But ideological Fluff And political stuffing, It’s nothing It’s nothing It’s nothing It’s just not worth The time or frustration To engage in This nation’s Procreation Of condemnation Of logical reason, Though reasoning Lies not in the Eye of the reasoner Or that of the reasoned, It’s gotta be easier Than achieving Appeasement Through please And leasing Thank yous To random Strangers, But if You believe They, like you, Are human Then the danger Is fleeting, Cuz they’re feeling The same feelings, The sane feelings of The chronically Sure, The always right, Everything in its Right place, Yea I know Tommy, I must endure And try to say I should try to save The knaves, But life’s so easy As a slave, You buy your Goods And pave the way For impoverished hoods And hoodwinked Majorities Who’ve already Made The sacrifices Necessary For the necessary To get paid, Hope you did some good With that bogus bonus Mr. Suit and tie And perfect life With the plastic wife And bank account You’ll never drain, No matter how many Times you make it rain On upscale hookers, It runs too deep To keep all to your Selfish selves, But I guess it’s our Faults we don’t wear The leadership caps Cuz we should’ve pulled Ourselves up by our ******* boot straps And made something of Ourselves, right? Those that deserve To make the big bucks Make it happen, right? Time for the forgotten ***** to put up a fight.
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Nov 24, 2011
Nov 24, 2011 at 12:26 PM UTC
--It's Not About Hugging Trees--
It’s about the American dream To make more than you need Through corporate greed And pyramid schemes, So I guess I’m not asleep Since I eat rice and beans In a crummy C.F. Apartment, Or what’s left of that Ten by ten compartment I can barely afford, Like the ****** Degree that was supposed To reward my hard effort By leading me toward A corner office Or something Like that I should desire, But **** it, Let’s get higher, I’m getting bored, And my heart is heavy, And I’ve been Forsaken By the country that Bred me Yet expects me To slap on some flak And attack Fathers and sons and brothers In Iraq Over nothing But ideological Fluff And political stuffing, It’s nothing It’s nothing It’s nothing It’s just not worth The time or frustration To engage in This nation’s Procreation Of condemnation Of logical reason, Though reasoning Lies not in the Eye of the reasoner Or that of the reasoned, It’s gotta be easier Than achieving Appeasement Through please And leasing Thank yous To random Strangers, But if You believe They, like you, Are human Then the danger Is fleeting, Cuz they’re feeling The same feelings, The sane feelings of The chronically Sure, The always right, Everything in its Right place, Yea I know Tommy, I must endure And try to say I should try to save The knaves, But life’s so easy As a slave, You buy your Goods And pave the way For impoverished hoods And hoodwinked Majorities Who’ve already Made The sacrifices Necessary For the necessary To get paid, Hope you did some good With that bogus bonus Mr. Suit and tie And perfect life With the plastic wife And bank account You’ll never drain, No matter how many Times you make it rain On upscale hookers, It runs too deep To keep all to your Selfish selves, But I guess it’s our Faults we don’t wear The leadership caps Cuz we should’ve pulled Ourselves up by our ******* boot straps And made something of Ourselves, right? Those that deserve To make the big bucks Make it happen, right? Time for the forgotten ***** to put up a fight.
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With a single glance you make me sweat-- your sticky breath dances melodically with every swagger of your step. You chronically dehydrate   my thoughts-- ironically inspiring me to bathe in refreshing conscience streams that are not mine. I want to taste the salty Sahara sands between your toes to feel what it's like this close to the sun-- concealed by the  burning Shisha smoke you breathe with such control into your soul. For one steamy night I want to be the wind igniting--brightening--heightening those burning embers in your eyes watching you slither, as if an ice cube touched your spine. I want white light smiles to scar our faces the next morning, disfiguring our charred hearts-- our ashes scattered by the wind from the burning building we've collapsed.
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Jul 21, 2012
Jul 21, 2012 at 1:54 PM UTC
Summer
I open the blinds and see the world - in return, what does the world see? It sees me, and all my splendid, split personalities, living these amazing times, of amazing pleasures, in which we tweet tweets, and post posts re ego-trips and copyrighted links, videos and things; and, as stray dogs, we ramble randomly, and all the time,   living in our infinite worlds, of infinite lanes, till infinity; yet we suffer so much pain. Our Shih Tzus take us on extended walks, firmly leashed to our Koss plugs, as we drone cool tunes on multihued iPods, iPhones buzzing ringtones of tittering babies, stolid kings and hyperactive frogs, which would all make my eighty-six year old dad want to gag; we fly ultralight megaplanes at the sonic sound of speed, through virtual and real space, connecting dots at low- cost prices, while we belt-up, gear-up, gulp Gaga and gorge heat-inducted meals of deer, horse and over- promoted crap; and then, wow surprisingly, we are all so unsatisfied. We consciously all move-in together, and **** on end, like statistical sheep, pre-married, unloving, and broken up, and justify it all, to ourselves, with our fully stretched spandex morality, over low-carb brunches @Starbucks, two 14” screens of separation; we paint pornographic images of virgins, all called Mary, in the name of art, and, white-clad, **** babes and alter-boys, and penetrate each other, first with our fingers, deeply, then superficially, without even wondering, for a zeptosecond, why we can’t stand one another any longer. We crank-up dependencies, like high street mainliners, shamming and slaughtering for neurotoxic fixes of smileys and Crystal on billion-dollar Kogo yachts, while we all just pedal on, dispassionately, down and over interior canals, to the core of our hocked, abbrev lives, chronically connected and severely distracted, in aromatic polymer bubbles, heedlessly cruising through comic-strip farms of mock vegetables, surely to nowhere and towards no one; and quite frankly, the world laughs at all this, and sobs, and so do I.
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May 5, 2012
May 5, 2012 at 4:08 PM UTC
Chronically connected and severely distracted
I open the blinds and see the world - in return, what does the world see? It sees me, and all my splendid, split personalities, living these amazing times, of amazing pleasures, in which we tweet tweets, and post posts re ego-trips and copyrighted links, videos and things; and, as stray dogs, we ramble randomly, and all the time,   living in our infinite worlds, of infinite lanes, till infinity; yet we suffer so much pain. Our Shih Tzus take us on extended walks, firmly leashed to our Koss plugs, as we drone cool tunes on multihued iPods, iPhones buzzing ringtones of tittering babies, stolid kings and hyperactive frogs, which would all make my eighty-six year old dad want to gag; we fly ultralight megaplanes at the sonic sound of speed, through virtual and real space, connecting dots at low- cost prices, while we belt-up, gear-up, gulp Gaga and gorge heat-inducted meals of deer, horse and over- promoted crap; and then, wow surprisingly, we are all so unsatisfied. We consciously all move-in together, and **** on end, like statistical sheep, pre-married, unloving, and broken up, and justify it all, to ourselves, with our fully stretched spandex morality, over low-carb brunches @Starbucks, two 14” screens of separation; we paint pornographic images of virgins, all called Mary, in the name of art, and, white-clad, **** babes and alter-boys, and penetrate each other, first with our fingers, deeply, then superficially, without even wondering, for a zeptosecond, why we can’t stand one another any longer. We crank-up dependencies, like high street mainliners, shamming and slaughtering for neurotoxic fixes of smileys and Crystal on billion-dollar Kogo yachts, while we all just pedal on, dispassionately, down and over interior canals, to the core of our hocked, abbrev lives, chronically connected and severely distracted, in aromatic polymer bubbles, heedlessly cruising through comic-strip farms of mock vegetables, surely to nowhere and towards no one; and quite frankly, the world laughs at all this, and sobs, and so do I.
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Hey there (if you're there at all), I sincerely hope all is well. Guess you're really swamped with work, honestly no need to explain, I could just tell. See the thing is... the thing is, there is actually a thing. Something has come up. It's quite hard to explain cause I don't yet know what we are, so if we are kind of a 'thing', then I want to breakup. You don't write to me any more and I really miss those emails witty comments, sarcasm and ******** banter strung together with immaculate grammar and ample clichés. You seem to have forgotten that I didn't fall for you back then and very little had changed since. So three years later when you contacted me out of the blue I was hardly convinced. As a preplanned holiday got in our way placing you 5 hours behind and 5000 miles apart it was that daily email exchange over a month which gave whatever it is we have now, its start not calls, not facebook nor skype, just words, simple phrases and our ability to type. Essence of your raw personality seeped through enticing me to a very pure, untampered version of you. Since I returned, since we met, things haven't been the same. Are you trying to gain the upper hand of this game? Because, I wasn't even aware we were playing, so technically neither can win, such a shame. I appreciate your intellect, ambition, success and middle class upbringing, those random gestures of affection and passionate ********** I understand your commitments and the hierarchy of your priority que But just because I get it doesn't mean I'll agree to put up with them too. It's true, my future is rather blurry but that's a different thing. I might be chronically needy but I'm not asking you for a ring. I do however fancy flowers and would really like to go dancing a daily doze of 'you're thinking of me' topped with very large amounts of cuddling. If all I wanted was to get laid, there was plenty of opportunity to be swayed. Time to end this hand has come a little too late with a Royal Flush in Spades. I will miss those endearing emails, and the 12th floor of your office with its magnificent view. I will miss the idea of having a man in my life, but I won't so much miss you.
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May 22, 2013
May 22, 2013 at 8:53 PM UTC
Draft (of a potential break up email)
Hey there (if you're there at all), I sincerely hope all is well. Guess you're really swamped with work, honestly no need to explain, I could just tell. See the thing is... the thing is, there is actually a thing. Something has come up. It's quite hard to explain cause I don't yet know what we are, so if we are kind of a 'thing', then I want to breakup. You don't write to me any more and I really miss those emails witty comments, sarcasm and ******** banter strung together with immaculate grammar and ample clichés. You seem to have forgotten that I didn't fall for you back then and very little had changed since. So three years later when you contacted me out of the blue I was hardly convinced. As a preplanned holiday got in our way placing you 5 hours behind and 5000 miles apart it was that daily email exchange over a month which gave whatever it is we have now, its start not calls, not facebook nor skype, just words, simple phrases and our ability to type. Essence of your raw personality seeped through enticing me to a very pure, untampered version of you. Since I returned, since we met, things haven't been the same. Are you trying to gain the upper hand of this game? Because, I wasn't even aware we were playing, so technically neither can win, such a shame. I appreciate your intellect, ambition, success and middle class upbringing, those random gestures of affection and passionate ********** I understand your commitments and the hierarchy of your priority que But just because I get it doesn't mean I'll agree to put up with them too. It's true, my future is rather blurry but that's a different thing. I might be chronically needy but I'm not asking you for a ring. I do however fancy flowers and would really like to go dancing a daily doze of 'you're thinking of me' topped with very large amounts of cuddling. If all I wanted was to get laid, there was plenty of opportunity to be swayed. Time to end this hand has come a little too late with a Royal Flush in Spades. I will miss those endearing emails, and the 12th floor of your office with its magnificent view. I will miss the idea of having a man in my life, but I won't so much miss you.
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Historical-ly, Black Colleges Have been chronically underfunded, unacknowledged, Hell - Unappreciated. Black culture curates Common culture. Black coins buy Booming business - Black universities Breed Brilliance, Undeniably. Understand Black children Contain unrelenting Capacity, Cause upheaval - Controlled, creative Chaos; Coerce Change. History Continues. Heads held high - Commemorating heroes. Celebrating Hope- Bravery- Coexistence- Unity- Hope- Bravery-   Coexistence-   Unity-     Healing-Balanced-Charismatic-Unequivocal-ly Colorful Blackness.
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Dec 23, 2022
Dec 23, 2022 at 9:01 AM UTC
HBCU
We are free to use our blinkers Or maybe not, to switch lanes We're free to lose, of course to gain Most give less than they share But we all have freedom to wish, and that of despair I need some ******* space here, people I don't care about the extremists in that Texan steeple I need to think, I need to know Because apparently we're all given a chance to succeed Chances to grow But that's some **** I'll tell you, and the nation Where there are chains, no one finds your liberation You must fight for yourself Unlike those ignorant to an outside situation I live life as well as I can conceive I come, and I'll go as I please I have struggled, **** and some things done with ease But it's hard to accept things Stop from beginning to plead With life, dreaming of a non-failure tattoo on my chest Freedom of denial and maybe of access But dreams can be illusions, rather than reality But it's on the individual to make dreams an actuality I've seen so many live, and I've seen too many die But I've found the freedom to laugh loud And I've let myself cry But sometimes it's easy to hear, And harder to listen For me especially To act after having made decision If I hold a gun in the war of revolution There will be freedom in war, and freedom in peace I guess we all have things to learn Like when to start When to cease I wish we could all be free some disease Chronically in perfect health But that's a fantasy, unlike poverty And manipulated, mishandled wealth. An honest politician is an idea I can't conceive If I'm ever that powerful Well, it'll have to start with me, I believe Americans will find freedom from greed And maybe jealousy, we can keep some pride But me, just me, I don't have anything to hide. I'll never be free from space, but maybe from time But there's things that will happen around me: Hunger, and crime If I can find freedom from my body and mind Then I'll have found what I've been trying to find To see true colors, looking ahead, forget what's behind Maybe there's rebirth, being of the spiritual kind Universal freedom might be nothing left to lose, But fighting for my freedom is the path I look to choose The rich old white guys keep driving their Benz's While I look at my world, my freedom Through my $20 lenses v.xi.xi
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Aug 3, 2012
Aug 3, 2012 at 6:15 AM UTC
My Freedom
We are free to use our blinkers Or maybe not, to switch lanes We're free to lose, of course to gain Most give less than they share But we all have freedom to wish, and that of despair I need some ******* space here, people I don't care about the extremists in that Texan steeple I need to think, I need to know Because apparently we're all given a chance to succeed Chances to grow But that's some **** I'll tell you, and the nation Where there are chains, no one finds your liberation You must fight for yourself Unlike those ignorant to an outside situation I live life as well as I can conceive I come, and I'll go as I please I have struggled, **** and some things done with ease But it's hard to accept things Stop from beginning to plead With life, dreaming of a non-failure tattoo on my chest Freedom of denial and maybe of access But dreams can be illusions, rather than reality But it's on the individual to make dreams an actuality I've seen so many live, and I've seen too many die But I've found the freedom to laugh loud And I've let myself cry But sometimes it's easy to hear, And harder to listen For me especially To act after having made decision If I hold a gun in the war of revolution There will be freedom in war, and freedom in peace I guess we all have things to learn Like when to start When to cease I wish we could all be free some disease Chronically in perfect health But that's a fantasy, unlike poverty And manipulated, mishandled wealth. An honest politician is an idea I can't conceive If I'm ever that powerful Well, it'll have to start with me, I believe Americans will find freedom from greed And maybe jealousy, we can keep some pride But me, just me, I don't have anything to hide. I'll never be free from space, but maybe from time But there's things that will happen around me: Hunger, and crime If I can find freedom from my body and mind Then I'll have found what I've been trying to find To see true colors, looking ahead, forget what's behind Maybe there's rebirth, being of the spiritual kind Universal freedom might be nothing left to lose, But fighting for my freedom is the path I look to choose The rich old white guys keep driving their Benz's While I look at my world, my freedom Through my $20 lenses v.xi.xi
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i am broken and scattered across seven continents but give me time; just a second to gather myself; you’ve got me stuck in the empty spaces between the pages that nobody talks about and i can’t write because my fingers are broken and my hands are so numb and all my melodies fall flat because i can’t spin a beautiful cloth out of this ugly tale nothing can thaw me; wasn’t it yesterday that you held my hand at a crossroads and told me love, it doesn’t matter where we go as long as i’m with you. and the winds were harsh and my heart was cold but i want to say you were right. "love, it doesn’t matter; as long as i’m with you." but i’m not with you and i’m floating because my hands have gotten used to the cold but my vision is blurred and i think i’m chronically dizzy because you probably took a piece of my mind when you left why did you leave? i am going through the motions, and i am breathing again but nothing feels real anymore and i can’t even tell if you ever really existed.
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Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 9:15 AM UTC
blanket poems; i'm still cold
~ "memory runs back farther than mythology." two years, two months, and two days, in a cabin they built near Walden Pond. on a mission of gravity, the heavens forming a spotlight on centrifugal force, abroad the hollow mind, chronically untethered. "I went to the woods to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms..." this ship's captain was an architect, but her starblazing failed to break ground, so this life is now a structure settled upon sand, and way out yonder, where there is no blade of grass, just weeds growing out from under the floor. but her daughters are grinning magnets, passionate machines. "copy that?...," asks Houston. she takes a long, hard swallow, the shadow of a bell inspiring the astronaut in her to shoot for incapable stars, but the bell she hears now is that of an alarm clock telling her it's time to wake up: shoulders straight. hands free. arms strong. fingers stiff. chronically untethered. she's not looking for new days, she is a new day, compacted out of water, tired of changing real estate and showering with other people's success. those loud kids, her kids, play down the hall, in the beehive. radio jargon's on full blast too and telling her where to buy and sell today's instant pleasure. she's busy now with self-stimulation, Betty Dodson Method, then mixing orange powder with 100 year old whiskey kept in the lunar module: it's a spacewalk to eternity, faster-than-light: she sees broken pool tables and backyard swings. she sees 'ordinary' checked off on the calendar. she sees 'happiness' hiding in an old photo of Murphy's Camp. she wakes to her husband, Houston, in a holding pattern, she feels him moving, whispering, and touching something far off inside of her, but not moored in a specific time or place. in search of where she now exists (if she even existed at all), her memories feel artificial in that she lacks the emotional attachment that comes with actually having lived them. there are no answers, no choices. only reactions. it is always going to be that broken state of things: these days of heaven, chronically untethered. "only that day dawns to which I'm awake. there is more day to dawn, I suppose. and like us, the sun is but a morning star upon being dreamed into existence..." ~
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Jul 25, 2022
Jul 25, 2022 at 9:19 PM UTC
Koinophobia (Days of Heaven)
~ "memory runs back farther than mythology." two years, two months, and two days, in a cabin they built near Walden Pond. on a mission of gravity, the heavens forming a spotlight on centrifugal force, abroad the hollow mind, chronically untethered. "I went to the woods to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms..." this ship's captain was an architect, but her starblazing failed to break ground, so this life is now a structure settled upon sand, and way out yonder, where there is no blade of grass, just weeds growing out from under the floor. but her daughters are grinning magnets, passionate machines. "copy that?...," asks Houston. she takes a long, hard swallow, the shadow of a bell inspiring the astronaut in her to shoot for incapable stars, but the bell she hears now is that of an alarm clock telling her it's time to wake up: shoulders straight. hands free. arms strong. fingers stiff. chronically untethered. she's not looking for new days, she is a new day, compacted out of water, tired of changing real estate and showering with other people's success. those loud kids, her kids, play down the hall, in the beehive. radio jargon's on full blast too and telling her where to buy and sell today's instant pleasure. she's busy now with self-stimulation, Betty Dodson Method, then mixing orange powder with 100 year old whiskey kept in the lunar module: it's a spacewalk to eternity, faster-than-light: she sees broken pool tables and backyard swings. she sees 'ordinary' checked off on the calendar. she sees 'happiness' hiding in an old photo of Murphy's Camp. she wakes to her husband, Houston, in a holding pattern, she feels him moving, whispering, and touching something far off inside of her, but not moored in a specific time or place. in search of where she now exists (if she even existed at all), her memories feel artificial in that she lacks the emotional attachment that comes with actually having lived them. there are no answers, no choices. only reactions. it is always going to be that broken state of things: these days of heaven, chronically untethered. "only that day dawns to which I'm awake. there is more day to dawn, I suppose. and like us, the sun is but a morning star upon being dreamed into existence..." ~
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It's hard to describe how I feel; Feelings get too much, My head is bound and sensitive to your touch. I am chaos in a tea-cup, the wreckage before the storm, and the siren before the tsunami. Constant pain, blinds my vision, My reality, and I can't help it if, You don't understand me. Believe me, it's not e-a-sy. I am not harmful, But I leave a quake in the earth, the math in the after, the torn in the apart, Do you think this is easy for my heart? Chronically in pain, I do not adjust well to others, I become shy in the fold, the awakening in the rude, the disgruntled in the few, the impatient in the ***** the erratic in the words, the misunderstood in the gesture, Do you you not see I am confused and unsure? I'm intelligent enough to know this, chronically broken apart, I built myself back together, the donkey in the ******* the rough in the diamond, the sand in the cement, the best in the very, the for in the ever, Do you not think I am at the end of my tether? So chronic, that in judgement you fail to understand, that as many times as I have been broken, I rebuilt myself by my own hand. And as strong and weak as I am, As tough as I am soft, I offer my hand and I ask for your love.
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Sep 7, 2013
Sep 7, 2013 at 4:16 PM UTC
Chronic Pain Syndrome
A paradox in itself But then I saw her there across the room through flocks and flocks of 'beautiful' silly seagulls --               frivolously flocking,                                             pecking at the shiniest trash that flutters by Only to swallow pass flock, peck again -------------------------------------------------------------- She intrigued my mind    through the eye I saw her beak was flat                                y no craning,                   crooning neck                                   l                                            and could not f for she had no wings ... maybe we do not care to fly! -------------------------------------------------------------- Like the Red Sea She-Moses split through the flock to me, beakless surrounded by chronically cocking faces all but one,                                                                       all alone She had been                                                     too ------------------------------------------------------------- Now next to me                                                                                                       No wandering eye could care in soundless conversation proclaimed we                        are together as one we surely gleamed as gold too bright for gulls to see               ...Mastur-consolation? ------------------------------------------------------------- And so it's true we were                   alone                                together perfect paradoxical bliss
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Jan 6, 2013
Jan 6, 2013 at 6:58 PM UTC
Alone Together~
A paradox in itself But then I saw her there across the room through flocks and flocks of 'beautiful' silly seagulls --               frivolously flocking,                                             pecking at the shiniest trash that flutters by Only to swallow pass flock, peck again -------------------------------------------------------------- She intrigued my mind    through the eye I saw her beak was flat                                y no craning,                   crooning neck                                   l                                            and could not f for she had no wings ... maybe we do not care to fly! -------------------------------------------------------------- Like the Red Sea She-Moses split through the flock to me, beakless surrounded by chronically cocking faces all but one,                                                                       all alone She had been                                                     too ------------------------------------------------------------- Now next to me                                                                                                       No wandering eye could care in soundless conversation proclaimed we                        are together as one we surely gleamed as gold too bright for gulls to see               ...Mastur-consolation? ------------------------------------------------------------- And so it's true we were                   alone                                together perfect paradoxical bliss
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Fingerpress folds of pain Along the spine, And a flare of agony As she activates pituitary. Ovaries are dull-achy A pleasant, grit-teethy pain. Keep on with your caterpillar walk, pretty lady, Making me wince, but in a really good way. Big toe bruisy feel, Crunchy in the heel, Colon is swollen, Adrenals, as always, Chronically inflamed. The right foot is happier than the left, Why is that? I don't discriminate But leftie sulks, for some reason, Hurtier than sprightly right. Afterwards, drink lots of water, Have a good cry, and go to bed. Renew yourself, through sleep, Just like she said.
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Oct 10, 2013
Oct 10, 2013 at 4:57 PM UTC
Reflexology Walkthrough
The trailblazers hellraisers want to learn to fly, but first must learn to try and not begrudge the birds their wings or beaks or things. It's each to his own and birds have flown for centuries while man looked on quite jealously, until Wilbur and Orville an unlikely looking pair, built a weird looking craft that flew into the air and there the story lies. Man no longer separated from the skies but flying catatonic,supersonic,chronically intoxicated by machines that he's created. It will all come to pass that when we run out of kerosene and natural gas, we'll recognise that flying free is but a dream and then we'll see that wings are meant for birds and no amount of whirlygigs,tornadoes,migs can change the fact that we were made to walk.
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Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 5:31 AM UTC
Gulls
Am I feeling better now? Estranged and Deranged, not a single person sitting there to call my name Am I feeling better now? Alone in my chest, in my home, in my art, I express from the bottom of my heart, there's a draught letting in the emotional winds Feeling any better now? Not much else left to say as  I spill it all out with the pen on the page, chronically feeling on the edge, if this is a window I've jumped off the ledge. Feel much better now, now it's all vented out, all I've ranted about, no time for self-doubt. I've got a life to live and too much to give to give out, on a single whim. I guess that's the thing, behind the façade,  I'm still him, still that guy, still the one, still the same, still the same... As the guy I was when we first dated, when we first kissed, hoping that we'll come back from this. Guess I still have to grow up..
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Jan 11, 2011
Jan 11, 2011 at 5:44 PM UTC
Any better?
Everyone wants to be accepted But no one wants to be loved. Accepting every attribute about a person and not discerning right from wrong, Cannot be loving. "Oh I'm accepted, I must be loved" But that kind of acceptance is out of fear of not being accepted in return. To allow a person to self destruct either acutely or chronically cannot be considered an act of love. Love can be a constructive criticism or a soft spoken word. But if someone really loves, they will not hinder the truth even if it hurts. everyone wants to be accepted, no one wants to be loved, Because the world has redefined the true meaning of love.
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Aug 14, 2022
Aug 14, 2022 at 7:24 AM UTC
Love vs acceptance
Having been referred to on multiple occasions as being “depressed”, I am offended. Every time. Having a chronically macabre state of mind and being drawn to a melancholy atmosphere and writing does not make one depressed. Or a psychopath. It does not mean a person is on a journey to being a serial killer or committing suicide. Some people, such as myself, just happen to find comfort in things deep and meaningful. While some comedy, joy, and love is to be revered and enjoyed more sparingly the sad, twisted, and horrid truths of the world can uphold a better sense of completion, joy, and love. This does not make one depressed or mentally ill but perhaps just more...... thoughtful.
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Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 8:55 AM UTC
State of Mind
Crescendos and arpeggios alleviate the pressing of residual enfilades of harmonies created, raising the frequencies of thee. . Primordially placing seeds in the fertile heath wandering with Orion's lead. Sirius B'eing chronically appealing. . Our tranquility will rely on the apogees of the moon and the crescendos of our eternal music. A belaying maestro raising our moods with diction.
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Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 8:52 AM UTC
Maestro
Amiss! Amiss! Amiss! Something is chronically amiss With my beloved country Spiritually and physically rich But apparently presented as poor Billions of our money given wings Like hawks that  disappear Soon after chicks are forcibly stolen Trillions stashed down the drains To fertilize parched lands Where hussies and gigolos live Plants of  greed Nursed and nurtured by the elite A few insatiable pigs That profess religion                   But know not God Mothers strive to outdo fathers I weep, I weep, I weep profusely But there is none to console me And now my heart has a new guest uninvited A nagging excruciating pain Would I pass on weeping With no solace coming?
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Nov 2, 2010
Nov 2, 2010 at 10:11 PM UTC
Amiss
There were Words upon a page Written chronologically. Chronically illogical Logically impossible Possibly an anomaly And that would be Phenominal "The fate of failures, is perfection" Attempts at great Aren't practical Without practice Wrong turns had to be made To find a new world Order a new atlas Errors addressed At last We find where to go Because of someone's Shortcomings Trials I err Human is what I prefer It's a blessing My preference For learning my life lessons Is by living Yes, I listen But I'm missing the point I have perfect vision But Im def- Finitely trying to zero in Do you hear me? Or at least see Where I'm coming from Nothing The only option is more If I plunder then fall I'll spring Before summer Without having cold feet Cowardice Never climbed mountains But a wise guy Kept his toes And still walks The open road Success Is but a mile a way My failures Are just footprints It's easy To see Where I tripped But know I never tripped About it When I reach What seems to be Overnight success Just know How you see me Is the night before And it took me Ten thousand miles To get to this Opened door
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Sep 30, 2010
Sep 30, 2010 at 12:59 PM UTC
Fate of Failures II
Misty dreams flow shimmering through empty catacombs. Floating effortlessly, the galaxy I see blows straight through me. Above and all around, you gotta go up in order to get down. Twisting visions morph into view. I cast them aside with the wave of my hand. Shadows cast upon the wall, you never know they're there at all. Spiteful demons invoking chant, laughing hysterically as you fall. I can simply pass through the wall. Dissolving dimensions of your matter, within me. I can consume your eternity, Know that I know you like no one else knows you. Hide your eyes, it's no surprise. The tangible world filled with your lies. I pay no head to the convulsive cries. There is no need, for all things die. © Crystal Erickson 5/19/08
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Dec 27, 2014
Dec 27, 2014 at 11:11 AM UTC
Chronically Injected
My heart beats in your chest Twists and turns within you The words that leave your lips Heavier than the mountains So I care less about universe When you're my axis of rotation Those eyes can sear the skies Killing the world in a beam You are a hurricane unleashed I never stood a chance in life
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Jul 18, 2016
Jul 18, 2016 at 10:39 AM UTC
Chronically yours