（May 21, 2019:
Found this poems:https://hellopoetry.com/poem/2806601/vessel-of-love-and-fear-carrying-your-pain/
Reposted on Wattpad:
The poem was written by me, Yidhna, on October 5, 2018, but was not posted on HP until November; meanwhile, the Wattpad dates the whole book to October 19, 2018. I have, fortunately, emailed myself the poem on the day it was written.
October 5, 2018
I am so grateful to have my poem "Help me love my humility chosen as a Daily. And thank you so much for all your kind comments!!!
I wrote this not long after I announced that I'd be staying off HP for a while and I am not really back yet.
This was one of two poems I wrote before I became completely silent in words again.
To even think about poetry became stressful for me recently. So unfirtunately I havent been on this site to read all your wonderful writes!
The Constant Battle
Every little detail feels so grand and insurmountable
Every greatness seems so unreachable yet trivial in the face of immediate threats and envy
Like the match that’s jealous of the campfire while the moon shines coldly and so distantly
Every moment of happiness and sorrow feels as if they are at the edge of a fall of complete loss
Every moment of stillness feels so numb and dull
Every step I take is a great journey of only weariness and aches
Every great journey cannot hold my attention away from the littlest distraction
My simple words feels so undecorated
My more flourished pieces seem so convoluted
I seem to be an individual that’s too different
Not original enough
These are the constant battles in my mind
Waiting for your presence
The call for ceasefire