"calibrated" poems
Here at Kinkos
We have a saying, “copies of copies”
You are trained to always ask for a source file
The digital file of the picture the camera took
The negatives of digital cameras
You see because when you print a picture from that file it’s the best it will ever be
Every detail captured in that moment stored in bits and bytes ready
If you make a copy of that picture it will never be as good
And if you make a copy of that copy it’ll be even worse
And if you were to make a copy of the hundredth copy of the ninety ninth copy you might not even recognize the image
Whether it’s a speck of dust on the scanner
Or a crease in the print out
Sun stains from prolonged exposure to the elements
Or simply from time
Copies never look as good as the original
Even if you try and protect them
And even if you were to magically protect that photo from any external forces
The next copy still won’t be the same quality
A scanner can never pick up every detail from the print on the glass
Copies of copies are never the same
Sometimes the printer is calibrated different
Sometimes it’s a heavy magenta day
Sometimes it’s a saturated cyan day
Maybe you touched her face when you handed it over
And now every copy has a feint of your thumb print above her eyebrow
You had him taped to your rearview mirror for a whole year
And now every copy you make has a glare where the tape used to be
It blocks out his heart shaped hands he was making you from the bus window
Folded in your wallet and now all the copies have white spaces where her face was
I mean where the creases were
I’ve heard that when you remember something you are simply remembering the last time you remembered it
Memories of memories
So that after you’ve remembered her a thousand times you’ve forgotten all the details you forgot to remember the time before
So that the more you remember something, the faster you’ll forget
Maybe that’s why we forget exes faster than family
Maybe that’s why we forget the great parts of high school before the painful ones
I remember that you had red hair, that your eyes were kind, that your hands fit my cheek
I remember that you were bad at pool and that it felt like love, and if it wasn’t you’re the only one that knew it
And now I’m wondering after all these years what I’m forgetting to remember
What I forgot to remember last time
What did I forget this time
What won’t I remember next time
Memories of memories
Like copies of copies
Fading over time
If I never wanted to forget the best moments of my life
Should I never remember them
Is the fastest way to forget the bad ones
To remember them often
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 11:46 PM UTC
Liars and thieves full of selfish greed
found the need to butcher and feed
on every inch of my integrity
So I repay the fee with eloquent misery
and conjure poetry calibrated for the annihilation
of my enemy
Yet in the end, the truth be told,
the greatest enemy is me.
Jul 27, 2013
Jul 27, 2013 at 5:32 AM UTC
When I lived in the city, night, true night, never came.
The natural day gave way to the artificial day,
a day made possible by streetlight, by humming billboard.
With sick pinks and near-white greys, the early hours
hiccuped away. I slept or didn't. And this time in my life,
as any time in my life, is marked by a woman.
I won't say much about her. She was a performer,
and I've never been a steady fan of much of anything.
So when I kissed her the last time, I kissed her like it
was the last time, a kiss calibrated to say, "It's been."
When she kissed me the last time, she kissed me
like she didn't know it was the last time,
a kiss not so much a kiss as a mouth half-opened eternity,
where the sun didn't shine, nor was there night.
Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 12:23 PM UTC
<> for the love of friends<>
How does one write
of one he knew not?
the ancillary evidence
mounts relentlessly,
the double toil and trouble moments
edged now, slow vanquished by
steady accumulation
of the evidentiary
a man who lived his life well,
will be inevitably,
nay, justifiably, deservedly
be well remembered...
one examines the evidence with
eyepiece lenses calibrated
to one's own soul,
for this is the natural condition
of humanity
yet wonder,
what manner, what scale,
does one rightly employ
to judge another's
plantings in the soil?
rightly judge another?
then you hear
a woman say,
she knew not knew
this man Eryc,
revealing an honest tertiary,
even cursory knowledge
of an anecdotal life well lived
our shared quandary,
yet she solves
this judicial issue
by asking of herself
a question
so stunningly elementary,
which both
asks and answers
the double risk
you have imposed,
to write of one you can never behold,
and in doing so,
judge thyself...
What Would Eryc Do?
this crystal rapid current question
erodes doubt, the fear to tread
where one knows not
when a stranger says to another,
indeed to many others:
heard tell of this young man,
and know now to ask myself
when I too am junctured, in doubt,
What Would Eryc Do?
there is no doubt, no juncture,
just a provident question
a makers's mark
of and upon a man,
whose future shortened,
will live far, far longer than most,
if one simple applies
a standard to one's own life of
What Would Eryc Do?
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 10:12 AM UTC
I see the recollection
of a thousand and one memories
in the faces of strangers.
It is written
in the burnt out shellac
that write's the gospel
called ideal.
Upon all the waifs
that wail
on wainscotted walls
is visible a weary shade -
A woe begotten word.
That same ink
that wrote the scar
on a thousand and one faces.
It shone to eyes
of the right size
calibrated to the light
by a snowflake.
And once seen
O misbegotten dream!
Hours of amphetamine rooftops
under golden stars.
Mornings alight
with the free realm of jazz
which floats on hazy gaze
that constitute fields
of a thousand and one degrees.
Now not seen.
And is it carved
in the sweaty freedom
of a drunk?
Constellating crystal beads
pour to eyes
gray and sunk
with the wisdom of a prince.
With the stench of a skunk.
Brace yourself
for the wind does come
that marries wind
of heart and mind.
And behind it all
you see it now;
in the thousand and one faces
of the free
the bold
the meek
the drunk
the lost.
The recollection
of a thousand and one memories.
May 1, 2012
May 1, 2012 at 2:37 PM UTC
Burial of fury in a tomb of apathy,
mood moderated and aligned with conformity.
Speech pleasant in tone and comfortable in delivery.
Approaches with cautious optimism his tasks daily.
Though the ship of consciousness has raised its anchor,
he returns to questioning the whereabouts of his anger.
Yet time and chemistry have dispensed of the mystery.
Restoring balance and forging will to function socially.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 8:27 AM UTC
Its not the point of killing faith that u will find someone.
Its the action of loneliness and controlling your bonds
Its empty alone and so is pretending to love
You cant make connections not like addiction to drugs.
Save the drug of infatuation.
No reason just meaning less
No selection. Just what drips in your lap
No focus just lenses that crack
The sextant marking starlines that guide your path
is no longer Coordinated calibrated to designate a map
Walk amble climb along to view a moral prefix
to design a way out of a sea just arms length
with the depth of the roots of mesquite trees in the spring
We are all stowaways in a ship waiting to jump to shore.
Trying to find a place to spill seeds in the tilled rows of a *****
The words you whisper are pretty and my minds enthused
tho i know every go at this game i shall lose
Im wandering in a labyrinth
Chasing in a brain
like a rat in a spinning wheel following reflections from a cage
You tricked me. Oh yes. You win
Im no longer a man like all women before you ate the innards left a shell
spit out the hull
Dragged my meat to the floor
One final kiss and i leave, i am missed
You say lies again
i pull off your fist
its on my head
its in my throat
i read words that you spoke
its not my fault
its the blood clot
keeping us unconnected in this note
I am dreaming
secret beaming
red lights blinking
help is sinking
No hope between two
softly stroking
my cross is burning
No fires stoking
On my fore arms
on my chest guard
all is sinking with the funeral
All the voices in my head
are telling me it should be dead
yet the ***** in my soul
tells me that he still pleas for bread
But i starve him
and i lash him
and i strap him to this ledge
for he is wrong
and yes he lies
you're the harpy of my dread
You ******* killed me like i was a lame horse to be put down
Mar 18, 2013
Mar 18, 2013 at 1:30 PM UTC
Inhuman humans
Extraterrestrial bipedal
Extrasensory sensationalism
Salvation sensitivity
Helium halo hierarchy
Filtered fixated complex
Validated valor rejects
Calibrated gratitude
Servitude cyanide
Failing fortitude
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 11:06 PM UTC
The shop girl and the mannequin appear
Together in their shop front window stage -
It’s here the plastic soul gets cleaned, and here
The brand new body dons the latest rage.
The model feels the former’s hands embrace
Her own, and feels the stressed-out beat
Of heart within the arteries, the trace
Of hurried blood where their pale fingers meet.
The shop girl scrubs the limbs to blanker grace,
And twists the head to meet the staring street.
So all will see the calibrated face,
And all will search the heart that doesn’t beat.
Week coming, in the season’s latest dress,
The shop girl will the mannequin redress.
Feb 21, 2011
Feb 21, 2011 at 9:17 AM UTC
yesterday,
our
calibrated
counting
made
your gruesome
death
an…
anniversary
Nov 23, 2011
Nov 23, 2011 at 5:47 PM UTC
The rhythm should not come from the word.
The word is a key to unlock
the virtual library,
where our journeys begin.
The rhythm is elsewhere.
In the space between thought and imagination,
it is the crossing weft of ancient knowledge,
beaten tight against the fell.
What the ear registers, the brain acts upon,
the heart draws in to its own, or not.
What then becomes expressive,
is expressed variously,
in form.
And then, such delight in the connection of things!
*Now the sun sparkles
the still-morning garden.
Beyond, just fields away,
the curve of a silent hill.*
Just what are such moments?
Do they envelope time?
Can they be measured out in music?
As recollection calibrated
they are the essence of
seconds’ snapshot-made.
Sequence disappears.
It is just the blink of the mind’s camera.
Sep 2, 2012
Sep 2, 2012 at 3:00 AM UTC
My Copal Square bladed shutter
Calibrated, adjusted, lubricated,with tlc
re-captures fields of Shirley poppies
tight roping Nevada's mountainous ranges.
Jul 4, 2012
Jul 4, 2012 at 3:48 PM UTC
Calibrated Hearts are seldom free to love
No Pump: No Nozzle, No Beat; No Impulse
Sometimes used as center points
Other times as alternatives to main points
Yeah! we love them for all they can do
Calibrated in their limitations
Love aint got limitations
We need to calibrate our mind and heart by God' s reliable standards
uncalibrated, but at a heart rate of say 10 beats min"1, each cycle of .
Apr 23, 2014
Apr 23, 2014 at 10:05 AM UTC
Eyes roam the room
Clockspun, mapless
Treasures found in
The things left behind
It is not her fault that you miss her
There are no borders without reason
And the reasons are not one way nor simple.
When she was gone it was like experiencing the worst grief
All over again and it took
So long to settle in that it was over.
Shedding skin, depersonalization
Winter cried it's last breath to a
Window I shut closed.
Times up,you're alone
Again but what's the difference
And so I guess what's the problem
It's nothing new
Bleddry-empty
No more hate left
Alone and stranded
(I was
Now I am
So far passed
That stage I start
To find it funny)
Today is the horizon tomorrow and whatever before is all illusionary.
No gun in my hand no knife in my hand no food in my hand no money in my hand no ***** no **** no smoke no blow
Two cats on each shoulder one angel one devil but they both switch roles too frequently to catch up it's all good though
It's me who's decision maker in the end
And it's never been any different
I live with my regrets nightly til I learn
From them I just hope you're the same
But I'm done thinking we're the same
It was truly a waste of time
We've never been calibrated.
Catch me in the next life I'll hold the door open for you.
Aug 27, 2023
Aug 27, 2023 at 10:43 PM UTC
All Understanding uncovers
ugliness, usury.
Unifying utopians
uncorruptable,
unmoveable.
Dashing Prophets promoted
promiscuous personalities.
Promethus’s powers
persisted
purposelessness.
Do Postmodern proletariats
protest phantoms?
Puckering proudly,
pondering
paraphrases?
If Egyptians engineered
excessive egoists,
Englishmen evolved
ethical
endgames.
Tradition Rules reformed
rednecks, remobilizing,
romanticizing, recursions
rose
remarkably.
If Caesar costumed
cabals crafted carefully,
Christianity calibrated
circumferential
conflicts.
Vigilantism Unveils unlucky
usurper, undoes underachieving,
unemotional, unconsciousness
unlearning
unhumanness.
Every Tadpole’s talents
triumphs titan’s tricks
tip toeing
towards
truth.
Sep 15, 2017
Sep 15, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC
Left to remain
Anything to quell fear
Seized opportunity
Sold soul to fear
Parallel vision
Past and present collide
Time recalled of time without fear
Haunting specter
Wild cry
Wild sound of devotion
Old quest uncovered from the dust
Old wilderness restoring to old glory
Firing from old expended
Reservoirs transferring water
Into coffee grinders, to dust
Chained in a crab *** at the bottom of the sea
Pelted with repeated blasts of particles of light
Until the matter is compressed into a singularity
Or breaches on the matter anyway besides
Unleashing rather than a sinkhole trap,
A flash flood over everything
Coating vision with a venereal sheen
Inundated in a fluid silk connective fabric bond
Until the matter reaches
Into pockets of relief
And miracles of situational
Restorative advance
Particulate regenerative
Relationship encounters
Debris from space accumulating
Hoping in some arcane sense
To be reformed together into beasts anew
While similarly fossils of
An ancient swarm of locusts
Are unearthed
They’re met with magnets
Positioned counter to the flow of electricity
This array is aligned to the magnetosphere
Of that old planet
Where I have lived before and left kinsmen behind to grow a colony of their own
But my own magnetism is calibrated today
To the wildly different magnetosphere of my latest home
To put it mildly, out of wild instinct, exiled from an old society
Of innocence/intelligence
A pretense over bell curve
Environment restrictive of
Fraternization ***********
On a day too perfect for itself
The stage-play left upon my table
All the actors meandering about
Chance encounters replaying dramas.
Jan 22, 2011
Jan 22, 2011 at 8:00 PM UTC
I don't know if you take me for a fool or if you're just scared of the truth, but, you've been faulty with your fabrication.
You chose to step into a trajectory of the mess of me but disregarded the tools I use to build my foundation.
One brick at a time. And I'm inclined to start over on my mind's motivation.
You feed me the notions in a deep dish because you're aware my appetite is calibrated to devour.
My palette has tasted malice and it's the lessons learnt that allows me to note my powers.
The grass is green on this side; I've grown to appreciate. If you can't kick your heels off, peel off, and stay of my fuckin' flowers.
I know this is work. I know this is a trip. But when my partner assumes I'll be doing all the driving on this long journey I'll direct us to the precipice quick.
Take off on a cliff, find us on the ocean basin with the seat belts still clicked.
Drowning in the hindsight of our memories, debating whether we should've kept our plan of action more strict.
We opened ourselves up to so much, ironically that same night you cried in my clutch.
Embraced the distaste of putting the amount of trust in someone of such.
Felt relief when the truth of my emotions were accentuated by your touch.
I'm not saying I give up, I'm saying I've had enough.
Things change, so will we. I just hope it's for the positive.
I scrutinize every step before I decide which life to live.
Thought I found someone in you, hope the image still exists because there's lots I have to give.
Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 12:34 PM UTC
I am old, though
I still cling to chains,
wires that hold this old bridge together
but one day the bridge, and I
will fall into the water, and
not see the sun again
I am old, but still tight,
though I no longer shine
chemistry’s master is time
to me an illusion, but those
who look at me are not fooled
I am old, and when I begin to unwind,
any unknown calibrated moment,
will I make graceful grunts
or squeal
like a locomotive’s brakes
piercing eardrums of those
who did not know I was there
until I was twisted off
I am old, and one day
in your rusting future
I will fall into the water,
and not see the sun again
Sep 22, 2013
Sep 22, 2013 at 7:47 PM UTC
Each night is
precisely set
like a gem
within a dream.
Immersing in
the fluid grandeur
of darkness,
the night
swings around it,
when one
looks back---
the day has
already become
a past dream
in an irretrievable realm.
The excesses
darkness commit
in a frenzy
in the night's geography.
excites me.without an end.
And what the moon
does to annul the
handiwork of darkness too
fascinate me.
Night is the story
of contrary crafts
calibrated to perfectly fit.
Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 2:01 PM UTC
one hundred suns buried
in golden broken walls
mangled retinal mosaic
calibrated splattered traincrash
cutting through
featureless massacres
Everything on the table
burns and runs
molten copper into
drowned corners where
humanity falls in silence
Mar 31, 2013
Mar 31, 2013 at 8:14 PM UTC
Not dreaming anything tonight,
tired of perambulations I decide.
Just want to sleep in your bed
forgetting every thing except
the starlit sky and cosmic clouds,
from where I and you did descend,
on the wings of a mystery, that still continues.
Your bed is soft, the best healing spot
I have ever known, in this troubled planet,
I roll on to the soft heat from your body permeates,
and yet again become aware that you are the best thing
that happened in this wanderer's journeys through moors.
Remember the first time I heard your name whispered,
resounded within my bone marrow
and wondered about the magic it carries with it.
We walked a million miles in a second,
and crossed a life time in a day sometimes,
we are calibrated in perfect synchronization,
we understand with a smile,with our souls it resonates.
The sunset whispers the secret: go in to the light, eternal.
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 3, 2016 at 11:28 AM UTC
My thoughts are hesitating and this is when I think best
Sometimes it scares me cause I might be possessed
Each sentence gets extracted from my collectiveness
Collecting condolences from everyone for my grandpa's eternal rest
Listening to my head to see what comes next
Be more specific with yours words cause what you want and say are different
Inn at the Hard Rock hotel and I'm on the rock n roll express
I found the stairway to heaven but I took a shortcut at the hermetic dimension
Reading stones about my quest to the questions
Are you a divergent?
Do you not feel like a human?
Don't listen to the author, he is a authorized bipolar civilian
Not again I always tend to exaggerate my imagination
Accidental psychic but I'm very useless
Can't read what your thinking but i sense what your feeling
Counting down to earth's revolution while the earth revolutions
Life is human nature and we surround ourselves with natural disasters
Calculating the physics of metaphysical living
Don't touch this I left it here for a special reason
I'm haunted by my past and it feels like forever
I was only 8 when I held by dads beer and got pulled over
This is the pain of my lifes painting and automatic writing
The ghost is speaking cause this is not logical thinking
A pathological mammal with more than one sorry
This poetry was just an experiment of my experiences
Constantly trying to circumcise the circumference of my bad circumstances
A divided individual on a journey to self transcendence
Take these psychedelics the outcomes are tremendous
Generate the regeneration of our generation
Voids of a paranoid and words to destroy civilized nation
From a time where civilization is more than a billion
You know nothing about the worlds weight on your shoulders
It's more like the world is holding our weight together
I love this new age
It feels like a new page
Humans walking around with a new rage
Lie to the masses and **** each other over specific grasses
I'm just a parasite from false human eugenics
Selective breeding we weren't born from a planned mystery
Because that man prays 5 times a day he's a terrorist
Because I eat five lambs I'm a ****** enthusiast
Because the plane hit the building a war begins with 50 states full of Americans
Reincarnated to a place of incarceration
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 6:11 AM UTC
We pay homage
To you,
Dear Bob,
Not as misguided,
But as pure evil.
A man brilliant
Enough,
To realize he was
Wrong,
But lie,
While trying to
Understand
Why
His numbers,
Inexplicably,
Did not
Work out,
While boys died.
Not everyone
Can use teenagers
To keep time,
But you did.
Couldn't you tell,
That your data
Were
Junk?
You could command
People to
Collect,
They laughed while
They presented
You crap.
If your models
Could have talked,
They would have
Laughed,
At you.
Reporters,
For whom
Everything is new,
Were sure
That you brought
Systems analysis,
To the
Puzzle Palace.
I guess they missed
World War Two.
You did ensure
It was used,
To build
Many,
Bad,
Weapons.
You get 'A'
For effort,
Professor.
Those dead soldiers' Moms
Applaud you.
They hope to
Meet you in hell,
For another go round.
You somehow thought,
That all of life,
Could be reduced
Numerically.
How bizarre.
In the end,
Your failure
Was not numerical,
But
Philosophical,
Your calibrated responses,
Moved
Not one enemy heart,
As for yours,
You had none.
Those attempting to
Tell you that
You were
Mistaken,
Were helpless,
They might as well,
Have been speaking
Sanskrit to you.
For they spoke in terms of
Morality,
of which
You had none.
When you passed,
No one
mourned,
And
As hard as you
Had tried to buy it,
No one,
Gave you,
Forgiveness.
May 24, 2014
May 24, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
Language, being what it is, our vioces what they are
when all are well and healthy their
mind makes musical sounds,
calibrated by breathing
tones across the chest,
we learned to count
and swear an oath to the master of a universe.
Come and count with me.
Open a dialogue to sound and
count, tone, rhythm, wind blowing free,
cows, baboons, birds chattering in a tree,
where these unnamed things are given names
by the Troglodyte friend and me.
Ajerry 10-29-13 near halloween
Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 9:41 AM UTC
tock tick
tock tick
went the clocks
they were not
correctly calibrated
tock tick
tock tick
the cuckoo bird
thought his clock
had turned absurd
tock tick
tock tick
all the clocks
were well out of kilter
tock tick
tock tick
twas most strange
listening to clocks
which had become
most deranged
tock tick
tock tick
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 8:34 PM UTC