"caducity" poems
euphoric and proud, we danced like the children we were supposed to be,
brushing pencil shavings off our desks like our mothers did to our hair.
forming daisy chains like dignified humans.
The Sun beams on our faces as if it was designed to highlight our youth.
*A punch in the gut, a knife drawn to the heart,
the inability to entangle a simple breath.
You lift the crease of your face up to seem gracious.
You lift your chest up to see if it will split, like the carcass of a rabbit that didn't quite decay underneath all that snow.
Your pulse softens like the tiny pieces of eraser entangled with faded words.
Your chest takes longer to inhale and only you and everyone else around you knows whats coming.*
Cracked lips was the worst that we ever suffered.
Your breath is still warm and it still comforts the animals that surround your mouth
Lucy is talking about how her father fed her pigs and then slaughtered them. I think to myself, this is strange behavior.
I know that your calloused fingertips caught on the cotton of her sleeves when you finally reached caducity. They told be that it was slow and pain free, and usually the mouth will taste of salt. That day was when the alloy of the sky grew to meet with the clouds, where salt loved to hide away. Your soon-to-be corpse was finally concluded, and I forgot to say goodbye.
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 4:21 PM UTC
*I was once a naive
Today I'm a warrior
I walked in the battlefield unarmed
Today I crawl with broken barrier
I was once a mooncalf
I lend my sword to another
Said the scabbard was lost
I, the new scabbard was to be
I was once a dancer
Today I'm the theatre
I was the rhythmic flute
Today I cry on my own melody
I was once the sun
Today I'm not even the moon
To all planets I sent light
Today I'm them, black skies
I was once the caducity
Today I'm the equestrian
Before I fell off the saddle
Now I pull back the reins*
Jul 12, 2015
Jul 12, 2015 at 6:30 AM UTC
The best mornings are made up of
waking up to new horizons abroad,
caducity not in my thought,
smell of the fresh day
— as pure as petrichor;
the day born as richer,
‘tis a new tune in embouchure
between past and future.
Jun 12, 2020
Jun 12, 2020 at 11:13 PM UTC
I have, as of yet, avoided caducuty.
Emotionally, creatively, I feel younger,
not older. Is it true that the older we
get, the more wisdom we accrue?
It seems that way to me. My scope is
broader, my vision paradoxically
keener, my understanding deeper,
my tolerance for intolerance
virtually extinct. I have never been
able to brook unkindness, cruelty in any
of its manifold manifestations. The
notions of differences among members
of the human race--e.g. degrees of social
status, the poor and the wealthy, one
IQ better than another--all and others
are specious, bootless. We all are one.
Our shared worth is within, not without.
I have gotten wiser, not older. While my
life has gotten longer, my patience for not
knowing right from wrong is shorter.
The years of my living that remain will be
like dances of insight and joy, not lugubrious
ones. I shall live them in the sunshine of
caring and sharing.
Copyright 2020 Tod Howard Hawks
Sep 17, 2020
Sep 17, 2020 at 11:32 AM UTC
There is nothing better than
your eyes looking like the
moonlight under
the sonata
The feeling of ecstasy running through
your very veins
Everything is content and
at ease with our nature
Oh old crooked piano,
shining through your very eyes, rolling at the peak - the nature
Tilting and rolling our heads with every
quiver and quaver
Shaking out salt through our pores
Hearing every movement, feeling it assault you
with dopamine and the
interminable display of serotonin.
If I were to die,
right at this very moment
I'd allow caducity to threaten me with its structure,
and to touch every part of me with its sweetness.
Not only that but its
every movement,
every ******
every crescendo
and i'd allow it to rock me back and forth
soothing every bone and every follicle.
I'd allow it to run right through me,
until my ebullience is no longer.
I shall be free.
Apr 4, 2016
Apr 4, 2016 at 7:18 PM UTC