"brittled" poems
The inadequate bookshelf that sat near the door
that my sister used to call her own was
mostly made up of adolescent reads,
books better suited for preteen girls rather than
intellectually budding young ladies—
juvenile vocabularies and simple, non-complex
plot lines do little to craft and create
worldly, knowledgeable women.
I thought I must spring clean the
naiveté away and replace it with
the works of great authors like
Sylvia Plath
Simone de Beauvoir
Virginia Woolf
Margaret Atwood
Betty Friedan;
ingenious femme fatales that cut down
to the brittled bones of the misogynists
and burned their marrow along with the
ashes of bras and aprons and 350 degree oven heat.
Growing up, to me, seemed like a wonderful epiphany
chock-full of ideas and opinions and
clever, ironic remarks that chased satirical witticisms
like felines to rodents and wolves to deer—
being an adult would guarantee me a say,
a vote
prior 1920’s America
play dress up as a suffragette
women’s rights
femininity personified by dolls in plastic houses.
To be eighteen-years-old,
the goal, the legality, the bright light at the end of the tunnel;
the official womanhood it would bestow upon me
seemed like something almost tangible
with the way that it loomed over my head.
Get good marks
graduate high school
travel back in time sixty years
meet a nice boy
become a “good wife”
have dinner ready by five
bear two beautiful heirs
clean up the messes left in the kitchen
fast-forward to the twenty-first century
go to a good college
find a stable career
settle down if the fancy strikes you
live non-docile and full of passion—
the parallelism of times are severely
di
lap
i
dat
ed.
1950’s America would never be a home for me
because I am much too wild to be contained.
Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 12:12 AM UTC
As The Second Hand Clicks,
On A Scarred Clock's Face,
The Days Become Shorter,
Breaths Become Abrupt And Shallow
Brittle Leaves,
Crumble Under Quiet Feet,
And **** Branches,
Give Intruders A Silent Kiss
Words Not Even Spoken,
Are Hushed By The Wind
The Cold Air,
Soothes The Stars,
Making Them Looked Refreshed,
Allowing Them To Glitter,
In Glassy Green Eyes
The Atmosphere,
Begins To Thin Out,
Comets Dive,
Though The Surface,
Like Dolphins,
But They Hold An Impossible Promise,
A Wish,
A Secret
A Star Dangles From Her Neck,
A Wish,
A Promise
What Does Autumn Hold?
What Does Winter?
Spring?
Summer?
Will I Be Able To Curl Up In Loving Arms?
Or Will I Be Curling Up In The Snow?
As The Seasons Change, Shall I?
As Summer Dwindles Into Autumn,
Shall I Change With The Seasons?
Shall I Become Brittled, And Weak,
Like The Autumn Leaves,
Or The Decreasing Sunlight?
Or Shall I Bloom Like The Stars,
In Winter's Night Sky
Aug 31, 2012
Aug 31, 2012 at 12:31 AM UTC
king of the sea,
with a rigorous exoskeleton peeling away
moulting causes such distress,
exposed to the thrashing undertow of the sea
and enemies
who protects you?
a callow arthropod poised on fractured shells
it isn’t your father,
balancing a bottle of brandy between his lips
or your confidant,
skidding his tires across your mind
a starfish tried,
she threw her arms round your shell
as you added new muscles underneath
she stuck her tube feet in her claws
as you brittled her skin
she said I love you
and you retreated
when you are 70
and clamouring the floor
put your arms behind your back to beckon her to you
try –
she is the sea and no one owns her.
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 3:38 PM UTC
Your toothbrush still has the paste on it
The plate shattered in fragments of you
The glass still has your lip stain on
This bed I'm sleeping in still smells of you
Lying to myself that you'll comeback
Leaving him and crying and knocking on the door begging to come in
But hey, who am I kidding..
*Put the car in reverse as you slipped into neutral
A gear must've rusted; I trust the machine busted
because things became mechanical, to be truthful
Major malfunction--our junction ceased to be lusted
by my soul's circuits and tired wires proved to be liars
I thought I knew what I wanted, but I was wrong
My cogs, guts and screws became loose in the mire
of our muddled love, where I did no belong*
What worth is living when everything ran rampant silhouettes of you
Running through these polaroids on the wall
I did get out, but it's you everywhere I go
You have etched this fire in my heart
When it burns when we're in love
And when it burns my soul
To ashes remnants of you
Trying my best to get out
I knew you were trouble from the start
But my heart's like a glass thirsts for that lust
Now broken brittled into pieces
Fragments no longer could be fitted
*Puzzle pieces and Polaroids for the incinerator
A conflagration consuming our condition
where you fail to see what I fail to do
I may be coldly pieced together, but I'm no traitor*
***My love was just another raggedy rendition,
But your eyes are the demons haunting you***
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 11:54 AM UTC
if i were to bread my tongue
with rocoto and cornmeal
and twist to reach the andean soil
my tastebuds long for so many nights
out of the year
olfaction and your left-sinus blockage
would stay cradled
in broken-baguette bread-crust baskets,
a trebuchet's missile,
naïve to the horn of the world,
and brittled to a carcinogenic crisp
caped in my earthenblood geysers
en el humo, en la tierra del fuego
in(fierno)
i recount by the tally marks of black felt
resorted to in the puddling of spilt tea,
(like broken china, you never missed
a beat to correct potential error
and my memory),
i count them to remember
the epiphanies standing over a red faucet
a gallon water jug, whistling snail-trickle,
wishing away the cracks in the grout
or the grout itself,
wishing away the cracks in the pottery
or porcelain facade of which
you're so fond and grace with singing cuticles
the fingers of a pianist
lacking the wherewithal
and solid brick gall
to answer the ivory's summons
i am not a piece of clay,
i respond poorly to your sculpture of my surface,
covered in oxides and baked in
hell's oven, your mountain fire
scathes me as it does cedar resin
and i am similarly embittered,
pooling sap & draining smoke
in the embers and dead charcoal
of your embrace
avant le corps, sans l'âme
sans le corps, avant l'âme
Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 9:30 PM UTC
Acclimate away you accustom to rabble streets, calculate thy cantankerous beef with another diabolic past!!
Destine connoisseur,
Old things get older while thy love stays newer!!!
What a hope to hope for something!!!!
Bare faced sophomore,
Soporific enducing trips to styles of maxed out galore....
Domineers on every corner,
Where youngest of mourners art ourn own children,
Gravitational to all pull ins,
Guided by ourn own sins we set our own adversities!!!!
When wilt we climb out of ourn own hutch?
Our brittled bunch doesn't think of two but one!!
Jilt all thou will falsifiers,
Killers and liars,
Were all wrapped tight to the same metropolis line!!!
Okaying thyself?
Canst we OK what's wrong and not fine?
Schzoid scribble ******* in,
Undeniable on planet green earth!!!
Underhanded,
Diploma drop ins,
Morphine moratorium so Grey thy sounds are!!!!
Yet thy smiles so beautifully wide!!!!!
Seek as thou finds,
Find all though you mayeth hide!!!
The scorch is over to be bear!!
Where is the opulent Queen who I seek?
Yet hasn't found me yet...
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 9:33 AM UTC
reverse engineering:
tomorrow
i will know still your voice,
how your silence splits words
into pieces, as you break me
with your collared sweaters and polka dot
socks: tell me i am floating,
question my Gods, forbid me
from touching your church elders; your parents’
Lord.
today
i will know your laughter, a tad frail:
the voice of an unsteady
deity - your fingers - never stilling a pen,
nor sketching a hand - whittling
my own: your chin trembling as you chide me
for their largeness; i show you their erasures:
your lack of wayward lines; your work
of an artist.
yesterday
i tell you to sing, you tell me not to -
you arm yourself and lock away in your room,
say your poetry terrible,
wrong, un-joyful, cross-averted; they cracks
in all the wrong places like your flimsy
hands, like your hopes massive-disintegrating
like the feebleness in your dust-allergic bodies; your lack
of lungs: brittled long by heavy-handed
words and thin brushes: you with death -
the un-wayward stroke: You
who are sickly, whose quiet breaths reach
where we cannot find
and find the places where
our gods long to be touchable.
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 11:55 AM UTC
autumnal leaves
frost brittled lattice
under their own weight
crunch
exposed nerves
toes gasp through clay
fatigue threatens clench
yet splayed arms extend
heartwood congeals
coercing ebullience to Earth
intrusting tendril
beneath edged billows
scalping innate patina
Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 8:33 PM UTC
The mirror reveals the soul within
It is hazy water filled
In a desert mi raged heart
It is barren
Where whence it was full throttled cherry blossomed, apple cheeked rosy
The mirror reveals the soul within
Scorched embers
Still can see through the branches to a small piece
Not yet scorned
Tenderly aching but still filled with a sense of wonder
A leaf not torn
A branch unbroken, its leaves fall, hoping to dance in the suns warmth
The mirror reveals the soul within
Whose lines tell stories like trees that have grown
There bark is brittled beauty
Born from moments that were swept up like wisps of air
The mirror reveals the soul within
Still standing
Still solemn
Still here.
Dec 28, 2020
Dec 28, 2020 at 6:04 PM UTC
Autumn leaves exposed nerves
and frost brittled bones.
Toes gasp through clay.
Fatigue threatens grip,
yet flayed arms extend.
Fingers fall from reach.
Sapwoods freeze like blood
beneath blizzard winds.
Nov 6, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 at 6:58 AM UTC
I have this cause so consuming . . .
like an overdose that's overwhelming
When salt water was as sweet as the memories that washed over my feet by the edge of high tide's completion
"Go find the door to your ambition
before it closes to the winds of desiccation"
The binding has cracked
the paper turned yellow
Touching , now brittled backed
So it has been written "finis" upon the last page of life
The words I collected like seashells
as the wrinkles of face grew to foretell
The foam and waves swept over my toes
as the sand was ****** away from beneath
They say the pain will go away .
then they wish you well ,
. . . turn . . . and walk away
I look back upon life as if it were a dream :
a scheme . . .
a scream . . .
and so naive
"I will check out the skies in Rome ,
I promise now when winter is gone"
I long for the hot sands of purification
Where the bleached bones
have reached end's destination
Somewhere next to a Coptic sea
where time falls short on eternity I will kneel to my desperation
In another year
it will be another day's difference in time ,
as another grain of sand falls it loosens its bind
"Won't you come and bring thirst's renewal of relief ?"
Don't leave me gazing . . .
searching for that distant smile . . . buried in my beliefs
If not . . . then
let me wish you well . . .
turn . . . and walk away
Jan 2, 2023
Jan 2, 2023 at 7:48 PM UTC
Thou canst be a slave to god,
Or a slave to man!!
Now which doth thou chooseth?
When man enslaves
He gives out whips and brittled glass...
When god enslaves
He giveth a whole paradise of unknown delicacies,
Now which one wouldst thou chooseth?
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 3:30 PM UTC
With savage hunger I dive, I lie
My life too hard to fake, I break
Lines on my arms, tell of tears I cry.
Deaths plague the earth for which I stand
A cardiomorphic design implanted on my side
With savage hunger I dive… I lie.
Sewing needles to mend my broken heart
Tear skin, create sin
Lines on my arms, tell of tears I cry.
Life too violent, for infant like skin
My body, infected with ill desires
With savage hunger I dive…. I lie.
Like an addict, I’m driven to sin
Over and over again
Lines on my arms, tell of tears I cry.
Until, my lifeless flesh departs my brittled bones
Shall I meet my only desire…
With savage hunger I dive…. I lie…
Lines on my arms, tell of tears I cry.
Aug 14, 2011
Aug 14, 2011 at 10:17 PM UTC
what are you conjuring?
a prime so insincere
a load brittled with doubt
that burdens the cast
for eternal avoiding everywhere.
Dec 15, 2012
Dec 15, 2012 at 7:42 PM UTC
I'm going in this journey,
anxious to what i"ll find ,
but I've chosen 2 follow my heart,
and forget all that in my mind,
Now I don't have it all ,
matter of fact i don't have a dang thing,
just a broken soul from a broken home,
hanging off loose strings,
But, I'm still holding on through all the pains ,
my smile is still maintained,
knowing that one day in time,
sunshine will come from rain,
No time to give up hope now,
look back so far long I've came,
through all the troubles grew from from struggle,
now look who've I became,
A young man determined ,
aimless on his quest for greatness,
just to see his mother smile with tears,
from telling her he made it,
Again, I'm just on this journey,
with no conscious to where ill be,
trying light bulb through all the darkness,
and find someone perfect enough for me,
To find a women as strong as me,
with every ounce of breath she sings,
notes to the sounds of our flesh,
from the happiness we bring,
And if there be more misery in this path,
then so be it at least I tried,
Killing myself to pay you back through the entire world,
for every drop of those tears you've cried.
-Shahrukh Zamir
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 8:28 PM UTC
your illustrious eyes have brittled into something I cannot now decipher;
softer skin erodes to pointless lead.
mountainous, enthralling laughter
jolted to leading me into water dead.
forget the past she said.
seasoned with crisp irritation
or lovely blasphemies
it's hard to tell with make-believe red.
the touches of old photos to my eyes
the water of those touches, touches the ground unnoticed
return to that little cave
it's only natural
to be laying on the rock.
harder withstanding and sheltered feelings
only she could withstand
as if it compromised with
wallowing cries.
chalky eyes.
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC
Heat rays fall through a clear rainbows arch unto the earth
Clay brittled under light upon light
Crusted to dust as earth becomes the earth
Dryness all around as desert comes the norm
Is this the way we go
should we not head all our harm
We have a chance to change yet money
rules the waves
A figure on paper leads to all the blames
One day ther'll never be such madness
in our world
I hope we never go here
our dust to dust
May 26, 2012
May 26, 2012 at 3:20 PM UTC
It was something beautiful,
but to be kept hidden.
It was something intense,
but must be tamed.
We created our own haven
and shared a love,
untold...uncertain.
Like bubbles so fragile,
its walls brittled.
Until it crumbled
and ripped us apart.
Becoming strangers...
estranged of our very own shadows.
Jun 27, 2017
Jun 27, 2017 at 11:05 AM UTC
Brittled skins of a maiden
From last night’s
torment
Under a coffee shop’s peaceful ambience
Feeling bluest of blue
As secrets and confessions
Were written in cuts,
crimson wounds
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 1:31 AM UTC
A fraction thrown into abyss
A sliver of chosen tragedy
Cast those creaking lights
Like crisp piercing tails
Trailing the wounds
placed over our hearts
run smooth, touch hesitantly
fingers sliding over the scar tissues
tombston buried forever
in our figments of contorted minds
Oxygen flushing into
Brittled cavities of our lungs
stung rotten with words which stung
take a damp sponge
Spewing warm water
learn to dab our own heads
to soothe the fever
of humanity's love
and endeavor
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 9:34 PM UTC
I feel her,
Pulling me away.
I have no conscience,
For I am the wave
And she is the wind.
Crashing and swaying,
Though a treacherous journey.
Imprisoned by her thoughts,
I'm left in agony.
My sanity is brittled,
With chained emotions.
Follow me,
In this never ending journey.
Jan 16, 2019
Jan 16, 2019 at 1:03 PM UTC