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Today in speech I learned that May 4th to September 2nd is the season for breakups. I can't say it surprised me to know that even my heartbreak was ordinary.
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Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 3:49 PM UTC
Statistical Breakup
Quick break-up Senryus. Pick one to quickly, cut that relationship cord: I'm sorry, What'd you say? I can't hear you (confused look) - we’re breaking up. You’re the guy that every girl at our school wants - it's their lucky day. It's time that we took our relationship to the previous level. I still cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you. . . Songs for this: Love on the Rocks by Lizzie Mintz Lovefool by The Cardigans Nothing Can Stop Us by Saint Etienne Forever by X-Cetra
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Sep 5, 2025
Sep 5, 2025 at 9:54 PM UTC
Breakup Senryus
This is not a breakup poem This is not me liquifying when I open my eyes in the morning This is not my furious animal tearing at my chest to control the thrashing inside This is not the bile that burns my throat And this is not the hollow in my abdomen This is not a breakup poem This is not your static sobs and back-breaking voice cracks This is not your acid apology This is not your deadly uncertainty And this is not the jagged shards of yourself This is not a breakup poem This is not the blood bursting from my scraped elbows and knees when I went head over heels because you promised you would catch me This is not my pavement-smacked stinging palms This is not the gravel in my wounds from when you let go too soon This is not a breakup poem This is not your whiskey bottle on the shelf at the foot of my bed, a gentle reminder that now I have nightmares alone This is not the toothbrush and the hair gel and the speakers and the things that have more staying power than you And this is not a breakup poem
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Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 1:22 PM UTC
This Is Not A Breakup Poem
Break Up Poems Poems about Breakups. When two people are intimate with each other, this is the highest level that a relationship can reach. Whether or not the breakup is desirable, one thing is for sure, it will make a monumental difference in the lives of the people involved. Poetry about a breakup is likely to contain intense pain, anger, and sadness. In a close relationship, man and woman become like one. When the relationship is dissolved it may feel like your body is being ripped in half.
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Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 1:22 AM UTC
namannagarhere BREAKUP
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Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 2:54 AM UTC
Husband wife dispute/girlfriend/boyfriend breakup Solution
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It's a lot like the feeling One of those times When he'd not text me Or call me back for a few days Except, This time lasts a lot longer Like a breakup Except, Neither one of us specified a breaking point I don't want to move on though 'cause that means I did it without you And we do everything together. We go everywhere together I'll go anywhere with you And the clouds in your eyes The sun in your smile Your meteorite soul You've got me forever.
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Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 6:30 AM UTC
Breakup Except
*** and cigarettes and bad decisions stained into bedsheets A good idea gone rogue in a moment by the chase and retreat Words bitten off before they emerge and a sudden sense of regret The ins and outs and turns and twists confined to breakup *** What feels good can't hurt you until its not good anymore Reality doesn't touch the bedroom until someone opens the door Grasping to skin like it's what we had and reluctantly letting go The push and pull of dumb ideas and a lack of self control. An awkward smile all the while thinking that this was a mistake A peck of a kiss, barely a touch of the lips, and sanity far too late Stains on the skin that the shower can't wash, they've soaked down to bone The knowledge that gasps and quiet laughs doesn't mean we aren't gone. *** and cigarettes and bad decisions stained into bedsheets A good idea gone rogue in a moment by the chase and retreat Words bitten off before they emerge and a sudden sense of regret The ins and outs and turns and twist confined to breakup ***
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Jul 13, 2017
Jul 13, 2017 at 11:11 PM UTC
Breakup ***
Since my breakup  I realized the importance  of threats from debt  wieghing down  a relationship  Since my breakup I have made a promise  to not have one  monthly obligation regardless the sacrifice  Since my breakup  I moved in with family  in order to save money  and paid cash for a camper  so I could live, rent free  Since my breakup  I paid cash for a pickup  that easily could last me  the next 20 years to come, not paying one penny to interest  Since my breakup  I have been saving  as much as possible  versus financing  MY AMERICAN DREAM  Since my breakup  I bought a sports car  that was the one to have  when I was in highschool  another goal Im proud of  Since my breakup  I have divided and conquered  all the debts and threats  of monthly obligations  and rearranged my desires  Since my breakup  I have realized what i want  and Im proud to say  I finally purchased  my own piece of land  Since my  breakup I have discovered  my desire to live simple  and my next mission is to build a home on my land  BUY DIRT
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Nov 15, 2021
Nov 15, 2021 at 10:18 PM UTC
BUY DIRT
Thanks for breaking up with me Now I finally understand Why you smoke **** every day
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Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 8:57 PM UTC
Breakup
i never wanted to kiss her lips, just hold her hand maybe kiss her cheeks because she suited a gentler kind of treatment something softer and more delicate, quiet; quieter than the constant raging storms inside my stomach, inside my mind (never my heart) those plump lips she bit them raw when nervous, and they swelled blossomed ruby as she looked at me like she knew this wouldn't last her eyes remained doughy and mellow when i met her gaze. my smile stung as it stretched the lines left by winter's bite and split them open once more. she brushed the blood beads away with her fingertips with a touch so reverent that, for a moment, i thought maybe she felt as though she were touching rosary beads instead, and i held my breath to stop myself from chasing her touch, and pressing her down into the mattress unholy, chasing pleasure. both agnostic, but she was much more pure than i; chivalries always in mind, i wanted to preserve that. there's always been something inside me that presses down the animalistic urges with a conscience caught on consideration and something akin to courtly love- i wanted to woo her before i pursued her but i never got further than pressing my lips to her forehead, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. i laced my fingers with hers but avoided tying any knots. i am not a man to be bound, too free-spirit, too restless, too claustrophobic; a few months in and i was choking on the ghost of a future; she kissed me first and i suffocated on the phantom of her hopes for us: a future that didn't yet exist, and i didn't want it to. i never kissed her; i never let her kiss me again. we tangled fingers over the duvet the television a background noise to our unsteady breaths, shallower than my love for her i enjoyed her quiet affection like one might enjoy curling into a blanket when cold and ill. i wanted her smiles, i wanted to fill her memories with goodness so that she never need feel hopeless, like all men are the same so that she had something to smile about when she looked back on us; once the bitterness of our breakup had left her mouth- whenever that eventual end would be- she could savour the taste of our sweet, slow-burn, love affair and be reminded that not all love is true love, but nor is all love heart breaking i broke her heart anyway. nobody ever taught me how cruel kindness could be.
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May 17, 2016
May 17, 2016 at 9:24 PM UTC
slow burn
i never wanted to kiss her lips, just hold her hand maybe kiss her cheeks because she suited a gentler kind of treatment something softer and more delicate, quiet; quieter than the constant raging storms inside my stomach, inside my mind (never my heart) those plump lips she bit them raw when nervous, and they swelled blossomed ruby as she looked at me like she knew this wouldn't last her eyes remained doughy and mellow when i met her gaze. my smile stung as it stretched the lines left by winter's bite and split them open once more. she brushed the blood beads away with her fingertips with a touch so reverent that, for a moment, i thought maybe she felt as though she were touching rosary beads instead, and i held my breath to stop myself from chasing her touch, and pressing her down into the mattress unholy, chasing pleasure. both agnostic, but she was much more pure than i; chivalries always in mind, i wanted to preserve that. there's always been something inside me that presses down the animalistic urges with a conscience caught on consideration and something akin to courtly love- i wanted to woo her before i pursued her but i never got further than pressing my lips to her forehead, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. i laced my fingers with hers but avoided tying any knots. i am not a man to be bound, too free-spirit, too restless, too claustrophobic; a few months in and i was choking on the ghost of a future; she kissed me first and i suffocated on the phantom of her hopes for us: a future that didn't yet exist, and i didn't want it to. i never kissed her; i never let her kiss me again. we tangled fingers over the duvet the television a background noise to our unsteady breaths, shallower than my love for her i enjoyed her quiet affection like one might enjoy curling into a blanket when cold and ill. i wanted her smiles, i wanted to fill her memories with goodness so that she never need feel hopeless, like all men are the same so that she had something to smile about when she looked back on us; once the bitterness of our breakup had left her mouth- whenever that eventual end would be- she could savour the taste of our sweet, slow-burn, love affair and be reminded that not all love is true love, but nor is all love heart breaking i broke her heart anyway. nobody ever taught me how cruel kindness could be.
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You were wailing like a wounded puppy Your voice was craving for love and sympathy It appealed to my dormant magnanimity And thus for you I opened my heart’s door Least did I know you were an ugly ***** I stood beside you at your one call Your tantrums, your malice I bore ‘em all. To make you smile daily became my life’s goal But you were so thankless it shook me to the core I should have known earlier, you were an ugly ***** Though my knowledge about love was low Yet at times I wondered if you really know so much definitions of it and the metaphors bestowed then why did your breakup happen once before perhaps because he too knew, you were an ugly ***** What I thought was your love with glee Was actually an act of backstabbing me. You betrayed in the first chance given to thee Now I shall give you chances no more Because now I know that you are an ugly *****
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Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 12:19 PM UTC
BECAUSE YOU ARE AN UGLY *****
To all the ************* who don't Know what is and isn't important For their own **** good. A ***** rigid, spiked, smelly One finger salute for each And every one of you. This ************ throws his kids Out into the streets in November. Big man of the house who trys so Desperately to be intimidating, With a ****** back and a Horrible stench of alcohol on his breath. This ************ who thinks she's special. The stuck up ***** that too closely Resembles a plump ****** carrot. Who thinks the perfect guy is a hairless Fruity smelling mommy's boy ***** With perfect flippy hair and a big **** This ************ the few, the proud, The fruity smelling mommy's boy ***** Who wouldn't know a pair of pliers If they were ripping off his sparkly earrings. Never having an ounce of dirt on his hands, But at least she... I mean he has nice teeth. This ************ that can't tell one honest Fact about his "hard and lonely" home life. The one who nods and laughs but just wants to **** Who beats off to his computer after taking a hit That he bummed off his rich friends. Who is confused as to why some people (me) hate him. This ************ who screws with the emotions Of one of the best guys ever to glide through her life. Who throws him on a roller coaster with smiles And flirtatious giggling while she lets him kiss her. Then throws him to the side and takes the next in line. I wish only the very best for you, you ****** ***** Those ************* who abuse, torment Or play with someone who just wishes the best. The ones who hurt the vulnerable To feel better for themselves. No one deserves the **** you give, Except each and every one of you. Honorable mention to those ******* That complain about all men being the same When in reality they're just searching for The same type of meat headed ****** Every time they have such a painful terrible Breakup. Just shut the **** up. For real.
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Dec 8, 2013
Dec 8, 2013 at 4:04 PM UTC
************
To all the ************* who don't Know what is and isn't important For their own **** good. A ***** rigid, spiked, smelly One finger salute for each And every one of you. This ************ throws his kids Out into the streets in November. Big man of the house who trys so Desperately to be intimidating, With a ****** back and a Horrible stench of alcohol on his breath. This ************ who thinks she's special. The stuck up ***** that too closely Resembles a plump ****** carrot. Who thinks the perfect guy is a hairless Fruity smelling mommy's boy ***** With perfect flippy hair and a big **** This ************ the few, the proud, The fruity smelling mommy's boy ***** Who wouldn't know a pair of pliers If they were ripping off his sparkly earrings. Never having an ounce of dirt on his hands, But at least she... I mean he has nice teeth. This ************ that can't tell one honest Fact about his "hard and lonely" home life. The one who nods and laughs but just wants to **** Who beats off to his computer after taking a hit That he bummed off his rich friends. Who is confused as to why some people (me) hate him. This ************ who screws with the emotions Of one of the best guys ever to glide through her life. Who throws him on a roller coaster with smiles And flirtatious giggling while she lets him kiss her. Then throws him to the side and takes the next in line. I wish only the very best for you, you ****** ***** Those ************* who abuse, torment Or play with someone who just wishes the best. The ones who hurt the vulnerable To feel better for themselves. No one deserves the **** you give, Except each and every one of you. Honorable mention to those ******* That complain about all men being the same When in reality they're just searching for The same type of meat headed ****** Every time they have such a painful terrible Breakup. Just shut the **** up. For real.
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My new device Samsung Galaxy A7 (6), I bought it off my own money guys, And I am so pleased with myself. It has helped distract me finally, The breakup will be forgotten now, Her false love vanished 7 Galaxies away.
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Jun 11, 2016
Jun 11, 2016 at 3:41 AM UTC
7 Galaxies I Hold In My Hands
Indeed It was a breakup, ‘Cuz I was only for “necking her up”, ‘Cuz I was “dead from neck up”, Loving her was my greatest blunder, ‘Cuz she played a ***** heart plunder, Now when I see her Soft heartbeats become loud thunder, Hey peeps, She left me For other cove, She theft me In name of love, Then I kept her In my mind’s blocklist, Why heft her Meaningless memories, Easy say Hard in action But I needed a “whole soul checkup”, Indeed It was a breakup…..
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Mar 23, 2021
Mar 23, 2021 at 7:10 AM UTC
Indeed, it was a Breakup!
I crushed it, and it regrew anyways. The hypothesis, was more romantic, than tossing and yearning all night over losing teeth in a giraffe fight. Your hypothesis, was more romantically worded, than a thesis on how birds die on impact when colliding with a glass windowpane, retrieving teeth lost during a giraffe brawl. Worded, like the thesis about how birds die during impact, each line of the letter dripped with invisible ink, like colliding with a glass window. Pain is only fleeting, if the end comes close behind. Every line in each letter, drawn with invisible ink, doesn't sound in the pronunciation, which is only fleeting, if the end line draws closed behind. So close your characters behind you, and don't let the draft in. Does it not sound in the pronoun, the annulment of which leaves every thing indefinite, and incomplete. So clothe your characters before you, so they don't let in a draft, and catch a cold from ****** or being indistinct. What leaves everything indefinitely incomplete other than the ability of the mind to hypothesize, and catch a cold in the **** state of being extinct? The inability to reconcile your metaphorical heart and instinct. The others, they, have the ability to hypothesize, about what makes us toss and yearn at night. I forgave your inability to reconcile. My heart: pure instinct. So you crushed it, and still it grew anyways.
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Aug 11, 2011
Aug 11, 2011 at 8:18 PM UTC
I Couldn't Stop Thinking About your Poor Excuse for a Breakup
and if i stop, i'll miss the little things: shaving my legs when i know you're coming over and not drinking coffee because you don't like the taste of it on my tongue. i'll miss running out to your car with my shoes in my hand, the very last goodnight kiss that's always sweetest. i'll miss lying to my parents about traffic and weather when we were right around the curve of the road, stealing kisses. i'll miss when you don't shave because you know i like your scruffy boy-stubble when you touch my face without speaking when your actions are louder than words. i'll miss your sweetness i'll miss your puckish sincerity i'll miss you. i'll miss your hands your tongue and your lips on my cheek. i'll miss you kissing each one of my fingers. i'll miss our secret handshakes, our inside jokes, our petty fights. i'll miss our song. i'll miss our arguments about the beatles' breakup, our railings against religious institutions our speaking of souls. and so what i'm proposing, from me to you, girl to boy and heart to heart, is that you don't stop loving me, and i won't stop loving you.
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Jul 29, 2012
Jul 29, 2012 at 10:31 PM UTC
basically i love you
Drifting in the sands of time. On the search for love most Divine. Life in the fast lane, can you keep up? Beauty of life, after a breakup. She whispered so softly into my heart. Now it's over for good, where do I start? Like all things in life this too shall pass. Now it's time to build something that lasts. Don't focus on who, when, or where you try. What's most important is the "why." If the flesh is what you seek you will fall short. Money and fame might lead to divorce court. What you seek is an equal, one on your level. You need a friend, one for whom you are grateful. Confidence, humility, patience, and virtue This is a woman who will never hurt you.
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Mar 11, 2013
Mar 11, 2013 at 4:43 PM UTC
The Breakup
They may remember my breakup because it kept coming up. Kept coming back. Some may think that my breakup was the thing that hurt the most last year. It wasn’t. It hurt more to get my heart broken by somebody else. It hurt more that I had to see her around every time I was around my friends. It hurt that her name came up everywhere I went, as obscure as it was. It hurt more that my fondest memories of last year weren’t with my former love, but with her. It hurt more that I considered my masterpiece of a song to be one about her, and not about my former love. It hurt more that gazing into her eyes I saw a myriad of puzzles to be solved and a seemingly endless, impossible maze that I wanted to travel in, but never got to. It hurt more that I bottled these feelings in because I was in a relationship. It hurt more, the nights I kept up, thinking about what if I gave it just a little more time. It hurt more to think that maybe I made the wrong decision about who I loved. It hurt more to rush into love like I did, and miss out on the one thing that may have been better. It hurt more never to see her again. It hurt more to forget her smile than my former love. It hurt more that her laugh was one of the most beautiful sounds that I’ve forgotten. It hurt more that I stayed up all night thinking more about her than my former love. It hurt more to know maybe I fell in love with her more than I did my former love. It hurt more to think about how much it must have hurt my former love to find out. It hurt more to think how much I took from my former love, and how I threw her away in the end. It hurt more to use the word threw away instead of broke up in that last sentence. It hurt more that maybe a part of me still wishes things went differently It hurt more to feel that wave of anguish to know she didn’t love me back It hurt more to feel that feeling of defeat to think I tried so hard It hurt more to feel nothing for my former love, and how guilty I should have felt but didn’t. It hurt more to realize though, that through all of it, I wasn’t blameless. I had fault. It hurt more than a thousand papercuts, cutting away, slowly at me. Taking bit by bit of myself. It hurts most that my break up didn’t hurt me at all. It was her breaking my heart that hurt the most. It stings now to know That there’s a part of me that may still love her, wondering if she loved me back. But now I’ll never know.
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Apr 23, 2017
Apr 23, 2017 at 3:30 AM UTC
It Hurt More
They may remember my breakup because it kept coming up. Kept coming back. Some may think that my breakup was the thing that hurt the most last year. It wasn’t. It hurt more to get my heart broken by somebody else. It hurt more that I had to see her around every time I was around my friends. It hurt that her name came up everywhere I went, as obscure as it was. It hurt more that my fondest memories of last year weren’t with my former love, but with her. It hurt more that I considered my masterpiece of a song to be one about her, and not about my former love. It hurt more that gazing into her eyes I saw a myriad of puzzles to be solved and a seemingly endless, impossible maze that I wanted to travel in, but never got to. It hurt more that I bottled these feelings in because I was in a relationship. It hurt more, the nights I kept up, thinking about what if I gave it just a little more time. It hurt more to think that maybe I made the wrong decision about who I loved. It hurt more to rush into love like I did, and miss out on the one thing that may have been better. It hurt more never to see her again. It hurt more to forget her smile than my former love. It hurt more that her laugh was one of the most beautiful sounds that I’ve forgotten. It hurt more that I stayed up all night thinking more about her than my former love. It hurt more to know maybe I fell in love with her more than I did my former love. It hurt more to think about how much it must have hurt my former love to find out. It hurt more to think how much I took from my former love, and how I threw her away in the end. It hurt more to use the word threw away instead of broke up in that last sentence. It hurt more that maybe a part of me still wishes things went differently It hurt more to feel that wave of anguish to know she didn’t love me back It hurt more to feel that feeling of defeat to think I tried so hard It hurt more to feel nothing for my former love, and how guilty I should have felt but didn’t. It hurt more to realize though, that through all of it, I wasn’t blameless. I had fault. It hurt more than a thousand papercuts, cutting away, slowly at me. Taking bit by bit of myself. It hurts most that my break up didn’t hurt me at all. It was her breaking my heart that hurt the most. It stings now to know That there’s a part of me that may still love her, wondering if she loved me back. But now I’ll never know.
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i finalised my "divorce" today. well, it was a breakup. 2 years together, lived together, shared our cats, shared a life... all that. so yeah, it felt like a mini divorce. and i couldn't help but notice how relatable the song "happiness" by taylor swift is now... _"all the years i've given is just **** we're dividing up"_ he left the house a week ago. today he came by, and divided up our shared things. _"tell me when did your winning smile_ _began to look like a smirk?_ _when did all our lessons start to look like weapons_ _pointed at my deepest hurt?"_ when i first met him, it was the stuff of fairytales - like most relationships. we shared some of the best memories of our lives together. but like all good things, it came to an end. over time, we became stressed with life's responsibilities. we became toxic to each other, and both made terrible mistakes. towards the end, it became the inevitable to end things. _"after giving you the best i had_ _tell me what to give after that?"_ i gave it my all. we both tried our best. it just wasn't meant to be. _"haunted by the look in my eyes_ _that would've loved you for a lifetime"_ how i wished he was the one... given any chance, i would've loved him for a lifetime. i miss him. i miss the life we shared. i grieve for the future we will never have. _"i can't make it go away by making you a villian"_ but just because the relationship failed, it was still extraordinarily beautiful. i hold zero resentment towards him at all. no negative feelings. i wish him all the best in the future. _"no one teaches you what to do_ _when a good man hurts you_ _and you know you hurt him too"_ these lyrics hit me the most... _"there'll be happiness after you_ _but there was happiness because of you"_ goodbye, lover. maybe in another lifetime, our paths will cross again. but for now, i wish you all the happiness in the world. i will always have love for you deep in my heart.
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Dec 20, 2022
Dec 20, 2022 at 11:23 AM UTC
something i wrote after he came over for the last time to divide our things up
i finalised my "divorce" today. well, it was a breakup. 2 years together, lived together, shared our cats, shared a life... all that. so yeah, it felt like a mini divorce. and i couldn't help but notice how relatable the song "happiness" by taylor swift is now... _"all the years i've given is just **** we're dividing up"_ he left the house a week ago. today he came by, and divided up our shared things. _"tell me when did your winning smile_ _began to look like a smirk?_ _when did all our lessons start to look like weapons_ _pointed at my deepest hurt?"_ when i first met him, it was the stuff of fairytales - like most relationships. we shared some of the best memories of our lives together. but like all good things, it came to an end. over time, we became stressed with life's responsibilities. we became toxic to each other, and both made terrible mistakes. towards the end, it became the inevitable to end things. _"after giving you the best i had_ _tell me what to give after that?"_ i gave it my all. we both tried our best. it just wasn't meant to be. _"haunted by the look in my eyes_ _that would've loved you for a lifetime"_ how i wished he was the one... given any chance, i would've loved him for a lifetime. i miss him. i miss the life we shared. i grieve for the future we will never have. _"i can't make it go away by making you a villian"_ but just because the relationship failed, it was still extraordinarily beautiful. i hold zero resentment towards him at all. no negative feelings. i wish him all the best in the future. _"no one teaches you what to do_ _when a good man hurts you_ _and you know you hurt him too"_ these lyrics hit me the most... _"there'll be happiness after you_ _but there was happiness because of you"_ goodbye, lover. maybe in another lifetime, our paths will cross again. but for now, i wish you all the happiness in the world. i will always have love for you deep in my heart.
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When my mom first thought that I was gay, She and my father sat me down at the kitchen table. I was fifteen and thought I was in love, And all they could do was scream at me... ‘You’re a sin; what you feel isn’t natural.’ ‘Where did we go wrong?’ And all I had wanted was to love in peace. But apparently, that was too much to ask from them. So I stifled myself. I cut myself off from her and let us wither Until there was nothing left of us because I wasn't normal And I was fifteen And all I wanted was my mother’s approval And how could I gain that if I wasn’t normal? And then I was sixteen and I thought I was in love again But this time with a seventeen-year-old boy That knew nothing of love And everything of sharp edges and even sharper words But he spoke so pretty to me, And how could I resist? But he hurt me worse than anyone else that I’ve known And he never even cared… And then I was seventeen. I was seventeen and my best friend had this mane Of beautiful hair and I called her lovely and wife And all the other silly little pet names that high school girls do But little did she know that her smile Lit fireworks inside my brain and the swarms of Butterflies that beat in my chest rivalled that of a drum. I thought she was beautiful. I saw the universe in her. But how could I admit that to myself without admitting it to My mother, the one person whose validation I crave like Air and water and life itself? How could I admit to her that I wasn’t Her little girl anymore? That I was a disappointment? And then I was eighteen. I was eighteen and numb and not looking for anything when he found me... I was eighteen and I thought that surely, Surely This was it, this was the feeling that I was waiting for. But it wasn’t and I was eighteen and alone again But this hurt worse than the others and then I was gone after that summer. Now, I’m almost nineteen. I’m almost nineteen and I’ve accepted the fact that I will disappoint my mother; The one whose opinion that I value the most; The one that gave birth to me; The only one that can tear me down until I feel like nothing. But she’s my mother so how could I let her go When she was there for my first word and my first steps And every one of my other firsts. My first date. My first dance. My first breakup. She was there when I left for college, and she’ll be there when (if) I get married. Because regardless of my choices, She loves me, and she always will. And even if I can’t bring my partner home, I will love her all the same. So mom, if you see this, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I didn’t turn out how you wanted. I’m sorry that I disappointed you. But I’m not sorry for being who I am. I’m not sorry for thinking women are beautiful And men are handsome Because all the world needs is a little bit more love, And who am I to deprive it of that?
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Mar 15, 2022
Mar 15, 2022 at 11:26 PM UTC
An Apology to my Mother
When my mom first thought that I was gay, She and my father sat me down at the kitchen table. I was fifteen and thought I was in love, And all they could do was scream at me... ‘You’re a sin; what you feel isn’t natural.’ ‘Where did we go wrong?’ And all I had wanted was to love in peace. But apparently, that was too much to ask from them. So I stifled myself. I cut myself off from her and let us wither Until there was nothing left of us because I wasn't normal And I was fifteen And all I wanted was my mother’s approval And how could I gain that if I wasn’t normal? And then I was sixteen and I thought I was in love again But this time with a seventeen-year-old boy That knew nothing of love And everything of sharp edges and even sharper words But he spoke so pretty to me, And how could I resist? But he hurt me worse than anyone else that I’ve known And he never even cared… And then I was seventeen. I was seventeen and my best friend had this mane Of beautiful hair and I called her lovely and wife And all the other silly little pet names that high school girls do But little did she know that her smile Lit fireworks inside my brain and the swarms of Butterflies that beat in my chest rivalled that of a drum. I thought she was beautiful. I saw the universe in her. But how could I admit that to myself without admitting it to My mother, the one person whose validation I crave like Air and water and life itself? How could I admit to her that I wasn’t Her little girl anymore? That I was a disappointment? And then I was eighteen. I was eighteen and numb and not looking for anything when he found me... I was eighteen and I thought that surely, Surely This was it, this was the feeling that I was waiting for. But it wasn’t and I was eighteen and alone again But this hurt worse than the others and then I was gone after that summer. Now, I’m almost nineteen. I’m almost nineteen and I’ve accepted the fact that I will disappoint my mother; The one whose opinion that I value the most; The one that gave birth to me; The only one that can tear me down until I feel like nothing. But she’s my mother so how could I let her go When she was there for my first word and my first steps And every one of my other firsts. My first date. My first dance. My first breakup. She was there when I left for college, and she’ll be there when (if) I get married. Because regardless of my choices, She loves me, and she always will. And even if I can’t bring my partner home, I will love her all the same. So mom, if you see this, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I didn’t turn out how you wanted. I’m sorry that I disappointed you. But I’m not sorry for being who I am. I’m not sorry for thinking women are beautiful And men are handsome Because all the world needs is a little bit more love, And who am I to deprive it of that?
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The amount of days I've been given have been kind, but each day rather cruel Trying to lift the thumb off my back of the looming stresses that rule It could be me again and this is not the end, if fact it probably is So before I unleash my problems, swear to mind your business I would be lying if I said I wanted this day to last a forever Because I found myself one forever short once we weren't together I've said my piece so many times the puzzle is almost complete So I've decided it's time to get off my knees and back onto my feet I've fallen so much I keep Flintstones band-aids close at hand My heart sewn to my sleeve for only you, which I've yet to understand You unscrewed the machine that was me and left the parts on the floor And I'm pretty sure I won't work just right anymore Fading is the dynasty of what we labeled our so-called "love" Like sticking my foot inside my sock at night to find it's a glove The discombobulation is so overwhelming, I think the ocean is jealous Could I start swimming now or is that being too over-zealous Life is hard and the people crammed in it tend to make it worse At times I tell myself it to cry, look to the sky, and curse But there's a tune in my mind that won't seem to shut up from that one song Telling me life is a ride, kid: grieve, learn, burn, and move on
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Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 11:33 PM UTC
Breakup Hangover
Each individual jelly-belly jellybean in a clear bag tied with a red wire is so different from each other individual jelly-belly jellybean in that clear bag. The one that I find, without fail, without fault, is always the one that tastes like black licorice. The sticky, overly sweet, bitter black gunk that junks up my perfectly good bag of jelly-belly jellybeans, and I am never paying enough attention to catch myself before I pop it into my mouth, unaware that I will be receiving: not cotton candy, not coconut, nor cherry or lime, but a black piece of bitter-sweetness, whose taste always seems to linger.
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Feb 21, 2012
Feb 21, 2012 at 3:18 PM UTC
The Breakup
Breakup Letter to Route 34 Everyday you and me me and you we'd punch out for an hour, maybe two Only separated by obsidian rubber our toes kissed as the clock ticked Just a pair of bodies and the aqua sky the clouds will be our blanket as we sleep through the ride We didn’t even need the stars to be our guide, just the yellow line. The string connecting the seams of my double life Every year I watched your colors change I watched the buildings rearrange I watched people I loved become estranged But you, good old road, you stayed the same. Like an invisible diary I scratched my thoughts into your black skin, wrinkling with erosion And I shed my tears into your core, watering the tufts of grass protruding through your cracks And I whispered my secrets to you, to the barren bark lining your lanes. I have always been holy to you! but it seems like soon we won’t be seeing each other every day at four and noon. O, But don’t let your dam release too many drops from your lagoon I have blazed your path for too long, I need sometime new And just remember, good old road, its me- not you
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Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 5:11 PM UTC
Breakup Letter to Route 34
What I have can’t be fixed by a doctor How do you tell someone “I don’t know where it hurts” Or more accurately “It hurts everywhere; where should I being?” Because how do you tell someone that the pain of inadequacy Mirrors a blow to the head in its intensity But far surpasses it when it comes to longevity And as far as timing is concerned Every watch I’ve ever had has broken So how do you tell someone that the lies are never easy But the ones you tell to yourself crash over you like waves And drag a small portion of you away each time they recede It’s like a game of Them vs. Me And what makes the defeats unbearable Is the fact that they don’t even know they’re playing I’ve been keeping score And keeping score And keeping score The walls are filled with white lines One Two Three Four Slash Maybe if I point to my chest and say, “Here” Someone will understand It’s a pain that feels like everything I’ve ever wished for Has solidified and turned to stone Making a home somewhere in my ribcage And it’s expanding I write bravery on my skin because I have none I make deals with  a god I know doesn’t exist Just so when I’m unable to hold up my end of the bargain I have someone to blame for falling through on his And I still can’t figure out if it’s funny or sad That the only man I want to kiss me never will And the last one who did traded in his lips for his hand So he can high-five me like we’re friends on the same team Never making mention that we kissed on the floor of his room Until we were breathless While breakup songs played in the background Taking up just as much space as we did Became witness to our nervous hands fumbling over each other’s bodies Turning our kiss into a ********* I have heard that silence speaks just as loudly as words But silence builds up in my mouth like a traffic jam And my jaw is begging to break from the weight So maybe now’s the time to scream Time to shout Because I've been keeping all my thoughts filed away Under the title, “When The Time Is Right” But there’s no time like tonight
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Oct 25, 2012
Oct 25, 2012 at 12:07 PM UTC
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What I have can’t be fixed by a doctor How do you tell someone “I don’t know where it hurts” Or more accurately “It hurts everywhere; where should I being?” Because how do you tell someone that the pain of inadequacy Mirrors a blow to the head in its intensity But far surpasses it when it comes to longevity And as far as timing is concerned Every watch I’ve ever had has broken So how do you tell someone that the lies are never easy But the ones you tell to yourself crash over you like waves And drag a small portion of you away each time they recede It’s like a game of Them vs. Me And what makes the defeats unbearable Is the fact that they don’t even know they’re playing I’ve been keeping score And keeping score And keeping score The walls are filled with white lines One Two Three Four Slash Maybe if I point to my chest and say, “Here” Someone will understand It’s a pain that feels like everything I’ve ever wished for Has solidified and turned to stone Making a home somewhere in my ribcage And it’s expanding I write bravery on my skin because I have none I make deals with  a god I know doesn’t exist Just so when I’m unable to hold up my end of the bargain I have someone to blame for falling through on his And I still can’t figure out if it’s funny or sad That the only man I want to kiss me never will And the last one who did traded in his lips for his hand So he can high-five me like we’re friends on the same team Never making mention that we kissed on the floor of his room Until we were breathless While breakup songs played in the background Taking up just as much space as we did Became witness to our nervous hands fumbling over each other’s bodies Turning our kiss into a ********* I have heard that silence speaks just as loudly as words But silence builds up in my mouth like a traffic jam And my jaw is begging to break from the weight So maybe now’s the time to scream Time to shout Because I've been keeping all my thoughts filed away Under the title, “When The Time Is Right” But there’s no time like tonight
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I asked myself over a warm cup of tea, "what kind of beauty is there in finding mystery in yourself?" I took a little sip, and had more thoughts. And so I scribbled, a few words on a piece of paper. a fine day indeed to be playing Thelonious Monk, one of my favorite Jazz pianists. y'know, his music has a certain type of soul to it, something inviting about it. I dunno. with that cup of tea still in hand, I listened to the ocean dance while Monk rushed over the piano keys. that cup of tea smelled like years of fear and peace to come. that cup of tea reminded me of the first time I burnt my finger with a candle when I was still a kid. that cup of tea reminded me of my first love. it reminded me that I'm still 17, it also tasted like conversations I had with friends about girls we'd never have. "that girl. she's the one, you'd probably have a chance with her. say something, you shy mo'fo." but then again it wasn't about probability. it tasted like 5AM in the morning after your first breakup. it tasted like 4PM when you wrote your first poem. it tasted like bitterness. the tea tasted like my love for things that have aged. '65 Mustangs and inked pages. ripped jeans and new faces. jazz music and new places. its funny what tea can do one's mind once it burns your tongue and runs down your oesophagus to warm your lungs. Monk's music in the background, I still scribbled words on a piece of paper. if only this moment could linger. cup of tea, cup of tea, what type of flavor did you leave in me? see, when i stare at this cup, it seems as if it holds unneccessary emptiness. but can still hold my deepest desires in liquid form - a warm cup of tea. I probably wrote all of this after I burnt my tongue with tea. but then again, this isn't about probability. this is from the deep of things, with love. sincurlyxbaki
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Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 7:46 AM UTC
from the deep end of things, with love.
I asked myself over a warm cup of tea, "what kind of beauty is there in finding mystery in yourself?" I took a little sip, and had more thoughts. And so I scribbled, a few words on a piece of paper. a fine day indeed to be playing Thelonious Monk, one of my favorite Jazz pianists. y'know, his music has a certain type of soul to it, something inviting about it. I dunno. with that cup of tea still in hand, I listened to the ocean dance while Monk rushed over the piano keys. that cup of tea smelled like years of fear and peace to come. that cup of tea reminded me of the first time I burnt my finger with a candle when I was still a kid. that cup of tea reminded me of my first love. it reminded me that I'm still 17, it also tasted like conversations I had with friends about girls we'd never have. "that girl. she's the one, you'd probably have a chance with her. say something, you shy mo'fo." but then again it wasn't about probability. it tasted like 5AM in the morning after your first breakup. it tasted like 4PM when you wrote your first poem. it tasted like bitterness. the tea tasted like my love for things that have aged. '65 Mustangs and inked pages. ripped jeans and new faces. jazz music and new places. its funny what tea can do one's mind once it burns your tongue and runs down your oesophagus to warm your lungs. Monk's music in the background, I still scribbled words on a piece of paper. if only this moment could linger. cup of tea, cup of tea, what type of flavor did you leave in me? see, when i stare at this cup, it seems as if it holds unneccessary emptiness. but can still hold my deepest desires in liquid form - a warm cup of tea. I probably wrote all of this after I burnt my tongue with tea. but then again, this isn't about probability. this is from the deep of things, with love. sincurlyxbaki
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