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"bouts" poems
So he said to me one night Submissive is not what's right He said to me one day You've to command and make your way You cannot be quiet You cant be a riot You have to be you And not let destroy'it He calls me his friend Say, when will this end? He says he don't care It goes beyond repair He says I mean nothing Without the slightest grieve "You are my closest" Oh, I wouldn't like to believe But I've known better And not made up a pile Fed it to the skies Never failed to smile I've grown as a human I've grown as a friend He's been a pillar The crave will never end He's helped me in ways Helped find my forte He's helped me mature Never enough to sway But now that he's changed I'm hit by numbing rain Now that all's deranged Major bouts will reign.
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Mar 4, 2015
Mar 4, 2015 at 1:41 AM UTC
Submissive.
PTSD is not something you get over. It is when soldiers get tired of hearing their own shots fire Into a purple horizon of nothingness. It is when assault victims are scared of becoming a statistic And their brokenness is suffocating It is when fear compels the mind to change And it willingly obliges. PTSD is when the darkness of human nature becomes evident It is when it's stronghold is suddenly More prominent than the beauty in the world It's brash fingers create a vacuum That ***** the sanity from your mind Until you wake up in the middle of the night screaming "Don't shoot me!" "Don't **** her!" You see him and now he is with your little sister Taking her into his Jeep While you stand there, watching Tied up because you can do nothing about it. This has not happened And probably never will But you are crippled by paralyzing bouts of anxiety and guilt and fear From which your mind cannot console you You can no longer hide the loss That this event, this person, this illness Has placed strategically within you. It is when you will do anything to get these memories to stop playing on repeat An endless loop maybe ended by alcohol Check Cutting Check. Promiscuity Check Anything that will eliminate cycle of not knowing Of reliving If only for a short time Even pretending you believe in God Because it makes it seem like there is a reason for this confusion But then you begin to question why God would do this to his child So you digress into darkness once again Left feeling unsure. PTSD is when you stop repressing memories And they come back so forcefully that they knock you to the ground Leaving you bruised and ****** Leaving you lost. PTSD is different from other sicknesses Because you do not feel sick You feel there Like you are in his bed again And his room smells like mushrooms That is actually a field of grenades Waiting to explode throughout your small body You remember the tone of his words Slipping from his lips as though they are snakes Strangling me, leaving breath unable to escape This is not sick As you feel no symptoms But an altered state of consciousness You do not even realize you are disconnecting as it happens But this is Hell This is war You are broken And the worst part about it Is that you must understand your triggers Your dissociations Before you can get better.
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Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
PTSD
PTSD is not something you get over. It is when soldiers get tired of hearing their own shots fire Into a purple horizon of nothingness. It is when assault victims are scared of becoming a statistic And their brokenness is suffocating It is when fear compels the mind to change And it willingly obliges. PTSD is when the darkness of human nature becomes evident It is when it's stronghold is suddenly More prominent than the beauty in the world It's brash fingers create a vacuum That ***** the sanity from your mind Until you wake up in the middle of the night screaming "Don't shoot me!" "Don't **** her!" You see him and now he is with your little sister Taking her into his Jeep While you stand there, watching Tied up because you can do nothing about it. This has not happened And probably never will But you are crippled by paralyzing bouts of anxiety and guilt and fear From which your mind cannot console you You can no longer hide the loss That this event, this person, this illness Has placed strategically within you. It is when you will do anything to get these memories to stop playing on repeat An endless loop maybe ended by alcohol Check Cutting Check. Promiscuity Check Anything that will eliminate cycle of not knowing Of reliving If only for a short time Even pretending you believe in God Because it makes it seem like there is a reason for this confusion But then you begin to question why God would do this to his child So you digress into darkness once again Left feeling unsure. PTSD is when you stop repressing memories And they come back so forcefully that they knock you to the ground Leaving you bruised and ****** Leaving you lost. PTSD is different from other sicknesses Because you do not feel sick You feel there Like you are in his bed again And his room smells like mushrooms That is actually a field of grenades Waiting to explode throughout your small body You remember the tone of his words Slipping from his lips as though they are snakes Strangling me, leaving breath unable to escape This is not sick As you feel no symptoms But an altered state of consciousness You do not even realize you are disconnecting as it happens But this is Hell This is war You are broken And the worst part about it Is that you must understand your triggers Your dissociations Before you can get better.
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*all my life i held a dream of a woman i would love of course she would be alluring supple a charming countenance erudite, with an angelic face her body a muscular stretching willow arching her legs over head kissing her own curving soft feet a graceful contortionist in confetti colored sparkle pantyhose stretching towards me silken hair draping a perfect symmetry with spun sugar kisses wafting the scent of vanilla and candied vaporous breath lips like cherry lozenges but one never knows ones destiny i met her my girl destiny and except for a faint look of languor and ruin with a tinge of withering she was without doubt unbearably titillating with razor-thin blackened lips mascara slits for eyes hair pulled straight back jet black jelled like hardened licorice with satanic blood rivulets and pitch fork tattooed **** a vice of lechery a malefaction of moral turpitude her *** scarred from orgiastic beatings her **** became like a large wrinkly mouth resembling the face of a bullfrog from pleasuring  herself with tableware cutlery her soul a broken creel suffering bouts of anxiety like a weeping moon having  been institutionalized in Mother Marys Hell House from a ghastly bout of parricide her father, a hobbling gloomish troll while the dark veins of mother ran through her soul leaving little choice but to dispatch the parents abandoning their corpses in the kitchen like strewn litter turned out just my kinda girl d e s t i n y
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May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 9:14 AM UTC
MY GIRL DESTINY
The strike of the rainbow warriors After a few hours in the dark cages of horror we suddenly see a sharp light in the sky of evil. The golden goddess notices another ship coming towards the devils spike city. At that moment the orange and black pirates run towards their  ships in dock and sound a long dark horn of terror. The golden goddess notices a large rainbow type ship sailing in firing laser rays at the pirates vessels of evil. The ship sets into the dock of spike city while  some remaining  pirates get cut down and captured with blue laser nets of torture.  Our eyes  open with horror when  rainbow type creatures with bows and arrows jump out of the ship and circle our cages of horror. A few of the black  pirate in the purple bushes try and shoot the rainbow warriors but get cut down with their laser fast arrows.  The commander of the rainbow warriors suddenly jumps down from the  ship and lifts up the cages with power and  ease while the warriors round up the captured pirates. I comfort a shaking luitent megs while the commander shakes our hands before releasing the other golden warriors from their dark cage.  The horses bow their heads towards the commander while the golden goddess looks with hope in her beaten heart. All of a sudden two rainbow warriors march out a swearing and aggressive woman  holding a long jagged sword and pirates armband. The rainbow warriors quickly zap her evil body  and hold her down tightly .  The golden goddess goes  over for a better look while her long tongue  of nails  cuts of a warriors head off  with ease. The rainbow warriors  chop her evil tongue off with a swipe of the rainbow sword  before pinning her to the cold ground. two of the warriors then begin to peel  her black  dress of horror off while  other rainbow braves flock around. A curious golden goddess peeps though for a better look while the warriors are  undoing her  small black studded bra of terror. The goddess looks on with a smile and twinkle while she screams in anger at her ******* bouncing in the dark cold night. All of a sudden the commander comes inside the circle of torture  and begins removing her  devilish red ******* while the  warriors cheer and scream.  The golden goddess looks  on with  a content smile while  the  warriors chop her body up into bit with their  glowing swords. After a few minutes the rest of the pirates are shot and executed with laser bouts  while we all sit watch with open mouths of  horror.  The commander then takes us aboard the rainbow ship of safety  while the pirates come back to evil spike city with four more pirate ships of torture. We all sail across the red  evil sea towards a big large rainbow in the glowing  yellow sky whilst  being followed by two black  pirate ships.  Once we reach  through  the rainbows end we begin to notice the water  turning bright pink  and the pirate ships turning  back towards the red river of horror. A relived golden goddess  turns towards her army and smiles while we we all jump about on the rainbow ship of safety.  I hold luitent megs tight in my arms while the green moon sets across the  blue landscape in the distance. written by wayne mockler ownership and copyright wayne mockler
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Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 2:34 PM UTC
The strike of the rainbow warriors
The strike of the rainbow warriors After a few hours in the dark cages of horror we suddenly see a sharp light in the sky of evil. The golden goddess notices another ship coming towards the devils spike city. At that moment the orange and black pirates run towards their  ships in dock and sound a long dark horn of terror. The golden goddess notices a large rainbow type ship sailing in firing laser rays at the pirates vessels of evil. The ship sets into the dock of spike city while  some remaining  pirates get cut down and captured with blue laser nets of torture.  Our eyes  open with horror when  rainbow type creatures with bows and arrows jump out of the ship and circle our cages of horror. A few of the black  pirate in the purple bushes try and shoot the rainbow warriors but get cut down with their laser fast arrows.  The commander of the rainbow warriors suddenly jumps down from the  ship and lifts up the cages with power and  ease while the warriors round up the captured pirates. I comfort a shaking luitent megs while the commander shakes our hands before releasing the other golden warriors from their dark cage.  The horses bow their heads towards the commander while the golden goddess looks with hope in her beaten heart. All of a sudden two rainbow warriors march out a swearing and aggressive woman  holding a long jagged sword and pirates armband. The rainbow warriors quickly zap her evil body  and hold her down tightly .  The golden goddess goes  over for a better look while her long tongue  of nails  cuts of a warriors head off  with ease. The rainbow warriors  chop her evil tongue off with a swipe of the rainbow sword  before pinning her to the cold ground. two of the warriors then begin to peel  her black  dress of horror off while  other rainbow braves flock around. A curious golden goddess peeps though for a better look while the warriors are  undoing her  small black studded bra of terror. The goddess looks on with a smile and twinkle while she screams in anger at her ******* bouncing in the dark cold night. All of a sudden the commander comes inside the circle of torture  and begins removing her  devilish red ******* while the  warriors cheer and scream.  The golden goddess looks  on with  a content smile while  the  warriors chop her body up into bit with their  glowing swords. After a few minutes the rest of the pirates are shot and executed with laser bouts  while we all sit watch with open mouths of  horror.  The commander then takes us aboard the rainbow ship of safety  while the pirates come back to evil spike city with four more pirate ships of torture. We all sail across the red  evil sea towards a big large rainbow in the glowing  yellow sky whilst  being followed by two black  pirate ships.  Once we reach  through  the rainbows end we begin to notice the water  turning bright pink  and the pirate ships turning  back towards the red river of horror. A relived golden goddess  turns towards her army and smiles while we we all jump about on the rainbow ship of safety.  I hold luitent megs tight in my arms while the green moon sets across the  blue landscape in the distance. written by wayne mockler ownership and copyright wayne mockler
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Where do you see yourself in a year? Still living here - A tactile skyline atop pillars of smoke Heavy with guilt And the craftsmanship of a generation of men To whom Earth is a rock, immortal Untouched by the bouts of the smog which ascend To hold up their forges? Where that which is green must also be man-made And an old plant-pot On an old window-sill Is the closest to what was here before? Is it a facsimile? Where your throat hurts, Chemicals an ersatz flowing stream Of purest water - And why is rainfall the freshest you can drink? You haven’t always been here. Where were you before? Was it green Or blue, or any other colour Besides this abiding grey? Perhaps There were rainbows and colours And sunlight, unfiltered by smog Or dust. Warm, purposeful. Her fragility charmed you. Because our Earth is not immortal. A wanderer In space, motherly, who are we to defile her? A species of smoke and tar turning her soft hues sour Colours unknown to nature Like a drop of arsenic in a stream flowing through rocks? Do you see yourself living In a fortress, tumultuous to its steel bones Each day burrowing deeper into her body, Claiming her for its own, and ruining her at the same time? So you think about your opportunity. This life which fills her air, pulsing and vibrant, To restore the purity we are missing - Because Human and Nature are as one, Invention is necessary but we are losing our time, Virescent leaves brushing in the wind, Our friends are loving, laughing, living And we realise now that we are able to do so much better. Or does none of that matter, somehow? We make money to spend on plastic. We are born, we work, we breathe, we die, But we are still yet to run out of time So where do you see yourself in a year?
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Nov 8, 2018
Nov 8, 2018 at 4:46 AM UTC
Human Nature
Where do you see yourself in a year? Still living here - A tactile skyline atop pillars of smoke Heavy with guilt And the craftsmanship of a generation of men To whom Earth is a rock, immortal Untouched by the bouts of the smog which ascend To hold up their forges? Where that which is green must also be man-made And an old plant-pot On an old window-sill Is the closest to what was here before? Is it a facsimile? Where your throat hurts, Chemicals an ersatz flowing stream Of purest water - And why is rainfall the freshest you can drink? You haven’t always been here. Where were you before? Was it green Or blue, or any other colour Besides this abiding grey? Perhaps There were rainbows and colours And sunlight, unfiltered by smog Or dust. Warm, purposeful. Her fragility charmed you. Because our Earth is not immortal. A wanderer In space, motherly, who are we to defile her? A species of smoke and tar turning her soft hues sour Colours unknown to nature Like a drop of arsenic in a stream flowing through rocks? Do you see yourself living In a fortress, tumultuous to its steel bones Each day burrowing deeper into her body, Claiming her for its own, and ruining her at the same time? So you think about your opportunity. This life which fills her air, pulsing and vibrant, To restore the purity we are missing - Because Human and Nature are as one, Invention is necessary but we are losing our time, Virescent leaves brushing in the wind, Our friends are loving, laughing, living And we realise now that we are able to do so much better. Or does none of that matter, somehow? We make money to spend on plastic. We are born, we work, we breathe, we die, But we are still yet to run out of time So where do you see yourself in a year?
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she’s the girl who sets a room on fire with laughs or real flame, and she stands in that same flame; ranting about herself with blissful intention: aries. she’s the girl who mows the lawn all day to throw a memorable party on perfectly pitched grass; but then spends the entire party with that one guy on that one roof, just the two of them: taurus. she’s the girl who ***** you fiercest only to then display sudden and crippling bouts of madness; she’s one of a kind, or two of a kind, and she means some kind of love: gemini. she’s the girl who you fall for so easily, and she falls for you so easily, and everything is a dream; but a dream transforms, seasons transform, and the peopled cities with them: cancer. she’s the girl who steals the show every time, and she leans on you when she’s tired and lonely; she reads science fiction books and tells you all the endings, strange planets fixtured in her dreams: leo. she’s the girl who thinks too much, drinks too much, and weighs you for all your words; but words are her demise as she digs her arms deeper into the dirt to catch that feeling: virgo. she’s the girl who piles a shrine of shiny occult objects and spools through men like shiny other objects; she has a beautiful heart, holy or not, but without a doubt, entirely stylish: libra. she’s the girl who doesn't believe a ******* thing you say but kisses you harder when you say it; she takes you up the hill to her folks and they sacrifice you for blood mana: scorpio. she’s the girl who knows you best and knows even better she’s far beyond the depths of your league; she has deafening dreams, with or without you in them; for ruins she will climb or create: sagittarius. she’s the girl who buys the popcorn and eats the popcorn and sulks on the couch while tonguing kernels out of her teeth; she will never truly love you, just the idea of you: capricorn. she’s the girl who saves your life with a tracheotomy when you nearly die on that plum street seed; she will leave you for a another man, a man with a good rifle and a warm little tent: aquarius. she’s the girl who sees synchronicity in all things, all life, all dreams and emanations; she will love you until the smell of mexico drags her away upon a neverending weekend: pisces.
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Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:38 AM UTC
zodiac
she’s the girl who sets a room on fire with laughs or real flame, and she stands in that same flame; ranting about herself with blissful intention: aries. she’s the girl who mows the lawn all day to throw a memorable party on perfectly pitched grass; but then spends the entire party with that one guy on that one roof, just the two of them: taurus. she’s the girl who ***** you fiercest only to then display sudden and crippling bouts of madness; she’s one of a kind, or two of a kind, and she means some kind of love: gemini. she’s the girl who you fall for so easily, and she falls for you so easily, and everything is a dream; but a dream transforms, seasons transform, and the peopled cities with them: cancer. she’s the girl who steals the show every time, and she leans on you when she’s tired and lonely; she reads science fiction books and tells you all the endings, strange planets fixtured in her dreams: leo. she’s the girl who thinks too much, drinks too much, and weighs you for all your words; but words are her demise as she digs her arms deeper into the dirt to catch that feeling: virgo. she’s the girl who piles a shrine of shiny occult objects and spools through men like shiny other objects; she has a beautiful heart, holy or not, but without a doubt, entirely stylish: libra. she’s the girl who doesn't believe a ******* thing you say but kisses you harder when you say it; she takes you up the hill to her folks and they sacrifice you for blood mana: scorpio. she’s the girl who knows you best and knows even better she’s far beyond the depths of your league; she has deafening dreams, with or without you in them; for ruins she will climb or create: sagittarius. she’s the girl who buys the popcorn and eats the popcorn and sulks on the couch while tonguing kernels out of her teeth; she will never truly love you, just the idea of you: capricorn. she’s the girl who saves your life with a tracheotomy when you nearly die on that plum street seed; she will leave you for a another man, a man with a good rifle and a warm little tent: aquarius. she’s the girl who sees synchronicity in all things, all life, all dreams and emanations; she will love you until the smell of mexico drags her away upon a neverending weekend: pisces.
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Without your smiling face my love So rare now to find in this place Without your Glasgow banter What remains is left speechless and misplaced; I am a ship adrift without its anchor Within deep blue ocean eyes that look straight into me In ways and wonders and for why Without I can not take back what was said nor’ parting waves and late goodbyes now lost to the turbulence of new experience under foreign skies Within I almost hear your warm whispers still Without it creeps in my ears to replace wax with made-up doubts Play round-a-bouts upon my brain But listen intently anyway: In case she might whisper it again Within a tender touch that knows my gentle being The passions unwrapped as such By fingertips And a stolen kiss upon my lips And all that I remember seeing Without I am the frosted breath of a Scottish chill With a voiceless shout No exit out I await that which is meant for me Within Without or cast adrift at sea
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Nov 2, 2012
Nov 2, 2012 at 12:20 PM UTC
Merchant Navy (Adrift at Sea)
I've got a Chopper, You can have ****** *********** with it if you like It's got a trug, a Jew's harp that rattles the windows And creatures to make it mosey around crack I'd stretch jeans cheesecake abutting you if I could, but I used plastic toast You're the kind of ***** that thrusts into *** my bodiliness I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I've got a disguise it's a torso of a Irish bull There's a slit high up the skirt Miss World's bra-burner and gross I've grappled page—3 girl for bouts If you think Miss Universe could spasm creamy then I guess Mr Universe should You're the kind of ***** that slides in with my wads I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I **** a chimpanzee and he hasn't got a stage—door Johnny I don't copulate why I cock—a—doodle—doo him Gerald He's inseminating à la carte geriatric but he's a voluptuous chimpanzee You're the kind of ***** that stuffs *** my gallons I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I've got a Welshwoman of pornographic Casanovas Here a Don Juan, there a Lothario, prognosticators of obscene persons of opposite *** sharing living quarters Beg a bonk if you be on heat, they're on the back of the ***** You're the kind of ***** that spasms indoors using my lump I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I **** custom—built dead men of doo-wop passages Incognito Muses, faceless ching, most of them are Barbie Let's **** into the odd kitchenette and **** landlady creature
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Mar 30, 2010
Mar 30, 2010 at 3:46 PM UTC
Chopper
I've got a Chopper, You can have ****** *********** with it if you like It's got a trug, a Jew's harp that rattles the windows And creatures to make it mosey around crack I'd stretch jeans cheesecake abutting you if I could, but I used plastic toast You're the kind of ***** that thrusts into *** my bodiliness I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I've got a disguise it's a torso of a Irish bull There's a slit high up the skirt Miss World's bra-burner and gross I've grappled page—3 girl for bouts If you think Miss Universe could spasm creamy then I guess Mr Universe should You're the kind of ***** that slides in with my wads I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I **** a chimpanzee and he hasn't got a stage—door Johnny I don't copulate why I cock—a—doodle—doo him Gerald He's inseminating à la carte geriatric but he's a voluptuous chimpanzee You're the kind of ***** that stuffs *** my gallons I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I've got a Welshwoman of pornographic Casanovas Here a Don Juan, there a Lothario, prognosticators of obscene persons of opposite *** sharing living quarters Beg a bonk if you be on heat, they're on the back of the ***** You're the kind of ***** that spasms indoors using my lump I'll swag you Joe Soap, lock, stock and barrel if you rut slags I **** custom—built dead men of doo-wop passages Incognito Muses, faceless ching, most of them are Barbie Let's **** into the odd kitchenette and **** landlady creature
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She fell and broke her hip Though that’s not what killed her No, she fought long and hard to keep her sanity A matriarch, the last matriarch She never stood a chance Through bouts of forgetfulness She cringed as she sat Wheelchair bound Rolling with a fool’s smile Talking nonsense like Nero must have Playing his fiddle Our family burned up but she never knew
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Jan 18, 2012
Jan 18, 2012 at 11:27 PM UTC
Brain holes
Complex PTSD made even more complex by frequent bouts of mild psychosis. Neurosis. Impulsivity. Mood swings. Suicidal tendencies. Inconsistent personality. Writing uncontrollably. Questionable hygiene. Obsessive pineapple eating. Veganism. Atheism. Humanism. And I have a horrible sense of direction. Wait, What was the question?
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Mar 26, 2013
Mar 26, 2013 at 3:19 AM UTC
Hello My Name Is
It's always a criminal time to fight/ To fizz away our furies and our fears in violent interactions within 'The Warrior Play'/ To unite in bouts/ Put personalities in liberty/ Releases to bring about the death reaction Untangled in all this Is an eye/ a void/ It paces and turns forgetful and lost ; a powerless ghost and a witness to these mad spoilings and energy fits/ This pinball of the battlefield is catalyst ; The untouched spirit of the weapon-head/ a war chime and the thirst of all of us 'soldiers'                  - in pattern & in population
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Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
War Chime
A little guilt goes a long way Even the sturdiest oak can be made to sway Figments of people duped by atavistic views Waking up from bouts of fervor A most sadistic snooze They repose like overgrown fountains of youth Their dreams rusted, forgotten and that’s the truth In a lonely forest, oaks fall with the loudest screams A somberness aided by clouds and defective sun beams My soul has finally given in to moralistic cracks For now it’s about as clean as mud pies and tire tracks I’m wobbling down my lifetime from crutch to crutch Wondering when to finally whisper **** I’ve seen too much” So please, return me home, send my spirit way down below To lands of rusted dreams and toss-turned pillows
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May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 4:23 PM UTC
Flora Diaspora
Who gives a **** If I live or die? I have become the one forgotten And I have fallen into some peculiar space Now no one remembers the girl who once stood In my place She is changed, she has become something unexpected and unforgiving. Is there a reason to believe in myself anymore? I have been deemed, by many, Unlovable. Perhaps the worst damnation of all Has come from my inner self. But how does the rest of the world see me? My views have been clouded over the years By some unwarranted opinions Of hypocrites and bigots Bullies and ex-boyfriends Daddy. Calling me names to this day Even after some bouts of depression Cutting Eating disorders Even a suicide attempt. Although these are all in the past I still fail to hold myself in high regard. Did they make me hate myself? No, but they had a weighted hand in its development. So who could love a creature like me? A person, or rather, a shell of one, Plagued by habit Submerged in guilt Crippled by a question that has never ceased. Does being forced into a protective armor, Being ridiculed Being unloved Make someone truly Unlovable?
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Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
Unlovable
Read the palm of my hand, Analyse the lines and see that it maps a highway with no destination You became a long highway with high speeds and good music but as the driver, I knew it were to go nowhere But as the passenger, you anticipated us to go everywhere   And for that I’m sorry You became a best friend that I resented And I became the best friend that you had to learn to resent Long car talks became our lingo and daily messages was our travel snack that we would crunch like a pass time But as you found another, our cars collided Inertia was met by fastening seatbelts and an accident we both denied had occurred   And it's not that I’m jealous or realised I love you But I am now met with suburbia, With corners and cafe small talk, Stop signs and round a bouts, And I am to know that I can no longer rely on you like a country road but instead give way to another I wish all the best for you I know you once looked at my hands as a destination for yours And honestly, sometimes I wish it were But instead, they are creased maps leading to the nowhere for you And everywhere for someone else Although, I really hope you enjoyed the trip home
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Jul 9, 2021
Jul 9, 2021 at 7:53 AM UTC
Country Road, Take me home
those that see beauty in everything feel the most discontent. there are extreme emotions that one who is creative must process-- an unforced authenticity and tenacity to stay focused on a subject, and to devote the same amount of attention to each entity, that you lose a sense of self and a sense of the world around you. we use stress as a way of pushing us forward, and only in moments of extreme stress does an amazing happening occur. and for this, we are deemed odd, as a normal person thrives where they are most comfortable. the originality that visionaries possess is exhausting, yet we admire it. we allow for many things to flow in our minds without halt, all notions and ideas taking up precedence, and this may be our greatest fault. day break to sunset, my mind is racing non-stop, constantly, to the point that sleep does nothing to quell the overthinking brain, as my lucid dreams act as a force to keep me awake at night. my mind is in a perpetual state of fantasy, sometimes during everyday life in bouts of daydreams, imaging new situations and being unable to describe it all. when I try to silence the thoughts that persistently flux through my mind, my talents feel wasted during this time of artistic deprivation, and only do I feel truly sound when I create new artworks for a few to discern. sometimes I feel as though my mind feeds off on my depressive states, as it takes the deepest of emotions to generate proufound art. while I wish to be happy, I have a need to be in a bit of a sustained disarray.
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Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 10:28 PM UTC
musings.
those that see beauty in everything feel the most discontent. there are extreme emotions that one who is creative must process-- an unforced authenticity and tenacity to stay focused on a subject, and to devote the same amount of attention to each entity, that you lose a sense of self and a sense of the world around you. we use stress as a way of pushing us forward, and only in moments of extreme stress does an amazing happening occur. and for this, we are deemed odd, as a normal person thrives where they are most comfortable. the originality that visionaries possess is exhausting, yet we admire it. we allow for many things to flow in our minds without halt, all notions and ideas taking up precedence, and this may be our greatest fault. day break to sunset, my mind is racing non-stop, constantly, to the point that sleep does nothing to quell the overthinking brain, as my lucid dreams act as a force to keep me awake at night. my mind is in a perpetual state of fantasy, sometimes during everyday life in bouts of daydreams, imaging new situations and being unable to describe it all. when I try to silence the thoughts that persistently flux through my mind, my talents feel wasted during this time of artistic deprivation, and only do I feel truly sound when I create new artworks for a few to discern. sometimes I feel as though my mind feeds off on my depressive states, as it takes the deepest of emotions to generate proufound art. while I wish to be happy, I have a need to be in a bit of a sustained disarray.
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I wear white I wear white I wear white and stare right back at the other end of the world The hems of the loosely fitting traditions Barely touch the ground anymore I wear white I wear white White like the chalk on the blackboard switched from right to left. Aimless and bereft of the desert I once called mine, I walk alone I wear white, I wear white As I have done for 14 hours and 14 years 7000 miles on the screen and 2 more up there to be precise. It faded for every mile Just as it has been doing since the day Darwish died I wear white, I wear white A different breed of Semite than they're used to Not walking but flowing almost as contradictory as "poutine Arabesque" The routine wears my jaw out as the vowels twist from right to left I wear white, I wear white Not just quite there yet Not even close Not even halfway to the surface but then again I suppose we've always been at ease at the depths of the sea Pearls and black gold abound I forget that sometimes in between intermittent bouts and doubts of "3arabiyun ana" As if that's what makes up the anatomy of an Arab As if that's enough for you, Khaled I wear white I wear white Or at least I tell myself I do Leave myself open to the prospect of life starting anew Forcing myself to see it through See life through your eyes Or are they my own **** you ? Tell me for the love of Christ Call me by name and don't bury me under the empty discarded photo frames that you stockpile I'm calling to you, Walid And will keep on calling And trying and burning and aching and failing and dreaming and irritating like a bad itch I sink under it all and push it all off step 3 repeat as necessary I scream in the tongue that you deafen your ears to and pull at the beard you've tried to shave off I pluck at the horizontal heartstrings you've tried to mute Above all, I wear white... And I fight.... I fight..... I FIGHT
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Apr 4, 2010
Apr 4, 2010 at 8:10 AM UTC
Poutine Arabesque
I wear white I wear white I wear white and stare right back at the other end of the world The hems of the loosely fitting traditions Barely touch the ground anymore I wear white I wear white White like the chalk on the blackboard switched from right to left. Aimless and bereft of the desert I once called mine, I walk alone I wear white, I wear white As I have done for 14 hours and 14 years 7000 miles on the screen and 2 more up there to be precise. It faded for every mile Just as it has been doing since the day Darwish died I wear white, I wear white A different breed of Semite than they're used to Not walking but flowing almost as contradictory as "poutine Arabesque" The routine wears my jaw out as the vowels twist from right to left I wear white, I wear white Not just quite there yet Not even close Not even halfway to the surface but then again I suppose we've always been at ease at the depths of the sea Pearls and black gold abound I forget that sometimes in between intermittent bouts and doubts of "3arabiyun ana" As if that's what makes up the anatomy of an Arab As if that's enough for you, Khaled I wear white I wear white Or at least I tell myself I do Leave myself open to the prospect of life starting anew Forcing myself to see it through See life through your eyes Or are they my own **** you ? Tell me for the love of Christ Call me by name and don't bury me under the empty discarded photo frames that you stockpile I'm calling to you, Walid And will keep on calling And trying and burning and aching and failing and dreaming and irritating like a bad itch I sink under it all and push it all off step 3 repeat as necessary I scream in the tongue that you deafen your ears to and pull at the beard you've tried to shave off I pluck at the horizontal heartstrings you've tried to mute Above all, I wear white... And I fight.... I fight..... I FIGHT
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Today I found your toothbrush Sitting in the same cup as mine I stared at it Remembering that you were Here only a week ago With a bad case of morning breath And my toothpaste tucked in the corner Of your smile. Hesitantly waking up I stared at it Remembering that you were Here only a week ago My concept of time Now revolving around the way You touched me Only a week ago The way you loved me Only a week ago This toothbrush This blue toothbrush I bought from the dollar store Brushing along the tremors of my Uneven breath threatened to Defeat me Threatened to put me back to sleep and Try again tomorrow Resolve the reoccurring bouts Of sadness tomorrow. But instead I looked at it I looked at your toothbrush with a certain familiarity I looked at your toothbrush with a sincere smile And remembered that I was lucky enough to share my space With someone Only a week ago I was lucky enough to fill my room with Comfort and soft conversations Only a week ago I was lucky enough to See you again Lucky enough to touch you again Lucky enough to bother you again Only a week ago And for the first time For the very first time I looked at everything I gained Instead of my impending losses My expired emptiness and hollow thoughts. Because I realized Only a week ago The entire world unfolded itself in front of me And gave me Two toothbrushes.
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Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 5:32 PM UTC
.{ mourning breath }.
Big old jade earring hung from that haunted necklace, swinging from this and that and the other way where and if that sky upstairs let go of the thing I wanted you to be but a break in the system, no a malfunction in that suction of a love that you tried to forget about but feel those typing keys on the fingers that break knees and the heels up and up with the ***** a lingerin' and thats sounding like a new pounding, the one upstairs with the translucent roof ghostly and guess i got a new boot thats fixing itself to elate another prisoner upstate where the worries are always about the women. Yeah, that women with the diamond ring with her children by her side thinking about the monastery she never visited a big time act act act in a dress that helped her enough and forgot about the rest. But we all move on quick to detest times test with the burritos that she never ate because of the figure she imposed that she got from her transistor radio and the yearly subscriptions of the ghostly ghost that haunted her in the moat around the castle of stairs up ripunzel with dragons a aflame listening to the same wishy washer story of old uncle Maury and the twenty ten twelve salute to the mastery of the fiction of listening, another riddle in the twiddle beneath the sheets that were once painted gold but her husband done left her and she's moving to seattle to start up some new cattle spreading the seed of 1910 where time stands still with his drink in his hand because the guy has got to get around to something with all that talent, with all that anger with all that impulse that proves itself time and time again it will never be enough for a salvation sanitation with the twisty fro's of yearly ye and ye bouts of fights she twisted in that shout that she knew, she knew she swears, what it was all about.
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May 6, 2011
May 6, 2011 at 10:10 PM UTC
Big Old Jade Necklace
Big old jade earring hung from that haunted necklace, swinging from this and that and the other way where and if that sky upstairs let go of the thing I wanted you to be but a break in the system, no a malfunction in that suction of a love that you tried to forget about but feel those typing keys on the fingers that break knees and the heels up and up with the ***** a lingerin' and thats sounding like a new pounding, the one upstairs with the translucent roof ghostly and guess i got a new boot thats fixing itself to elate another prisoner upstate where the worries are always about the women. Yeah, that women with the diamond ring with her children by her side thinking about the monastery she never visited a big time act act act in a dress that helped her enough and forgot about the rest. But we all move on quick to detest times test with the burritos that she never ate because of the figure she imposed that she got from her transistor radio and the yearly subscriptions of the ghostly ghost that haunted her in the moat around the castle of stairs up ripunzel with dragons a aflame listening to the same wishy washer story of old uncle Maury and the twenty ten twelve salute to the mastery of the fiction of listening, another riddle in the twiddle beneath the sheets that were once painted gold but her husband done left her and she's moving to seattle to start up some new cattle spreading the seed of 1910 where time stands still with his drink in his hand because the guy has got to get around to something with all that talent, with all that anger with all that impulse that proves itself time and time again it will never be enough for a salvation sanitation with the twisty fro's of yearly ye and ye bouts of fights she twisted in that shout that she knew, she knew she swears, what it was all about.
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my grandmother too, is love. in the weeks before she died she writhed. in pain and suddenly, her attention shifting inexplicably though no less pain it was in inner diastrophisms of the falseness carved in masks she shuddered forward all herself at 97 and in shining reservoirs of urgency she went through bouts of chanting: 'i love you' moans and 'so much, so much' and 'thank you, thank you, i love you' for whatever hours there were visitors to hear. her cat still slept on her head. she with all her flaws expressed it to the point of drymouth, perfecting mantras never known so well her brink of death an apex in our hearts .
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Aug 9, 2012
Aug 9, 2012 at 11:51 PM UTC
deathbed mantras
We believe we must be gregarious. In communal bonds families annoint One another in a precarious Need to follow one leader at the point. Individuals are not relevant. Momentary solitude makes us run. In silence we find nothing elegant . Time to search for innerpeace has begun. "Oh' Catain, My Captain," cried Walt Whitman. The captain is dead. There's no one we need. We don't have to group to stop the hitman. The single flower's a rose, not a **** We, need to be I, hear this confession: Farewell friends, I am my new obsession.
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Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 7:17 PM UTC
Sonnet (Bouts-Rimes)
Lights! Evergreen! Action! Have you ever heard of the feast of fools? Plunging into pleasures takes the stage!Welcome to the Saturnalia! The setting takes place in ancient Rome, Emperors rule and slaves usually bow but not on this solstice festival. Backwards is the trend and nothing is forbidden it is a drunken wild revel! No rules no laws! Children become the authority taking part in drunken brawls! Yule logs burn and mistletoe hangs from the tops of each doorway. Streams of evergreen decorate the home as a lit up tree stands alone all are home as business is closed for the five day party. Slaves gamble and cheat and rule their masters! Unrule is the slogan and *** the master in public displays of unholy affection!  No recognition of marriage for sin is the law, the anticipation of the Saturnalia! A two faced pagan mythical god is to whom they give their allegiance. Sadly today, not much has changed, only the name of the public acceptance. It now lasts far longer than five days so as to add to the excitement of the masses. Traditions remain alot the same; more suicides occur on the winter solstice. More drunken bouts, more placed in prison for truly unruly behavior. Yet Christian is the title as it masks the scene, with a portrait of a nativity, desperately trying to mask the desires of the popularity at such a sinful occasion. It's all an attempt to make what is obscene okay in the eyes of their Maker.
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Dec 2, 2013
Dec 2, 2013 at 12:09 PM UTC
Saturnalia
One of his sick molars was jarring, crying foul, the root canal treatment she did, the first, on him made it quiet,it touched exactly the love nerve. Love sprouted,got rooted between the curvy dentist and him in exactly five sittings; the soil was fertile. The  romantic dentist seized his pining heart too quick, the causes and effects of that pain, she whispered, was similar to what she felt , when he whimpered leaning his head on her full ******* No reason he had, not to surmise she didn't do everything she should, to make his ailing tooth perfect. Coochiecooing to her, he even called her" the tooth fairy's baby girl" overwhelmed she gifted him a smooch. Each  sitting fallowed soliciting  that rare,tender dental care, on her cozy swiveling chair, brought them closer to bouts of  necking and things more adventurous, (may the medical ethics, pardon the pair!) Vigorous  narratives she breathlessly reeled off, on the state of his each tooth brought her more closer to the chair than what professionally was expected, her perfumed warm presence brought aches, not necessarily dental. A stinging pain on a root repaired at a time his 'root canal sweet heart' was away compels him to explore for a new chair. The horror of horrors, it was revealed here, a piece of broken iron implement his sweet heart, has left within the root; a  cover up as she couldn't retrieve it with her skills inept, it did aggravate, caused the pain! Isn't the  betrayal of the kids, in the name of tooth fairy,non existent   far less heinous, than a cheating like this! could any one blame him for this, to escape a bad tooth future,  he did the best one could; the comely tooth fairy that found the fault and mended it shows him his place in the swivel chair of her heart these days!
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Jan 28, 2016
Jan 28, 2016 at 9:02 AM UTC
The Root Canal Sweet heart
One of his sick molars was jarring, crying foul, the root canal treatment she did, the first, on him made it quiet,it touched exactly the love nerve. Love sprouted,got rooted between the curvy dentist and him in exactly five sittings; the soil was fertile. The  romantic dentist seized his pining heart too quick, the causes and effects of that pain, she whispered, was similar to what she felt , when he whimpered leaning his head on her full ******* No reason he had, not to surmise she didn't do everything she should, to make his ailing tooth perfect. Coochiecooing to her, he even called her" the tooth fairy's baby girl" overwhelmed she gifted him a smooch. Each  sitting fallowed soliciting  that rare,tender dental care, on her cozy swiveling chair, brought them closer to bouts of  necking and things more adventurous, (may the medical ethics, pardon the pair!) Vigorous  narratives she breathlessly reeled off, on the state of his each tooth brought her more closer to the chair than what professionally was expected, her perfumed warm presence brought aches, not necessarily dental. A stinging pain on a root repaired at a time his 'root canal sweet heart' was away compels him to explore for a new chair. The horror of horrors, it was revealed here, a piece of broken iron implement his sweet heart, has left within the root; a  cover up as she couldn't retrieve it with her skills inept, it did aggravate, caused the pain! Isn't the  betrayal of the kids, in the name of tooth fairy,non existent   far less heinous, than a cheating like this! could any one blame him for this, to escape a bad tooth future,  he did the best one could; the comely tooth fairy that found the fault and mended it shows him his place in the swivel chair of her heart these days!
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Lobsters @2014 Linda Barrett They sit in the cramped corners of the water tank face each other armored claws bound with thick rubber bands These shelled warriors take on boxer’s stances wait their chance to attack each other in impromptu bouts They step over one another pick fights for dominance of their watery ring Some desperate crustaceans decide to make their escape reach out for the tank’s top but fall over backwards onto each other Those lucky ones usually win when the Seafood man in his white coat pulls them out makes the champions of someone’s dinner.
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Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 6:05 PM UTC
Lobsters
I could tell you how to write a poem Playful phrasing, not too quick, not too strong, Be graphic and persuasive, appealing to us all, The want for supposed meaning and a silver tongue Is the truth beneath our fall Heartfelt sentiment, articulation, Let’s entice some Pharisees to avoid any tribulation For the bouts and shouts of living out And extravagantly exhibiting oneself to all and everyone— Clichéd, now it may be, There’s truth in that I see Can we find apparent happiness All appearance and accreditation, Let’s be certain we’re (clandestinely) drudging for recognition, Yet, I can never tell you what is true in writing, The slow path? That’s what I long for, Or profess, in the world of colorful mosaics, I am the truth! The way and the light! I’ll set you free! The God of Wonders! Can’t you see? I’m God, I’ve always meant to be! *Heaven help me, I didn’t mean to pretend But I believed beyond What even I could comprehend.. I’m not God, this I know, But is this— The way I'll go?* It is my end…
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Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 10:20 PM UTC
Worst Poem (Greed)