"bourgeoise" poems
I though he carried the light
where words would illuminate
driving me to a euphoric ******
a man without a face or a trace
unhindered in a double live and lies
a bubble of psychotic psychic surety
his passion was an addiction
my reservations moved a notch
addicted to a body of ideology
the stances of philosophical terms
uncovering ancient possibilities
the unfelt mysteries of history
veiled in icicles of pretence and lies
as if a Marxist, a closet bourgeoise
The stoicism of present bargains
questioning Socrates and morality reasons
a fatal dose ,examining the unexamined
as colourful as his mind blew my inner glow
he was lost in sad and low dialogues
afraid to face the earthly shallow shadows
yet his spirits moved deep within mine
and it paralysed and fed on my energy
and his delusion became my seduction
but he woke my inner poetic tongue
letting it caress all his inner wounds
A shadow hiding behind Frankenstein’s
a sly monster who lied to my eyes
ghosting in with the a pen that weakens
romancing with letters of a fiery doom
a penpal whom I met within my lowest
but whose words lay in a deep unending quarry
his warmth I could never ever tell
his kiss only a draft on the dewy grass
Jul 22, 2018
Jul 22, 2018 at 5:29 PM UTC
Somewhere along the line
it feels like I lost my poetry.
But I've always had a deep affinity of childhood curious-gaze with the light of a passing car slicing through a slumped drapery in the dead of a powerless October night
like a fumbling mouse with night-vision, glassy eyed, walk, walk, walk
run, run, run
scurry-rubber like an imperial humvee of red-carpet glamor.
Somewhere along the line
the freeze of a less-than-bourgeoise temperature never felt close to Antarctic
until the ring of a cell-phone became my national anthem
and the complacent all-eternity-and-everything-we-are-and-more reflective one-eye of a laptop became my national flag
I waived it with surrender calling to all nation states that 'I don't give a sweet ****
entertain me.'
watching politics like sports and sports like politics I couldn't help but hear the old Native inside of me scream in suffocated final breaths so I turned up the volume to drown him out
and when I wished to return to his comforting embrace, I found he had drown to death
so all I could do was stand over his wading body in the river of my mind and lax my shoulders in defeat.
I rang the midnight church bell of 'send new message' to tell the world that didn't care
the shaman is dead.
all they said was
'finally, the shaman is dead.'
I nodded, laughed, locked the bathroom door
and cried until the river ran dry
the shamans body so far down creek I could pretend to forget he had ever existed
the ache inside became a masked anonymity with the glare of Dorian Gray
I shrugged and said, 'I could never make time anyways'
and fell right back into my sleepy routine with another cup of coffee.
Nov 8, 2012
Nov 8, 2012 at 10:06 PM UTC
It caught me off guard, this sudden feeling of loss, this sense that something beautiful was gone forever. I didn't know what to do with it, this overwhelming idea that now, out of neglect or shame or starvation, a work of art had withered away into nothing.
I suppose that I'm beginning to understand that the world isn't a narrative, it's not a story by an author with a plot and a hero.
This is the essential fallacy taught to children with a streak of the hopeless romantic in them:
the desperate belief that somewhere out there is a place for people who live their lives waiting for King Arthur instead of Jesus.
And even now, with every word comes the terrifying truth that my babbling is going to change absolutely nothing, not a single atom is going to **** an electron on the completion.
I won't feel better, the situation won't change, you the reader aren't going to say EUREKA!!!! at the end of it, so what's the point?
Expression, that is the point of it, and to be be completely blunt about it all, I hope some one I love and admire will read this and say the typical things that are said when people are honest on public forums. Do I have a point? No, not really.
So what do I do with this loss, this empty fireplace in my soul?
I drink and smoke and **** it away, stay so busy that I don't have time to consider it, this knowledge that the fire has gone out. How typical of me, how unoriginal and bourgeoise to write another ode to the trials of the individual.
Who am I to feel loss and pain when my stomach is full and my needs are met?
Aren't I another servant of economic output?
Should I not donate time and money to a cause more worthy of respect than a withering example of excessive individualism such as myself?
No, and what's more, **** you society, **** you for taking away the only haven I ever had: my head. **** you for marketing my imagination,
for inventing a bunch of ******** about responsibility for the greater good,
for poisoning the little freedom I do have with feelings of uselessness.
And most especially **** you for your greatest crime of all;
implanting this feeling of guilt whenever I do anything with my own well-being in mind.
You have created a system that perpetuates itself on shame and output,
you have killed the desire to create for it's own sake.
**** you, and I'm going to unplug from you if it's the last ****** thing I ever do.
Jul 16, 2013
Jul 16, 2013 at 10:06 PM UTC
Independence and autonomy are subjugated by the transnational bourgeoise; and a colorful Mediterranean cuisine is not dissimilar to the Machiavellian arrays of contemporary propaganda.
Therein lurks a traumatic bonding from the origins of Stockholm, which is characterised by a cryptogram of questionable empathy.
It truly is a lucrative business, oh hamster on the wheel of dissociative conformity. Have a consultation appointment with Salvatore Lucania of La Cosa Nostra.
We are boiling in a fascinating and central superintendence. Therefore, my weary and ego-dystonic figment of contemporary virtual relationship: Do not express allegiance to your captor.
Dec 31, 2013
Dec 31, 2013 at 3:48 PM UTC
**** all the children get a chance at the sandpit... only the dog collared ones attempting wrestling matches of biceps tonguing rhetoric touring waggle get the pulpit... kinda **** if you ask me: said sir sacrifice-a-lot when sir lancelot married; but all the **** happened after the ukrainian ***** it was the russian bourgeoise one... you forget you dim-witted bolshevik... the russian one... the russian one! not the ukrainian one! ah crap... too late, the crimson lunar eclipse from edinburgh to st. petersburg gave me mythological charisma; endeavour of the readers who can’t remember my tourism earning the year 2007 as distinct: i can earn an awareness of lying about the jealousy i have for the century of being a musketeer defending louis vix; ja athos! ein athos! i’m athos.... wrinkly & masturbated ******** toss! hey ** hey ** we dig dig dig dig dig, it's what we like to do... coal mine.... coal mine... coal mine... with a millionth diamond... we dig dig dig dig dig... hej ** do lasu by sie szło... high ** high ** unto abreit macht frei we go.
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
Tonight I have decided
That love should be indicted
Because I am not the final "Z"
But alas I am free.
Yesterday I said good bye
I'm deserving of a wise guy
Because I am not a bourgeoise
But alas I am free.
Tomorrow I may just weep
It's hard to feel incomplete
Yes, I don't flow like the ocean sea
But alas I am free
Currently I am exultant
For this is the resultant
I am a bel esprit
(But) Alas I am free
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 8:05 PM UTC
I've shouldered heartache, shouldered pain
And I have taken all the blame
For through my weakness of volition,
I've relinquished all ambition
To be more than just a vacant gazer,
Like one who claims their soul is braver,
Yet capitulates before the saber.
And man excels in lies and treason,
Extinguishes the age of reason
For if all men are free to think,
Then surely the Leviathan must sink
And with it take down all degrees of
malfeasance is stormy seas,
And from the ashes birth and rise,
a phoenix silhouettes the skies
Who pirouettes and sparks with glee,
Arching towards the bourgeoise
And whenceforth now but down below
This sinking pit you surely know
Cannot be held, cannot be kept
Our Natures toil their final breath
And with the fall of all from grace,
The wolves oh long ago they raced
For all there is a time to rise
Our ignorance lay in our eyes
Through history I again recite,
That dawn doth fade before the night
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 7:26 PM UTC
J'adorais ce mot : l'imprévu.
Ma vie parisienne se rythmait à ce terme,
Une chose encore que je n'avais jamais vécu.
On ne sait pas ce que la vie renferme.
Je me levais le matin, en me demandant
comme finirais-je ma journée ?
La réponse fut logique évidemment :
On ne le sait jamais.
Le boulevard de Saint-Germains-Des-Prés
je traversais, comme tout les jours d'ailleurs.
Observer les gens, c'est ce que j'aimais
et soudain ils m'ont fendu le cœur.
La ********** de la population bourgeoise
était contre celle des délaissées
Leurs vies était tout à fait sournoise
contre celle des désemparées.
Ainsi, sur le chemin menant à l'école,
je me suis questionnée.
Pourquoi cette triste métropole
m'a t-elle ouvert les yeux sur la réalité ?
Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 2:56 PM UTC
Madame et Pauline Roland,
Charlotte, Théroigne, Lucile,
Presque Jeanne d'Arc, étoilant
Le front de la foule imbécile,
Nom des cieux, cœur divin qu'exile
Cette espèce de moins que rien
France bourgeoise au dos facile,
Louise Michel est très bien.
Elle aime le Pauvre âpre et franc
Ou timide, elle est la faucille
Dans le blé mûr pour le pain blanc
Du Pauvre, et la sainte Cécile
Et la Muse rauque et gracile
Du Pauvre et son ange gardien
À ce simple, à cet indocile.
Louise Michel est très bien.
Gouvernements de maltalent,
Mégathérium ou bacille,
Soldat brut, robin insolent,
Ou quelque compromis fragile,
Géant de boue aux pieds d'argile,
Tout cela son courroux chrétien
L'écrase d'un mépris agile.
Louise Michel est très bien.
ENVOI
Citoyenne ! votre évangile
On meurt pour ! c'est l'Honneur ! et bien
**** des Taxil et des Bazile,
Louise Michel est très bien.
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La vindicte bourgeoise assassinait mon nom
Chinoisement, à coups d'épingle, quelle affaire !
Et la tempête allait plus âpre dans mon verre.
D'ailleurs du seul grief, Dieu bravé, pas un non,
Pas un oui, pas un mot ! L'Opinion sévère
Mais juste s'en moquait autant qu'une guenon
De noix vides. Ce bœuf bavant sur son fanon,
Le Public, mâchonnait ma gloire... encore à faire.
L'heure était tentatrice, et plusieurs d'entre ceux
Qui m'aimaient, en dépit de Prudhomme complice,
Tournèrent carrément, furent de mon supplice,
Ou se turent, la Peur les trouvant paresseux.
Mais vous, du premier jour vous fûtes simple, brave,
Fidèle : et dans un cœur bien fait cela se grave.
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