"blotch" poems
The tide collects it all by morning;
The drama and the ***** napalmed across the path.
The scenes at second warning for most had been swept away
Before they wiped the sand from their shoes.
Empty cans of Dutch and Tuborg slouched on the dunes
Are tight-lipped about the Velvet Strand's secret ecosystem;
An underground microcosm;
A peripheral cluster of seething emotions drowned.
Memories of those years - although some expired,
The vestiges take pride of place - hold a cosmic clump of smells,
Tastes, firsts, goosebumps, hangovers, and ends.
I never before understood what I was holding on to.
Winters down in the shelters nearly killed us but we
Huddled through the cold, lit cheap firelogs and
Found our oblivion. It didn't take much for me to develop
A stagger - tolerance for a lot of things was learned later.
I narrowly recall my first taste of poor judgement and
Hazy-headed stargazing. Six cans of Stonehouse
Dry cider - most of which ended up on the hillside -
Was a ridiculous endeavour that will always be sublime.
At the heart of it, I did it to impress a girl;
The one every boy has or has had that sticks;
Who holds your firsts and your hands and makes
Things simple if only for her complexity;
The one that never fails to bring upon digression when
Pens are involved. Revisiting reminiscence on a jarring note,
I think of my Junior Cert exams and a cross-dressed man
Exposing himself to two uniformed boys behind the public toilets.
This one doesn't stir the joy of the others.
This one I wish would dissolve;
An ugly, awkward blotch on a childhood.
Luckily fondness trumps disgust when recalling that place
Because of sunrises and sunsets absorbed from the roof.
The Summers spent jumping the gap and drowning in the
Heat of the sun were everything.
The fugitive sand between our toes and under finger nails
Became an accepted nuisance, a part of the territory;
A lingering grain or two to drag you back.
I miss waking up with the smell of last night's faded fire.
May 3, 2015
May 3, 2015 at 8:22 PM UTC
With white frost gone
And all green dreams not worth much,
After a lean day's work
Time comes round for that foul ****
Mere bruit of her takes our street
Until every man,
Red, pale or dark,
Veers to her slouch.
Mark, I cry, that mouth
Made to do violence on,
That seamed face
Askew with blotch, dint, scar
Struck by each dour year.
Walks there not some such one man
As can spare breath
To patch with brand of love this rank grimace
Which out from black tarn, ditch and cup
Into my most chaste own eyes
Looks up.
8.2k
Across an ocean of canvas white
A stroke of beauty comes to light
The patterns even, contrast, and fair
Complexity in the mind created with care
Do not allow a single smear
To blotch the canvas and make unclear
What blossoms made with hand and mind
What intricacies you will find
A root of commons grown within
of Artist and Gazer's ken
Now engrossed with personal thought
Through paintings on canvas, connection is sought.
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 10:36 PM UTC
My edges have no border
I seep & blotch the air
My thoughts a chaotic disorder
Laughing in silent despair
Who am I?
I’m the colorful mix
Of the pills I take at night
Grappling at the latest “fix”
But I never get the dosage right
So broken I shall stay
To listen but not to obey
I’m the perfect daughter
I know I ought to be
Smiling sequined next to my father
A beautiful sight to see
Painted fingertips, quiet lips
But I’m slipping from sexist grips
I’m the crash of atoms & molecules
The patterned DNA that labels our culture
Theorems, functions, evolutionary tools
Poe knew: Science is a “vulture
Whose wings are dull realities”
Fact blinds what my mind sees
Forgive me I’m singing
Of what I am & cannot be
& My ears are still ringing
With who society has asked me to be
Nov 7, 2012
Nov 7, 2012 at 5:10 PM UTC
She have never been into things such as growing a garden, they say her potential will have to be reached by a streak of light draping through the window pane.
she builds her greenhouse and collected some seeds, she doesn't sort if she'll grew by season or if it's a monstrous plant— she just want to see a lot of butterflies that she have never seen before.
she remain unimpressed, seeing a hues full of periwinkle and blues, roses and thorns decorated beautifully by her fragile hands, you can see on her plain tone the visible traces of paper cuts and ink blotch.
one day, a boy visited her garden, he grew fond and perpetrated on every flower she had. they sat on an empty, unfurnished room, filled with his paintings and brushes, not seem to notice the one uncleaned palette she used and left forgotten. She watched the boy as he paints, as if he knew every detail of his magic, it reminds her of the days she spent the same way, on how she loves it, tenderly in her heart— she said he was a stray butterfly, everything on him is luminous.
they spent their time there, little did the boy knew that she loves everything he had done on the garden. She wonders how a little misadventures were found in a wild wood.
Oct 8, 2021
Oct 8, 2021 at 11:00 PM UTC
I write too many poems about my body.
but it’s the only house my spirit knows
and the only movement is my own
I could write you a love poem
or one about the way the kids in my hometown
used to walk the traintracks like they led somewhere
but i’m completely obsessed with this idea of entrapment
that i could be more than skin and bones that i could be made of
ink blotch shoulderblades
ribbon ribcages
clothespin wrists
and ruby lips
that i could abandon myself and get out of this cage
that’s too big or too small or whatever the **** they tell me this week.
Jul 10, 2014
Jul 10, 2014 at 10:59 PM UTC
Will it be latte, espresso, or tea
Daydream coffee drinker, that would be me
Nat King Cole on the audio
Singing about things I already know
People watch
Coffee cup lipstick blotch
Pours the cream to cool the steam
Fearing what the future will bring
I may be living on a shoesting
In a coffeehouse daydream
Things are better than what they may seem
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 5:13 PM UTC
One hot morning I awoke as Ted Bundy. My bed sheets were soaked with sweat that I continued to perspire. I threw the linens off my body and sat up in desperation to find a cool bit of oxygen for me to breathe. As I gasped for air a tainted scent filled my mouth, and at that moment I thought myself ill. I leaped out of bed and ran to the bathroom but clumsily tripped over unfamiliar feet. These feet threw me to the floor and lay me at eye level with the prettiest blue eyes. In shock I sat back and pushed my body into a corner of the room. The eyes weren’t blinking and the body wasn’t moving, but a small pool of red lay by the body’s head mixing in with the blond streaks of its hair. My eyes filled with tears and I glanced past the body into the mirror and saw a stranger staring back at me. I frantically flipped my hands back and forth in disbelief that I was who was starring back at me, but then was distracted by a blotch of red on my nail in the shape of a heart. I stopped, giggled and wiped away my tears. One hot morning I awoke as Ted Bundy, and never came back.
Oct 13, 2012
Oct 13, 2012 at 8:58 PM UTC
You are like toxin. Just the simplest thought of you can send my body into a figurative halt.
My heart stops.
The constant reminder of how volatile our union was stuck like gum to the fibers my brain.
My perpetual hate reminds how much I love still you. Yet I hate you.
I don’t know if it was your coy nature or the way that you made me feel like I mattered for once in my life.
But you will forever be engraved in my body; my organs will never part with the thought of your touch.
You are still the reason I cry at night and the reason I cannot love more than lust.
You destroyed me. Taking every fiber of my being and rewriting it to fit you and you only.
You don’t want me, yet no one else can have me. It’s like a curse that will never be lifted.
Whenever I looked at you I saw wedding bells and children and a house in the mountains with all the glorious passionate love that you promised me.
Now, I see how stupid I was. How completely crazy insane I must have been to believe that someone as cold as you could ever build something to last.
You flooded my chest with tea and washed out with coffee. Only to leave what had yet to be stained with a red blotch in the shape of your lips on the lining of my heart.
You make me sick. I am ill with the corrupted grunge stain that your love left behind.
I love you, but I ******* hate you. And I cannot even begin to think that I will ever be able to love again.
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 11:58 PM UTC
a million lines make a window:
each suspended,
each digressing in the paleness
of space.
this distance from
you (a blotch of dark ink,
bits of pressed lead)
can never hurt more
than your expectation.
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 6:41 PM UTC
Hoobler Hobbler:
He brings only fatigue.
He is but just annoying,
He rarely does intrigue.
Even my brothers are
Extremely irritated so,
For they cannot do anything
Since he really cannot go
For even a strongman like old Mal
He cannot move this hefty tonne,
Both Adsel and Luke alike
Their words like an empty gun
Frank cannot do anything,
He just perches there to watch;
Mike and Blake hide in their hole
And Rooney's but a blotch
Oh this fascinating team
For once they really can't control;
This heavy weighted sleepyhead
Has just worsened this hellhole
Hoobler Hobbler:
It's not just the fatigue,
He also brings along chaos
But still doesn't intrigue
Sep 11, 2013
Sep 11, 2013 at 11:08 AM UTC
The ink will leak,
To manifest to beautiful design,
Or simply blotch on available canvas,
It does not matter;
The pen is broken,
The ink will leak
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 1:47 PM UTC
The funny things that love will make you do,
from believing in god,
to tearing you into two.
As we fight for life's ******
which we shoot into our heart,
disregarding what ripped us apart,
all so that we can make a fresh start,
just to be a blotch on life's art.
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 11:22 AM UTC
The happiest day of my life,
Began with a whisper,
My best friends and I,
Addmitting our innermost insecurity,
A body,
Or the thought of failing,
Or an imperfection with the eye.
She talked about it,
How embarassed she was,
That plain on her eye,
It was there,
"A horrible blotch."
"A sty"
We continued talking,
Moving on to senselss topics,
Ice cream,
Doctor who,
Our favourite jokes.
But I stole a glance at my two friends
He was whispering in her ear,
Just loud enough for her to hear.
"You are so beautiful"
He rejoined the conversation.
Just as a solitary tear ran down her round face. She was smiling.
I continued talking about Doctor Who.
Like nothing had ever happened.
Because some moments are meant to be stolen.
Dec 11, 2013
Dec 11, 2013 at 11:08 PM UTC
I dream of the man who stood beneath the maple tree
A handsome man with a wicked grin
Who held my hand and kissed my knees
When I fell from atop the maple tree
Who made me an easel, but discouraged me from art
Who drove me to school before the sun was up
And called me a liar, a petty little ****
His shadow lingers beneath the maple tree
A lie. A con. A mask. A blotch .
A man lost to memories I wish not to dust
I wonder why I cannot forget
Why it still hurts to think of him
Knowing he was the worst kind of man
Jun 24, 2013
Jun 24, 2013 at 2:51 AM UTC
You’re his
And he’s hers
You can complain in song or in verse
It doesn’t change anything
You’ll remain his
And you’ll keep hoping he’s not hers anymore
You want to know why
It’s because he didn’t ask
He didn’t even need to try
He didn’t come to you
You gave yourself
Forgetting selfish feelings
And pride for him
Now you’re repenting
Or you’re pretending to
You cannot be feeling remorse
For what your heart –
Or maybe it’s your brain –
Decides
It’s not your fault,
That’s what you keep thinking
And really you should
There is no reason for you to take the blame
For what?
Falling in infatuation? –
Love is too big a word
And you know it
And she’s still there
A big blotch of jealousy
On your idyllic picture
A stain in your happiness
You have to live with her
Even better, you have to accept
That even when – if – she gets out
Of that picture
You can’t do anything
You don’t want to be that girl, do you?
Pride is slowly creeping back up
“I’m not taking anyone’s sloppy seconds!”
“I’m better than this.”
And maybe somewhere in there
Is a little concern for others
“I can’t do that to her.”
“What will people think?”
Oh, there we have it
You don’t want to be known
As that girl
You know her,
Of course you do
You might’ve laughed at her
You might’ve pitied her
And now you want to avoid becoming her
Following like a dog an inexistent trail
But you know that trail isn’t there, right?
You’re better than that, right?
Is that what you tell yourself
Lying alone in bed at night
In the violent imprisonment
You suffer?
You’re not better that that, dear
What do you see in his looks and his smiles?
What do you hear in his words and in his laugh?
You see it, right?
That invisible thread that ties you together?
Of course you do
He’s perfect for you
you have so much in common
I’d urge you to forget him
But you feel special
You think he actually likes you
He doesn’t
He’s playing
He’s a guy, just like the others
I hear you
“No he’s sensitive”
“No he’s my friend”
Friend?
I don’t think so
You are not friends
You’re that girl he sometimes talks to
Especially when he needs something
You’re kind of weird
But always willing to help
And it’d be sad
If you were only that way with him
But it’s okay, I guess because
You’re always like that
That’s one good thing
About this destructive relationship
I’m happy you’re not changing
I’m happy you’re the same girl
The same person
But I wish you weren’t so smitten
I wish you didn’t care so much
Nov 17, 2012
Nov 17, 2012 at 4:27 PM UTC
(the waiting room)
these magazines do nothing to help
as I flip through the empty pages
ringing commotion of the phone
in my mind, a war still rages
(this will only hurt for a minute)
this isn't home
the couch seems so *****
from the sifting comb
from words not worthy
(doctor do little will see you now)
have a seat, lay back, and relax
tell me about your panic attacks
I know you better than you know yourself
and my money even comes in stacks
(analyze but do not treat)
what does this ink blotch look like?
...a ****** ink blotch!
how does this make you feel?
how does that make you feel?
...inadequate!
(anger management)
when you get angry
just scream into a pillow
or talk to this puppet...
(and I'm the one who is crazy?)
please see cashier on your way out
Nov 9, 2014
Nov 9, 2014 at 6:10 PM UTC
it is so easy to **** me unknown brother
carved Samaritan image
do yourself a favor I’m an undecided blotch of color
indigo reaching for purple
shut at once the book you read from
and I’ll become a butterfly with my wings crucified
on two pages
~~~
maybe because of the need to forget
I see death as a hindrance on the wheel of torture
a camphorated ointment for nervous fibers ends
I’m closer today to the tree for hanging the noose
from which God forbid you to taste
look vanitas vanitatum
Yorick’s head lies on your plate when you receive your alms
the candle the baked apple and the wheat porridge helping
~~~
I stand up facing the wall
my voice isn’t yet untied
I wonder what is stronger and if the heart tips the scales
my achy breaky heart
on the balance between life and death
there are a few extra grams of soul
we will need very tiny jewellery weights
psalm 103
Fibonacci’s series the golden ratio
~~~
look my child the soft carpet
my warm body upon which you step this sacred day
my soles are thin they stick to the red clay
I turn upon the potter’s wheel
my everlasting mentioning
like I was that’s how I’ll stay
a crumb of Eucharist bread on the lips
the first and the last
Aug 17, 2014
Aug 17, 2014 at 12:34 PM UTC
i crinkle and split the foil,
most generous , of pale light
budding sickly about the charming dint
of your ivory calf. satirically the spades small, sharp, and digging
the suns grave
blotch in twinkling scars
pleasant acne 'pon the eve's face
soft infinity:
a plunging savagery
i'm a whelp
to thy sugar so bittersweet as throat gorging lush vertebrae
your spine, i cradle haphazardly in my stupid fit of flat tissue
in my ointment you are the grandest fly
a pestilence i gladly so lovingly
carcass
Dec 1, 2010
Dec 1, 2010 at 10:40 AM UTC
The sky opens up
And the clouds of my mind rain down
Pour on the dreams of tomorrow
Until they're soggy, ruined things
Bleeding into one another until all that's left is a mess
A jumble of black ink.
Broken memories of a time before
Are swept into the flood
And the river of me flows rapidly
Until the sharp stones are worn smooth
And I'm left with little of what I once had.
Until my emotions build a raft
Of good times and bad
Of uncertain hope for the future
Void of fickle ink that can blotch
And written instead with permanent marker in its place.
Because the good times are now
But surely there are more to come
So I forge paddles out of thin webs of happiness
And begin to fight the current
To start moving back upstream.
And the webs weave into permanency
Until the future irons itself out
And the past replays over and over
And they both meet in the present
So a golden light shines on it all.
I can breathe without the fear of drowning at last.
Jul 1, 2016
Jul 1, 2016 at 9:55 PM UTC
the smoke rising off the snow
like the wet breath of hot jewels.
is draped over the dead.
i have no joy where the happy is done.
and all the pilots blotch the tarmac
having crashed into
chrysanthemums.
i am Yorktown and Springhill.
a swathe of feral and ironworks
on a bleached stone
in a pit.
i collude with the sun
and cavort with the moon's sisters.
swelling my coffers with blood
spilled on a Living
Thing.
and i forget.
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 1:57 PM UTC
The trembling hands
When you look at the blank pages
Minds wandering for inspiration
Wary of touching the pristine
Ink raging, bubbling with passion
When the pen shall write
The first words, and then another
Minds afresh, it’s a new day
Pen, held between the twirling fingers
Wondering, what a circus
Reeling under as many ideas
Poet’s mind is on a roller coaster ride
So many facets of life
Reflections of each and every event
On the agile mind, wreaks havoc
Ideas, ideas, and ideas
Hoping the ink shall flow as fluently
Not leaving a blotch
But, series of beautiful interpretations
Of life, there are many
As many we choose to portray
Finally, the pen shall kiss the paper
Continuing the love story
It’s a trilogy, of the poet, pen and paper
Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 7:16 AM UTC
My red haired lady was reading a book
when my eyes with love did upon her look,
She was lyrically wrapped in her world
as I walked to the counter for my tongue to unfurl,
She politely asked what it was that I wanted at the cinema to watch
but my words spilled and on the counter left an inky blotch,
I finally asked her what it was that she was reading
and she smiled shyly and said "Richard Wagner is what I'm studying",
She was intrigued one such as I knew so well Parsifal
and so there it was our first meeting so quaint and graceful,
I to the cinema would then often trek
just so that I could with her gently chat,
This was the beginning of our trust and friendship
but something happened and she is now in silence gripped.
©Rangzeb Hussain
Apr 14, 2010
Apr 14, 2010 at 12:52 PM UTC
When my sun is down
But you're feeling up to something,
I'd catch the closest train
To take us to the world.
A world away from here
Or I'd build a fort in the living room
Complete with a damsel in distress
Only if it meant that
Your fingertips
Could save the words I
Could not speak
Or I'd float above the ceiling
To a cloud by which holds
the name of Ten
Ten, Ten. Tender
To the touch
I am no great
literary piece,
but an atom in a world
full of molecules.
Attracted to the valence
of allure
Would you catch my dreams
Somewhere in your arms?
Be the ocean for my raindrops?
Find me a picture
To smile at
In the cotton ball sky?
Be the rustle in the trees
and the stone that created
a perfect skip?
Be my glass of wine
at the end of the day
or the perfect blotch of paint
that makes the picture whole?
Because I find a beauty
Somewhere in your stranger heart.
I've imagined every life
except the one I have.
As you pass me by
I'll never have to guess what
Could have been.
I already know.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 9:22 PM UTC