"bloodiest" poems
Nine months after I was born, the Twentieth Century began to collapse.
East Berlin,graffiti-mural concrete, a jutted enigma scratched
on ordinance maps, the sort found
landscaping westernized Primary School walls.
Where within, labored in real time, the television told my parents
(and everyone else given to social conservation in 1989) that a wall falling down
would bring an end to the gap between the working and the working poor.
Freedom waited for many on the other side.
But of course, History draws up different plans.
Never content to just go out with a bash, or to
fleetingly drift by leaving
in its absence an underwhelmed lull
The bloodiest century yet
left the new world entrenched
in an odyssey of hatreds
handed down from the past
right about the time human suffering became a bit dull
and the peaceful countries were too busy
tripling their money instead.
What does History really teach us and what are the real benefits
of being free, or freer than you were before?
Human ambition, which burns it way out of any oasis of calm,
which calls children out of sleeping in the night
Always seeks out the exhaustible
An inveterate Black sheep leading astray
the ever susceptible ****** lamb
Delusion’s strange bedfellows are the worthiest adversaries
to run away from, to reserve contrition for.
Unlike the inevitability of uprooted animal migration
during a monsoon swell
Can a people with an invested addiction
to the pursuit of happiness
Ever truly be prepared
for the inevitability of rapid change?
Jun 16, 2013
Jun 16, 2013 at 6:00 PM UTC
Five months on the front
Between Arras and Albert
Both sides hunt
For the other
Redcoats and Frogs side by side
Putting away their hate
Both filled with pride
To fight
Drain the Fritz of their resources
Push them back as far as they could
But the enemy observes
And are waiting
Huge frontal attack, approached on foot
Ordered by General Haig
The Germans stayed put
And killed from afar
July 1st was day one
November 18th was the last
When all the guns
Were dead
It was the bloodiest battle anyone saw
Over one million deceased
No mortal law
Ruled here
13 Kilometers were gained
Using tanks and heavy gear
Reserves were drained
Yet no one cared
Friends, fathers, husbands, brothers,
Fought and lost their lives
For the children, sisters, wives and mothers
Who were left behind
Only gravediggers make money here
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 12:28 AM UTC
I will not attribute honor
to the bloodiest of games
to cold, condoned killings
faceless murders without blame.
War is to the green-clad
a state-sanctioned game
I will not call that thing honor
for which good men should feel shame.
Jun 28, 2010
Jun 28, 2010 at 10:18 PM UTC
I wish you'd miss me too.
Kisses like candy, soul like poison.
One hard ****** down I went.
Because alcohol tastes better than tears.
Still waiting on your return home.
We're all trying to forget someone.
Your scars will never wash off.
I'll choose happiness every **** time.
Not feeling gets easier over time.
I love you. Sorry. It's complicated.
I asked. You answered with silence.
He's the enbodiment of toxic masculinity.
We turned out tomorrow's into yesterday's.
The bloodiest battles are fought within.
Six words can't bring them back.
One ticket to anywhere but here.
So close and yet so far.
Mind says left. Heart feels right.
Admiring the view. Going through hell.
We climbed higher, I fell further.
Jul 7, 2016
Jul 7, 2016 at 2:12 AM UTC
How fast fade most pinkest trees
How digits dance 'neath Catalpa breeze
Ignoring last October's deadest death
They arrived on time then took last breaths
Scattered seeds among their foes
Had no need of planting earthen work
As cycles shadow ploughman's dream
The fickle fruitless cherry grows
He rode rough crests over wildest waves
His ship stayed unsunk under skinny toil
His family landed and held holiest hope
Now blossom buds over grassy graves
Darkness darkened darkest health
Metal sheets broke bones full force
Lungs would not get the care of air
But hours still channeled wisdom wealth
She bent the knee for sacred loves
She scraped it on the firmest strife
Her pies nor pulchritude but soul inspired
Now stillness stays beneath starry moves
When bloodiest blood ****** didn't produce
It drained itself from veins and strained
Veiling valleys making mountains make-believe
But sharpest tongue emptiness refused
What meagre maggots worthless worms
Are those of us who never yearn!
We rarely learn to live so well as they
Who gave us genes and grace and days
All I offer oft only when I try and I work
Nothing else can I do nor more can I hope
This most modest shallowest honor to give
Of them in springtime remembering is
May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 12:00 PM UTC
Dear underclassmen,
You will learn so much.
You’ll learn that when seniors tell you the main stairs are only for upperclassman they’re lying, that freshman Friday isn’t a thing, and elevator passes aren’t actually real.
You’ll learn WWII started in 1939 and it was the bloodiest of them all.
You’ll learn that sometimes, things don’t have to be ****** to be painful.
Sometimes sterile wounds heal the slowest.
High school will teach you to love with a vigor you didn't see coming and to hate with a passion you never saw possible, and you’ll find that after feeling them both so deeply, it sometimes becomes impossible to tell the difference between the two.
You’ll learn about drugs- that they don’t always come in little ziplock bags or orange pill bottle.
You’ll learn that often times, they don’t come in powder or pills at all- they come in words on a page or in blue eyes staring at you through wayfarer glasses that are so clouded you find yourself wondering how they can even see the world around them.
You’ll find your drug- everyone does. You’ll know you’re addicted because to you, it's what keeps the earth spinning on its axis; it's what puts the stars in the sky; it's what you see when you hear the word love.
You'll get addicted to something, and you’ll lose it, and you’ll move on.
You’ll learn that things can change in the blink of an eye, which is just as fast as we are to post our emotions in 180 characters or less, just as fast as we are to scrutinize others for who they love, what they wear,
and what they’re addicted to.
Things change as fast as the speed of sound: 186,282 miles per second.
I learned that in chemistry.
I also learned that Fleen Dog wasn't kidding when he said if you lean in too close to a Bunsen burner your hair will catch on fire.
I've learned that if you don’t stay in the inexhaustible realm of school dress code, you’re a delinquent, but if you wear hoodies everyday, you’re a scrub. If you don't, you're a try-hard.
I've learn that for some reason the word try-hard is an insult.
I've learned that stares can be so heavy you can physically feel the weight of their eyes pushing down on your back as they watch your every move, but more importantly I've learned that those stares only matter if you actually let them.
You’ll learn that often times- there is no correct answer and sometimes you just have to choose what you believe is the most right option because it’s better to guess than to do nothing at all.
You'll learn that even in science, not everything is black and white,
that sometimes the best way to learn is by diving in head first, and if you feel your skull crash into the bottom of the pool, know that you will resurface.
Sep 6, 2016
Sep 6, 2016 at 12:16 AM UTC
Whisper vices in your ear
While I paint you in virtues
There you are, my poison apple
Shining with a red of bloodiest hues
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020 at 11:17 PM UTC
I hate the mask I wear
Behind my paper lines,
I hate the mask I wear
And all my un-rhymed rhymes.
I hate the fact that I'm some ghost
Who bleeds black ink onto my white host!
I hate the fact that I harbor my words
To the ships out at sea that all go unheard!
I hate the fact that I am a mess
And all I have left are these words of distress!
I hate that I try to make my self depressed
In order to write a poem that will truly impress!
I hate that I have to sit here everyday
Trying to write my problems away
Only to find
That behind the smeared lines
That I still am battling with my old demons!
That I still am battling with doubt!
Oh I hardly take time to care about the seasons
I just care about the problems I have going on now.
-And even at my best I'm just someone who can't write
And all my poems are a mask for my bloodiest fights
But tonight
I hope someone turns on the lights
And finds my dead corpse rotting off to the side,
I hope that for once it will all be fine
And my heart will stop beating before I start losing my mind-
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 11:27 PM UTC
“Lord help us remember that freedom isn’t free.” -Anonymous
Ready
Aim
Fire
End of the Civil War.
President Abraham Lincoln dedicates a day to remember those brave men who have fallen on the field of battle in a pool of their own blood.
For their country.
Ready
Aim
Fire
World War 1.
Soldiers come home in body bags
Or without their own legs.
Arms.
Or eyes.
Men come home with stories they’ll never tell or ever want to think about.
Most men stay where they have fallen.
Ready
Aim
Fire
December 7th, 1941
Japan bombs Pearl Harbor killing well over 2,400 soldiers.
June 6th
1944
American boats touch the soil of Normandy Beaches.
73,000 pairs of American boots run along the trenches.
Most of them never leave.
Ready
Aim
Fire
1950 to 1953
Americans were shot at and killed in Korea.
Hidden in the bushes,
Korea only battled with ambushes.
Ready
Aim
Fire
A conflict in Vietnam from 1955 to 1975.
“Do not shoot unless shot upon.”
One of the bloodiest wars American’s have seen.
Men came home to be welcomed as villains
To be littered on and verbally **** upon.
Many men committed suicide.
Ready
Aim
Fire
September 11, 2001
Hijacked planes flew into the World Trade Center’s and the Pentagon.
War has broken out against Al Qaeda, the Taliban, and other armed rebels.
War is out in Iraq and Afghanistan.
A shot in the dark for those men and women who get shot in the dark,
Peacefully in their sleep.
By men they have trained.
Vehicles blow up and lives are taken every day.
Ready
Aim
Fire
During an average day in 2013
22 war veterans commit suicide.
Every day.
Thank you.
Ready
Aim
Fire
May 27, 2013
May 27, 2013 at 8:11 PM UTC
*Hey, Mr. Rager! Mr. Rager!
Tell me where you're going!
Tell us where you're headed!*
This is an ode to all the lungs you've burnt, all the times you knew how hurt I was and am and how my heart bruises the inside of my chest, beating the **** out of me, trying to burst from my body, frantic, afraid. Oh- credit card fingers, syringe tongue, bloodiest of Sunday's, show me how to roll it, show me how to make origami of my bones.
I'm off on a adventure.
To the fickle space between the folds of your brain, to the indecision, to the gentle curve of your shoulders that I trace with my palm, to the gaps in your happiness.
*Mr. Rager!
Tell me some of your stories
Tell us of your travels
Hey, Mr. Rager! Mr. Rager!
Tell me where you're going!
Tell us where you're headed!*
To the untouched spots on your cheeks, to all the noises that frighten you, to all the things that go bump in the night, to starving, to all the stucco paint, to acid flashbacks, to paranoia, to my knuckles, ****** from beating myself up.
I'm on my way to Heaven.
To the rolling back of your eyes, to ******* nosebleeds, to drunk driving, to the ***** all across your chest, to your mother's mother, to the way your eyes soften when you look at me.
*Mr. Rager!
Can we tag along? Can we take a journey?*
You're asleep in my arms, my hand in your hair. The world is turning a little slower.
When will the fantasy end? When will the heaven begin?
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 11:57 PM UTC
Sometimes
the bloodiest battles
with the greatest number
of
casualties
are the ones
fought within
the confines
of our own
warring
souls.
Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 5:48 PM UTC
I like to create toxic winds
to blow your at your scabbed kneecaps
and spit week-old spearmint gum
aiming for the shine of your work shoes.
It must be cruel to be me,
your arrogant smile hurdles over
the human sized mouse trap
a naive and sweet girl left on your driver’s seat.
Don’t worry, you tender, soft darling
of Satan’s bloodiest creation
I’ll be every cosmic speck
till someone sinks you back to earth.
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 8:25 PM UTC
Somebody out there
Is fighting a war
And that war is over nothing
But the perceived imperfections
That they find in themselves
Discovering problems when none are there
Without realizing the lack of substance
Just created villains out of air, not understanding reality
But for them, the problems were always there
And they weren't self made, they just occurred
And the war over that which is not real
Is the bloodiest conflict in history
With casualties every day, battles every night
Men and woman, adults and children perish
Fighting for a cause they don't understand
That those on the outside can't see
Because this war is in hell
And hell is a state of mind
And when there, every moment is a struggle
To stay alive and hold back the demons
Swarming through your mind
Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 7:47 PM UTC
Today probably marks one of the final occasions
Upon which I will visit my grandfather
Long years have made him weary
A war drawn through many winters
He is deceptively small, hardly more than five feet
But like an iceberg his hidden self is vast
Travelled the world on military campaign
He does not speak of this part of his past
My family makes prompts in asking
How he crossed the Channel, entered Germany
The frontline combat that ensued
Has never escaped his conscience
At the slightest mention of the Battle of the Bulge
His face glazes over, and he is brought back
He relives instantly, right in front of me
The soldiers who died, friendly or not
I never asked if he killed anyone
And he would never tell me
The men of his time were moved to terrible actions
They returned home numb or wrapped in plastic
I cannot imagine such an experience
To be held so near my age
Spent several fortnights living in a foxhole
The bloodiest battle, taken by surprise
My father’s father like many fathers
Did what he had to do
He remains a soldier to this day
My respect is endless for the mighty
Nov 27, 2010
Nov 27, 2010 at 1:31 PM UTC
I love you
To the deepest
Bloodiest degree
With all my wants
and all my needs
You are everything to me
But you don't know it
Because I don't show it
And I'm good at hiding things
But one day I won't hold it
And even you will know it
Mar 7, 2010
Mar 7, 2010 at 2:23 PM UTC
You think you've got what it takes green man
You're short
You're weak, your strength is only a year old
And you've been pampered by the melanin in your skin and the love around you
You think you can understand what adversity means?
The few tests of masculinity you ******* paid for left you tense and fearful when the weapons were made of plastic
When reality was there to test you, the words you should have fought against you let slide like a *****
You think you deserve a right to fight?
You may desire it, but you are too small and too stupid to fight for anything in this world
And what you desire to fight for is muddied in hypocrisy
Because democracy is built on blood and sin
A world of wolves ****** each other with claws and ***** for sheep like you
When you sheep wander into our battleground, you bleed better than us
With tears and families and a lack of skin that Darwin fought the churches to emphasise
The stupid and the sociopathic know our fight the best
Because they accept the simple truth we give them, or are willing to profit from the lie
But you just men, sheep who give up and wolves who die
You can't keep up with this
What do I say to all that?
To our history that is so muddied in the darkest greys
Bloodiest battles fought continously, so I can live under laws that I don't agree with
As much as they let me do what I want to do
I have to take the coward's way out, and defend my tribes in my ***** *** deluded little way
And despite every need to be carved out of stone as a man who is too soft to fight as hard as he wants to
That fight doesn't exist
And if it did
It wouldn't need me
Mar 4, 2016
Mar 4, 2016 at 3:51 PM UTC
Waging many battles, can I win the war
I just saw a quote
"Monsters are real, ghosts are real too
they live inside us, and sometimes, they win."
I ask again, can I win the war?
The one raging within my being this very second
Conflicting, tearing, beating me every moment
Battle One, can I stop being human
Haha no! Of course not!
So embrace it, you lose this battle
Battle Two, self hatred
Well this is an interesting one is it not?
I think yes I can win, a long angst filled battle will it be
One setting me on a path to self discovery
Perhaps the bloodiest yet, we will see
Battle Three, expecting others to cure me
Be realistic we are all human
One man cannot lay that burden upon another
Time will tell if my own company can mend me
Battle Four, I harbor a Dark Passenger
No, not Malevolence, he is my friend
This fiery demon is the General of my opposition
He will not go down without a fight
Fueling all my darkest most lonely hate filled thoughts
Arrow to the chest misses
Dark Passenger will fight me to the end of the war
We shall see who is left standing
Battle Five, addictions
Enough said
Other battles must be won before that one can ever be fought
As weak as that may make me
But at least I know I am...
Battle Six, utmost failure
Sitting in dark rooms, never furthering my future
Pathetic I have been
This battle, yes I can win
For I crave knowledge above all else
Some peace can be found in that
The battles I wage are endless
Let us see if I can win the war
Nov 25, 2012
Nov 25, 2012 at 5:39 PM UTC
As a flower emerges from the ground,
That was kissed by frozen snow.
A seed that was sown by God's own hand,
Just waiting for Spring to grow.
For, a Monarch evolves from a lowly worm,
It's beauty, a sight to behold.
That graces the air, for all to see,
More precious than silver or gold.
Freedom springs from rusty chains,
That bind, with malicious intent.
To suffocate a way of life,
Never in the way that God meant.
God never meant for the world to be,
His footstool of war and strife.
But, a place of peace, for all to share,
Treasuring His precious gift of life.
But, Mankind's greed and powerlust,
Have made Earth hard to cope.
It's humanity's turn to stem this tide,
To survive, we all must harbor hope.
These are just of few of the things,
Some rise from beginnings of violence.
For, hope is even in the bloodiest war,
A baby's cry, emerges from the silence.
Nov 29, 2011
Nov 29, 2011 at 6:41 AM UTC
You think you are the only one with rage?
Rage is not new.
You did not invent rage and you are certainly not king of it
Tender.
Like a bruised, oozing, rotting peach. That is something you cannot
do.
**** you. with my tears.
Tear you until you are nothing but a mangled corpse.
Bleed. Can you bleed?
BlEeD.
Stick my fingers into the softest, fuzziest, bloodiest
and lick your warm
salt. That's when I. will. believe. you. are A
live.
My **** heart. beats sawdust for you
inside my vapid ribcage.
-EL
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 12:19 PM UTC
Amnesty. the 11th hour, the 11th day, the 11th month, the year 1918
A knock upon a large closed door.
A lady awaiting news on her son.
Seven days pre before was the time he was no more.
Flags and banners waving fiercely,
Horns and whistles, shouts and cheers.
A welcome end to the bloodiest war,
Celebrations for peace, we’d won.
But for this fine lady, of a fine young son,
On this fine day for some.
She had waited, then through post discovered,
her son was lost to war,
Just seven days pre end before.
A man of the field he had been,
Reporting in words all he’d seen,
Gruesome accounts of the highest scale,
Not no tale,
But truth and sincere his word his actions, his doing.
All in order to settle a score and record what happened through four long years in war before.
My pen my gun, my ink my bullets,
I fire onto canvass to create an image,
Of four long years of the gruesome war
and all the gruesome scenes within it.
And upon reflection on your completion,
Please remember our finest sons.
Of which Wilfred Owen was one
and as a wartime poet was penning,
as he was fighting in it.
Robert Kingston 17.10.14
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 1:28 PM UTC
We can't find
our paradise on clouds
My hands are together praying
between two houses on fire,
Whilst I watch the unforeseeable
Perish into ashes of wool-gather.
Razors, Scissors and chainsaws
will cut me all the same,
Yet you were the bloodiest cut
I've ever been prescribed,
Poison drips from your skin
matching the sap from weeping willows.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 8:46 AM UTC
Are you seeing what I'm seeing
Do you smell what I smell
Do you breathe the air I breathe
Or is this all just me
Tell me know
Is this what you want
Out of the mouth of Martin Luther King Jr.
"Darkness can't drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate can't drive out hate; only love can do that"
We can't hate something that we created
We made them mad
We fired them up
We stand on democracy's front lawn
You stand where you stand and the ground will continue to move around you
Be tainted
Be rude
Be ******
Be crude
But don't put words in our mouths or take them out of context
Don't riot and charge
Be strong and stand where you stand for how ever long
We can walk these streets from La to D.C
We can scream at the top of our lungs
Until we can't breathe
We can fight with our words and our hearts as we please
Because we have the right to free speech
We have the right to free press
We have the right to protest
But the fire is not a right
Disturbing the peace
Not a right
What ever we have left keep it please
On May 21, 1979 a riot took place
Causing people to break windows
Burn police cars
And fight so brutally
That riot had a name
White Night
See these people wanted to fight for what they thought was right
The intention was good yet the way that it was presented was hellish
On April 12, 1861
The bloodiest war of American history began
It started with the nation fighting over an issue
A big one too
The president at the time some people liked
Others hated
He spoke a speech so that everyone could hear that the issue was now taken care of
That is what he thought
It sparked what we all know as the Civil War
Please tell me now
Is this what you want
To create a war
A dysfunctuon
Out of the mouth of Harvey Milk
"Hope will never be silent"
Your hope, my hope, his hope, our hope
It will never remain silent
Yet a riot is not what they need nor what we need
So march down these streets from La to D.C
Take on the people we never see
They could take the bull horn out your hands but they can't take the fire out of your voice
Be strong
Be peaceful
And be bold
Keep on fighting
Are you seeing what I'm seeing
Do you smell what I smell
Do you breathe the air I breathe
Or is this all just me
Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 10:11 AM UTC
so, you're back..
again..
seeping into corners..
like a venom casting ghostly shadows onto the nape of my neck..
i never see you coming
criss crossing on a serpentine platform
of "i miss you's" and
" i didn't mean to hurt you's"
child like memories
drawn in crayons of the deepest,
bloodiest reds..
i don't remember myself there..
that's an existence i'm done sharing..
Aug 2, 2015
Aug 2, 2015 at 12:16 AM UTC
An oblique shoe string
Hangs from a power line
knotted through
the wrong holes
A baby carriage on
the sidewalk
just left out
in the cold
a golden autumn
November tree
sheds her last leaf
she weeps and she mourns
nothing left
to be solved
these puzzles
make me sick
pieces are rotted mold
when you put them
together
its a lonely kid
the letters blank
ink pens run
out of code
The apartment
I live in is still the
Bloodiest brick red
stained relationships
I neglected
Its a splattered
picture on my white wall
Three wolves
each take turns
trying to blow me down
i guess these children
stories held
Some sort truth to them
after all
I just stand tall
like the effiel
tower im
builts for
world affair
Im was just hoping
for this morning
to be a symbol
of peace
listen for
a silent noise
a whisper
a vendor yelling
in the street
but its just loud
its violent creatures
and its laying in my
bed next to me
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 4:28 PM UTC