"blear" poems
Freedom At Kannyakumari
“The destiny of India is molded in her class-rooms”
Kothari had no confusion; no vision on the fusion-
of the East and the West, as Swami Vivekananda’s vision,
“The comingling of the East and the West will dawn a new Era”.
As tissue culture, transplantation or cloning
we Indians imbibe the Western Culture;
or as G.M cotton or brinjals,or tomato
Indians are produced, transmuted
destroying the very indigenous genus for material growth.
Ayurveda is preserved not in Sanskrit but in English letters, now !
Followers of Lord Maccaulay as obedient servants,
by experiments,bring up Indians only in blood and colour-
in every other respects-Europeans
(using imperialist - capitalist media);
poor sycophants ,for a visa,
the Indians: now , turn to the West for light,
leaving the bright light under the Urn;
cry for a way of progress, safety and food;
and beg:once self reliant nations as cells of a body
No retrospection or introspection,
only putrefaction, hence , no resurrection.
On August 15th ,at Kannyakumari beach , beside me,
a bare body of a woman(my sister?) lay asleep;
I witnessed at the starry cold mid-night:
the surging sea spitting frothing snow
upon the black rocky *******
protruded, greasy, mossy. bare but fair ,
ever young at the feet of Bharat-matha.
Wet in the salty breeze , from the foul smell of death,
I walked and walked searching shelter,
but no room for a single son with meagre wealth.
The tourism net -workers with the thirst of mosquitoes
hummed around me with highly rented room offer-
source of tourism exploitation- I bargained,
till, morning red balloon rose up in the Eastern horizon
cleaving the vapours of the sea,
when , thousand tongues chanted Gayathri;
then , the locals thronged around the woman on the shore;
somebody among them, staring blear eyed
as the police jeep and the ambulance arrived , bewailed
“O! Gayathri, my darling, O! Gayathri…” Unsoothed.
The chanting and the yelling dissolved in the breeze
that passed by the Vivekananda rock, afar, south
Sep 12, 2012
Sep 12, 2012 at 3:50 AM UTC
House of cards,
Little space.
"Draw the curtains,"
Happy place.
On the swings,
Gentle push.
"Touch the sky!"
Fleeting whoosh.
Running some errands,
Busy afternoon.
Grocery store music,
Catchy tune.
Quiet back alley,
Stabbing knife.
Laying on pavement,
Doubting life.
Cold storm strikes,
Washing away.
Sigh after sigh,
Feelings betray.
Dreary minutes pass,
Eyes blear.
Urge to cry,
Prisoner tear.
Ghostly vibe pulsates,
Hopes high.
One last breath,
Say goodbye.
Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 9:38 PM UTC
Things don't work and fall apart
You knock the door, it's 'nope'
You plant seeds with a hope
Yet no reply, time has stopped
You fear to get off your way
Terrified! For your grail
Is aloof in their scale
Paralyzed! Next step is blear
Back up! Hold on a minute
Sit back, enjoy the ride
Sole value? - inner guide
What they dictate? - not a dime!
Do you see debris yonder?
Shedding bits of your tears
Crack is where your love flares
Wreck is where you leave old fears
Trust the wisdom of your cor
For all good in you - soar!
All brave in you will pull
Mutual 'Aloha' next door.
-Aloha-
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 8:10 AM UTC
She is the divinity;
of her own supreme world.
The translucent spot,
on a porcelain that is old.
She is the aftermath.
that followed a long day.
The upshot of everything;
gone along the way.
She above anyone;
is the reason why I write.
Tonight at this lonely;
only helped by the moonlight.
She is the hope;
of every heart that has ever loved.
Brings fate to every end;
the cause to what someone might have.
She who waits;
patiently for her own Apollo.
Will do whatever it takes;
and meet him with her bow.
She who moves the nephelae;
to every cover and pall.
The ominous to my reality;
was her blear and SHE.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 9:30 AM UTC
In here I found something so rare
Exuding brilliance everywhere
A little stone at your first glance
yet great a value does it bear
While it may seem as not so great
The more you spend your time with it
you’ll change your mind and realise
the things you can appreciate
Especially when you can see
its brightly lustrous qualities
you’ll want to have it all the time
and anywhere that you may be
Indeed it is a treasure dear
alluring always, never blear
it never fails to give me cheer
I hope it never disappears
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
As these days roll forever on
I collect their disappointment
Hiding it and distracting them
To ensure that none fall silent
I am the reaper of misfortune
Or so I hope to be to them
As I make their lives be rich
Distracting from times that condemn
Where I hide all these weighty moments
Is a logical place, I believe
In a blackened abyss that moves all around
My own soul holds tight the moments I retrieve
You may be concerned
But, there is no reason to fear
I live with these tortures daily
Merely causing my vision to blear
Nov 15, 2011
Nov 15, 2011 at 9:19 AM UTC
*higher in my mind
there's an ocean
under blue sky
surrounded by
vultures
waiting for my future
blood swings from chandelier
and turns to a drop of tear
drops on the woods down here
trees grow trying to fear
spirits flying, they're all near
but I can't control, it's unclear
my heart, fighting for peace
brain shouting,"there's no release"
and that's the last I hear
before everything goes so blear*
Apr 1, 2017
Apr 1, 2017 at 12:50 AM UTC
I made a choice to let him near my private island by the pier
Before the water would shine so clear
But he let the currents swim with fear
The atmosphere turned dark and drear
With tides that move with painful blear
He stained my ocean and smeared my cheer
Left my beach polluted and my breeze veer
Where I'm left kneedeep by his rotten cohere
Now my choice remains very unclear
Jun 28, 2019
Jun 28, 2019 at 7:56 PM UTC
We sit down
At the Bar
You remark on
My posture
We order
Your favorite
Jack and
Coke
We sling
Them back
Double Shots
Burning my belly
Your eyes fill
With disbelief
I can see
The photographs flash
In front of
You
School Pictures
Prom Photos
Graduation
Shots
All Stacked up
Underneath this very
Bar-
Stool
My eyes roll
Away from sentimentality
Laughing it
Off
I order
Two more
I can hear you
Tell me to
Slow
Down
As if
Recorded into
A Broken
Record
Even now
I’m still
Your Baby
Sister
As My
Vision Doubles
Your Smile
Remains
As One
Though
your voice
Seems to grow
Faint
My throat begins
To burn
Feeling myself
Crying out
Over a space
Much more vast
Than the distance
Between
Our two
Barstools
Before I misplace
Myself Completely
You
Catch me
Your other Half
Your little twin
I will
Not be
Doubled
Over
We are
Celebrating
This
Birthday
As I blink
To see you
Through
My blear
I see you
Preparing
To
go
Mirroring my moves
To put me at ease
But your
Cheeks
Have lost
Dimension
Your color
No longer
Changes in
The light
You pull your
Hands away
Not wanting to
Make me
Cold
Insisting I’m
Warm
My clammy
Palms
Push
Forward
Just in
Time
To
Catch
That
Paper
Wafting
Down
I ****** it
Up
Staring at
Your smile
That always
Did
Photograph
Well
Flipping it
Over
I tried to
Remember
When you had
Signed
This photo
You could never
Have known
About
I refuse
The answer
Wary of the lies
You will believe
When you
Split drinks
With A Memory.
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 12:10 PM UTC
1.
I am optimistic enough this day clings to the highest mast,
is now born out of prophecy.
I pass by the old mirror: see myself: blear myself:
is blot to canvas, slit from the wrist of this home:
I witness how it is to sustain beatings.
2.
In the empty lot, age 9, we wrung frangipanis and ruined
the pedicle somehow a map of a history where this ground
shook that was once an old cathedral. We blew
bubbles out in the haziest of days, pallid and droopy
the clouds identify in their short collisions – the stream that was
the sky
the face of my mother when found news of my would-be death
1996, Kawasaki my mother's clutch on the soiled linen
beginning an autopsy
3.
I conjure a frayed upon image of death in its colloquial.
a fractal of mistakes taken as righting out. I sense prognostication
when potential for a satisfied framed encounter or out of luck that was
a night making all of this less than total.
I remember the discoloration of the many lights – the sky beginning an
erratum: this could have been your last – what is exacted here
like a tarot, the culprit a newfangled man in the rearview mirror.
4.
How can I forget you – all of you? You wear light like karsunsilyo.
You are all flowers I arrive at a contusion of gardens.
Rinse me with light – abandon me after.
5.
Made air staler. Dew my maiden when lit
from the matutinal – in tow, a bedraggled kite soaring in the heat
one distinct summer,
wish it pure that was I, almost touching the vermillion,
my faintest image of freedom was a bird trapped in between
the venetian.
6.
In a dream, I am pursued by a train in an alley – in the next scene,
I am being forced to take a plunge
into a chasm: the fall did not scare me – but my acquiescence
made me flinch: standing before space, anesthetizing
the skin so it made me more than metal, the clangor
suggests a tragedy. Awakened by violent nudges
from my mother: it was the New Year. Pyrotechnics paint the sky
over and over an ephemera in the bleak behemoth of this:
a makeshift home ruined by untranslatable music
the sound of rain at 11 in the afternoon and a nearby funeral.
Jun 2, 2016
Jun 2, 2016 at 1:14 AM UTC
Roaming the fields of love
With his Heart in a dark glove
He saw from a far distance
A creature with perfect appearance
This creature was rather perfect
It hit like a storybook affect
She gazed the hallway
With some sort of allay
Her presence to him felt affray
Like some sort of aggressive lay
It felt like an ever winding journey through the blear
So far away from here,
Yet trying to draw them near
He came close asked her name with a delay of response; she smiled and said: Tabitha is mine name.
With a look of satisfaction on his face
He smiled and murmured to himself "Little Girl"
And there they both knew
It was meant to be
Or was it?
He gave her flowers everyday
But;
She picked all the pedals off of all the flowers
But in her heart;
She knew he loved her
Or did he?
_Debbie Doll
Jan 11, 2019
Jan 11, 2019 at 4:47 PM UTC
For where the colors run
They end at this point and on
But farther is where she belongs
She'd give it all to keep running
Blonde bunnies and their caps and jackets
They hold such special meanings
Dissected and infiltrated
But you can’t take these hearts
Little trademarks labeling
What she knows to love
Feelings sedated, violated
Trespassing in the warren
Life with out you is so foreign
Gold fades to gray
Watch the little bunnies hop away
Wipe away her tears with the sleeves
Please oh please little bunny wont you do that for me?
Little one, to hold you in my arms
To feel your heartbeat
A shoulder to sigh on, warm tears to cry on
Enclose me in you; tell me how to take care of you
I’ll be there for you
I’d give anything
I’d give anything
Eyes of blue, my heart’s melting because of you
The sky’s swirling from grey to red
Blonde bunny, lead her down and down the rabbit hole
Lost in a daze, glimpses of a white tail in a cursed maze
For how long will this dream unravel? Caps and jackets the patchwork of souls
I would forget you
The last thing I want is to regret you
I want to give you my heart
Little bunny you outraced me from the start
Where do the memories end and where does her life begin?
Loosing a little bunny, the day has come when she can’t always win
Butterfly kisses are nothing but misses compared to the wishes
Buried in you
Shade me from the light that isn’t the sparkle of your eyes
Home to me
In my heart you’ll always be
I tend to you and give you me
And forever you render me so completely
Innocently charmed
There’s no line, tears smear, colors blear and we’re running out of time
Side by side is where we belong
Trademarks and labels to guide us along
Sep 5, 2011
Sep 5, 2011 at 6:29 PM UTC
tick tock, goes the clock, ticking away the time
Until school ends, and I can be free
Until I can stop acting and be me
Until I can go outside and climb a tree
tick tock, goes the clock, and with every second
I fight back another tear
I ignore everything I hear
I feel my eyes begin to blear
tick tock, goes the clock, but I’m starting to break,
And instead of crying I grin
And I restrain the emotions within
And I just manage to hold it in…
May 2, 2013
May 2, 2013 at 4:23 PM UTC
Here fell a water drop
taking his time
with few up to see him
he lays there supine
and
though this phenomenon
taunted my tears
I can't help but miss him
in this midnight blear.
Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 2:57 PM UTC
She is the divinity;
of her own supreme world.
The translucent spot,
on a porcelain that is old.
She is the aftermath.
that followed a long day.
The upshot of everything;
gone along the way.
She above anyone;
is the reason why I write.
Tonight at this lonely;
only helped by the moonlight.
She is the hope;
of every heart that has ever loved.
Brings fate to every end;
the cause to what someone might have.
She who waits;
patiently for her own Apollo.
Will do whatever it takes;
and meet him with her bow.
She who moves the nephelae;
to every cover and pall.
The ominous to my reality;
was her blear and SHE.
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 9:25 AM UTC
Founded vaguely on mountains
Ditching dust, saluting lust;
As to the valley's it brings gust-
So hard to digest,
So much of the pain on my chest
Giving sigh to those lovely pests.
Jan 29, 2017
Jan 29, 2017 at 8:28 AM UTC
I once pledged allegiance,
When our kings gave us heedence...
To the flag of the United States of America.
In what we had, our states united.
And to the republic, for which it stood,
In all that's benevolent and good.
"ONE NATION UNDER GOD"
The words on credit and dime.
ONE NATION NOW ON HIM TROD,
His people criminals, His book a crime.
The greatest economy crippled by fear.
Readers, I pray, please hear my call,
Rid the future of the blear.
Liberty and Justice for all!
May 18, 2020
May 18, 2020 at 2:52 PM UTC
learn silence
and unlearn thought's blear.
must you love.
love its workings,
its affectations.
simply by saying
that to fill a heart
with all that is clear,
pour silence into
the hollow of it
until it raptures
and emerges
complete, hymnal.
this is how i remember you
meandering by, plainly,
like the mouth of the morning
and its slow auburn,
telling me something
i cannot understand (something enigmatic, enciphered in a cornered circle) yet prodigiously
delivered to me, at the verge
of speaking, divining in me,
an intone of solemn invitation.
Sep 16, 2015
Sep 16, 2015 at 10:27 AM UTC
Tiny, does the sun go
Followed by the snow down
Ever as a shower in steam
Shallow, goes the systems
Out like a fire, rising
Sparks and they spread throughout the brain
Mythic, misting asteroids are crashing on the brakes
Swerving and you’re missing but you’re christ-like all the same
Glyphs are losing meaning on displays of melted grass
Gasses matronize a pattern, tanning on the mass
Squirming, does the chimp go
Crashing through the planet
Taking selfies with the blood and its core
Comment on my face
See, stressing for this weekend
Acting like you’ve been to space at all before
I would be an astronaut but who would beam me back
As it’s clearly known that Texas ain’t now on the map
Piling into a void, a horror seldom met
Practicing a breathing technique as it’s time for bed
Forward can we all go
Float and look away from
The past as none can spin themselves awise
Sky’s black in eye
And masking in between
A passing glance of our in-passing souls demise
Mourning what’s a bed of little matter accidents
Morning corks the breath in which we sigh its savageness
Storming takes the moon across our bodies limp orbit
Torrenting that morbid, now red heavenly orphan
The tears look dried
We exercise
Our broken, fated pioneer
This sense, this blear
We’ll all ascend
In death us surely owed a new frontier
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 10:51 AM UTC