"bitersweet" poems
i've been wondering what it was like
to have words pour from your
fingertips like the cup of coffee he's
probably pouring for her right now
it always had a bitersweet taste to me
and so did he
the acrid taste was already enough
to make me falter
and when he came around she stuck
her foot in the door and her nose
up to me
no need for a going away
party
no need to bereave the death of
what could have been
i was already reading my eulogy
in tears at his mothers house
no cliche will ever get close to explaining
the sound of my feckless heart shattering
no one will ever know how much it
hurt to watch as she serpentined herself
into my place in his heart
so i grab my keys and drive
i end up on the side of a backroad
with my car turned off and a perfect
view of the days darkness creeping
in
i want to call him and scream at
the top of my lungs about how
he's trapped me in this
secret hell
but i know i've already lost
him anyways
so i get back in my car because
i and everyone else knows that
wishing on stars hasn't and
never will work out for me anyways
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 1:02 AM UTC
Hey.
Hello.
How are you?
It's been a while, do you miss me too?
How's the lonely nights?
How's lying on your bed side crying with all your might?
How's looking out the window, up at the sky?
How's whiping the tears off your eyes, asking why?
How's waking up at night to the nightmare of being alone?
How's being disappointed by not having that "good morning" written on your phone?
How's going home after work knowing no one will be there?
How's knowing now there's no one that'll care?
How's the sound of silence when you enter the door?
How's knowing that there will be no sweet words, welcomes, and kisses any more?
How's sitting on your couch feeling the sting from the remembrance that there is no longer a "we"?
How's the painful pins being poked in your chest knowing that it was your bitter words piercing my ears saying you don't want me?
Bye.
Take care.
You're doing just fine.
Those are just bittersweet hopes of mine.
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 6:58 PM UTC