"baptizes" poems
to kiss you senseless until i am a seaglass buried deep inside your skin. to lick salt off your palms with paper-cut lips, until each breath has gone haywire. to quietly sigh your name until it baptizes my heathen tongue. oh, the wars i would start; the wars i would end — darling, there is something soothing about all the violent ways i can love you.
Jan 7, 2021
Jan 7, 2021 at 4:05 AM UTC
I’ve found religion in your smile.
Trusted the way it curves, practicing
the lines in my mind with delicacy,
ripening your image until it’s sore.
Your throat baptizes me,
replaces the devil of my intentions
with sweet, rosy breath,
curling my inhibitions until they dive
back into me and I express my very desires
openly on a blanket--
and it’s no sin
because I love the way your spine stands
like a perfect cross, carrying me
to the vision you have of a better me
than what I used to be.
I’ve prayed for your thighs in naughty ways,
but you’ve taken my hands,
folded them into shapes I can’t comprehend
and kissed my fingertips until I was crying
out of confusion and catharsis,
finally understanding what it feels like to count
people, you, as a blessing.
I see God when you make instruments
out of blades of grass, or how that strap
slides off your shoulders when the wind
graces the moment with a whisper.
He gave me an angel disguised as a woman
with too many pillows on her bed and coffee breath,
but you pull me from point to point like taffy,
slowly, lagging, molding me into the gift
you never wished for. I, bestowed at His feet,
unwilling found a soul and a heartbeat
louder than any of my unforgiving words.
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 2:23 PM UTC
Lifes a ride;
Gripping it tight
And screaming
Laughter makes the journey
Mine, and sharing the pieces
Smashed with a smile
Baptizes my soul
With Yours; Love Us
If you dare to live
Wild and free
Within the waves
We make a~part
Together.
Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 10:47 PM UTC
Does the migrating duck truly know
what it is that he wants;
or is he caught up in peer pressure
when he conquers indecision,
and spreads his wings to fly
south?
Is it possible that as he soars,
like Icarus,
that he is accosted by doubt
while the late autumn sun
baptizes him?
And when he finally crashes down,
in some forgotten pond,
warmed by a tropical clime;
that he wonders what might have been,
and is overcome by regret?
Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 7:50 PM UTC
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Better—than Music! For I—who heard it—
I was used—to the Birds—before—
This—was different—’Twas Translation—
Of all tunes I knew—and more—
’Twasn’t contained—like other stanza—
No one could play it—the second time—
But the Composer—perfect Mozart—
Perish with him—that Keyless Rhyme!
So—Children—told how Brooks in Eden—
Bubbled a better—Melody—
Quaintly infer—Eve’s great surrender—
Urging the feet—that would—not—fly—
Children—matured—are wiser—mostly—
Eden—a legend—dimly told—
Eve—and the Anguish—Grandame’s story—
But—I was telling a tune—I heard—
Not such a strain—the Church—baptizes—
When the last Saint—goes up the Aisles—
Not such a stanza splits the silence—
When the Redemption strikes her Bells—
Let me not spill—its smallest cadence—
Humming—for promise—when alone—
Humming—until my faint Rehearsal—
Drop into tune—around the Throne—
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I was not, yet there I go--
a childhood re-invented,
one rabbit's foot and skeletons
of ghosts line my pockets.
Where the carnival puppets
pressed their thorns and had torn my flesh.
Chariots always grotesquely alter at midnight.
His night drunkenness rekindled the flames
of my hell.
I could smell daddy
down the hall--
He and his tenderness disorder.
I always scream on the inside
when he walks in my room.
In a slaves frenzy, I kick!
Poisonous memories, rancid and
acidic,
that burning flow,
drips thick inside my brain.
Devouring everything I thought was
good in this world.
--Black and white, black and white.
Everything is black and white!
The impure child, once more baptizes
the devil into eternity.
Whiskey lake laps at the shore
as the gypsy angels are crying.
I was not, yet there I go...
May 21, 2012
May 21, 2012 at 1:07 AM UTC
Yes, I am the same God
that dwells among you
Grace incarnate
again and again
in times and among peoples
various as the stars
if that mighty being
beyond all description
but experience
ever begat anything
it is but me,
me, love and grace
wherever the heart shrinks
and tyranny reigns
and lust and greed
masquerade as law
into that parched desert
do I descend, when
Jordan baptizes the soul
Ichthys of God, I make twelve
the anglers of fisherfolk
who cast their nets wide
and catch me in their soul
so they can behold
Him, that I am,
no greater miracle than this
was ever made
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 7:09 AM UTC
I was there when you fell from heaven
the fire in the sky burns,
blazoned by the jade
tint of satan's Greek fire
the air was poisoned with the unholiness of you
it's easy to blame coincidence
if I am broken, perhaps I cannot fix you
my eyes are replaced with slabs of molten rock and the soulfire gaze
sears your shadow from your towering image
you are yourself and reflection
an end and a beginning
the steps toward dawn
and it's sunbleached essence
baptizes and breathes
death into life
but dusk comes not long after
closer than sin
thicker than bad blood
there's no light at the end of the tunnel
just the passing glimmer of your
one last wish
there's no light at the end of the tunnel
i won't dance with the devil
there will be no
one last kiss
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 10:23 PM UTC
blue fire surrounds you
tints you sacred
extends itself in waves
to all who meet you
saves
them from their ignorance
and the a-theism of their minds
saves
them from their dis-ease of the heart
begins to bond them to themselves
and baptizes them in the Blood
this is no strange fire
it is the fire of the burning bush
the fire that leads by night
and is smoke by day
ever present in the wilderness
of exodus:
the blue fire of Love
c. 2023 Roberta Compton Rainwater
Nov 23, 2023
Nov 23, 2023 at 8:12 PM UTC
i have never believed in god,
the bible is a series of stanzas,
which i could never translate into meaning.
it is poetry which never made my spine tremble,
usually i can feel when words piece together the fragments of my heart,
like tectonic plates making love underneath the earth's sheets.
and if it doesn't remind me that my body is not just an instrument for respiration,
it is not poetry to me.
if it does not remind me of the first time someone made a church out of my lips,
or the last time someone threw rocks at the stained glass windows of my soul.
if it does not replicate the sensation of falling to my death,
and then being resurrected
as the feeling of adrenaline baptizes my body.
i don't want to hear it.
somehow the prophets have only reminded me of the home where my childhood is buried in the backyard.
a breeding space for loneliness.
i have always wished on stars,
and prayed to the moon,
because at least for eight hours of the day, i can see them.
at least i know they're actually there,
my life has been a series of conversations with walls,
i've been on hold for twenty years.
this life has showed me enough of building walls,
and how to make graveyards
and abandoned buildings out of my own bones.
i've spent enough time sipping wine,
and breaking apart my insides,
and somehow still making it look like a celebration,
isn't that what people do at church anyway?
instead i construct stanzas out of my pain,
i architect the universe into a church because
rain and holy water taste the same to me,
except the rain does not taste like my ex-lovers lies burning the back of my throat.
i refuse to let more strangers into my life,
just to remind me that my voice has never been loud enough,
that a scream is just a sound when no one is listening.
what kind of god sacrifices his own son,
my father sacrificed his daughter's sanity for the bottle,
and there isn't a scripture
that can make that story hurt any less.
there isn't a god that can precipitate the salt from my wounds,
but the moon is a streetlight in a darkened alleyway,
it is a lighthouse in a turbulent sea of sorrow.
so yes i worship the stars.
because all these years they still remind me that,
there is beauty in burning,
that i do not have to wait around to be saved,
and the moon is the only god i will ever need because
it reminds me that i have already saved myself,
every day.
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 12:52 AM UTC
To be or not to be...
What is it that is so captivating of a tree
The plants that stand in Noble stance
To have no eyes
But to see more than the eyes can see
To uphold a roof that all dwell under
Filtering the abominations in the sky
What would we be without air...
We must take time to slow down and care
The buffet for our lungs to sing what must be sung and to feed the flame of the Mighty bright heat of a fire that perspires to warm my flesh
An invention of the gods to make variant dishes more edible that aren't so fresh
The guiding light in dark cold nights
To lead me to the water that baptizes my organs to keep me floating in a mental elemental paradise
Oh how wise to recognise and appreciate the fate of the gifts in this elemental paradise
The soul glides through it's endeavors
The ether it's home
Come back to me and melt with the crone
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 1:39 PM UTC