My feelings I seek,
but my words I just eat
when I type and delete
and surmise and repeat.

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i asked for a gift for myself
from myself
you gave a gift to yourself
yourself
and keep asking me if i wanted to play
and she sits by the table waiting
for a pick up
not a dress-up
it'll blow up
and the tarnished ruins
haunt her within

the hole in her heart
is too big to mend
the ache in her head
is too much pain
just like when roses perish
beneath the blanket of snow
and sun smiles too much
which lets them feel it
and burn them
roses, no more

hopeful they'll remain, when their ancestors face again
and you and i, will sit somewhere nicer
than the underseat of your bedroom
sitting in the kitchen waiting for maids to clean your room

and the secret new girl, who's hidden from my world
she's disguised my point of view
and teachers preach, it's out of reach
the same soul returns to haunt another
change your views
the same soul tries to revive you more
only to sought

a truth among you hides in vain
hidden from sight, on the pane
the heart that searches for its mate
won't find it without gates
normal people search high and low
for a bush that would seem for show
their love tarnished for they know now
that the fairer are those who turn brows

she let her blunt hang lazily between tight lips
i loved the way the smoke smelled as she exhaled
she couldnt resist calling me names she had made up for me
i cant say i mind that she calls me what she pleases.

sleep still in the corners of her eyes as she crawls out of bed
she could never know just how beautiful she is to me
underneath her false nails & eyelashes
lies a mysterious cavern waiting to be explored.

reluctant fingertips collide with her hips as we first kiss
how long have we been waiting for this, my dear?
delayed conversation carries on deep into the hours of the night
better late than never, i suppose.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds until I have to leave again.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds to make you fall in love with me.

120 hours, 7200 minutes, 43200 seconds to make up for all the lost time.

i asked her "where have you been all my life?"
the corners of her lips curled upward with her reply
"ive been waiting right here for you darling"
with sincerity in her eyes.

oh, but, lover... my innocence has come & gone
i ask you please refrain from abandoning me too.
for i must admit;
ive grown quite fond of you.

as i make my way back from California
like driftwood floating along the river
i smile & wave goodbye to you, my sweet
all though i know it is no consolation

you cant understand why i had to go
but there are many reasons i cant stay home

so as our last hour comes to an end
do not say farewell, my love, ill be back again

I go to turn off my phone - leave me alone;
I see your text - and I know what's coming next
You come over, call me your lover; we get under the covers

Why is it that I'm feeling so smothered?
Didn't we once love eachother?
I suppose it must've been lust
The tears that I've shed
May turn me to rust.

Honestly,
Slashing my wrists
Would be more fun than this.

There is something in us
Something in your eyes
the way they looked at mine
the way they perpetually shine

There is something in the way
you held my hands today
nobody ever did before
at least not like that, I'm sure

There is something in your smile
that makes everything worthwhile
there is something behind
and that's what I want to find

That something in you
makes me want to kiss you
you grin and close the door
then leave me begging for more

Last nights phrases,

The points were impressive,

They stuck out like sore thumbs,

It helped push up a lot of my daises.





Large was the pawn I held,

It fell and broke into pieces.

I picked every part up

When it was fixed,

It was half missing!



I asked you for an hour, you gave me a quarter,

Full of your patter.

It did not matter.

I do love your chatter.



Searching for the inner matter,

I thought of your gift of never,

I certainly no longer felt clever.

However, I endevour to be your

Friend forever



We loved all weather

When we were together



Have you forgotten?

You can be really rotten

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if i showed you my teardrops,
would you collect them like rain,
store them in jars,
that are labelled with “pain”
would you follow their tracks
from my eyes down my cheeks
as they write all the stories
I’m too scared to speak
would you stop them with kisses
bring their flow to a halt
as you teach me that pain
isn’t always my fault
would you hold my face gently
as you dry both my eyes
and whisper the words
“you’re too precious to cry”.
if i showed you my teardrops
would you show me your own
and learn through we’re lonely,
we’re never alone.

I can breathe without you
live without you
but,
I don't want to.

Baby can't you stay here tonight
I miss things when everything was right
Why do you look so sad
I see it in your eyes
I'm sorry baby I was mad
but that is no surprise

Baby I miss you
I miss you
When you were still okay
Well I guess I never knew you when you were okay

Here it goes again
It's like I'm committing a sin
When you utter words you don't mean
The first thing that comes through is pain

Have I done this?
Have I done that?
Wait.
I forgot to do something.
PANIC.

Every day,
You do the same,
Follow a list,
And give it a name.
We all do it,
Even me,
I try to rhyme,
As you can see.
But what if we all
Made a change?
Did something random?
Tried to rearrange?
What if I choose
Not to rhyme?
Would that be better?
Worth my time?

Let's give it a shot.

So randomness.
How shall I do it?
Find the answer?
And then the question?
Bananas are cool.
Goodbye sirs and madams.
Hi there!
Fly away!
Eat a snail!
Catch a fish!
What's your favourite fruit?
I'm on the ceiling!
I'm underground!
Have we started?
Nearly done.
Qwertyuiop.
Asdfghjkl.
Zxcvbnm.
The contents of my keyboard.
And that is all.

Hmm.
I think I'll keep my list.
Because that was exhausting.
And the order I missed.

I wish that one day I will

write words

that would pierce hearts

and seem as if

they were woven with magic

touch lives

and come alive

I wish inspiration

would come as easily

as a bee is drawn to honey

I wish

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I (hate) poetry.

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you make me feel uncomfortable in the best way because there are butterflies in every part of me and only you can set them free and I can't really explain what you do to my heart except that it goes from oh hey how you doing to OH HEY ASDFGHJKL HOW YOU DOING in less than 2.5 seconds and I don't really know how I feel about you, all that I know is that I feel everything about you and there are a thousand and one reasons why you shouldn't fall in love with me but I hope that you ignore every single one.