"artisanal" poems
How cool I was with undercut
pretending then Mohawk
playing rugby pretending
brunching with fab hipsters
pretending enjoying arcane debates
about particle physics pretending
and social justice pretending
loving tall beautiful black boy
pretending and playing Tetris til dawn
or napping on the couch pretending
in fashionable Old City coworking
space pretending cuddled alone
as rain struck clear panes windowed walls
facade pretending that was my life once,
author in a zine pretending, cheese day denizen
pretending amid all that a sprawling
vacuum of identity pretending
and isolation pretending despite
lunching with a priest I met
pretending online or long, meandering
walks to the park pretending
with Mr. Wiggles and biking up
Passyunk pretending through the market
that smelled of live chickens and grease
bemoaning my loneliness pretending at
row-house holiday parties hosted
by midlife fairies & queers pretending
with dreams with drugs
pretending alcohol *** and roof deck
skyline views pretending pop up gardens
live music filling midsummer streets
pretending same streets
filled with seasonal dirt
artisanal water pretending
bottle cap eyes cigarette **** nose
garbage mouth snowman melting
away pretending going
the way of brotherly
love. How cool I was inhabiting
my urban life pretending
I was there.
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 6:16 AM UTC
commonly in a brine
may be pigs feet or beets
whereas where she may be
they are called gherkins
bread and butter
ploughman's lunch
or caught between
second and third
if it but was
a children's game,
Take a hit with my pipe
there might my predicament
resolve how my pickle will ever
reach all the way ,
I wonder my lips pursed,
to the old country.
It just might.
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 1:24 AM UTC
I woke up contemplating bourbon and bitters.
Pu-Erh, with local honey, has always been more sensible.
It is warm and it heals a hoarse throat.
After two bags and a little Marquez, I sat at my desk staring at a spider in the opposite corner of my office.
I stared at it for a length of time that is too embarrassing to mention and never once had the inclination to smash it.
Not that it did not deserve it, I simply lacked the motivation.
It occurred to me that I would not trade a deep sleep under the sunlit blinds for a week's pay. How long can one get away with this?
For as long as one's wit will float them is my guess.
No one knows exactly how they want to be perceived when their ego barges into a room, but they know exactly how they do not want to be perceived.
But If I had the power, I would perceive being wanted.
To know I am here on purpose. What does that feel like?
If Hell is my fate for my living sins, then let me die in the arms of the woman that lit the fire within!
When I'm amongst the great race, brooding over my artisanal mug-of-joe, the constant chatter and open planning of the day becomes a spoken roar and I want to scream out, "Keep it down, I'm trying to plan my escape!"
What do I associate with happiness? My dad pouring M&M;'s into my mouth before a football game. Of course, I won't play, but one must be prepared!
The look on my mother's face when I sang well. Getting picked first in a game of pick-up. All the fellas whispering legends.
Ah, to be wanted!
Of late, the pain in my torso has become more persistent. I think of it and my imagination gives way to bouts of sheer panic.
And even this is not an excuse for concern and a peaceful night.
How about a kiss on my neck and chest for a change?
Must I always make you hot?
What if this is my last stand?
What if this is it?
In that final glimpse of consciousness, in my minds eye, all I make out is a faint light far above me and the brown soil and rock digging into my feet below.
What walls did I allow to be built all around me?
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 10:03 AM UTC
Those three words will never be enough
To tell you how much I really feel
Even if I could catch all the stars in the sky
Of this ever-expanding universe
And fit all of them in an artisanal bottle
It would not suffice for half of the feeling
My heart could jump out of my chest
And sing the most beautiful ballad on earth
For hours upon hours upon hours
Until it shrivels up and dies
And it still wouldn't do
I could write you millions of poems
That each have millions of stanzas
And it would never be able
To tell you how much
I love you
Sep 14, 2016
Sep 14, 2016 at 10:53 AM UTC
My body is a canvass
Tinted are griefs
Of reminiscent past
My body is a wall--
A mural of every break, every fall
My body is a plate
Etched of anguish my mind berates
I am a paint--
Deep, dark burgundy--
The shade of my soul's ignominy
I am a brush--
Strokes of hate in the evening's hush
I am a clay--
Molded in disappointment and dismay
I am a charcoal--
Smudged by idiocy
And ideas that are shoal
My body is a sculpture--
Crafted with unsightliness and disgust
I am an edifice--
A construction of mars,
Founded by scars
I am the thread of my clothes--
I wear to cover my bones--
I hide in the closet--
I deeply loathe
I am a masterpiece--
Of repugnance and self-grudge;
Of vexation, of lies--
Of hate! Of hate! Of hate!
I am an art--
A sophisticated tragedy,
An intricate catastrophe
Perfection in all grotesquerie
Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 7:15 AM UTC
so, we all, grand and great nieces and nephews,
aunts and baby, fathers and mothers, nanas & poppys;
pick your preferred identifier; gather round to worship
him, but end of day, color us tired, and early to book & to bed
long drive, long day, to get to our
tiny slice of heaven on earth, a
no-points-required destination,
and the baby, with his roly~poly effervescent
charms and delights; oh boy! he's going to be
trouble for the ladies later in life;
he's a sound sleeper; twice-a-day napper;
great eater, and I inquire to the sky, can I?
order half a dozen more on Amazon,
exactly the same? is there any limit at all?
but its 3:56 am, the new master is fast asleep, the
funny smelling old man, tiptoes to the sunroom
sanctuary, bursting with three, count-'em three,
poem hooks in his convection invention mind
and now that the artisanal dishwasher, that's him~too,
is done, his two loads, yet he awakes to put the urgencies.
to bed, write his thank you note poems to his fellow poets
for gifting him insights and of fig tarts pies, that are
invading his head,
yet to to be,
written, including this child's future,
who he, will write by himself
and this little ditty, though pretty, is just an appetizer,
to a beautiful life ahead, and substantive poems yet
to be written and hopefully read....
the baby cries out. a geschrei,^ but back to his
dreams of strange houses, funny cribs, and
senses going crazy with new sights and smells,
and instantly back to sleep, my god that's some
perfect baby!
and the old writer, the would-be-poet, knows when
not to belabor the point, and there's work to be done,
good weather requested, ferries to ride, perhaps, even,
brioche french toast for breakfast and of course,
miles to go…
nml
4:18am
9/12/25
Shelter Island Keep
Sep 12, 2025
Sep 12, 2025 at 4:33 AM UTC
The day was clear, a touch too hot. Summer’s end was drawing near.
Sidewalks vendors were making their pitches, selling their artisanal wares.
That was when I saw my girl, a vision in a pale green dress.
Blood red lips, a fair complexion and long black tresses framed her face.
Where and when could it have been that I had seen her like before?
Thought took me back to Hunter Mountain, late in the summer of Seventy four.
Back then I saw one just like this, a beauty with a special grace
With blood red lips and fair complexion and long dark hair that framed her face.
She wore the tartan of her clan as she competed in the dance.
Pipers played and tenors sang; it was the substance of romance.
A rare beauty, ripe for taking, if one was brave enough to chance….
The memory was broken then, my daughter touched me on the arm.
“There you are Dad, where have you been? I was sent to look for you by Mom.”
We had lingered at the fair, wandering separately among the stalls.
It’s Time now to sit down to our meal and share good wine as darkness falls.
Aug 31, 2015
Aug 31, 2015 at 7:52 AM UTC
Your hair,
Lips,
Eyes.
Artisanal movements made,
Hands entwined.
Fragrance, spring blossom.
Almost divine.
Walking with another,
Future unseen.
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 4:17 AM UTC
You read my poem,
sighed like a widowed cello,
told me I was
so brave.
So sensitive.
So real.
I said thanks.
You asked if I was free
Friday.
You wanted to know the man
behind the wound.
The author of ache.
The architect of vibes.
So I showed up.
A little unwashed.
A little twitchy.
A patchwork of trauma
in ill-fitting pants.
You blinked.
Twice.
Like I’d just tracked in mud
on the white carpet
of your curated suffering.
You wanted a candlelit meal
with my metaphors.
But I brought the cow.
It shat on the floor.
I tried to explain—
the sadness isn’t a costume.
The pain isn’t prose.
The blood on the page
was mine.
You said,
“I just thought you'd be more… together?”
I said,
“I thought you knew what empathy meant.”
Turns out,
what you really wanted
was artisanal anguish
with the trauma locally sourced
but ethically removed.
You can cry to the soundtrack—
just don’t ask where the violins came from.
Because—
Nobody is amused with a stray cow.
But most people enjoy
a good hamburger.
Apr 15, 2025
Apr 15, 2025 at 11:47 PM UTC
I wait for the ground to reclaim me
organic tissue, clothing of cotton
biodegradable, degraded
metallic dirt with soot and wood
blood spills from my mouth
uncontrollable
I am injured and waiting
I gurgle through a deep reverie
where the ground swallows me whole
cold soil poured over flesh
artisanal grave keepers
bury me along the elms and oaks
and I become strong enough
to conquer my darkest self
to dig out of the night
and somehow, somewhere
find you with my last breath
in my final hour
to say the words I mean--
it is you
it has always been you
the answer
to the unasked question
the vision late at night
before my sweetest slumber
the craving when I don't know
what I want
has always been you
but I stare at the sky
feel cold, sticky blood
leave my body
and wait for the ground
to claim me
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 1:01 AM UTC
These days are for the daisies, accented with juniper and babies breath
A gazebo beneath a tree like shade on a cloudy afternoon
With our glasses more vertical than not; I drink you in and swear away the day
She smiles, because I stare off for long periods of time
Reasoning, that I don't want her to catch me gazing at what I have no right to love
A gardener's guilt
Plucking the ripe and ready
It's the time of season for cessation
The paradoxical harvest
An event of sustenance and death
A consumer has no sensation other than taste
A carnivore only taste one flavor
Your flesh on the vine
A rare and coveted commodity
Past vintages become quartets of meaningless digits, like discarded combinations on a constantly changing tumbler
The fortuitous ones will eventually get their chance, but only after the
horticulturist has gotten his fill
For I have forced breath into you
Developing your unique character
With subtle augmentations to your composition; and experience above all else
Only the most bitterly tortured fruit becomes wine of notoriety
A sadistic vintner periodically sampling the evolution of his wares
Very often the inflictions are bored by both master and slave
I feel it in you
It's the only time I do
Feel
Misery is contingent upon company
A fool's philosopher
With flawless adages and quips
He is no different
Eventually we all will be met with the contradictions of our exasperated convolutions
Then where will you be?
Why, you have been made golden!
A hopewell beacon amongst the treacherous and ******
You are now nebulous and immaculate
Like the figure encased with in the marble
Does the sculpture recall the stripping sensation induced by the artisanal hands of the craftsman?
Or is it's ears filled with the clamoring?
Ingrates and dolts who only appreciate the product rather than the steadfast passions of it's means
Amongst the gawking gazers I am indistinguishable; as you are now to me
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 2:14 PM UTC
A glorious sight befell my eyes
A pristine untouched bearer of supplies
Made of wood, of steel, or anything buildable
The Table
Possessing an essence unlike anything else
Hearkening to an unalterable purpose and tableness
Providing unending sustenance on a platform that's stable
The Table
Though the lingering presence in this perceptual world is illusory
The unchanging, uncleft presence is perfection conceptually
Artisanal glyphs adorn its sides unmatchable
The Table
While strife and pandemonium reign in this material domain
There remains a bastion of stability man cannot attain
Indeed, this mystical countenance attains a fable
The Table
Weathered and wizened through inummerable epochs
Joyous outpourings bestow praise not enough
Remaining of unmatchable nature even with the made-in-China label
The Table
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 1:05 PM UTC