everday you'll say it gets better
though it only gets worse
tomorrow is always a promise of live getting better
but when today arives, you still feel sad and num, and find yourself thinking it's no use.

feeling sad
and every day a little bit sadder but you don't know why
this was going to be the most perfect year yet
your body is aching and you feel betrayed
your soul's aching and i feel...
horriefied

but then everything turns num again
and i just stare in the distance and wish it was night, and nothing else but sleep was intresting
but today is day, and i know there are things that need attention
ignorance builds a bigger hell.

my favorite poems don't cheer me up any more
sad songs are made of just words
and not your ten degree room, but your soul feels cold
and i wish i had a place to be homesick to.

Black tresses spread across space
The white flowers ever so small
Yet all the more beautiful
Floating gracefully in her raven locks

And her pearl
Sometimes hidden
Sometimes in full view
Or half bathed in shadows

She holds a beauty not known by man
Yet man cant help but notice her
Some fear what she brings and are frozen in awe
Others spare her a fleeting glance minds lingering for a second

She can only stand a few hours
Before he arrives
Chasing her beauty with passion like fire
So that he may have the glory

But it isn't long
Til she rises again wisps of her raven hair dancing into sight
Its all lit in fire before she arives
Reds and oranges fade to purple and blues

Then she is here once more
Raven tresses filling view
Her pearl standing proud and serene
"the queen of gems and the gem of queens" pearls are called

Who was she if not a queen
Commanding the tides that drift so freely
Such power and such beauty
And until the sky is bathed in fire
She walks in darkness
But she's never alone

I Know What’s Going On ,
Why You Trynna Hide It,,
Let Your Heart Bleed,
Sing As You Fight It,
Your Finding Your Purpose,
It’s You That You Searching,
Just Breathe,
I’m Doing The Same,
If You Know What I Mean,
The Feelings Beens Absent,
I’m Asking What Happing,,
Whipping Up Blood,
With All Theese Napkins,
Shattered Glass Under The Rug,
Regrets Adding Up,
From **** That’s Enough,
To **** What The ****,
I Know I Can’t Take What I Say Back,
Sincere When I Say That,
Will The Tesla Change Your Mind,
In Time Will You Change Inside,
I Want You To Stay The Night,
Arrive By Surprise,
Look Deep In These Eyes,
It Makes You Wanna Cry,
Identify The Reason Why,
Either Can I,
My Pain Is Beautiful And Real Tears,
Where Will I Be In A Few Years,
Not Here
In A Foriend Land,
Floriengn, Ocean Side Like Florida And,
I Can Afford A Home And All Theese Plans,
Be My Lady, Ill Be Ya Man,
But I Ain’t Begin You To Stay,
I Hope You Under Stand, Okay
I’m Sighned Now,
Driving Through La Just To See A Place With a Sign Out,
Drop 10k Just to Stay
I Don’t Wanna Buy Now,
i’m Soul Searching,
My Soul Hurting,
I’m So Certain,
Romance With Closed Curtins,
And The Lights Low,
Blow Out Out The Candle As I Stroke All Night Yo,
Abbracabdra Where The Lights Go,
Breathe Please If It’s Deep, Ima Pipe Slow,
Seizure Like Eyes Roll,
Portal To Another Realm,
I Promise That Your Safe Okay Just Let Your Mind Melt,

This Time It Is Not Is My Demons,
I Don’t Expect Anyting,
Don’t Need A Reason,
Healing Is Why I Am Breathing,
Love Is Like Seasons,
It Dies,
Then Arives When You Need It,
I’m Here To Enlighten Through Dreaming,
I’m Singing, Don’t Go,
If You Do, Don’t Ever Loose Hope,
All My Eggs Cracked No Joke,
My Love Gone Hatch Fa Sho,
That’s Something i Know,
I Will Not Give My opinion On Something I Don’t,
Grey Skys Must Love My Eyes And The Front Of My Door,
I’m Feeling I’m So Sore,
I’m Really For Sure,
It’s You I Adore,
If I Lost That,
I Aint Gone Get Me Off Track,
You May Never See All That I Gave,
I Know It Goes Both Ways,
If Your Really Walking Away,
I Hope Your Okay,
Cos I Know Im Not,
And I Hope You Don’t Feel The Same,
Either I Never Knew The real You,
Or you Changed,
Either Way, Words Aint Gone Help My Case,
I Can’t Reach Your Heart, Regardless What i Say,
Good Bye For Ever Today , I’m Selling Away


All I Can Change Is My Self,
Perception Is Everything,
Ive Been Through Hell,
Stories To Tell,
My Pain It Bleeds,
I Be Singing It Well,
Came Along Way From Grave Yards And Pale,
My Love Runs Deeper Than Every Body I Helped,
When I Was Up,
I Was Picking You Up,
Taking You Places,
Bringing You Home To ****,
And Cuddle Up,
All You Ever Did Was Lie,
**** What The ****,
You Cant Reply, You Are To Much,
You Took My Advice, And Told Me I ****,
Afraid To Realize What You Do,
I Know What’s Been Up,
My Soul Had Enough, It’s Been  Hell Of A Ride,
I’m Slicing Ties,
With These Genuine Eyes Good Bye And Good Luck

i Won’t Be Here The The Storm Comes,

ill Be in My Own In The Storm Front,

I Was Your Saving Grace, Your Burned A Bridge That Cannot Be Replaced,

Theres Nothing You Can Say Now About How You Made A Change. How I Was Right, And all Your Pain,

I’m To Far Gone To See Your Face,

This Wasn’t A Mistake,

I Sacrificed Everything Heavenly For A Fallen Angel That’s Been Misplaced,

You Chose Your Ways,

I Got A Tree House And A Loft In Cave,

And You Will never Be Invited To Stay,

There Aint To Many Feathers Left Teathered On These Shreaded Wings

I Bleed Opera You Ought Remember Me,

Rainy Day Memories

Where do I go when madness arives? My character and personality almost melt away, and I can physically feel it happen.
I shrink, my vulnerability will be the death of me, only if I allow it.
Yet, I refuse to be afraid because I am worth fighting for. I am the perfection in the madness. I am Me! The madness doesn't scare me anymore, because I know threw it, the perfection will eventually peak. That perfection is Me!

Beauty that feeling
your whole body tinggles
you feel you want to fly
the world is of song

Love a moment
it can last forever
but our mind
always gets in the way

Thinking sometimes block
a fear arives
we feel lost
when we could feel love

Experience come
some good
some bad
but it's how you deal with it
that shines your soul

We are on this earth
for a reason
perhaps you have lost your way

In time we all realise
we are complicated
we exist in two worlds

The physical and spiritual
a time in your life
you will come to know as one