"appologies" poems
i tried to write a poem that wasn't about you
but nothing came to mind
so i climbed up on top of my mom's roof
and puffed smoke signals towards the moon
in hopes that they'd take my thoughts with them
before i knew it
i was counting sattelites
the same way that i'd count your breaths at night
apparently everything marches to the same measure as your sunken sternum
"sunrise, sunset."
somewhere in orion's belt
hides the same gleam as your moonlit grin
and i'm back at it again
twisting up sweet leaf in the appologies you'd sling
and hoping you'll think of me
when you wake from coughing in your sleep
as i scortch my fingertips
maybe you'll be reminded
of that first campfire kiss
we shared in the sticks
was it five years ago
or was it six?
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i just can't think of anything but our tangled hips
the way they read just like a star chart's dots and trailing dashes
and the astrological improbability of celestial bodies managing to gracefully merge
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 7:46 PM UTC
Appologies to the spider
I crushed clumsily, by tracing
what I thought were the lines
of law.
make them to break them
bridges of bone
no way to even phone it in
if you don't save
the number.
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 11:34 AM UTC
I always do this, It never fails
My love is a tragedy. No happy ending in my fairytale.
One after the other I massacre my men
They say I take their soul, Do things appologies can't mend.
What is it about me that loves the taste of love
Probably more than vampires love blood.
I need it so bad until I get it in my veins
And then finally I'm satisfied for a moment And they leave forgetting their own name.
Drained of all their self worth. They refer to me as Her
But now that I read it aloud I'm terrified that I may just be that monster.
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 2:58 PM UTC
"Who am i?" I ask myself,
Nobody can tell me,
Nobody can teach me,
Who am i and what i need is
Something i need to figure out myself.
I finally get my answer,
I'm me .
I am what am meant to be,
I am as bad as the worst,
But thankhod as good as the best.
For me what you seee is,
What you get.
Yes you may call me naive,
But i love my life.
I am happy
And for that my freind,
I make no appologies.
I hav had some up's and downs
Super highs and some really low lows
I dont regret what i hav been through,
Cause i know i hav been blessed with my life,
And rewarded with hood freinds,family and good health.
I am not in a competition,
With anyone else,
I am in a race of my own.
I hav no desire to the game of being better,
I just aim to improve.
I am selfish,impateint and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I'm out of controll
And sometimes i am hard to handle,
But if you cannot handle me at my worst,
Then you don't deserve my best.
I would rather be hated for who i am,
Than being loved for whom am not.
I am unique,
I am speacial.
I am who i am meant to be,
I am me :-),
And. thats all
I'll ever be.
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 7:05 AM UTC
I stated what has bothered me over time
always hear just do things right.
it could have been my blindness
or facing my dismiss
some poems i place carried dust until i opened them
some still trying to come up
but a blinded artist can not see the beauty he can create
unless he opens his eyes for just a speck of time.
nor can a musician play if he can not hear the melody he plays.
nor can a heart beat if it is closed to whats out side or the mind work with all of its realm to truely show whats inside.
i am not always going to be right as much as some has wanted me to be
but i am a person who still beleives in creativity.
time does play a role anguish and pain if allowed takes the stage
i am a friend that truly cares but left stuck in the background because of someone else..
i am the starving artist who has many times been told my work needs a gallery so i give it away to those dear and close to me.
and now i am just a distant memory. so i
vent
2/10/2014
my appologies for the previous poem" why". i have had mixed comments else where but really look at it, thats what alot of people see. it isnt about me or even you we are all different, the biggest thing is lets just get along. an no longer push people into a corner or push away because they dont do exactly the way you or i do. i lost many of friends on both sides of this . my biggest part about who i am is i have a heart and i care , i would bend over backwards to help and there are many who know that to be fact. some walked away as if i did them wrong. i started getting very frustrated and angry. i even put down my artwork for a while , and really it never needed to be this way. so again sorry if i offended anyone i just needed to vent
alan
Feb 10, 2014
Feb 10, 2014 at 2:06 PM UTC
Transgressions without
Appologies like heavy bricks
Thrown on a stage
Instead of roses
Smell them and remember
Jul 19, 2017
Jul 19, 2017 at 7:25 PM UTC