antagonistically I am alive

Languish is a two laned road

Misogyny be my name and my role
Pride be my form

The sins of my brothers and my sisters
they be here no more
When my blood rises from the dead
Ebonics will overcome phonics And our lives will be spared

I am done playing politics
done being your diplomat
if you want the olive branch go get it yourself

I am done acquiescing to your decisions and demands
I am prepared to throw up my hands
All I want is to be left alone with my kin
All I want is for my diction to not define who I am
All I want is for peace not to be left a dream

We as a whole are taught that dreams can become reality
That america is a country created and shaped by our thoughts
Yet our reality is becoming nothing more than a nightmare
Someone tell me who thought of this?
How can we turn our reality from the nightmare it has become into our dreams
let us be honest it was never a place for my people
But since we are here can we not claw each others throats out and get back to the problem at hand?

i'm a light: seeker:
not a light giver:
i'm not illuminating
i am: the negation of what:
well if pride is a junction
to give renegades a purpose
to exalt
a former stature of...

disbelief: questioning:
the self and the "self"
is not, "something":
question-worthy:
there is no question-worthiness
encompassing the self:
the self is a fleeting:
matter of fact no fact some
matter of concern...

i eat light:
i seek it:
i will ensure that stars behave
antagonistically
and not by constellation
rigid concern:
i will have renegade stars
transverse the sky
and make me believe that:
well... a flat earth...
a "flat earth" is better for
nautical geography reading:
of: by sail and oar and ship
somewhere: in the in-between...

lazy *** African chimps
sexed up
and the crazy whitey i really have
no concern for progeny...
besides:
all these choir boys have
crescendo ******* but no *****
while i'm all baritone
with a **** and no *****...
so: guess the Judas and the Gambit...

i just watch these generic ethnic exchanges...
botox lips and blah
like toddlers are generic: looking:
old people are generic: looking:
Barbie doll imitation: generic: looking...
for a moment i almost
found the allure of finding love
something desired not inhibited
given the animation of cinema
with the film: ABOUT TIME (2013)...

but then i'm sniffing at my mother and father
enjoying Tequila and watching:
ZNACHOR: the quack: of no relevance
to geese: or goosestepping...
but the beak of an eagle
beside the point...
    KNIADŹ...

                    this love affair of: well hey presto
i'm about to meet a vampire of a girlfriend
at an art gallery with her grandmother
to play the matchmaker:
what was that?
you in a summer dress: Wickert?
no... Sickert...
             like no: how one does one do of / for
me or for either: you?

to no recurring theme:
audacity of words my own  ocnjuring
unlike a sobering Kantian reminder
that before
god and nothing there
was the instilled fake 1 + 1 = 2...
because:
hmm...
I + I = Z

     a priori analytical: not synthetic?
mathematics
so obficulating:
             obfisculating:
apparently i paint walls and telepathically
shift furniture:
high as a kite:
i smoke 3.5 grams over a month
while all the Jamaicans Mamas smoke that much
in a day...
lucky, *******, me...

1 + 1 = 2
so addition is the equivalent of
compounding nouns
while verbs are best associated
with multiplication
while division is given
the adverbs
with the minus calls of prepositions?

i am baron of flesh and
a weak: sensible mind...
i gather nibbles
of information:
i said the German police wanted
the English fans to smoke marijuana
rather than drink beer...
i blacked out last night
i blacked out last night...
i blacked out last night...
which is better than a hangover...
implies i'm self-aware
no longer question-worthy:
i'm undisputed in terms of consciousness
with the Arabs...

my lover would tell me:
not enough Protein honey-bean:
i hate her sweet American accent:
i ******* hate that
i have an American girlfriend...
i just laughed at her ******* PR resident
somehow
i don't understand Russophobia
when Islamophobia is being staged..
Daniil Medvedev:
tennis is the prized coupling
of Sport Contra Religion
and the wry SMILE...

i blacked out...
it's the most classy sport: out?
no i mean: how people are organized....
it's not like football or rugby...
class....
taste: aesthetic...
some people just never relieve themselves
on the concept of EXPERTISE
EXPERT_TEASE...
jeez jellbee belly button blues Reyla
come on! belly button!
i'll make a trumpet out of it
blowing hot kisses into it!

crab dance before the piano:
i'm no Chopin...
i can't conjure sounds of knowledge
with letters and numbers:
there's one angel:
the wander: of wand and wonder:
the chief: not chef:
the Prokofiev the Beethoven
the Messiah:
Jesus was no Moses was no Muhammad
was no War of Love
Lord:
just a Palestinian Human Shield
not a Jew!

i blacked out and i know how the fridge
looks rearranged across
Jupiter: Backgammon:
this strategy of Asiatic Slavic shaming:
SHEM...
HA...

            because i'm the worst sort of imitation
father this girl will ever
receive:
why do prostitutes keep calling me?
why do prostitutes keep calling me?
Khedra and Aloyse...
maybe Aloyse...
           maybe i am dragon and serpent
and a limp **** limp foot i
don't know: i want to know...
my eyes are burning
with the world of status quos
somehow: bewilderingly:           STUPID...
A-L'OH-EASE: ALOYSE..
how i write then how i say it...
stupid Swiftie thought
had this poet covered:

yes and if i were giving higher stature
as JOURNALIST...
poet v journalist...
hmm: get money for being literate:
hmm...
seems a shame to waste by watering
down with self-conglaturation...

the heavenly seeking
teenager girl peering eyes...
DISCO ******* LEGO
i've seen those eyes before:
they were mine:
a long time ago:

maybe humanity needs SLEEPERS...
gods...
demons...
geniuses: i think that a genius is a terrible
waste of the intellect:
a genius is intellect and self
never attested as: intellect is a
a faculty: a function: self-compounding...
self-complexing:
self-avoiding:
self-construc­ting:

                i am a light seeker sleeper...
what happened at Golgotha says
in Las Vegas... savvy?
ship in the desert:
supposedly no other adjective: wind...
WIATR!

         WIND:n it blew one minute: died the next.