as i was lying in bed last night, my mind raced, as usual.
thoughts zipped in instants - why what who who who why's
mixed with images of imagined images,
images i have experienced or images impossible to experience - words floating in and out of each other, caressing, lingering fingertips
a few words joined at the hips and rested for a long, tremendous instant –
[eliminate connotation]
Reality is a Cage, I am a prisoner of my reality - everyone is trapped in everything - how can i get free! how do i freedom climb jump dive?! FREEDOMFREEDOMCAGEPRISONI I I I I I CAGE I AM NOT THIS BUT ALL I AM IS THIS
i sat up and rolled in my blanket so that i was cacooned AH Waarmth dropped my body sideways and my face hit my pillow
I sit up again
And look around at the black and white
the thoughts SWALLOW ME
everything we do
everything everything
self control moderation ambition
******* money
Reason law health
Children Music Epiphany
love strife religion
every
religion
every belief
Understanding
sanity
self built cages
DULL SELF BUILT CAGES
If this is all i have made for myself!
ridiculous!
why haven't i been more creative!
more colorful
OUTRAGEOUS
I am THROUGH Dulling My Existence
why have i hid in this pool of peace and wisdom and identity
in hope for understanding and existence
WHY
do i wallow in this puddle of thought!
WHY DO I MAKE MYSELF STILL
I dont want to be in the room
this black and white stillness
fear of other sways into me
i see it and i see it
dim weak feeble
I Smash it!
out out out
anything but stillness
anything but warmth
anything anything
I FREE MYSELF
BRIGHTEN This CAGE
OUtside OUTSIDE
golden ice
firm underfoot
space all around
icy breath exPAAAAND
EXHAAALE
I walk so quickly but i cant get away there are people there are things everywhere and i cant get away
there fences around all these planted trees
males playing football in the icy 1 am air
i walk through them and laugh laugh
walk walk i see a bunny and I chase it!
AHahahah DELIGHT
you must run fast when things eat you
I slow down
SMILE
my whole feels
I keep walking climb a fence
see im in a small enclosure
climb this big green metal box
sit
look to my right theres a bigger brick box
climb the fence with ease step on this other square thing
YES
i look around and scream at the top of my lungs
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
to HEar it with these ears
i
want
more
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
i laugh delightedly and lay on my back
looks at the stars
feels the chill in her fingers
allows her body to shiver
not attempt to control
gets up and looks around
climbs down
so
easy!
trees in a row
rusty red baseball dirt
scraggy asphalt rocks
geese waddling away
Vibrant Golden Night!
the lights sphere into the biggest orbs of light rays ive ever seen before!
i sit in a baseball dugout
she lights a wet leaf
smokes spindle away
outline the vague air that i breathe
she holds it up to the moon
casts off her glasses
i see it BLOOM
there is a visible entity
flows into form
pulsates
clear in the white orb
she sits and stares
ignores her stinging eyes
getting up, she climbs a fence
hops down
smooth
landing every time
EXHILARATION SENSUAL INSTANT FREEDOM
she walks once more and sees her shadow for the first time
how lovely this absence of form, this evidence of form
how unappreciated
she bows to her
she walks once more and climbs a fence once more
to walk on
astroturf
bhahahaha!
she plays with her body
Cartwheels for everyone!
I look to the sky
Stretch out arms and SPIN and SPIN AND SPIN
SINGPURESPINSPINSPINSPIN
Truth whirls beyond her
Freedom RIVERS Through Her
No reluctance, she returns to her white walled hallways
Her electronics
Freedom RIVERS Through Her
And Sleep Welcomes Her
She forgets her dreams
she wakes
while i dream
while i paint limitless freedom
:::beyond:::::......
