YOU LOVE HIM SO YOU COVER UP THE ABUSE, PUTTING ON YOUR MAC MAKE UP TO COVER UP THE BLACK EYE THAT HE GAVE YOU. GETTING INTO LIP STICK TO COVER UP THAT SCAR TISSUE, THATS JUST ON THE CORNER OF YOUR MOUTH LEFT THERE AFTHER YOU HAD YOUR STITCHES REMOVED. YOU LOVE HIM SO YOU COVER UP THE ABUSE, DRINKING HEAVILY WHEN FRIENDS COME OVER SO THEY CAN SEE A HAPPIER SIDE OF YOU. IN THE SUMMER YOUR WEARING PANTS BECAUSE YOUR LEGS ARE ALL BRUSIED AND YOUR HOME GIRLS ARE LAUGHING THINKING THAT YOU DRESS LIKE A FOOL. BECAUSE YOU KEEP IT FROM THEM, THE INJURIES THAT HE CONFLICTS ONTO YOU. YOU LOVE HIM SO YOU COVER UP THE ABUSE, DISTANCING YOUR SELF FROM FAMILY BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW WELL THEY CAN READ YOU. YOU KNOW YOUR MOTHER KNOWS EVERYHING SO YOU PICK FIGHTS TO MAKE HER NOT WANNA CONVERSATE WITH YOU. AN YOU DARE NOT SPEAK TO YOUR BROTHERS BECAUSE TO HIM YOU KNOW WHAT THEY WILL DO. YOU LOVE HIM SO YOU COVER UP THE ABUSE, NOW YOUR LOOKING AT YOUR SELF LYING ON THE FLOOR IN A PUDDLE OF YOUR OWN BLOOD, YOUR BODY LAYING LIFELESS, SWELLING AND TURNING BLUE. IF ONLY YOU WOULD HAVE STOP COVERING UP THE ABUSE AND RECOGNIZED IT WASNT LOVE THAT HE HAD FOR YOU.

i want to die, what is the use of staying alive?
whats is the purpose of my life?
when i am allways living with so much strife.
i can't go on living this way.
i can't stand boring day,afther boring day.
just watching my life waste away.
you must think im a drama queen.
you haven't been there,you haven't seen.
the disaster my life has been.
i know death is part of living,but all i know
is that i will be quitting my life,
which has no meaning,
i want death to take over,
i want to go being sober,
knowing what i am doing.
aware of where i am going,
no need for drugs,no need to disguise
the feeling certain death will arise
i will go quietly, no one will know
just let me sleep.and not wake up tomorrow
i want to die,don't want to cry,no one understands my sorrow....

I wanna take it slow motion
Step by step unlit i can feel you
Day to the night
Moment afther moments
Always down for you tho
Only you want you in the night
Sorry if i abused you mentaly im low
Sorry for the forghotten memories

Every morning regretting you
Every morning regretting you

Step by step slow motion
Taking you  in slow moiton
Feeling for u on slow montion
Nights to the day in slow motion

I getted the dont want you with me