began to come near the surface: at such a sheer change,
within rooms, the room there, he'll be there
licking my body clean as Kali did: he'll be there kissing my *******
and kissing away each scar, each stench, each pain, each violation,
he'll rest his healing palms upon my waist turning my skin to gold,
and place his lips against mine, plump and removal of achings,
removal of suffering: all for the chance to love the girl inside of me,
all for the chance to heal himself through me, to heal me through him,
to heal together: to touch upon the soul of the other as they do
in myth, as they do in legends, as they do in heaven—
to enter heaven through the other, to enmesh, to entangle,
to be w-hole together, one hole instead of two holes
I'm still saying please, I'm still asking for my plea to be granted:
but I don't know why I-AM saying please, I don't know why I plea.
I don't know what it is I'm asking for, but please: "Please." I still ask. I still beg.
And in my throat, in the heavy way you have before,
my throat responds as you do, your word and affirmation
wrestles into my throat, and you say through my voice in my throat, all heavy and gentle as you do: "Yes."
Please, you'll only make me love you
again, you'll only make me love you again,
more, you'll only make me love you more,
you'll only make me love you, please.
And I say that as a plea, before I'd almost ask you to stop,
but you only love me more each day and I only love you more
every time you do those things with your eyes and every time
you do that laugh, every time you're flawed: you only make me love you more:
please, you're making me trust you: making me comfortable and feel secure,
security, you're making me feel loved, you're making me feel cared for, you only seem to love me more and more and you only seem
to trust me more and more and care for me more and more,
deliver in the ways I've needed, but for some reason I'm still begging: why, why this feeling, you're making me love you more, you're only making me care about you:
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