and i'm scared because if
somebody says your name accidentaly
out loud, i swear i'm gonna
explode in screams and storms
and cry myself to death, 'cause
even the sound of your name out of other
person's lips, sounds so beautifully
devine to me, and my skin is sensitive
and still untouched, ready to be burned
by your flaming fingertips,
but what if you never want me to burn?

My tears run down like razorblades.
Acoustic guitars ringing in my ears.
Its just so hard for me to accept the fact,
I can't make you smile like she can.
i know your not the one at fault.
is it her or is it me?
when the words we can't say come out to play
i swear i'll take all of the blame.
please dont be ashamed, after all it was just a pretend kiss.
i "accidentaly" lost my mind in the
illusion of role play.
i'm falling down asking why.
you pull me up,
shes breaks me down.
theres no sense in playing games,
you've used up all your magic
and now its just me alone tonight.
but soon it will be okay, soon this will all blow over.
we both know this isn't worth the fight.
i just want to crawl in bed
and forget the life i led with you.
so maybe you would forget it too.
don't say this wont last forever,
it's just a temporary state.
i wont let this die,
it's inside me tearing me apart.
the mistakes i made
there over to her.
there over to you.
water under the brigde.
i can't wait to be just a memory.
maybe one day you'll think of me.
why didn't i just wait and see
what you and me could be?
i'll climb The Wall and ill be gone.
could anyone help old humpty dumpty up again?
my words lead to misconceptions.
assumptions were made,
i just needed a helping hand
and pick me up if you will.
good bye my friend,
well meet again
where the polar bear greets you with a devilish grin.

A succesful lawyer is deeply and desperately mourning for his dead wife today. A robber broke into their house yesterday, took their money away and killed his wife who happened to be at home alone watching TV by strangling her to death. He blames God for his wife's terrible death and decides to convert himself to atheism.

A Mother has just got a terrible news this morning. Her son died in war yesterday. She blames God who let this happen and the goverment who sent her son away into battle

Neither of them has the slightest ideas of what would happen in the near future if their wife and son hadn't died.....

The lawyer's wife someday would be so bored of her husband's job that keeps him busy all the time and then start seeing another man. He then would find out about his wife's affair, confront her and after a fierce quarrel **** her by strangling her. After he kills the man his wife has an affair with he then shoots himself as well in the head...

The woman's son would return home on leave immediately  and accidentaly run into a very attractive mid-aged woman . Both would start seeing each other, to the woman's husband's dismay who then would end up killing them both before finally kills himself.

Things happens for reasons....
Life is like a river.... You change its course, it would come three times swifter than it should...

When i wake up i will die
I will die sitting as you are sleeping on my lap
And you will not wake up and cry for my warmth is infinite
You think i am not dead
You think i am not dead

When i was a kid i thought i wouldn't want to marry
Though marrying doesn't mean having children
Maybe i thought i wouldn't want to have ***
It's just terrifying to think that i could just accidentaly have a kid
Children are scary
How they scream and laugh and cry and run
How those eyes stare, so brave, mysteriously intimidating
I am afraid
I won't ever have a child, i thought

But then i found that
it is so calming
To think of Assia and Shura
Together
Following Sylvia
Following Sylvia
I would like to have a child too
A daughter would be perfect
Or a son or an intersex, it doesn't matter
I just need her
I need my Sylvia
I need to follow Sylvia
I will follow her and will not leave her
She is not Jesus and i don't need to leave her and she will not ever leave me
We, Sylvia and i, will be one
This one infinite warmth
This one infinite warmth

i didn't intend
for it to seem pointed
that time the dog
accidentaly ******
on the
     church
              steps

I started writing poetries
But all I could read from it was
The sound of bones cracking
Another cry I always told myself not to be let out
The sound of eyeballs falling to a spring

I kept repeating your recorded voice
Breathing to it over, over, all over again
Couldn't smell your soul
Couldn't feel the warmth of your breath

I accidentaly broke my chest, ripped my heart,
Accidentally casted the darkness away
Couldn't find you
Couldn't see you

How was your voice again?
It was a dusty bluish green
A moss-covered 2 p.m. bright sky

Do you ever see our star?
It's called "sun"
The one that casts you away from your mind
But not mine

Maybe it's because I'm tired
Maybe it's because of you
I accidentaly called everyone
I met today your name
A nap with my book on my face
A goodnight to me
A goodnight back
But you aren't here right now
It's someone else
It usually is