My favorite TV shows
Are the ones that I wake up early,
Or instead, stay up late,
Denying my body the sleep it craves,
Just to catch the next episode.
In reality It doesn’t need to be the next episode.
I’ll greet the dawn
Or be companion to late night hours
Happy with Saturday morning cartoons I’ve already seen
And Adult swim anime reruns.
My favorite TV shows,
Are the ones so classic
That Netflix doesn’t even offer them.
The shows that I would spend days, weeks,
And in comparison to my life,
Months watching, never bored with them.
My favorites are the shows
On channels like Boomerang and G4.
The channels no one really knows of
Or I guess remembers knowing.
My favorite TV shows,
Like my favorite books,
Inspired adventures of my imagination
Where I became the characters
Reenacting every episode myself.
My mom always called me an actress,
My grandma told me I was destined for the stage.
My life was a soap opera one day,
And a nail biting thriller the next.
All because of my favorite TV shows.
it's not like one of those clean cuts, that leave behind nothing but a mere, white scar,
but rather that of a gouging wound; a piece of me,
no, no, an immense chunk of me, torn away.
twisted, strained, contorted, ripped,
until finally broken free
but wait, this isn't free
anything but free
like an eagle, destined to soar, held prisoner in a cage that's too small.
longing to be set free,
Are set free
To be lost
Among the world's
Are given up
And shoved from the mind
Destined to wander aimlessly
Through the barren field
Of a life
The day when
Hopes and dreams
That is the day
We must all fear
A world wide phrase known so well as a lie, but as I say this to you, a lie, is the furthest it can get from the truth
I will not curl my pinkie around yours like kids do in elementary, I will not look into your eyes and say these words because that's just too simple, I will spend my lifetime making you believe
Making sure you do not have the slightest doubt in me, in us, in this ring I'm putting on your finger, this I promise to you
I will kiss the tears off your cheeks when you cry, I will tell you you're beautiful over and over and over even though I know so well that you'll deny it time and time again
That every word coming out of those soft luscious lips will be heard, never ignored, and when you feel like you're free falling down to the rock bottom of your life, I will be there, arms outstretched and ready to catch you, cradle you in my arms, happily walking you down the path of the journey you're destined to take
Whether it means carrying you on my back like a backpack, on my shoulders like a toddler, or in my arms like a newborn baby
I will never live without you
I will never let go of those bright blue eyes so detailed like the deep color of the ocean water, illuminated by a layered color palette of sunset
The gleam of your soft, smooth dark brown hair that catches my eye every time will always be mine, the coconut smell so enticing I lick my lips and beg for more
To always follow along to the orchestrated love song your voice plays for me every time you speak
To never stray from the beat of the drum your heart pounds every time you breathe or the wonderful wave of your laughter that bounces on air with every joke
To never let any challenges come between us or keep us apart because I will always find my way back to you like a lost puppy looking for it's owner, a baby bird trying to find it's mother, or a turtle making its way to the sea
You will stay a tattoo on my heart and a stained picture in my mind, never once leaving my thoughts, always in my arms
To think of you when my eyes are open and when they are closed, as the sun rises and as the sun falls, and until the day that I die, I will use every breath I have to whisper I love you