i.
on such frigid atmosphere lay,
a serene fugitive.
do not look at me with such lithe eyes:
the sepulcher is only starting
to begin.
your sleep's regimen twice-folds
origamied on the quiet cloister,
hang there, puts to test the unblinking
certainty of we who bear no retrieval.
ii.
remember when
all the fish you gut and all the *****
you cleave were all but meaningless
fill?
a mutiny of stench is released,
as men continually purged you of
your poisons — us mortised to this
vague mandate.
i have wished for them to miss the mark.
i have longed for them to mime only
but your placid face.
they have ransacked the quarry of flesh
flashed bare against mirrors riveted
to split-seconds of hours.
iii.
when i was young,
much sleep was needed — a noonday travail to all fretting but a dream of dogs.
now this thump of quietness
may mean no recovery.
the speculations to gnaw for sleep are
lost in a blink of an eye:
the blanket that once smelt of camphor
now engulfs in a single blast of cerement.
— this scrap of a thing that we
almost have no use for.
iv.
a furious consideration of roomfuls
disallowed by a heady ruling of
emotion's precision.
that, of the most difficult choices—
knowing where to fecundate rest.
your body heeds
no metaphysical reckoning.
the preordained space for you to occupy, this unwanted silence that keeps
on renaming things we cease to forget.
a sentence seized by a clause of wood.
all too soon to wave as a single beat
is thrown a hundred ripples into my
eyes, dragged along and trundling there,
left lengthening to leave, never to wait.
not with time, nor with a touch we choose
to contest — but an eyeing space,
a moment to attract transience.
v.
i will only look at you once — lacquered
with solace.
no ellipsis of breath could continue you.
no paragraphs would forgo of your
punctuations. i deny my defeat
against one who brooks with victory.
no hint of other chroma.
a chiaroscuro of beating petals,
left only to thrive and not swing
with verdurous display.
how to tell if this is true?
i touch myself as words gyrate
in the room that received your body
like the lighthouse that feeds the sea.
— or maybe sheathed with the untruth.
this enigma yields no revelations.
too late to ring yet still continuing on,
an early drop of dew.