it's ok

it's ok May 2014

how does she feel when she is numb
she never gave a boy a second glance,
never cared enough about love,
but around him she feels invincible
she blushes at the slightest touch
and she feels so stupid, she feels
so confused, because she doesn't
understand and she doesn't
need to accept where
her emotions are
running

it's ok May 2014

Dizzy Reflection

Where did you start and who are you now?
Looking in the mirror with a heavy heart.
You believe you believe your importance never
never ran through someone's mind
but your vocal chords ring with the way you talk
and your throat rumbles with power when you speak
I want you to know me
and I want you to listen.
There's a place to start and there's a place to end,
it's not simple and the days seem like years sometimes
but it's always worth it in the end

it's ok May 2014

bittersweet

I don't care to talk about the problems that surround me
Rather watch 'em make a boulder split right down the middle
Crushing my entire future, to have aspirations bend
Bottle up what I feel, to hope everyone arounds me feels alright
Well, I don't feel alright, but I'm not going to complain
Keep moving forward, in hopes I made someone's day okay
This is all temporary, I hope
Because it's 5 PM, and my eyes are tired, my body is shaking
I fought the longest battle, and I'm ready to lose,
But I refuse to surrender

#sad #hope #happy #time #battle #bittersweet #care #aspirations #5

it's ok Apr 2014

drunk and sad

I got drunk alone with whiskey,
the back porch held me with tears I shed
I didn't want help, but after the clean skin
I had for 3 whole years, it's amazing how
a little piece of metal, with pounds of self pity
can lure you back to opening wounds

it's ok Apr 2014

sometimes I can't sleep

I don't know if you know what sadness feels like
When it lasts for years, and you never catch a break
until you go numb and learn when you need to laugh
I don't know if you know what constantly changing is like,
when you can't find steady ground and
you're not sure if you can love, or if you're even capable
of feeling that way
I know you know greed, impatience, and anger
I don't know if you know that I have tried with all my strength,
to be the exact opposite of those things
I waited to feel alive, and tried to catch it,
but the people that brought me up showed me the news
instead of cartoons
they sighed at the slightest annoyance instead of giving me patience
and they told me about the horrors
and I saw all the bad in all the people

I don't know. I'm just thinking.

it's ok Apr 2014

rabbits and dogs and cats and animals

True beauty does not have to communicated by human lips,
but shines through the eyes of a loved animal
that trusts you enough to curl up in your lap
and doesn't flinch at the hand that comforts them
the animal that will make sure you're okay
and will be there for you when it feels like
every thing is falling apart,
things are best when something so full of love
wants you to feel better again

It's a short stupid poem, but I really love my animals. They mean the world to me. I have four of my own.
Simba(cat), Sydney(Dog), Ghost(rabbit), Shadow(rabbit) and they're all really sweet and I just have an overwhelming love for them. :)

it's ok Apr 2014

invisible pulling lines

you're the perfect beat in the song
together, you're knotted with a perfect memory
you're a could have, should have,
you're a wish and a dream
and to trace my fingertips across your skin
feels like heaven and bliss running through me
head to toe, and sometimes at a breaking point
but I'm not even sure if my words mean anything
because we can spend all night, all day, all year
talking. laughing. fighting.
we can spend forever in ecstasy, thinking it'll never end
I will still have my doubts
because you're a couldn't have, shouldn't have
just a wish and another goodbye

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