in the air,    in the blue sky
      The same sky I often look up at
but I find myself looking down
   watching cars become specks then -

                                         disappear.
Endless horizon,
                         that blur of white and
          sea green, then
                            the clearest blue
                                   the perfect sky.

The earth is so much larger
                    than I can possibly
                         comprehend.


       Much like your love for me

You answered just a little too fast.
It surprised me.
I haven't seen you in about a year,
And I am realizing I've missed you.
It surprised me.
The last time I saw you,
And the time before that,
You were intoxicated.
It surprised me.
I haven't seen you in about a year,
And I am realizing what you are to me.
It surprised me.
You are a dress without hems or seams.
I hardly know you but you are beautiful.
You are the bullet in the rotating cylinder of the gun to my head.
You dig through my skull and explode my amygdala.
And force me to love you.
You are the jam in the barrel as I pull the trigger.
I fell to the ground in realization:
You both killed me and saved me.
It surprised me.

A teardrop,
quickly formed
refused to fall,
demanded her
the reason
why it should
roll down
from her eyes.
choked with emotion
she couldn't reply;
yet attempted
to say "Love"
but before she finished,
the tremor
gripped and shook,
the tear drop
fell on her cheek
first drop of rain
after a long drought,
started a flow
that refused to stop
for a long time.

Proverbs from Papa
or Memoirs from Mama
Wisdom
is all I seek to obtain
Tall tales from brother
Black and white lies from the other
Foolishness
is all I wish to escape
Relations from expired dates
A me foreign to my current mental state
Maturation
is a journey with no end goal
But the point is to make constant growth

People could send words like knives my way and I would still find a way to laugh. You can't break me down, I'm so far off the ground. I have heard every word and insult in the book, but I still don't give a ****. No reason to be hurt by some *******'s words which are probably lies. I might be ugly or whatever people say, but still prettier than your ****** personalities and words of hate. Too happy to care about haters today, don't bother with me, I won't cry or tear up for a ******* ****.