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Erica Dec 2014
i will tattoo
your name
in my heart
like a
beautiful
permanent
scar
Erica Dec 2014
For you have your mother's eyes, dear child
And my heart sinks lower every time I look
Because you are a reminder of what I've failed to do
A reminder that I was a coward
And when I gathered my courage it was too late
Your mother died knowing I was only bad
She died before ever hearing my goodbye
She died before ever knowing what's in my heart
And that night, she brought all goodness in me to die along
And left my broken heart shattered to pieces, beyond repair
A free verse on what Snape might have felt everytime he looked at Harry.
Erica Jan 2015
It was a room crowded by people.
They talked in groups with so much eager.
But beneath the laughter and joyous sight
was a girl who saw not the light.
And there she was, standing
in the corner, just pretending
that she was happy to be around,
when, really, she was screaming with no sound.

Everyone was so happy,
but all she wanted was to flee.
None of those people cared of her!
Why should she stay and drown in fear?
None of them even noticed her there!
Like she was just another gust of air.

When there was yet another party,
who got uninvited? None but she!
When there was a share of cake,
She was lucky she could have a take.
Then  why? Why did she stick around?
It hit her. Because for another year is she bound.
There is always that one student in a class who just looks like (s)he wants to hide behind a veil. In this case, you know who that person is.
Erica Jul 2015
Daddy, tell me why you smoke.
Do you like your future served in black?
Dead lungs and your body in a sack?
Your family crying and me in the back?

Daddy, tell me why you smoke.
Why are you letting toxic flow through your veins?
Do you like to grow old and be in pain?
You know you're walking down the devil's lane.

Daddy, tell me why you smoke.
I'm your little girl, do you even care?
Your poisonous smoke is all over the air.
Don't give me more burden than I can bear.

Daddy, tell me why you smoke.
Don't you know, don't you see what you're doing?
The time we're supposed to have is only fading.
Do you think a bright future isn't worth pursuing?

Daddy, tell me why you smoke.
Why are you killing yourself and dragging me along?
They say you're addicted, please prove them wrong.
I know you can do it, I know you are strong.

Daddy, tell me why you smoke?
I wish for one thing, and one thing only.
Tell me you'll quit and erase my worry.
And promise me forever I won't lose my daddy.
Erica Jun 2015
your kicks and stabs
will never scar me
the way your words have.
Erica Dec 2014
Forever is a long time, darling,
It is not the cold air of winter chill
Which the sun will **** and thus born spring.
It is not the stars that light the night
Which, in fact, merely reflects the sun.
For as I said, forever is a long time, mate.

When you said you'll love me forever,
Did you realize forever is a long time?
You pledged your love to me, your girl
And you promised we'll be like poems that rhyme.

When you said you'll protect me forever,
Until death do as part and still you will
Watch over me from Heaven,
Did you realize what you've promised isn't real?

Because, honey, forever isn't like what you think,
The sun will not shine forever,
The trees will not grow forever,
The moon will not be moon forever,
And the earth and its people is not ceased to exist forever.
For it is told the time will come,
When we all be mere memories,
And the new world will do us harm,
And all of us will be just stories.

Forever is a long time, boy,
Don't you make promises with your toy.
Erica Sep 2016
It was a song of sorrow and pain that
was heard miles away from the hospital room.
It wasn’t fine that the world kept moving
when an angel had only just met her doom.

What once was dust will leave as dust
The bones of a fallen warrior, the bravest of all
Lies upon the table, so fragile and small


The world kept spinning and all I knew was
the words echoing inside of my head,
she's gone she's gone she's gone she's gone
The battle finally ended, the reaper has come,
I knew with each step taken I was a step closer
to the truth that she who loved me was gone forever.
My feet got heavier as I heard the saddest melody
in sync to sing a perfect harmony
of weeps and prayers of the brokenhearted,
a sad truth that she was gone indeed.
The whole world fell apart when i heard
the last beep of a dying heartbeat,
the cold touch of what used to be warm.

Oh, my mouth danced the prayer
but my heart still grieved,
for her eyes were as blank
as her soul was gone.
Last year my great grandmother left our sides. She was nearly a hundred and death was inevitable, we all knew. But it was my first funeral and I had no idea what to expect.
Erica Jan 2015
i'm sorry
i never meant to break your heart
i know i have never been so smart
but when it comes to this i'm a sucker
i'm best at bottling feelings and keep it under
i want to apologize but i'm just too selfish
i know for this fame and fortune i'll never relish
i'll take back all those insults and swear words
but please help me get these tangled feelings unfurled
i want to change, like you're telling me to
chase these bad habits away into the blue
all the bad things you say i'm made of
i know it's true but you i do love
i wish you could read my mind
so you'd know i love you and that i'm not fine
but i would never find that courage
to deliver to you this message
i'm sorry
mom
Erica Dec 2014
is this how our story ends?
with you forgetting
and me regretting?

is this how our story ends?
with our song not sung anymore,
our rings not worn anymore?

is this how our story ends?
with you and someone new
while i'm stuck in the same old shoe?

is this how our story ends?
i'd hate for it to be
but now you look free
so bad as it is
must i accept this
*it is how it ends
Erica Jan 2015
love is a magical thing, some say
but love is a *******, others say

i wish i have loved
i wish he had given me hope
when they ask me of my crush
i can't give nothing but a blush
because i have never fallen in love
and i have never been given a rose
i wish i know exactly what love is
i wish i'm not so blind like this

i wish i have fallen in love
i wish he's what i'm thinking of
Erica Jan 2015
i want to be a little girl again
when a lego brick was my only pain
(now it has become my friend)
i want to go back to fantasy land
where it was never hard to understand
(i guess these are all unplanned)
i want to be a child once more
when the cruelest thing was just a slamming door
(my face now often meets the floor)
i want to go back to when I was six
when I thought nothing was impossible to fix
(maybe childhood was just a trick)
i want to become an innocent kid
untouched by sins and bad people's deeds
(oh, how i crave for you to bleed)
i want to go back to being small
when the only monster was movie trolls
*(now i see the monsters in all)
"growing old is mandatory, growing up is a choice."
Erica Jun 2015
you used to play me under the silver moon
and sing along to my melodious tune
your velvety voice compliments me
together we were beauty, a striking symphony

but as you got older your eyes saw more
you saw the monsters and evil the world bore
you learned about frustration obsession suppression
and then you fell into the abyss of depression

i wished you had come to me and play
i would've hugged you and wiped those tears away
we could've soared together beneath the shadows
but why did you choose that poisonous arrow?

do you remember the music we made
if you'd just believe i could be your aid
my carol is unsung and your story untold
my figure is rusty and your eyes are cold

if i tell you that you're not yet too late
will you listen and change your fate?
place your hands on my hardened keys
remember the old days remember them please

remember our songs and remember me
you can let go and play our harmony
whatever you're going through, you can make it
Erica Jan 2015
At least you and I both have something in common
Erica Dec 2014
today is your day
forget about those people
you constantly call "friends"
when deep inside you're aware
that they don't so much
give a ****

today is your day
forget about even trying
to fit in in places you know
you don't even belong

today is your day
forget about that one person
whom you try so much to please
when you know they don't
glance your way at all

today is your day
forget about your parents
who want you to be a perfect child
without even knowing the
effort you've been
putting

today is your day
not your friends'
not your crush's
not your parents'
nor is it society's

today is your day
and once you learn
to do what you want
and be who you truly are
not who they want
you to be, then...
then will you realize
that you own you
and

every single day onward
will be your day
you belong to you!
Erica Dec 2014
To drown
You don't need water
To suffocate you to death
You don't need the ocean
To drain your every breath

To drown
You just need to feel
Happy and sad and mad
You just need to be
Alone and lost and scared

To drown
In a sea of emotions
To drown
And die and still broken
Erica Dec 2014
like this poem
we are unf
Erica Jan 2015
i am water
  calm
         and quiet
     like the
                raging ocean
Everyone tells me I'm quiet and shy. But nobody ever says I'm weak.
Erica Dec 2014
Shivering in the cold air
She witnessed her own breath
Torn clothes, feet bare
Oh how she wished for just a tiny flare

The bleak winds swept so unkind
White clouds hid the sun behind
The snow was cold –her skin it pierced
Nature itself seemed to have her cursed

Her stomach churned
For food it yearned
Throat burnt with thirst
Life was at worst

A sign for life she wanted to see
A human soul to hear her plea
But all she had gotten
Was winter chill and being forgotten

And now the storm is too strong to face
So she falls gladly into Winter's embrace
Winter is not just Christmas,
it's also cold
and so is life.
Erica Dec 2014
you'll never know
what the light is like
if you hide in the dark
if you lurk in the shadows
if you wait for the right time
because the world keeps rotating
and time will keep on running
and no one will stop for you

you'll never know
what the world is like
if you stay inside your shell
not having courage to come out
and it will be your label
which you will take into your grave
a coward who hides behind comfort
who dares not take a risk

you'll never know
what you are capable of
if you don't open your eyes
and listen to the chirping birds
with your eyes shut and ears plugged
all you see and all you hear
is the nasty, disgusting voice
of the devil and his failures

you'll never know
about the world
and how to live
if you never try
and once you run out of time
regret will eat you alive
leaving you not even bones
like birds pecking through your flesh

and then at your last moments
then you'll realize
how pitiful your life was
not looking anything
oh, how blind had you been!
not listening anything
oh, how deaf had you been!
not doing anything
not trying anything
not living your life
oh, how dumb had you been!
if only...
you'll wish
if only had you been a little brave
and step out from the dark
oh, how little had you known

you'll never know
if regret would be your last emotion
if you don't take this chance
and soar beneath the shadows
you'll never know

— The End —