I'll never forget her first synth

4:00 pm

& The streetlights are on

I don't know

It makes me anxious for several non-specific reasons

I'll say,
          
                 She floats

& now when I hear this

I'll see do not cross signals waving behind car exhaust

                                                 Is this peaking?

Between a plane & a star

I think about the parallels

I am walking there,
While I am walking back

My thoughts remain dense
& I echo the word in my head until it starts to yell back

While trying to place myself,
I've stumbled

& With a reach away
There is another mind

But remain separated by our apathy

I am another opinion
I am another thought

I am everything
& I am nothing

It's been over a year
Then said,
I feel like we'll know each other for a while
Then said,
You're soft
No,
Not like that,
Just soft
I want to wrap my arms around you all the time
& tell you that,
Even in a world of complicated choices I find a solid ground when next to you
I lov-
I can't say it
But
I enjoy your company
Glancing at you makes me smile
& I hate having emotions tied to another human
Just don't break me
I am fragile and crack easily
& Unwillingly I am attached to everything you're about
Can we drive up the canyons again
& point out the houses that sit in isolation from the world
Picture ourselves escaping from siren filled streets
& A starless sky
& Talk about how the world is dying but nothing matters anyways
Let's drink wine on your couch again
& We'll slowly begin to lean over each other
After all this,
I hope we will know each other for a long time