My mother use to tell me
To be careful with the blonde girls
With pretty smiles
For they carry daggers on their lips
And their favorite place to kiss
Is the back of your neck
So, you can’t see the blood
That’s been drawn

A piano was softly playing in the background of their minds
It's fullness delicately hearable in every keystroke
A beautiful autumn day with the windows slightly open
The music slowly drifting across to the playground
Two children lie in the leaves looking at the always moving sky
Make shapes in the clouds with their wonderful imaginations
A beautiful melody connecting him and her much more than their young minds could think
The music so lovely yet so underliningly disdainful
Her hand enveloped his as she rolled over to look in his hazel eyes

He looks out the window now a man of twenty five
To the playground where he met a girl very many years ago
He remembers this house from so long ago
The piano now moved to the window
He sits down to play but only one melody comes to mind
A haunting but beautiful melody with slight disdain
He cannot remember where he has heard it before but his hazel eyes start to cry
A beautiful autumn day with the windows slightly open
As he wipes the tears away he smiles for his daughter now lies with a boy in the leaves
Her eyes so dark and brown remind him of his wife he lost but only a few years ago
She asked him one wish to move where they fell in love
He remembered a melody where they fell in love
This melody forever haunting him

Oh, I swear I've been here before
The moons shining on the bed and floor
Our body tingles never bore
This kiss will even the score
Pinch me till I'm sore
A beggar's rich and I've never been poor
A love like you, who could ask for more?

Note if I die
It’s just a letter
Definitely have mixed feelings about it
Knowing I’ll forever be attached to you
Part of me feels bad for you
Hey, maybe I’ll be in God’s place
Hopefully behavin’ myself
The misconception is
I’ve only ever felt like the world’s better off without me
And I admit you make it a priority
To show me
The world won’t be the same without me
I guess I wonder if my soul will be missin?
I’m sure tomorrow we’ll do it different

I grew up in a small hometown
I loved and laughed
I was never afraid to show myself for who I am
I walked the town I had lived in for as long as I could remember
I met a ******* those prideful walks
She made me feel small
That girl with the kitten smile made me feel weak
I had never seen her in my hometown
This place I called mine
The memories I have of her are small and frayed
She loved me and I loved her
She was the wonder of my world
She was gone as quick as a wave
Now my world is a tragedy
and my hometown full of misery.
I guess misery is the greatest tragedy.
I guess my hometown is inside me.

And it wasn’t my intention
That these words would make you feel
Some type of way
But, if that is the result
Then hopefully I’ll be remembered
If even, but only in this moment

Last time we were here
A lot younger than now
Nightcrawling through the moonlit hours
We discovered we were fire.

Never wrong
I thought I was never wrong
And better off just wanting less
But, I knew all of me
Wanted more

Where she goes I can't tell no one knows
When you leave, she's not there
Can't quench my thirst
What's it like living with that poison that keeps coming out your of mouth?
I was thinking about the day we met
The love came rushing out
You were empty handed and filled with regret
I've been drowning here for days
Every inch of me there is to trace
No secrets left here on our page
Underneath your skin I see some change
You really wore me down
You use to make me feel like a piece of art
Now the only thing hanging on your wall is just my heart
Now you're asleep, way to deep, living like no one else ever did before.
I see that look now in your eyes
I just guess I don't know

Goodbye, Mrs. Hyde.

When I was twenty
I wrote Love
When I was twenty-four
I wrote Love and War In Your Twenties
Now I’m twenty-five
Love is truth and truth is poetry
And I learned most people hate poetry
Yet, I think I was made to write
Put my thoughts to ink
Quiver in the dwellings of my muse
My blue eyed vice
Where my wars have signed peace treaties
And love doesn’t seem like brittle bone
To where I hope my forever is
Cast among my dreams for us

I wonder what sort
Of war torn love filled battlefields
Lie resting upon angels and demons
Beatings of wings
Lifted far above
All the things you and I
Have seem to muttered
When gold hearts were turning to black

I don't think I'd mind
To have you in my life even though I'm not sure who you are
You're gorgeous though
Subtle smile with your fullish or small lips I don't know I caught a glimpse
Kind eyes whatever color they may be
Hands as rough as the smoothest layer of your delicate skin
Your hair is quite beautiful with it's ever changing color and length
I'm writing about you cause I care about you or well I think I plan too
I get confused sometimes I just wish you'd finally tell me your name


I think the best thing about not knowing anything about you
Is when I do meet you whether you have anything of what I said above
I'll love you.
I have no idea what you are like in the slightest
My own insanity has created a picture of unbelievable pseudo-realism
Peace in war showed me some love or maybe the love showed war that even in war, love can cause some
peace
I guess my hearts a warzone looking for some peace needing some love
I just hope it finds that blank slate soon babe
If you turned to me now
I could only say this

"Now if you're scared to death like me
But you'll not get a bit of rest
For the pounding and calling at a door in your little chest
If you're scared to death like me, close your eyes
Just close your eyes."

My mother always said, "Do right by the one's you love."
These are my confessions
You were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen
You killed me
We lived in accidental happiness
You know for two unlucky people
We got pretty lucky
I know we're far from where we need to be
This adventure is going to be long
Just trust our love will keep us strong

The shape of her naked curves
Casted against the wall
In the pure moonlight
Crashing waves whispering her to sleep
Sleep struggled murmurs
I'd rather be here than anywhere in the world
Even Everest and the deep black mass
For you are my Everest
My ocean of black
Further more
You are in essence
Life itself

I heard the crack in her voice
As she claimed that it ***** that I love you
Yet, you’re so honored
3 A.M. take me home from these catacombs
Caress these brittle bones
Tuck me in, kiss my forehead
Cause my niche is tearing me down
And I hope you’ll be around
To hold me up
When I can’t stand
You’re the one that I call
When all the ones that I trust
Have left me in the dust
For I am like snow in October
Not cold enough to stick
Yet, you’ll always dance in the flurries

What are the words
That might just convince you
Not to get dressed
And just to let me catch my breath?

6:45 AM and the Sun was missing
Replaced with darknesss
Etched hot platinum streaks across the sky
And I didn’t really mind it
Never mind I am fine with it
Are you talking cause you have something to say?
Or are you talking cause’ you’re too **** afraid of the quiet silence
My hand on your thigh
I don’t want to lie
The conversation just died
And I’m bothered by it cause I’m nervous
The silence that’s not really silent
With rain patter and thunder claps
The only sound was the neon lights
Reminds me of my favorite drives with you

I use to crave a place
Where I could disappear to
Without any traces
Slip through all these chains
Trapped at the bottom with my thoughts
Always feeling heavy in my chest
Sending out countless SOS
How long till I catch my breath?
Will it be before my heart stops racing?
Or will we wait half an eternity
At the bottom of the sea
While these dreams seem fleeting
Peacefully sleeping, all along still beating
Neptune’s prisoner to be
Waiting for you to save me

In these thunderous storms
I just want to be brave
Scared to death, I'm not good enough
Would you love me if I was famous?
Would you love me if I was not?
Been stressing out, been havin' sleepless nights
All your past lovers haunt me
Now I have your love
The kind of love I never seemed to have
Did you truly see me waver before the world knew my name
Did you really love Vinnie before the fame?
I want that love that never seems to fade away

I see you when the night falls
I don’t know what I’m here for
I’m hiding from the blinding truth
I’m callin’ out to you
That moment of madness
When we lose it all
I need you to save me
Like you’ve done before
I’m stinging in silence
Climbing the Endless Summer walls
I’m Nightcrawlin’ to you
Somethin’ in the water
Or maybe it’s the way you move
Turns me into a monster
It’s a hunger I can’t refuse
I see you in the night fall
But never when the light breaks through

It just never occurred to me
That I was the one hurting me
Save solutions for rainy days
For now my skins on fire
And my eyes feel so tired
I’ve promised myself one day I’d be sane
Except these flames just won’t die easy
And everything seems to change
These old tricks don’t seem to work
It’s hard to extinguish everything
When nothing’s on fire

Looking for providence
In the areas of hellfire and ash
Strung along four walls
For my humanity is up for grabs
Where my insanity seems to land
For I am hellishly filled with self doubts
And these words aren’t necessarily poetry
Just mere poetic venom
Seeping to the core desires of my whims
Amongst the rolling hills of sin
With sea salt licked sympathies on the rise

Blank pages upon blank pages
White and black
Yet, electrified with everlasting colors
Of the things I don't love about myself
Such as the seeking of validation from the woman I love
In the way of toxic questions that I know will hurt me
I suppose I dislike the way I isolate and shut down
For when I've run out of words
The stark air can be felt encompassing the room
For I am truthfully the elephant in the room in my mind
Not entirely belonging to one thing
Enticingly scattered like torn pages floating down the river
The judge, jury, and executioner with the sentence passed down
Too soon before the hearing
I suppose I write myself off
For it's repeated behaviors that I can't seem to shake
Like when the summer time ends and closing in
Ever so approachingly like the tide in winter time
To be addicted to the complicated things in life
That bring sadness and wave away joyfulness
Where our worries won't be far behind
Next to the classic novels, finding our lonesome-selves
Welcoming oblivion

Trying
To
Make
Something
Timeless.

I use to find myself drifting
Feeling like I was lost at sea
Drowning and helpless
Till you threw me a buoy
And pulled me out of the water
Soaking wet and freezing to death
Yet, you sparked the life out of me
Saved my soul, from internal damnation
I was burning and didn't know it
And you burned your hands
To keep me breathing
When the sky rose red
They say a sailor died at sea
Yet, your beautiful light guides me home
Avoiding the depths of the sea
And the dangers of the land

Ocean sea spray
And salt crusted cheeks
I won’t pretend that I never hurt you
I’m saying sorry again
Yet, at least I’m trying
Giving everything I’ve got
While you’re wishing it away to the sea
You’re everything I’m not
We’re not on our own
No where to go
Let’s run to the dawn
We’ll need the sun
And I don’t want to die lying in a coffin
Years and years of thinking of nothing
That’s not where I’m meant to be
I want a chance with you
Dancing in the sea

Unable to drift away
Caught by the currents astray
Till you started to murmur in your sleep
With the swish and swoosh of the waves
I could feel the warmth of the air
As the ocean lullabies tucked me in tight

To the seas
Where you cast your love
Reel me in
Warm me next to the fire
Until the high tide
Drowns our worries tonight
And the lighthouse light
Let’s the late night world
Know we’re dancing
Waiting on the ocean’s songs