music is my escape.
for my thoughts to feel wanted,
to push through the barrier,
that needs to be broken.
for the rush of words,
to suffocate my mind,
to determine the mood.
happy or sad,
excited or angry,
what's it going to be?
to bump me up,
or break me down,
press the button,
and we'll find out.

Too many times I've tried
to unplug the switch,
turn out the light, to
take hands with the night
and float away with the shadows.

I cant help but feel,
no-one is there,
so I turn to the dark,
for the comfort I need.

So I reach for the blade,
that I don't want to see,
but is the only way,
to get what I need.

I then find it,
the point that crosses the line,
the line that separates me,
from them,
the people that are silhouettes,
in the life that I don't want to live.

best friends.

they listen,
they're there,
I can count on them,
and they care.

they're mad,
they're loving,
they mean well,
and they're forgiving.

they're crazy,
they're dopes,
but without them,
I couldn't cope.

I love them with all my heart,
and I couldn't imagine being apart.
They make me the happiest I ever could be,
they're like my sisters, family.

you were the worst and best thing,
that happened to me,
but I cant help but think,
it was so humiliating.

I trusted you,
I believed in us,
but then again,
what was the purpose?

To mess with my head,
To have a joke,
or just to see me,
broke.

Because that's what I am,
after all of this,
but then it happened,
the big ol kiss.

I fall again,
Just to fall further,
and cant help but believe,
we'll end up together.

why do I feel like this?
like no-one understands.
but then if they try,
they mis-understand.
im on my own,
scared of the unknown,
and no-one cares?
im locked inside my mind,
and cant find the rewind.
so many thoughts and feelings,
that I just cant express,
when am I going to feel,
like I can progress?