Your name should not even have the
Audacity
To be uttered from my lips.
Every syllable that comes out
Is like a tiny pinprick
On the ball of my foot.
It's disgusting.
You're annoying.
I thought I was playing you,
But I guess you were playing me too,
And I'm really confused right now
Over how I'm even caring about this.
What
The
Actual
****
Is going on here?

Everyone hopes that they are broken,
Because if you're broken
That means that there is a cure,
A treatment,
A medication,
A program that can fix you.
If you're broken,
Then someone can make it stop.
The real fear is that you're fine,
And it can't get better.
The real fear is that this is normal.
It really hurts this much to lose a friend,
To move,
To not get the job,
Or to get the job.
Just to feel so sad and scared and disorientated.
It is all completely normal,
And you can't fix it.
No one fears being broken,
You can make that stop.
It's the real ability to feel pain that you can't change,
And that is terrifying.