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Nov 2020 · 64
missed chance
Kumar Nov 2020
with love comes pain
peaks of happiness
valleys of misery
droplets of rain
a breath stolen
deep within the chest
never to be returned
not even after death
lay at rest
calmed by thoughts
alarmed by what it brought
Kumar Oct 2020
Never wanting anyone to feel what he feels
A troubled soul keeps the general smiling, laughing and amused
Away from what’s real
Keeping them away from his own fears
The souls he keeps happy not knowing
He only enjoys the rain so no one can see his tears
Apr 2019 · 164
who knows who
Kumar Apr 2019
you entice me with white gold and colored stones
i know you for you
i know you to your bones
a death wish you have might come true
if you don't stop what you do
i can complain
what doesn't **** you
doesn't make you stronger
yet you won't listen
i’ll just have to try harder
while you go drown yourself
by bronze river that glistens
what you given on demand
is what has been taken
how you live
i don't understand
why be that ****** up, man
you think you do, but is it true?
Apr 2019 · 229
Along For The Snowy Ride
Kumar Apr 2019
On the ******* express
Knowing its Bound to crash
But all i care about
Is the smell of the gas
Of pure white snow
Heavenly shimmering
In the moonlights glow
Going through tunnels
The darkness shows
This pure white snow
Is darker than expected
But yet i have to test it
Knowing the train will crash
The faster it goes
The shorter it lasts
inspired by a poem read to me by an inspiration
Apr 2019 · 141
Invisible Walls
Kumar Apr 2019
Societal bounds
Keeping humans like hounds
Rotting away in a prison
They don't know is around
Apr 2019 · 223
Barbarossa, my sweet dear
Kumar Apr 2019
Endless bounds of joy
Accompanied by chains of sorrow
For this bond i make with you
Will cost me tomorrow
You may take me any day
Like the wind, just gone away
For you make me happy
For you take away the pain
Only temporarily
Do i ever feel sane
You make sunny days turn to rain
Yet i turn to you
Looking for answers
Inside of a brew
Apr 2019 · 144
Devil in Disguise
Kumar Apr 2019
Corrupting the innocent
Yet leading them to freedom
Preventing them from harm
yet they still call me evil
escape from this prison
Which they call sobriety
Into another
of different of society
Apr 2019 · 199
Red Roses Red Roses
Kumar Apr 2019
Every time i see red
All i can think of are those rose petals on the bed
The broken heart
The broken promises
Left me wanting lead in my head
But yet i survived
Learned from the experience
My soul to contrive
The scars on my heart
Have healed over time
As all wounds do
But it still left a mark
A mark that i refuse to bring in the dark
Apr 2019 · 291
Vices of a Muse
Kumar Apr 2019
Dazed and confused
Confused by a muse
The love was a ruse
The love lit a fuse
A fuse that couldn’t be put out
Not by screams
Not by shouts
A fuse that lit a part me that I’ll never forget
It felt surreal
I felt no regret
A fuse that blew
Blew into a million shard
Cut wounds deeper into my heart
It was theft
Of soul
Of a spirit
But after the muse left
I felt under duress
A mess
An empty carcass of stress
Apr 2019 · 90
Limited Regrets
Kumar Apr 2019
With every pill i take
And with every bottle i drink
Liquor by the lakes
My bodies shutting down
Slowly but surely
Death is for where im bound
To be 6 feet under the ground
Laying in my bed,
Dead
Only to be found
Pills in my hand
Bills on my desk
Empty bottles laying around
Now i take this eternal rest
With no one around
I took pills my the mounds
I drank bottles by the rounds
But still no regrets to be found
If I got another chance
I’d still make every mistake
The Bottles made me dance
The Pills put me in a trance
An emancipation from sobriety
The **** of society
Kumar Apr 2019
Forever lost in a thought
Never remembering what was forgot
As Many Memories fade
Fewer memories get made
Why am i here
I'm just wasting my time
As i write
High as a kite
All i can think
Is why why why
“Why what”
I'm not to sure
Why to everything
“That's just absurd”
“You're living the life
That many people crave”
That is true
But This is not what i chose
But what i was gave
Yes it is good
Yes it is wonderful
But something's not right
Every second feels like fight or flight
This is a life
This is not a fight
An internal struggle
Between dark and light
I miss sobriety
As if it was a dear friend
Knowing i'll never meet then again
Until the very end

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