01:52 am
have you ever asked yourself like why you so lonely?*

01:53 am
or empty?

that maybe you give too much of your essence to people and never leave any of you for yourself

01:55 am
i know i do

02:05 am
and like that's maybe why i get so attached to humans

because in them,
i find myself

02:07 am
i need to change, because things shouldn't be this way

02:10 am
but it's hard sometimes you know, when most days you don't leave the house because you feel unworthy of the space you take up

02:16 am
so you'd much rather disintegrate into soil because you've become all too familiar with people stepping over you and admiring the outcome of your beauty but never the roots of your pain

02:19 am
i spend so much effort watering people in order for them to grow and hardly get enough sun shine to feed my own soul

02:25 am*
because i don't know how to do anything else but care for everyone but myself

fading, slipping away
you
missing, craving still only you
smiling secretly to myself,
with the one you love
the memories
still sweet like ice cream
the amber glow on the ceiling
still fresh in my mind
your lips damp like the air that day
still tickle down my spine
rushing my exisitence,
and in the depths of my soul
days now go by
Head still above water
I sit here and wonder why i am
stuck hopelessly in this wave
i am entwined
the way your limbs wrapped around mine
empty bags, once packed stare me down
the smell of the sea fades away with time
take away this melancholy,
Make it easy to breathe
holding on and letting go simulataneously
Hoping to land on soft ground
carving new paths
Your presence still with me
In glimpses of deja vus
THis city so full of people
But remains empty of you