I tried to see your face yesterday
I wanted to see something familiar.
Nothing was the same,
Nothing felt like home.
It wasn't how I remembered it.

I would love to tell you that today was just like any other, but it wasn’t.
You were there whispering, “I’m still right here.”
I couldn’t see you but I knew it was you
Just waiting for the perfect moment to remind me of my worst days
It's funny that it rained today, the one thing I hate and the one thing that leaves me reminiscing about you
I swear any song that was ever ours, played. Some played twice.
I thought I had deleted The Counting Crows album from my phone
Remember the album I played while we made love in our hotel room last year
Was that love?
I can’t seem to tell or remember now
But I know that Anna Begins was playing while we dozed off afterwards
It played twice in my car today.
I needed black leggings for the outfit I had chosen for my date tonight
The only ones I could find were the ones you bought me.
I put them on and that song you sang me started to play on pandora
I hit next.
It played again as I was leaving to go meet my date
This time, I let it play.
I had lunch at the restaurant today and asked why the toy dinosaur was behind the bar,
they said it was yours.
I asked to see it and then threw it on the ground.
Your co workers mentioned how miserable you have been towards them
I changed the subject.
I went to the gym after and saw you there
I walked behind you all the way out to the parking lot but you didn't notice.
On the way home there was traffic, I figured it was typical for the way my day had been going
It was all due to a tractor trailer who couldn't make a turn
I was proud of his determination
I also realized he had no choice but to make the turn
I watched patiently as he backed up and pulled forward a number of times
It reminded me of myself just trying to make a turn so I could move in the right direction
He made it after approximately two minutes of me waiting in traffic
Though to me it felt like I was sitting in traffic watching a tractor trailer struggle to make a turn for four months The four miserable months I spent just trying to make a turn

I can't help but wonder what the conversation would have entailed if he had turned around
I can't help but think it would have been a sad and quick exchange of awkward faces and hellos
I can't help but create the conversation in my head that I hoped we would have had
This is when I realize it's better that he kept walking
This is when I realize I am better off without him
This is when I'm flooded with all the nightmaric memories of why I can't stand him
Now I find it ironic that the rain reminds me of you, because I hate the rain

She started to walk faster without realizing she was trying to catch up to him
At that moment she lessened her pace but didn't fall too short of his steps
She walked behind him with a safe but still dangerously close distance
He wore the limited edition Olympic head phones on
The ones she bought him for his birthday just last year
He always liked to think of himself has the next Michael Phelps
He could have been had he not doubted himself so much  
She knew he was listening to his own rap music that he wrote
He was arrogant like that
He always liked to think of himself has a musical artist
He could have had he not doubted himself so much
Mildly, she hoped the noise ringing through his ears was about her and not the disaster he's been seeing recently
This story would get more interesting if he had turned around to notice her
Ultimately she knew he wouldn't
And he didn't.
He walked out the door, and she, not too far behind, did the same
He ran through the rain to his car and she walked slowly through the rain, in the opposite direction to hers.