i no longer
measure my life
in the length of time
between sunset and sunrise
every moment of my life is spent
in anticipation of your eyes

theres truly no sating
or abating
this deep craving
of light
whose sole source
is your soul

i feel
a need for you
beyond control
or containment
its like a form of ordainment
to feel the blessing of your presence
what can i say?
i am addicted to your effervecsence

i will still love you
when your bones
are dust
i will
still love you
when every piece
of your jewelry is reduced
to rust
i
will still love you
when you feel unworthy
(i will
be with you
in every step
on your journey)
i hope you dont
worry -
no matter what it is
you might do
please, never forget:
i will
still
love you

i wanted to thank
all of the fools
that treated you
like sand
and let you
slip so
effortlessly
from their hands

dont think
youve touched
my heart
just because
youve tasted
my skin
(love
is not
skin deep)

despite writing
about you every
day
ive yet to capture
even a fraction
of what you
mean to
me

the most sincere things i have ever heard came out of your mouth at 3am in slurred words
and though your eyelids must have been weighing you down they didnt slow the stream of truths tripping off your tongue
   traveling through electrical conduits and antennae
    hoping that the ear at the other end is listening
  to an increasingly garbled
    but no less sincere
  outpouring of honesty
no one
     wants to hear

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