I will never forget you.
I will never forget the betrayal,
the damage, or the manipulation.
The way you touched me,
the act that made me think you cherished our conversations.
I was hooked on you.
My withdrawals had no cure.
I knew I never had your heart.
I should have seen it,
it was right before my eyes.
You wanted us to "have our own secret world".
You had a girlfriend,
claimed you left her for me.
Never did I question it.
You used to say those three words.
I latched onto the "love" and attention you gave me.
Something that I had always lacked.
But it was never truthful,
it was never me,
it was for her,
it was always for her.
But I also got your violent anger,
Playing games with my heart and mind,
leaving me broken then suddenly pulling me back in.
There was no cure.
It was always expected that I do exactly as you say.
Never to be seen together in public,
never to talk to you with others around,
never to take any pictures with you,
the only place to see you was in one of our homes.
Never to be let outside around that area.
We did not know each other.
I was invisible to you.
You had complete control.
I didn't even have the option to disobey a command,
if I did you would vanish and I craved the love and attention.
But you never loved me.
I was your toy,
you would throw me away time after time.
I loved you.
When I was with you nothing else mattered.
You didn't feel the same,
you didn't feel at all.
I let you hurt me.
It was all an illusion
You called yourself "The King".
I was just your ****.
Just another piece on your board.