I’ve long for a real touch
For where I am, am not getting any
I’ve long for the ‘I love you’
I’ve long for the ‘I want you’
I’ve long for the hot desire of wanting you.

But, rejection is all am facing
You not touching me
You not wanting me
You not pleasuring me

I’ve long for the ******* of something sweet
I’ve long for your lingering touch
I’ve long for your French kiss
I’ve long for your roughness that I always want

But, sadness is all am feeling
Your touch feels like hot fire
Your wanting feel like longing
Your pleasure feels like physical abuse.

I’ve long to hear you speak humble to me
I’ve long for your compliment towards me
I’ve long for your time
I’ve long for your honesty


But, selfishness is all I see in you.
You touch me when you want
You wanting of me is low
You pleasure me when you want

Where is the hot desire?
Where is the love for me?
Where is the wanting?
Where is the pleasure?
  
  THE END

The mirror is my enemy
The razor blade is my friend
My room is my hiding spot
My mind is my happiness

My figure is not all that great like hers
But, you have never made it great anyway
My eyes are not small and brown like hers
But, you have never made it great anyway

I really need your attention but she gets it all
I guess am not light skin like her
I guess am not pretty like her
I guess am not slim and slender like her

My reflection is my enemy
The cuts on my skin is my friend
My bed is my closure
My thinking is my fairy tale

My beauty is no more.
But, you have never made it great anyway
My shape is not to your liking
I could tell how you compliment others
But, you have never made it great anyway
I really need your attention but she gets it all
I guess am not light skin like her
I guess am not pretty like her
I guess am not slim and slender like her

Me is my own enemy
The scars on my skin is what remind me of who I am
My sheet is my comfort.
My emotions are my god.

THE END

A beautiful Lady asked me what my desire to be.
I said I know not with tears streaming down my face.
Should I lie and said I know.
I could definitely not.
I’ve lie enough in my life about who I am.
I believe its time someone know my story.
But, does my mind, body and soul will let me tell it.
I think not.

My father doubts me.
My mother left me.
My brother touched me in places I will not dare talk about.
My Aunt ridicule me on my looks.

A woman of God asked me what my desire to be.
I be honest and said I think I am a failure.
Yes! I think I am a failure
But, that is not my desire

My father abused me.
My mother turns her back on me.
My brother silent me with curse and death
My aunt blames me.

A trustworthy lady asked me what are my desire to be.
I will be honest to myself for once and said,
My desire is to be at peace with myself.
My desire is to be at peace with myself.

My father hits me
And, I said it makes me stronger.
My mother abandons me
And, I said it’s normal.
My brother ***** me
And, I said I deserved it.
My aunt talks ill of me
And, I said that’s the way of life.

I was jealous I wouldn’t lie.
You search my eyes I will not pry.
I feel nothing I would do it again.
Just to see her eyes rolled over again.

You caused this so don’t you cry.
Every day you tell lies.
‘How I love you darling.’
But your eyes were all over the place.

Let’s be real, take off shackles.
Isn’t this for the slaves who tried to battle.
You can trust me I hand myself over to you.
Cause if it leaves to me you would lose.

I killed her I will not lie.
I stab to the chest but she didn’t die.
I step it up a notch.
So, I torture her.

The pain was severe, I could see.
As, tears drip down her face.
I smiled, this was what I want,
For her to feel the pain that I endured.

For he has cheat, that’s no excuse.
Maybe it was my anger that cause this news.
I know I have a death sentence but please think like me.
Wouldn’t you be satisfied that she has die.
For I am being honest, ain’t telling no lie.

They make love in our bed.
As if it was normal.
She was my bestfriend.
Our love was not formal.

Sure, I **** her I tell no lie.
Am I proud?
Well…
I couldn’t answer, I only smile.

I will admit I think it was a bad idea.
But, just the thought of her gone
Just boost my ego.
With a stab to the chest she did not die.

Blood was over pouring out her mouth.
She started to cough,
She started to choke.
While he stood in the corner feeling sorry for her.
That just make me wanting for more.
She didn’t die just yet.
She was glaring,
She was bearing.
To show how strong she was.

Sad to say I have the will,
I have power.
He stood and cried.  
While I stood and laugh.

Her feet was a shaking mess.
Why so nervous?
I wondered!
Her eyes dance until they land on his.

I couldn’t help it I have the gun
So, without a second thought
I shot him,
He staggers,
She cried,
I laughed,
He died.

I know, I think she would die first.
But what’s the fun in that.
She watched my man, her man, our man died.
I love the feeling I will tell you no lie.

Do I regret?
No!
But, that’s not the end.
Remember she didn’t die.

The police were at my doorstep,
Interrupting my rendezvous.
Of course, they agreed I wasn’t a fool
Who was gonna kidnapped two cheaters.

I couldn’t help it I have the gun
So, without a second thought
I shot him,
she fell limp,
he staggers,
I laughed,
They died.

That’s the end my dear
I know you weren’t prepared
They died,
I died.

The Sun never shines on me
And so, does your love.
You have never show me you care
You have never help me bare my pain.

The sun never shines on me
And so, does your heart
You never show me your heart
Every day we move apart

Your words sting me like a wasp
Your hands bruised me like a scar
Your mouth belittles me
Your slaps hurt me

The sun never shines on me
And so, does your love
Maybe it best we say good-bye
Until next time for the sun never shines on me
And so, does your love.

Wasting My Time With You
By: Moesha Subria Ricketts

If I knew I would be so miserable I would stay,
Stay away from you.
As I first laid my eyes on you,
you have nothing not even a pair of shoes.
You speak about promises and I fall for them
But as they say promises are comfort to a fool.
So, I am the fool.

You say you would help me in achieving,
But, that a lie.
You speak it in your life that you’ve been there for many
But what about one.

So, I wonder were you wasting my time,
For my brain is young and fresh.
Father used to say I am naïve in loving a no-good like you
I try to prove him wrong but he was always right

My future is doomed with you I could see there is no love for me
My pass should be about you, that am hoping to forget
My present is you, that is wasting my time.
You are wasting my time.

I wish I could just pack my things and leave you by dawn
But I have nowhere to go I am trapped in a box
You offer nothing but misery.
For you are wasting my time.

If I knew I was going to run back to you
I wouldn’t have been with you
If I knew I was going to be miserable
I wouldn’t be so vulnerable.

All I can cry about is that you have wasted my time
You have wasted my time
You are wasting my time
You are always wasting my time

THE END