Why then should I even care
When you fail to meet me there
I never know where you have been
All your lies are wearing thin

If I should fall and hit my head
Fill my thoughts so full of dread
I cannot withstand the heat
Walk on coals and burn my feet

Try to hold the dream in hand
Understand its not what I had planned
Knowing well that I won't win
You see the loss is factored in.

I sing a song in the rising sun
The song of love for I have none
I wish for love though I will not cry
No tear will fall from my weary eye

I sing a song of the waining light
In the darkness alone I fight
Thought has come now dark and deep
I close my eyes though I dare not sleep

I sing a song in a past tense
The things I did did not make sense
Of all I wish that I could hold
No not silver no not gold

I sing a song of yesterday
I should have said the things I did not say
If only I could go back and make it right
Say I love you and hold you tight.

I never knew what more I could do
Instinctively I knew I'd become addicted to you.

I started my life
A wayward young man
Having no knowledge
Having no plan

I took one step
Then took another
Left what I knew
Turned away from my brother

Stood six feet four
On my own feet
Learned what I could
Always felt incomplete

Filling my life
With inconsequential things
Memories, mistakes
Stuff that life brings

Tried killing myself
Just to forget
Came very close
Haven't accomplished it yet

Stepped off the edge
Into a miserable abyss
Always getting *******
Never getting that kiss

Breaking my back
Just to survive
Never looking to tomorrow
Here I am still alive

Never doing it easy
Having been hit really hard
Paid all the dues
So I've earned my card

Tried not to fold
When the pressure was such
Failed to realize
When it became too much

So when I lay down
To sleep tonight
Perhaps when I wake on the morrow
I'll be able to get it right.

                Mike.

88
It was a long time
Not all the years were good
Battles fought and won
A life sometimes in much solitude
A book to keep her mind
A spot to sit and read
A blanket of Egyptian cotton to warm her
Never was I distracted
There should have been more time
She slipped away quietly Monday morning
I should have been THERE.

I have not lived my life
To wretched excess
I always knew I could get by
With just a little less

I have been fed well
And I have lived long
Although no one will sing
Of my life in a song

           M. H

When it's time where will you go
When it's time what will you know
Will you find yourself where you want to be
And will you now give yourself to me

When it's time will there be trust
When it's time will it be lust
When it's time what will you do
When it's time will he love you

When it's time what will you lose
When it's time for you to choose
When it's time will you be lost
When it's time will you pay that cost

When it's time and you played your cards
When it's time will it be the whole 9 yards
When it's time will it be true
Because now is the time for me and you.