I finally found my shadow.
My shadow found me too.

Thunder storm
or war torn?
There's anger
in the chamber
no love lost
with a stranger
remind me to keep
track of every sin:
I'm trying
I'm lying
I'm crying
I'm spying
I'm flying off
the handle again.

With war painted eyes
weapons between thighs
in Boston's combat zone
tempting men all alone
smell the pungent bait
pay the fee never wait
you always want it pure
no promise nothing sure
no heartache to endure
kiss a wife at the door.

I try drawing you from  old memories
   but can't get your eyes right. I don't see
   a body that destroyed my earnest vows.
   I can't see your firm young ******* and
   ******* that grew so hard by my caress.
   I can't see us dancing naked in the dark.
   I wish I'd kept the photos. I cremated us
   in an ashtray and I can't see us anymore.

I was married and then not. ****.
  Vows don't demand beheading anymore.
  We earnestly married in farce.
  We drowned in my guilt and moved on.
  I was in wilderness for 40 days and nights.
  You called crying when Pepper got hit by a car
  and died. I came to your dorm room and we
  drank beers and got naked and ****** away
  our precious time. I never saw you again.
  I drove to my Boston's chapter next day.

Selfish words mention
  from a wanting womb.
  Crying for attention
  seeks an Attic room
with no pretension.
Available real soon!

God will always love His Italy,
an endless stairway to Heaven.
Despite the tomb 3 days set free
God's Son forgives all us fallen.