I have fought it , struggled through it,and faced it unblinkingly.  
In the end I lost ,my strength was insufficient. At the cost of loosing my heart. I let her control it. For the simple purpose of being beside her. She was worth every crack , every tear every break
      Before I new it my paper cut
              Became a gush
                    I'm bleeding out
My crash became my fall
          My heart her toy and I played along

Baby, I will do anything.

I'll **** myself,
trash my mental health,
commit social suicide,
throw away my pride.

I'll play your game of black jack.
Please just take me back.

Baby, I will do anything!

Let's be clear
It's not there
Happiness for me is beyond reach
Drops, drops and tear drops
Flood my eyes
One by one they fall
Yet a smile is curved on my face
It's out of place
Deep down
I feel drawn
To the darkness within my sadness
To be real
It's like a vessel
The smile on my face.
Covering the emptiness within

I've got nothing to offer
No special ability
Ask me my talent
I say none
Talk of poetry
And it is shunned
"Sports, dance, music,and
Arts.
These are your limits".
Poetry is pointless.

Is it fair
For you to read
And appreciate nothing.
I pour my emotions into every word
And beautify them to your liking
Until each letter
becomes a message.
But you reject
And ignore my words,my message
Still I keep writing.