And I wonder what it felt like to be loved by YOu!

I prefer you and cigarettes.
Usually.

But tonight I prefer neither.

A big piece of me miss you like crazy… but until heaven opens again .

Somewhere in this worldly earth I lost my happiness.

Nobody will ever understand how much this little pen of mines has healed me !

Give me a minute I’m still learning how to love myself!!

Sometimes I wonder if you go to bed at night and actually close your ayes and sleep or do my voice hunt you ?

Why is our Society this stupid ?

I want you here
I don’t want you there
Why aren’t you here
Why can’t we stay here  
Please don’t go there
Because ...
I’m not there
Let’s not go there
Let’s stay here .

I didn’t stay because I loved him
I stayed because he knew how to
Control my demons.

I love you


I hate you


I miss you


We  do this again .

Is it ok for me to say






I miss you ?

The lord has a plan for me



And




I’m getting back to it .

Let’s

Just

Say

I’m


Love ❤️

11/22💕

Not everyone has a God but everyone has a religious.

Let your faith  be bigger than your fears.

Death can we be friends and share a cup of coffee
Death can you be color red like the blood of Jesus and I will paint you all over my room
Death can we share secrets  ?
Death can we be soulmate ?
Death can you see me ?
Death can hear me?
Death don’t you see me drowning
Death Are you  invisible ?
Death why don’t you **** my demons ?
Death you walk in the light or darkness
Death do you know my deepest secret ?
Death do you know fear ?
Death can we please be love birds ?
Death why wouldn’t you  send an invitation before coming?

I’m fine I have my pen and book .

One thing for sure

Your voice will

Hunt me forever

Us under the moon
I don’t say what we did was a sin
But it wasn’t right
I wouldn’t call it a mistake
Because I let you in


But I’m still broken from your words .

The biggest lie I told myself was the I can’t live with out you .





I’m still breathing better than before

lord i come before you .

She is your worst nightmares
She is your best  hell

She is your heaven
But she is your worst   angle

she is the god of the devil .

She is  just another abandoned soul
Because
Heaven shut her  out
Long ago .