I woke up positive and happy
I go about my day, smiling :)
Then I see you in the crowd
And all the rejection comes flooding back :(
Some people always put a smile on your face and others always remind you of the pain and rejection they caused.
The darkest days...
The darkest hours...
Wish I can die in a corner...
but the world is waiting for your smile?
People say they always see a smile but nobody ever see the inside of you!
If you push long and hard enough,
I will walk away!
Regardless of much it hurts.
You are so young and beautiful
I feel so old and tired
You pick me up in your arms
And suddenly I forget my age :)
Age is just a number but sometimes having younger people in my life makes me feel alive.
Looking for love in the wrong places?
The bad boys with leathers, covering their tattoo’s?
The good boys with suits, covering their muscles?
Maybe learn to love yourself
Then love will find you?
Its so ****** hard!!!
Being with you makes me feel stupidly in love.
Being with you put a stupid smile on my face.
When you don't show,
I feel so stupid,
for being so crazy about you!
Too much happiness is not always a good sign.
Curled up in your arms,
with my hand on you heart.
I fall asleep and dream!
But when I awake,
I realise it's only a dream.
Alone in bed I am!
We can dream the most beautiful dreams but reality is often very different.
There is a war happening
Which side is the right/wrong?
How do I stop the war
Before my head explodes!
for the longest part of my life
my mother said she would be "better off dead"
for the longest part of my life
i had to hear, "if you dont do what i say i might as well be dead"
for the longest part of my life
i heard "you will miss me when I'm dead"
for the longest part of my life
i was blackmailed, emotionally.
One cannot make a person want to live.
One cannot make a person except what they have done.
One cannot take the blame, if you are only a little child.
my earliest memory of "keeping things safe" by agreeing to mum ultimatums...I was maybe around 6.
I bared my heart and soul to you and you embraced my honesty.
You said it's a quality you love
but was not ready for the words you heard.
Everyone wants honesty but sometimes they cannot handle the truth.
For you, I will travel the galaxy.
For you, I will swim the ocean.
For you, I will break every rule.
For you, I’m nothing but a friend.
This was back in 2021, now 2023.. it is still the same story :( Always picking the wrong one!!
You reel me in, pluck me out of waters,
see how I struggle for air.
The triumph is written on your face,
then with force, back in the water I go.
I circle slowly, just to be sure
then I swim for my life,
It is too late, as I'm still hooked
Again, you slowly reel me back in.
Invisible fishing rods is how some people keep us in their lives. Sometimes they let us go and sometimes they just continue to play the same games of catch and release.
Your eyes don't want to see me
Your arms can't hold me tight
Your lips won't kiss me
Was it me who drifted away?
Was it you who moved on?
Was it just time and came between us?
Sadly, we drift apart from loved ones.
Sometimes my world is black
and sometimes it's blue.
Sometimes my world turn bright
and that's because of you.
Some people have the ability to change your day with a simple word or smile
Some secrets are meant to be broken,
to save another.
Some secrets are dark and destructive,
and we need to heal.
Some secrets are meant to be kept secret,
as they are to deep to share.
We cannot always say how we feel so we have to keep that love forever in our hearts.
The ring on your finger,
means you belong to another
Yet your heart,
seem to have found it's own destination
How long will it be,
before these two worlds come crashing down?
Remembering you....is the hardest thing to do....cause it breaks my heart in two.
It's funny how I can not have you in my life
Yet, I cannot live without you...
Round and perfect
We go around in circles
We draw circles in the sand
Your arms around me
A circle of love
You were odd
Big bloke with a big beard
Eye tattoo on your neck
You smell of ***** and smoke
You made me laugh
You were my friend
Today I sit alone
Looking at the unread message on my phone
The one you never saw
I wish I could’ve said goodbye
But time ran out too fast
Faster than your angel could fly
Another one taken too soon
Cancer claims another soul
Dust to dust, forever in my heart.
Love the people in your life. They may not be there tomorrow!
Eaten by the wild
Death and destruction
I cannot have you in my life
Without you I cannot live
My world is shattered
You tore it apart
You are destruction
Or could it be me?
For years I’ve looked at those eyes and lips with longing
I’ve wondered what it would be like waking next to you
Our bodies pressed together, my hand on your hart
For so many years I went unnoticed
Until one rainy day.
For a brief moment I have felt those lips upon my own
I have seen those eyes look into my soul
That moment lasted the shortest of time
But it will be a lifetime of memories
Maybe we could have been
Another place, another time.
I can never be as pretty as her
I might never be as perfect as she is
But I shall love you more than she ever will.
One offers love and affection
The other demands it all
Never a competition
Yet someone always lose.
Peas in a pod
Is what we are
But the universe
Got it wrong
The wrong pea
Went into the wrong pod
My world is broken
My life is blue
I look to you
But you do not see
But when, you choose
To be not here
I wonder if you are lost
Or cannot see me
Or maybe you don’t care
As I lay my soul to bare.
When life is broken
And you think it cannot break anymore
The people you love
Are badly hurt
Due to the actions of others
You call out to the universe
Asking for a break
You get a little drunk
You hope it will help ease the pain
But at the end of the day
Broken is just broken
Everything else is the glue holding it together
But the cracks is there
And broken just stay broken.
My dearest friend is in hospital, leg amputated, fighting for life, riding his motorcycle, not breaking the rules, but the other person did not pay attention :(
Cuts deep into my heart
I lay there, bleeding,
Now that we are apart
How could you
Just walk away
For you to stay
My heart will bleed
For its only you
That I desperately need.
I cry alone
I dig into my hands
You are never there
Alone I lay and bleed
I’m being judged
by you, by the world
For the scars that you can see
And the ones you don't.
An avalanche of tears
Streaming down her cheeks.
A winter storm raging
Within her heart.
A burnt out field
Her soul feels like
After the snow melts
The storm calms
The grass start to grow
Her life will go on.
The days are all the same
Ending in ...day
The nights are all the same
Round and round we go
In never ending circles
Of me starving my soul
And you becoming more powerful
How to exit this merry-go-round
How to exit this world
A new world there must be
With laughter and colour
Alone I have to jump
This wheel that turns non stop
Alone I have to find the better world
The world that I deserve.
F-you…with that smile
Those lips those eyes
The passion you offered
The desires you stirred in me
You walked into my life
You walked thru my life
You devoured me
You destroyed my morals
You left me longing for more
Then you walked away
***** you, ***** your smile
I will rebuild my morals
I will rebuild my heart and soul
And you will be the loser!
The black skies
Bring out the dark moods
Then you smile
And my life is full of sunshine.
Your beautiful face
Suddenly appeared in the crowd
And within in millisecond
My sad face blossomed
As another salty tear falls from my eye
The memory of you so clear
So many moons has passed since I’ve seen you
Yet I never dreamt you would leave this world
You touched my heart with your kindness
You touched my soul with your courage
And now on this day, your bornday
My eyes cannot stop weeping.
In memory of my late friend/employer and someone that made the world a better place
I feel I have no life
I guess I have no passion
My dark secrets hidden
Spending my time drinking
Spending my time dreaming
My secret dreams about you
And sometimes, just sometimes
You come along with a smile
A secret smile only I can see
Then I spent my time dreaming
Dreaming the things, that will never happen
The secret love we share.
Sometimes the best moments in life are the ones we cannot share with anyone.
I realise, that I longed to be touched, to be kissed.
I longed to be adored, to be the only one.
I long for passion, to be pushed up against a wall and kissed till I can breathe no more.
I long for passion, for hours of *******.
I long to be touched and loved but mostly,
I just want to be adored.
Where am I?
My head hurts
I’m awake and I can see
The explanation is clear
Empty bottles on the floor
My head hurts.
Sometimes the headache is worth it, but mostly not!
We are isolating from our friends and family
We are alone at times with only our thought
We hate being told what to do
We hate that we cannot go out
The world is broken
The world is ending
The world is repairing
The world needs to mend
Waterways are clearer
The sunsets are more colourful
The grass and flowers have more colour
The animals are coming out of hiding
What we conceive as bad times
The earth are celebrating and repairing
Put your hand upon your heart ,
and I'll be there when we are apart
Close your eyes and think of me,
to let your troubled mind be free
And think about the love we share,
to remind you that I really care
Your eyes can take me far away,
to a special place I'd love to stay
Your beauty I will always know,
Oh, Princess I do love you so.
This poem was not written by me, it was written for me...a very long time ago by someone special.
I will never love,
As I once loved before.
I will never smile,
As I smiled the day I met you.
I will never hate,
As I once hated them.
I will never cry,
As much as the day you died.
I love to wake up and see you
I love to wake up and hear you
Your smell in my hair
Your taste on my tongue
I want to spend every day near you
Sunrises and sunsets are the best
But, I hate the feel of the sand on my body
I sunburn too quickly
I am not a strong swimmer
This is my sad love affair with the ocean!
My sad love affair
The guy with the beautiful eyes that look into my soul
The guy with the amazing body that drives me crazy
The guy that always makes me laughs
The guy that sends me a message every day to see how I am
The guy that knows when I’m sad and offer to wipe away the tears
Maybe the one with the strong arms that caught me when I slipped
The one I can share my secrets with or the one that makes me cry or take my dreams away.
Which is the right one? Will I ever know?
I feel the cold
I see the dark
I feel alone with nobody around
You feel the heat
You see the sun
You are surrounded by people
I am black
You are white
I am darkness
You are light
Different we are, yet it works
Difficult to explain but easy to understand
ACCEPT, TOLERATE, COMPASSION
We can make a difference in the world.
Life is hard
Life is painful
You go to bed hungry
You go to bed in tears
People stab you in the back
You use people
You get used by people
But the sun shines
The rain fall
You smiled at me
My heart is full
Life is not always that bad.
I picked up my phone, typed you a txt
Of what is happening now, then I remembered
I can’t contact you anymore.
I picked up the phone, so very excited
To tell you the good news, then I remembered
I can’t call you anymore.
I felt terribly sad, and wanted to get in touch
To tell you my world is falling apart, then I remembered
You are not there anymore
How could I forget, but I did…
"Don’t forget to remember me",
Is what I said to you that night
But its too late…you forgot.
You forgot about me.
When I look into your eyes,
I see so much love
I see so much sorrow
Maybe I see annoyance with me
When I look at your lips
They look so kissable
They look so vulnerable
Maybe you just don’t want to kiss me
When I listen to your words
They sound so tender and true
They sound so distancing
Maybe I just hear what I would like to hear
Maybe, it’s time to walk away
Maybe, it’s all too hard
Maybe, but what if….
The tears are warm as they roll down my cheeks
The thought of you still fresh in my memory
The smell of your aftershave still very clear
The thought of letting you go is tearing me apart.
You come into my life like a ray of sunshine
When the clouds were dark and the storm raging
You made me smile without even talking
When I saw nothing but darkness and despair
You were in your own dark place at the time
You said some days were blue some days are black
Yet you took my darkness away and made me smile
Now my life is broken because I have to say goodbye.
Raven black hair falling over slender shoulders
Ice blue eyes, surrounded by a perfect porcelain skin.
Large round soft ******* on a perfectly shaped body
Buttocks and legs, the most perfect creation.
A skull with empty eye sockets and big teeth
The skeletal bones, all connected to perfection
The spine, holding every single bone in place
It is a perfect masterpiece.
Nobody ever see this masterpiece
Or appreciate the importance it has
It holds the perfect blue eyes and body in place
Without the skeleton, we will be nothing.
You won't talk to me
You won't look at me
You won't touch me…
I remember the night you touched me
The way you looked at me
The words you said to me
The world exploded
My universe shifted
I wonder if it was the same for you
Maybe that is why
You don’t want to look at me
Your don’t want to talk to me
And you don’t want to touch me,
Because your universe shifted too