Whenever I think of losing up,
I always remember your cool eyes
That always reminds me of the shock you are battling with.

This kind of feelings that makes you unsure of your emotions
This look that truly shows your fears and insecurities

This look that makes you feel like running all the time.
This feelings that is killing you gradually that you lost your confidence for.
This feelings that makes you so dump that you can't truly express your true feelings.

I sure recall it all and I got no choice than to succumb to the flow.
I pray 🙏 it worth the wait eventually.
For I realized I can't love any other person the way I love you

Even if I can't see you, I can feel you.
Even if I can't see you,I know you are okay
Being silence doesn't mean I don't think of you, it just means I respect your space and your will.
That's why I succumb to ensure I am happy in whatever I am experiencing.

For you are my heart.
The only one my heart calls his name
The only one that made me loose control of myself.
You are my then,my now and my ever be.
My love for you can't fail. But it will surely wait for you my one and only love.

HER DECISION

She met him on the street
Hustling for white-collar job
Under the scorching heat with dusty feet
She accepted to be his heart throb

Her first visit to his house
She saw nothing but charcoal stove
He lived like a mouse; how could she possibly be his spouse?
She looked into his eyes and gave him love overdose

She watered his head with ideas
She planted wisdom in his heart
She gave him strength and took his weakness
She turned his cart into an art

Days drove into months and months strolled into years
He stood on his feet
She buried his fears by lending him listening ears
In a twinkling of an eye, his bitter sweat became sweet

Those were her decisions
What are yours?
Did a guy sell his television to give you provisions?
Love is not looks that lure but trait that cures

Today is filled with you the memories of us,
And I couldn't help it but to shed those tears
For the pain of waiting patiently to hear your sweet voice.

Every thought that comes to my mind
Feeling I can move the sea with you
But day and night yield weeks
And weeks yield month which turns to years, still the wait is on.

Just like this world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me
Don't let me go,for love is my burden
And my trouble.

I don't want your hopes to wither
Justice can't be defeated.
If words are made of glass,
Believe me,I won't forget you my love
Even if you are my hell,
I'll rush to you without thinking
If I ever tried to walk away,
Just hold on to me,don't let me go.

Do you give up happiness,just because of stubbornness and ego?
It's never too late for us my love 💕
For love is our cure.

Just like the world beats with life,
So is my heart 💜 beats for you
If I ever try to leave,
Kindly hold onto me and don't let me go.
For love is my burden and my troubles.

Life moves in a blurring way .
I encourage myself every day.
I write a gratitude journal each day.
Assuring myself it will be in divine timing.

I keep my day bright and musical.
I engaged in movies.
I wrote and affirm our reunion everday.
I paste some affirmation upon my shelf and walls.
I try to celebrate my livelihood.
I assured myself it's going to be better.

I turn on our favorite music which takes me back to when we are good
And I dance without abandonment into the inky black of the night,
While I sing out the lyrics passionately loud and dance vigorously .

I wear masks,pretending I never Miss you
And I lie myself down diagonally across my soft bed with crossed leg,
Reading novels,or reading books or poetry or do tarot card spreads,or checking on horoscope, While the scent of essential oil fills up the room as I listen to sublimals and meditation rhymes.

I include my guardian angels in all that I do.
I talk and pray to their spirit daily.
I encourage myself that I am currently scaling a phase of life
So frighteningly, unpredictable and going to new beginnings in all endeavor.
Something so dead center to the absolute truth of who I really am,
Why I am here and my purpose.
With days that are so unexpectedly thrilling and days where I can barely breathe — walking on the lawn, wailing in my heart 💜, sitting upon the edge of my bed weeping silently into the palms of my hands.

I engaged myself in my work duties,using my leisure time to watch movies,I no longer attempt to resist, but look deep into the eyes of every experience all the way.
All of those immense and passionate joys and the staggering delirium of tireless grief of your silence and distance.

I accept the silence,no communication, fear and disappointments and keep my hopes strong to still wholeheartedly believe in the direction of expansion through the heart of Allowing.

I now know what I am facing.
My full understanding of everything has totally changed and the lessons are well mastered.
No amount of preparation could have seen me through to this place — this unexpected and unpalatable phase of life where I have begun my true healing.
Where everything inside me is still joggling, shaking and reeling with all that has come to pass and for the one hoping for.
Yet I am learning how to find that sacred balance and feel proud of myself, at last.

Twinflame experience completely ground me down to dust.
And yet, somehow, everything that I AM, everything that I wish for, remain fully intact.
Despite all of the chaos, traumas and all of the pains,
I believe a new day will comes soon and I will be right here.
So I will keep on taking care of myself,
Working on my total happiness and
Keeping the hope alive.
I am not going to ever convince you to choose me
And I won't chase you,I won't give up on us also.
It's okay and fine with being replaced.
For I know you can't do find the love 💕 as mine
Anywhere in the world 🌎🌎🌎.

It's very hard for people to find their right place in life.
It's even harder for them to find their right person.
Young people may not understand
But if you find that person
DONT LET GO

If you let go, then you will never find them
The road never end,
You can move on your own way
But you will need a friend to accompany you on that way

Our ancestors once said and I quote
"Choose a friend before choosing a path"
Those who look will surely find.
And when you do
Don't ever let go!

When I looked at Life,

I realized it is totally twisted.

No matter how good or bad

Your dreams and plans are

Life will still have its own to give you


So don't fight it, Don't Force it

Just let it go and allow the Universe to

Make it come to you.

Remember life has no respect for anyone

It gives what it plans

So appreciate what you have

And allow that thing you desire comes to you.

Just live it... And be happy always