Stop this, please!
I can't keep falling for you,
You're the poison apple that tastes too good to be bad for me.
please leave me like the rest,
I'm not used to people staying this long

I don't care if she hates me
If that's what makes her happy.
I hurt her too many times to expect love in return.
If I could change the past, I would,
I never meant to hurt her.
I stay awake, thinking about how this could have been different.

I spent too long in pain.
I am trying pill after pill to silence myself.
Afraid I would lose the battle of living.
I got close too many times,
With only a glimmer of hope left.
I tried the final option,
Which gave me the strength to get better.

The words replay in my head.
Making me sick every time I hear your voice.
I wasted my time on her while she just pushed me down.
She laughed when I cried, thinking I wouldn’t find anyone better.
When I got stronger, she blamed it all on me.
I thought she was right for too long.

Her voice sounds like I'm finally home.
The way I feel myself is a gift I don't want to lose.
I'm falling for a girl that doesn't know my whole story.
I wish I could give her all my dreams.
The way I don't want to lose you is hurting my soul.
I wish I didn't want you like this.

I like you.
My body is hurting from holding this secret.
Every text message feels like a bullet to my heart.
I see the way you look at other boys, not realizing I notice.
Should I move on Or wait my life away?

My hand is shaking,
The wind was yelling out your name.
Is this the sign of bowing down before it's too late?
I'm scared for the battle that may follow.
I found a broken bottle and saw myself holding the white flag.