When the day finally comes and i close my eyes for the last time.
I hope my memories of this night replay in my head.
That the last breath of air was spent on saying the words that you told me.
“I love you until I can’t anymore”
The look you gave me would make anyone cry as I say it for the final time.

The day he almost died.
The pill bottles look too pleasing to be alone.
He decide to hold them one more time.
Wondering if it’s worth lasting until tomorrow.
He put them down as the pills screamed to be picked up again.
Next year it happened again.
This time the voices came from a dangerous blade.
He was so close but too afraid of leaving everyone alone.
So he stayed another night.

They were together for a long time,
Both two scared to leave the other.
Wondering if love was supposed to feel this way.
Not wanting to come home to the other .
Hoping the feeling would change but it never did.
They thought they were soulmates and didn’t want to hurt the other.
Until one day when they realized that their heart broke more being together than being apart.

I tried coffee again after a long time.
It wasn’t that I didn’t like it was all the memores wrapped up in one cup.
She drank it every morning and kissed me goodbye.
The taste still on my lips and the caffeine running into my vines.
Wishing for more coffee just to remind myself of her.
I tried coffee again but this time it was different.
No more rushing feelings just plain old taste in my mouth.
I wonder if the taste ever reminds her of mornings with me.
Of what life could have been if she didn’t leave.

I miss you when I shouldn't.
I love you when I can't.
Everyone says you are bad for me but I don't believe it.
How can you make me feel this good but be this toxic?
I need to know what's going on because I tried giving you up but it's too hard.
Just maybe you can enter my life one more time.

It's going to be ok.
Don't worry too much.
There isnt much you can do but I know you will try your best.
Some days you will want to run away from your own mind.
Im here to tell you that you won't be able too.
You can't run away from the bad but you can try to stop it.
Take a pill and hope it doesn't make you want to sleep your day away.
At least if you're fast asleep then nothing will hurt you.
Do you choose to stay awake by yourself or drug yourself to sleep every night?

I gave her my heart over and over.
Hoping that nothing bad would happen.
Not thinking of how everything can go away in seconds.
My heart was pulled out my chest and stepped on with no regret.
I gave her my heart over and over,
Hoping it would be my last time.
Not knowing my heart would be damaged for ever.