They call me a superhero but I don't know what I'm fighting for
I don't know how the story unfolds
don't know if I'm fighting to even the score
all I know is my emotions have been silenced
calm but my screaming raw
I fight to save you, it is you I adore,
it's you I would fight everyone, with bare hands
till ****** and sore
superhero don't think I can be called, for you I'll be more
This I promise till I'm 6 feet under the floor
I'll fight loki and thor I'll fight and win every war
cause an uproar if it means you are not hurt forever more
its the protocol I live by the world I will brawl
A superhero ever maybe not only at nightfall
I'll walk into Mordor **** every work if you say it's an eyesore
I will save you from your downfall I am your protective wall
you are my magic I'm your Dumbledore protect you from Slytherin snakes
who comes through the backdoor

I know I was born
to protect my unicorn
don't be misinformed act like a superhero
only when the world wrong
a firestorm when you need warmth
this promise is lifelong
a tough mind head I'm headstrong
not in space but my arms strong
for you, I'll transform like a newborn
love you till the suns gone and they broke dawn
a superhero you have for life
I can confirm

I want to be stuck right here with you
our hearts glued never dream of falling
you my parachute this absolute our connection
written in stone not the rosetta but more
astute. We feel the same I smell it on your
perfume the way you look at me when
we were alone in a room for this reason alone
I will atone in servitude be resolute the aura
you exude is elegant in elegance down to your glossed
lips prevalent


Before us, we felt gagged and unable to breathe
now each other's oxygen our worlds boxed in
staying with you is a blessing a love still progressing
wanna stay even if the weather sway creates a cyclone
without affection, We will break through and let each other in
only together we will make the the world spin you and I
a hurricane for the right reasons.
Stay while we soar on aphrodite wings through seasons

Ever think why we hate?
these thoughts we need to assassinate
a dictator hater with a hateful nature
a rattlesnake.
love we should demonstrate
kindness is the drive we need to motivate
change evident even in cold hearts it penetrates
happiness within if we open our minds and stop chasing
dragons who are missing it never existed
stop talking and listen
To the voice inside calling
for us to be great again
without anger or pain
without chaos which rains on our parade.
our leaders degenerate creating feeble divides
while their pockets line
yet humanities
battling on the front line losing our lives
for reasons benign, forget it it's our time
for us to consciously reach a higher consciousness
start using common sense let's stop the
ridiculous in this merry-go-round of ridiculousness
we are the masses let us unite on a higher conscious
find peace on the inside forget all the lies
created to erupt hatred they rationalize
to destabilize. Stand up awoken and arise
let's usher in a new civilization with peace
and attainable dreams, excluding the screams
In our hearts and minds.

standing in a full moonlight
understanding life a crashlanding
multiplied
even if we were supermen we
walking on kryptonite every breath
is a fight
a path lit by candlelight
demanding we ranting while
withstanding a stamping till you hit bottom
a spanking
superman doesn't die start standing time to stand in
for the things I stand for not for standing
when I impact I'm a meteorite
for my kids, I'll get crucified

while singing them
a lullaby, against life I can't lay down and die
I'm a dog with fight to life I'm a dogfight
They keep missing my understanding leading to misunderstandings all I am is standing outside
calling to be outstanding
running this rat race
while straddling my kid's hands praying they don't let go and watch me fall

from grace my failure realized
Would I be surprised,  these thought suicide
denied I'm Brutus when I pop eyes
while my syllables break decibels amplified
a gun in a knife fight there is only one side
my past I rewrite midnight when its dark outside
silence my solace while I reach for the finish line
while my sound byte outright in your head resides

we have something real
play in my mind a never-ending reel
film star in my story not pretending
its how I feel my heart
you steal transcending everlasting
love, I can't conceal

every time I'm not near
know that I love you without fear,
the only one I hold dear
my dear,
if you caught in headlights
Doe, I will be here
carry you to safety, sincere
you I revere as the premier
every time I call your name
it should be clear
I hope you hear
this my decree a token my souvenir
never will I leave
more precious than times rare
it's all 4 1 I swear

even vanity thinks you fair
lady picturesque you make portraits stare
your silhouette a dream it defeats my
nightmares that became part of what i wear
the dark my lonely despair my savior
in your eyes, i can see that you care

you are a new year I'm luckier for
having met you I see a classic menu

divine heaven the venue astute
where you reside
the light within you can't hide
this love can't be denied
equally, we feel the same
perfect circular equilibrium
in your heart, i confide
united in past lives
lasting things captive
in your eyes you forgive
past sins that give
me a new lease for positives

colored pastel past times
past, the future now
best-loved a love not passive
cindered hearts love burning
learning to be more loving
kissing every part of your olive brown
skin
everlasting lasting forever

not even the grave can rob us
in the afterlife, we'll reminisce
in ceremonies that remedies
our memories with our love recipes
edged in history our only identity
hearts beating as one never enemies
or frenemies we gave our all
devoured all strife
side by side we conquered life
on love we rolled the dice
winning the jackpot more than thrice
gripping my heart my vice

hope the legacy of our love inspires many
dreading taking faiths leap
more a beheading when loving
but for naught it seems, keep the dream
love is everlasting around the corners
the one to complete
and defeat  
lonely nights keep the fight
you will find life delight
unconditional love conditioned
only to love unconditionally
you are deserving believe me
you worth it worthy of loves
words embedded in your heart
as pure poetic art it's written
in your eyes embedded in the stars
your love chart it illuminates
the dark at night when the moon
envy's how bright you beam
light

was a dark night with a bright moon
your silhouette on the dance floor my eyes consumed
poetry in motion body waves like ocean
seems I'm doomed if i only knew was the start
of something made for fools we rushed in
emotions spinning propelling us to new heights
soaring, above the chaos in each others sights
earthly angel bringing light to my dark nights
mesmerizing my thoughts it feels right
meant to be we shine neon lights

we cant fight it was pre ordained it excite
this our passage our rights evokes delight
think we loved each other in past lives
cant overwrite, protect you be your modern night
is there a end in sight not quite, for eternity we tethered
it looks like don't mind our souls entwined even in the afterlife
in this world you'll become my wife
we journey life in each others arms
easing strife fireflies love that shines bright
even the moon envious tonight

you know when I'm with you
there's nothing i cant do
this life seems brand new
This meant for us two
our love a glowing hue
love exist who knew
so how could you

How quickly devilish
graceful angel falls from grace.
You said, I betrayed you?
Do you not see the tears streaming down my face?
still holding the "I love you" knife you stabbed me with,
bleeding, disgraced.
Was all this years
hearts beating as one a waste?
see your black wings true colors
Was I a naive scholar?
this lesson I wish not to face
You still the air I breathe, yet,
don't want to call your out name
When I do, betrayal I still taste

What happened to together forever, eternity, infinity
With your murderous words, death his only fate
No matter how hard I try
bleeding wound won't stop.
screaming rivers of tears won't dry
need your healing touch
My skin crawls, know that's a lie
broke something in me
took a important part of me
tears washes away the veil, you infected my vision.
ugly suffering I can now  see.

so sick of this rat race
pull ahead get pulled back
by peoples hate smiles fake
good died
evils taken its place
truth you have to face, a dying breed
morals are being replaced

no matter how hard I try to live
nothing I do is good enough
inside they breaking all my stuff
feel like this life is getting rough
tough but I feel like caving in
seems everyone consumed by sin
trying to set my shine to dim
cant break i need to  save me

walking in a twilight zone
eerie feelings I must disown
trying to break me, I'm not alone
have a love that's so strong
lifts me up when I'm  down
live as a optimist that is a risk
life's trying to spin me around
I'm no clown screaming holding a fist
ready to fight, till my last breath
i know i'm right,
why should i conform to norms,
when I posses the light
have insight
to fight the dark
when it tries to bite
modern night, any evil i will smite

this where i confess life's heartless
nevertheless wont digress
no recess got to push for progress
negativity I got to suppress
ill feelings I disposes
wont feel the effects
wont bring me to my knees
have love still feel blessed
nonetheless I'm destined for success
wont stress, not a request, i impress
play this game time for chess
this board I will possess

why do they keep hunting me
I'm not fair game, insecurities
makes them lame, cant face themselves
so play the blame game, they cant face the shame
living in lies not to feel ashamed
its too late you made your bed
face the sins in your head, its your regrets
feel its effects, never forget
placed your bets, did the crime
now face the time
cant reset, try to make amends is the best bet

yet the ones you wronged, is now dead
my conscience clear yours complex
you will only heal when you accept
with deceit you are possessed
I severe ties cant stand the lies
now you nothing but pests

your story ends
book shortened, hurt a person considered
the best of men, for yawl he did everything
yet you destroyed him in the end
hope at night you scream his name
in terror because pain
did this **** for worldly gains
cant take the **** to the grave
narcissistic yawl insane
do you have empathy, what a crying shame
the time cant be reclaimed
hope heaven lose your names

let's take a second to listen
written alphabetically
with a brand-new addition
spliffing delivering
heat, cat on a hot tin roof
sizzling, Messi, dribbling
spit ill sickening
guest visiting,
lend me your ear, listening
shimmering as he shines bright
twinkling, divide, partitioning
locked up, imprisoning
doodle, scribbling
SA drill
spicing  with flavor
seasoning, using my head
thinking of reasons
to justify reasoning
for dazzling,
as we settle in

round 2 smurfed but
not blue, more a colored
hue, repping cape town
awe bru, wake up
disabling snooze
jesters you fools
visionary when I see
first from the back
they all lose
not a masquerade it's all true
deadline my times due
ask mew 2, pokemon
index, it's perplex
get ash too, over
a cuckoos nest birds flew
seeking asylum hes crazy
still frosty so cool
yu gi it's time to
dddd duel


this the part where spazz out
remove doubt, running circles
on tracks, roundabout,
roundhouse kick to chin and mouth
no handout, grind out
red hot
circular rounded
noise drowned out, not shouting for clout
cant recognize skill,
take this pill, it will break
the spell my tracks stackable
not saying this sarcastical
sarcastically or sarcastic
not applicable, resolve soluble
doubt dissolve i'm liquid cyanide
every track i ****, surgeons
precision with a scalpel
so skilful, I sculpture
syllables in rhyme schemes
unseen to the naked ear
class dismissed school bell

so tell all its not all folks
not ****** toons no jokes
not ****** tunes, with lazy tones
I have lampoons, that ******
death squad platoon
you'll be history lying in ruins
surfing these dunes no fear
seeing things as the series turns
with unclear reasons I'm nuclear

I know you feeling this
written alphabetically
spit subliminally accurate
abacus counting syllables
in reverie, ya missed his spits
unseen this ships a blip
speeding over your head
changing lead as he flips
the script he elevates
off he lifts celebrate
as he spits his wits
court him off guard
na, case dismissed
five finger clench
balled into a fist
punch at the fence
so I don't slit my wrist

dream I had
reaching must be mad
sober I'm glad
follow this yellow brick road
a none jumping toad
carrying a heavy load
not even a passing fad
skill  rad
boys a baddy
be mike have a fight
tyson ask larry

ok here we go
another lesson
class in session
teachers, written alphabetically
spits ill, verbal turrets
spits sick, leave with seizures
epileptic, flash so quick
wits is blits, words illusions
magic, pony, never 1 trick
race horse takes podium
no 1 pick, popsicles
trying to ice me
don't give a lick
armoured my skin thick
weapon my pen dipped in ink
a lion with a crown I am king
thoughts provoke
provoking your perception
of cardinal sin
I run on this treadmill backward
going nowhere fast
still, win
silence can you hear the pin
dropped in a haystack
sea lost in an ocean
like ops, it's missing

if you miss me, close your eyes you'll see
me smiling at you knowing it's you I need
always be around, whether you are feeling up or down
to you I'm forever bound, queen to my world
you own the crown, enchanted I'm spellbound
whipped our love profound
with me
you'll never shed a tear or frown
glad you I found
my love circular you it surrounds
carrying you to a higher plain beyond the clouds
like EM we space bound, soaring on wings of love
Osbourne
elated we soar, if you need me
knock on my door
text, call,
dm on socials, be there in an instant
so that you don't miss me for a second
when you call nothings more important
we courted today forever together you worth it
we deserve it, we'll go the distance in the
clouds by angels its written
nothing we are lacking
fun fact is we meant to be
our love reminiscent
of energy, that powers the sun its glowingly
lighting up our lives as each other we breathe
lovingly it's the oxygen we need together
we ascend it how we feel
feels with you the perfect hand i was dealt

was you and i together forever, seems you need a walk to remember
here's a reminder, was a night in November, eyes locked
love at first sight, the world cloaked in splendour
felt lucky, found a four leave clover, with a smile
that elevates, i soared, when we kissed, angels roared
with applause, started humming love songs, felt that's where we
belonged, faith in life restored, together our hands body's
explored, ecstasy with every touch every moan a reward
our love goes beyond,  forever adored
together chose the road unexplored, we couldn't be separated
not even by divine intervention from the lord
even now as you swing that heavy worded sword
much as you wish to ignore, i know you recall

go easy on me, my feelings raw
the situation flawed, i cant comprehend
when did my angel fall, our love a revolving door
I cant do this anymore, one day its forever
next day broken my hearts sore

stage set
I'm drained by this encore, furthermore
further i cant go on anymore, if love hurts
its time to throw in towel, or stay on the floor
we were counted out, what we still trying for
what we fighting for, if its not to stay together
this relationship flawed,

heading to a cliff with no breaks
on ice skates, on snowflakes, sound the alarm we jump
or we going down, we burnt at the stake
this high stakes i love you but I'm about to break
my love was never fake, never a flake
I think of you still asleep or awake
if you love me too you'll walk away
if you love me you'll walk away, live to love another day in another way
without the pain without the pain
without the heartache and pain

go easy on me, my feelings raw
the situation flawed, i cant comprehend
when did my angel fall, our love a revolving door
I cant do this anymore, one day its forever
next day broken my hearts sore

its weighing heavy on me, a ton of bricks added on top our tragic story
a tragedy ending going up in a smoke of glory
burning memories of happiness erasing bliss with sad mornings
fights and tears falling this faulty I' not faulting
I'm no saint, but that's what i' saying trying to explain
we should pull the plug, our loves draining
summer snow tears raining
with you I feel more lonely
than being alone, not Lying tales, true story
we know we love each other immensely but we heat and rubber
toxic together we need a breather, we burning out
it's running a fever,
we part ways with out leaving
in my nightmares I'll be screaming, time to get lost
in my feelings, know i won't be here if you need me...

same as your mom, I will always love you,
in two minds accepting you into this world
currently in the grips of war,
with every passing day, humans become worse
perverse, we have become cynical,
clinical in being tyrannical, it's what I observed
have no fear, I'll lay my life on the line to protect yours
I'm being sincere, you a blessing that brings light
the good in me you ignite, with hope you made me reunite
for you the world I'll fight, if they interfere

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

want you to know, in this world there will always be pain
sometimes it's inhumane, cry, there's no shame
it's what makes us stronger, eventually it fades
we'll create music together, as our escape
never give up, no matter what anyone says
you will always be great,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

I'll give you what it takes
be there every step of the way, till you can take your own step
fly away,
I curse the day, I'm not here to stand in your way
here to love, support and guide you, till you find your sun amongst the grey
till find where you belong amongst the human race
I'll be by your side, till the day you find your place
If the worlds ever becomes to much to bear becomes grizzly
bare its teeth, loses grace
I'll always be there, if you need to find you
with open arms I'll embrace

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

If the card you been dealt becomes cruel
by chance I couldn't be there to see this through
know that I love you, always strive for the best version of you
to your values always stay true, I'll be with you every step of the way
from heaven I'll be smiling down on you,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

promised you the world and i failed
bless the fact you still here, together , still saying you love me forever, makes this world better
gave me the strength to fight, pulled me from the ashes phoenix  I'm your fighter

scaled, the weight I carry lighter
touched by the dark, still carry a torch
felt your fire, sizzling cinders fired awaking my slumber, wanting forever to defend your honor
untainted my eyes, a purifier, gave my confidence wings, we will soar higher

this our love this our fire this our love triggered by desire


liar, never you will call me, I mean it
my meaning not faulty by us meeting
the feeling  pouring out deeply that's guilt free
I foresee forever us be together until our souls get reaped


with faith i leap promise i keep

calm I sleep, feel the same
feelings equally deep
not leave a promise we keep, , visit each others dreams
dying promise
world bleeds, light you shine
Devine leads,  my guideline forever entwined
beauty defined, angels shrine forever mine

nectared wine, feeling sublime love defined
faith leaped devils weep our hearts need
all I see, all I feel, oxygen needed to breathe

how do I still love you when everything screams to let you go
how do i still care when your icy  goodbye left me cold as snow
How do i still need you when you left me swinging
from high to low
How do i still feel you, when your silloute is but a ghost
no longer want to be here ,without you not a home
loneliness the darkness silence
dictates the melody of your metranome

tears falling to the sound of raindrops, emotions twisted cycloned
shards of glass all around, broken soul by happiness disowned

heart screaming, the devil  he knows
you left me, a candle, wickless to the bone,
shine blown out by your lies, tears me to tears, rivers I cry, heart turned to stone

leaving me lifeless, ready to fight less
lay down and just drown.
leaving me broken severed deboned
increasingly seemingly love was disowned
miss your soothing tone, all i can do is scream at my phone

loneliness wont leave me alone, feels i should atone
measured  never known lost my pleasant tone
every thought my displeasure shown
every last  pleasure stolen,  hope overdosed
it's lifeless forever on this dangling rope
never so i cant cope
tangled up in a strangeling grip
lifes book angrily wrote

truthful note to heaven it wish to float.
sad notes emotions tearing a dog fight
truth your enemy it took flight
bad nights  functions disabled,
lies keeping me awake at night
tribulations my daily plight
no modern knight
felt tall with you, disheveled I lost all height
faulting  with ease, the stranger in the mirror staring back at me, he lost his fight, dont think he'll ever be all right.


this the end for me, love and i will never be
friends again from it  i flee
all i can do  get lost in reverie
reliving hapiness in memories under pretense
treachery
whatever be honestly I dont have the energy, i feel i will never heal not in this century

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This my latest

https://soundcloud.com/faizel-farzee/treachery?si=94eb03f7ccd0467e8f2a1264965b17e5

No lives matter the Minute you step out the door
prey to the world chaos imbedded in its core
imbedded in history not a mystery anymore
This our motto, ill Intentions so obscure
rigged to lose we already lost the war
puppets with no string we on the floor
saddled with steak this life seems so raw
No lives matter the minute you step out the door

They control everything
Freedom is misleading
Victims of sins of war
Bought into submission
Who are we living for
who are we crying for
who are we dying for
we should be striving for
living without remorse
dying without being forced
god can you hear my thoughts
cleanse our souls it’s impure
please can you hear my call
can suffering end its course

we lost our morality
It got sold for prosperity
we can’t trust one another
where the hell is the sanity
I know this life's raw
repeating our flaws
we lost our integrity
impure without purity
with wool over our eyes
we lost all transparency
we gave up our decency
we outlived our warranty
there is no more guarantee
we all choking to breathe
currently caught in a dungeon of currency

On the precipice
of turning pessimist
into followers
on the basis
of logical statistics,
I persist flame thrower I bring the heat
Arsonist,
Spit flames when I speak
A weight when I lead
Yawl Sunday lunch  baked goods
Dough that I knead, twigs snapped
I break bread
killed yawl already
shot to the head
lift your spirits
Necromancer, raised the dead
Skills reborn in eye I invest
Poetic vision
Stock doubled,
then  birthed success
A different mindset from the offset
Fueled by a rocket mentality
shoot for the moon
Lift off set, I earned respect
Flipped the script
Pitched my  tent
with Devine intent
its heaven-sent
This my shout at air
my truthful vent

fake is the smile I walk around with all day
like I’m wearing a upside down happy face
the words that I mutter is not all I have to say
Not dealing with stupidity is the only heavens grace
So, I walk around with this mask on my damning face
Deep down all I know is a feeling of disgrace
Ripping  gnawing moving happiness out of place
I know I'm not the only one, that’s caught in this state
Now the notion that arises is the world’s completely fake
lies I just navigate and hope I don’t break
Clawing and scratching hoping I can claim a steak
Yet every step I take,
brings me closer to death
Choking to breathe with every dying breath
Hoping to catch a dream before there’s nothing left
Before I’m on my knees regretful and bereft
Before the scythe ascends and I lose my head

First track got released on Spotify, any support would be greatly appreciated.

In My Feelings

https://open.spotify.com/album/5k9VvA0ZHbDUBRgNpMjZWS

You took everything from me, the moment that you said that you leave
My lungs is now pleading me, constricted so I cannot breathe
Why you feel like hurting me, you know for you I'll always bleed
You know your tears are crushing me, why you blind and cannot see

Took everything from me, everything I need to breathe
take away your kisses, It was the touch I need to feel
why yo got to be heartless, forever in love was the deal
Why I got only memories, Playing on a saddened reel
Messes with my sensory, tears of sorrow I cant conceal
your silhouette still present, like I'm in a waking dream
reality a nightmare, waking moments left to scream

You know that I need you, everyday and every night
You know that without you, the moon will never shine as bright
you know that I'm hurting, daily heartache becomes my plight
You know that I'm broken, left in the dark with no sunlight

do  you not remember
When we were in heaven
that night we were together
after all storms weathered
to your lies I surrender
now by hate we tethered
all your tears I've savored

Why do we think its love we need
When hates all it breeds, a carried disease
Why do you think loves a dream
A cloud full of steam, tears cry it weeps
Why do you think some kids hearts bleeds
It's love they need, it's locked up and keyed
Why do think loves drenched in deceit
Our love can mislead, we believe we are free

just admit we broken
just admit we souless
just admit we love less
Just admit we are guests
our love cant stand the test
In tears we become obsessed
red thread of fate has become stretched
from this place we should digress

You know this is over, choking while we breathe
addicted to tears while groping, blinded we cannot see
lying I feel like a poser, knowing how we feel
we both know this is over, .........living in constant grieve

They say it's better to lose so you know what to do next time
Ok fine
What if you lost yourself in chaos & the exit you can't find
The person in the mirror seems to have fallen behind
I think I lost its blueprint, I lost its main design
I feel I'm constantly battling on the frontline
Life's wars, hanging on by a lifeline
life's buffet, on me it hungrily dine
I don't see the goal line, I cant see, I'm blind
Is there light in this world, does the moonshine
blinded I'm constantly stepping on land mines
With the voices in my head I'm entwined
telling me I'm not worth any shine
I have no spine, my existence asinine  
leave me alone, I don't want to die
I need to find the light, I need its guidelines
I'm being consumed, fighting, but still in decline
Will it ever change, will my mind ever revive
Until then, skating, I'll stay on the grind

Raging fever murky rivers clouds my inner thoughts.
Fogged by lovers lies who's kisses taste of loss
Past midnight my mind sinks to depths of remorse
Guilt ridden rippled through tortured time in discord
Wretched rain rips through hope with tears as it pours
Broken dreams with silent screams crashes as it falls
Memoire's soiled in reverie my memories curtain calls
Lost within the silent night living through every flaw

I'm mystified by your alluring mystique
Mysterious & mischievous motif
Allurance that's magnetically deep
Intrigued because you intrigue
At times time get lost in Déjà vu, it sleeps
Leaps, my heart jump every time you speak
Eloquent in elegance a elegant feat
Featured features fearless & elite
A walking dream poetry supreme
Treat with a candied heartbeat
A beat that's upbeat & sugary sweet
Leave, I will lay down in defeat
Invite the reaper, get my soul reaped
You the air I need to breathe
Undying love daily to you I bequeath
Uncaged winged words have me soaring free
You gave me the belief to believe I'm more than negativity
Negative thoughts boxed and caged within my minds disease
With you I leave the key, knowing you will never leave me to bleed
Never leave me wounded bleeding, in your eyes guaranteed

Walking unseen stalker eye see the darker side of this a grey life in shatters
Our minds engaged and battered
Corporations selling their addictive drugs legally for profit
Sell the antidote to the same addicts they create, how is this legit? We should be disgusted
Governments hands are tied as they just walking  puppets
Control by the lawmakers and breakers it's truly tragic
The world lost it, we conquered by being devided and split
They get away with ******, police unfit designed to keep the masses confined to a system only they permit
The system is rigged, we already in cages, it's easier not to admit
I wish I could ignore the squeeze it's choking, Boa, it's starting to constrict
Making it harder to breathe when all I can see the constant pain they inflict
This world is past sick, they profit off lives and tears ******* us dry like ticks
While capturing our focus on a screens with *******, off we get picked
Prescribed addictive drugs on false positives so money they can extract
In fact, we are cash cows caught in a stacked net, we can't escape or fight back
The only time it ends when they bled us dry and let us go to wait for death
While they live large until their dying breath
Our morals gone, we have nothing left.

Life has been cruel to me, it couldn't get through to me
Continually calling my name calling constantly out to me, what does it want from me, what does it want from me
I'm living by my rules, It's making it hard to breathe for me
Leave me alone, let me break free from this mortuary.
Freedom an illusion forged by forgery, embedded in history
Forget me, I don't want conform to be part of this chaos and greed
The cancer of sceptic filth deep in to our society seeped.
It reeks, the stench of decay of innocent  souls reaped, horrendously embedded in the earth deep
When it's quiet and earth survived it's days riot, if you listen closely she sadly weeps
There will never be peace, segregation the key.
Split a world with hate, through a little screen.
Robbing our life while we complacent and they unseen

It was a sunny day, your smile on my mind I was on my way
Ring in my hand today is the day
Always felt this way, from the moment our lips touched It was meant to be
From the moment our souls touched I was meant to stay
Both envision it see, the moment our love touched we were meant to break free
Together forever on a oceanic breeze, exploring the wonder our love evergreen
A heavenly scene, I see paradise in your eyes,  our river of passion runs infinite deep.
Skin real silken soft like satin when we embrace and feel
Every instant our tongues collide it's living a dream
Heaven I'm seeing, perfection I'm living, infinite giving as to nirvana I'm driven
Your voice equivalent to angels singing, If loving you make me a sinner, every second I'll be sinning
Our red line of fate not cotton a ribbon
Cinders in our hearts fire it's omitting
Sizzling and spitting imprinting our love on one another as we kissing
This the day I willingly give in to thanks, you my thanks-giving
My only wish granted, Gods present

It was a day in November, that sad journey a walk to remember
Through tear stained eyes, worst day of my life if I measured
You were priceless, flowing river of a lost kings treasure
Immeasurable, you made me want to be better
In this world of pain , you are my only pleasure
Through storms we weathered, separable never

Your deceit, left me feverish, running a fever
Withdrawal from your love left my heart with a seizure
Broken a bleeder, bleeding for your love I crave every instant

My attempt to put up resistance futile as you I could never resist
Even though we distant I still crave your essence
I know you not here but I still feel your presence
In Perfect memories we still together under pretense

Our love that's now severed
Bleeds from the seams death where it's headed
Our red thread of fate beheaded
Our love lust dejected like it was your initial endeavor

Whatever!

The black scar on my heart, how you will always be remembered
played with my heart, I hope my saddened tears you savored
Wolf in sheep clothing, you were never my shepherd

I break free from terror
I will no longer be tethered

I will love you forever

the  feeling of Loving you
Have me choking from a hanging noose
feeling scarred and misused
feeling battered and bruised
**** gots me shattered and con-fused

say that I'm to blame
calling me insane
you planting seeds of outrage
without showing any restraint
yet all you left me with is this pain

your love left me drained
It's my living nightmare
this mirage I had to maintain
my constant headache
my living talking migraine

tonight, I'm breaking free of these chains
My conscious light as a feather  
regret have you enchained
painlessly the weight shifted
As if my wills lifted by a crane
This relationshit's over
go drown in your tears acid rain

This letter I write to you, with my heart turned to stone
Empty this cave of sorrow, without your guiding light
This empty dark abyss, no longer feels like a home
Your voicemail on repeat, craving your voice
Bereft of choice, I scream at my phone

I love you! You the air that I breathe
Your name sweetened my life
Now a suffocating vice ,  I choke when I speak
Our love severed, by our bond it bleeds
From the broken promises it seeps
Cuts left wounds deep, left defeated and weak
Trying to remove the knife you stabbed me with
Tears me to tears when I feel

I thought our love was unique

You lifted the veil from my eyes
Happiness I no longer see
Replacing your love with hate
So I can finally be set free

This final letter, the beginning of peace
Breathe, I wipe my saddened tears
Erased from my scars, as I click delete

People say they lost in the dark
What a absurd fable
dark is the absence of light
Just light a candle

The only constant is change
Change is the only constant
What about death
The human caution

Reality is distorted
what we emotionally feel
paints the portrait
What you recall
could be wrongly recorded

Does this add to misunderstanding
Is it  life being too demanding
Rise above, be upstanding
Don't fly off the wheel
Without understanding

I called on him a few times
During low and highs
He does not reply
Does it mean he don't exist
Or severed my contact line
Left with no answers
I rely on my unanswered mind

This become confusing
causes confusion
when you left computing
racism, wars & intolerance
leaves you assuming
producing,
the flat earth no mask wearing
human

I stand on a frozen lakes ledge, staring Into the cold eyes of darkness
It whispers it loves me, while clutching my bleeding heart
Daggers through my frailty, tearing our paradise apart
Our love use to harmonize
Promises you made, a masquerade of truths
Our fairytale, storybook lies.

Your honied kisses sweetened my dreams
In nightmares now your name I scream
In our world, you were made my queen
What stands before me in tears
A lying angel, a crying fiend.

You wont see me cry
I hide my tears in the downpour
You were suppose to be my savior
All you are is a lie

You the schism that split me
You caused this divide
Bitter tonight my lullaby
On my knees, I say good bye.

I get lost on your curvaceous silhouette
Whispered calls to my heart on the backdrop of a starry night sky.
A galaxy of awaiting wonder

A journey I willingly venture on.
Swim in your sweet essence, sip on the nectar of your intoxicating love.
Your flowing hair red as mars, cascading as the milky way

Your eyes where my paradise lies, brighter than the brightest stars.
Radiating beauty, it lights even the darkest hour of my life.

You are my earthly Angel, even the heavens adorned our union.

Our growing love like the universe ever expanding.
Together hand in hand, with locked lips ascend beyond time.

Death calls silently from the distant abyss
Angelic voice of freedom sincere
This ailing body my minds prisoner
Living longer a constant fear

Songs of jolly laced the night
Thought of regret my only sight
Longing for end my companion
Longing for a loving touch my plight

They sing of joy, happiness and giving
Yet they forget their neighbors, family and living
Laughter sounds like blades singing
How loves embrace I'm wishing

With every drawn breath
I feel I'm cheating death.
I see beauty in nothingness.
Arms openly waiting to be fetched.
The world I detest, steals your youth.
Then send you lonely to rest.

This mirrored image staring back at me
I don't know who she is.
Loneliness the title of her memoirs  
I don't recognize the scars.

The world a limitless ocean of chaos
Yet, we joyful willing to drown.
Sing the halls of nights so lonely
This my only Christmas song

As earth, sea and sky love and hate you and me! All simultaneous, all wanting needing craving screaming bleeding, for one piece or moment of lost time. Dragging. grabbing and pulling, spitting and calling, this complete chaos,  only a faction of my aching life.

No! This is chaos, this impulse that drives our inner thoughts and feeling to constant self-destruction. This morphing unstoppable force, my driven path in life.
The mirror holding my blue print to a better life had shattered it seems.
Spending more time seeking to find these fruitless shards, a constant search which I fear will never end. Like lost ships at night with not an ounce of light lost at sea. Eternally searching...

How do you rebuild chaos? Do you string all pieces, so it hangs from the fabric of time like art unmovable?
Its would still be shattered, though unmovable. This bolder of despair blocking my journey to tasteful freedom. A journey to a higher conscious. How do one that has been battered and bruised, knocked and kicked find the strength to move the unmovable.
How? Do one that has been brought to their knees, by the normality of a given life find the strength to move. When constantly they carried the weight of an ever expanding universe on their defeated shoulders.

This my ever constant battle, to reassemble the broken shards of a universe disrupted.

Caught between a dream and nightmare
Stabbing mind pains this is not fair
Sleep awake living or dead
Stuck in a place called nowhere
Is this life even real, should I even question to care

Do I take a chance, dream beyond the skies
A world with the absence of light
dark with vision impaired
Infested with lies & legal crimes
Can we really live life to the fullest
When we already ensnared?

These are the questions, infesting my dreams at night
When voiceless earths screaming
Still putting up a fight
We destroy everything, just look at our historical might
Building towards exstiction
To destroy our nature, it cannot be helped.

How dark the world as night still approaches, I look at graves
our morals we ghosted.
Left infested infesting our spirits, digesting our light in decay its invested.
Are we wicked? Or Bested?
By the trickery of the world molested. A feathered pillow lie our heads we rested.
Standing on the precipice of breeding pessimists born into a age of information yet still ignorant.
Oppressively with kids needing therapist.
To cope in a world of divided ugliness
This where the drug reaches, grabs hold until you defeated beaten broken to pieces, Leaves
Alone, lonesome no one knows loneliness as it knows you.
This a lying truth obscured by the lies in truth with the untruth that it brings. Lies without wings, a melody of deceit.
Thoughts butcherer till our ends we meet.
This the sad reality, life our chauffeur while we strapped to the passenger seat.
All we truly have, are  our own beliefs and that beating vessel in our chest. A pulsating heartbeat

Raised on love, grew up in a **** storm
lullaby at night, the sound of a gun call
Always had the fight within, not falling tis form of mentality
Future seemed a bleak
mentally not giving into criminality
I was a ninja personified dodged the debris
They design to distort reality
Their scope on ones that lose hope don't cope
Feed them to their criminal dynasty
Broken souls who's life has been beaten with brutality
smelled out the weak, broke them infected their mind
the beast always looking to destroy or feast

I had to fight my way out, never had a ounce of doubt
Hustled and jumped every hurdle put front of me
I don't mess a-bout, punch with the weight of not the ****
technical knockout
Ploughed through the *******, ****** life and pulled out
Not once did I lay down and cower, I reroute
All the negativity I ate
Then spewed out flowers
In essence you can say, broke out
Negativity I devoured
Now I run circles around square thoughts
A fresh Prince, running on sheer will-power
I'll defeat anything you throw at me, I've seen it all
Call me Dwight David Eisenhower.

Like the army corpses paying for caskets
While the rich gorge on gluttony
Wolf in sheep clothing
When they just fat little pigs
That's rich...
Sometimes I feel they had just switch off
the light in the world, like a light switch
Well that's rich!
Why?
So this world can be reborn
When the first light kisses a retiring night
A new aged dawned
With divide and ruling the ensuing chaos
Encaged in a fake freedom
Our thoughts caught in what's right and what's wrong, what they will say
Don't offend or joke or be or breathe
This the life we lead, conscious but struggling to breathe
You have to be what they want
Even if  you just want peace
Say without boundary or offending belief
We living on eggshells
While the world gnawed to its core slowly bleeds
Are we really free?
Or is this just a perception perceived?
There are lines in this world
If we cross them are we deceased or are we

No lives matter the minute you step out the door
prey to the world, imbedded in its core
imbedded in history, divide and conquer
This our motto, Ill Intentions obscure

This the truth of this world, there is no other options
We live in divided chaos, we breathing in toxins
Toxic  and choking on air, no one has any conscious
Lose and lose our option, Its starting to get obnoxious

this my synopsis
take precaution
don't just believe
be cautious
no lives matter
we already in boxes
this not assumptions
I see the world bleed
cut down to its emotions
In the end, we just oxen
lambs to the slaughter
sold to corporations
consumerism their auction

so let gets this straight
words not dry, don't need to hydrate
any choice we make a mistake
mind a contortion
grab as the clock run
there is no exceptions

the minute you leave the door, no lives matter
for me, no misconceptions

Are we walking this life blindly
A plan with no direction
thoughts absent minded
Is there a purpose to all this
Questions denying answers
answered refusing questioning
At times we feel mindless

I'm losing faith
Tears prayerless
Our prayer faithless
We choking on oxygen
Our voices voiceless
Gasping to breathe
Our breath breathless

The hate in this world
It's overwhelming and tasteless
These culprits faceless
masters of masquerade
unmentionable and nameless.

Caskets of war a profit made shameless
Their blood money heartless
Rivers of saddened tears
To them wasted and fated
compared to riches, weightless

It's unfortunate
This the worlds bases
morals laces with shamelessness
2020 we still dealing with racists
Its like hate's contagious
we can combat it with love
Though even it seems hopeless

Put up our hands
we have to be courageous
inside ourselves we have greatness
together we not shapeless
If we march as one
this world can be painless

As I ink this lie
I realize the problem is imbedded in the ages
No one is rowing this boat
Navigation aimless
So we find faith somewhere
The light shines within us
Continue this unknown with grace
Movement Gracious.

Running blindly
lungs start to scream
thoughts mindless
sorrow endless
Nightmarish dream.

Living this lucid reality
memories vivid visual 3D
Visions morphs beastly
Oceans coal a black sea
Cascading dark all I see
Choking on oxygen
gasping to breathe
Screaming in silence
My voice start to leave
fall to my knees
the dark inverts
It's all my eyes sees

Shaken, A rude awakening

Awake on a Horse
Followed by the ace of hearts
Arrows swoosh my head it past
I hear a voice in the background
yelling, ' give him back the tarts
It's the queen of tarts hearts
She will take off your head
paraded headless, call it face arts
encountered a army, came to a halt

As the axe touches my skin
awake in agony my neck attached
hands cant move, I start to overreact
If I must guess, buries in a casket
I cant move or scream, getting tired
***, it feels like I'm dying
buried alive, tears started crying
I feel my last breath dissipate
soul torn from my body
I envision it flying

Am I Dead?

I hear a familiar beeping
My name its calling
to my soul it's speaking
I get pulled back to unreality
I opened while shrieking
sweating overheating
was I awake or sleeping
Am I awake now?
Answers misleading

My soul still seeking
the only answer it gets
whispers from my demons

Morning dew glistens off the surface of waking flowers
The sun happily calling the sleepy earth to awake this hour
Early birds flutters in song as their day begins
Sounds of love and longing fills the melody they sing.

Moment of peace before chaos arise
Silence before hatred split the divide
Serenity before pigment of skin matters
Tranquility before the ignorant chatter

Some demons awake with no ill intent
Earth screams in agony in quiet torment
Chaos rains in smiles and greetings
Choking on air she struggles breathing

Tears in the moons eyes as it arise
Dreams in prayer sent to the skies
Oceans rage with angered despair
trapped unhurried demise ensnared

As the night go silent
I can hear her breathe
Change in the climate
Close to being deceased

I  want you to know

They see life's hardship still in your eyes
l see your heart in its endless paradise
I see your smile still go on for miles

I'm sorry

Was your sacrifice now I feel part of a vice
We drifting unless another plan we devise
love is still there, its in the touch and the stares
Life got us stepping, hardship, invisible stairs
Faced it together kissing while making repairs
I cant believe where we are I know we still care
Invested our relationship is growing in shares

I promise

To tell you I love you daily
To love you forever sweetly
To cherish our love greatly

I look upon the canvas cloaking earth in its entirety, yet its not tangible.
Our sustenance, to sustain life it's critical.

Its companion has the shade we seek on a warm day, lovers carve their union to a part of history, we insist on destroying the beautiful, replacing it with decay.

Why do we march so valiantly towards demise, when we have the ability for ourselves to get saved.

Why do we seek intelligence, but overlook a simple concept as tolerance, is this how we were made?

I believe we borne with a blank slate, pure and kind, it is the infested dark of this world that infests and overtake our mind. If you lucky enough not to be borne into it, during your journey, prey, you it will find.

Embedded in history, a dark slithering serpent has this world in a bind, it is called corporations, they enslaved human kind.

I love you, I love you too
Your hand caressed mine
With every winged kiss, my elevated heart starts to fly
I looked deep into your eyes
You know it was always meant to be, you and I
Our union blessed in heaven
You laughed, blushed and turned shy.
I know silly, came the reply
This promise you know we share
Always and forever
until the day that we die.

I want you to  go first, so for me you don't  have to cry

I'll carry the burden of living life with a broken heart
I will not have you shed one saddened tear, whether I'm dead or alive.

The night i was born there was a crimson moon.
There was lightning and thunder, not different to a monsoon.
The wind blew eerily while wrapped in my cocoon.

Then suddenly...

She came to me in a blinding light, told me about the power of word and its endless might.
I listened intently at the tale she recite, asking me to repeat after her
under a silver starlight.

She said, I bestow upon you a thirds mind eye
You will see the pain of this world through a poets eyes
you will marry the writing craft, it will course through veins
the oxygen you breath you will need to survive

I obliged, I gave them wings and made them fly

So i started training these words to thrill
My craft pure, refined, distill

None of this hippitty hop ****, look I use alliteration quite frequently
I think I'm the ****, well like a candy isle  in a convenient store i need bars you ***.
These words running through my mind, a marathon of thoughts
It's  is on training schedule, they ripped and fit.
This to me a game of chess, I play with finesse
you all toddlers, so easy to outwit.

Like taking candy from a baby, your defense unfit
i think you cold, here is some wool and needles leave the writing game, a new hobby for you, knit.

I see these guys with alliteration for days but ain't saying ****
Weak like trumps wall missing its bricks.
I need medical assistance my brain sick, you have no flames, a candle without the wick.

anyways, for now i'm done, i wrote this in 15 mins
ahead of myself, myself i outdone, I'm Ra
myself i out-shun.

After reading this i know you  will be brooding, I am divine, A angelic presence in a world of humans.
So don't confuse this, I'm not in battle mode yet, my demons was asking to give you some lip.

This my conclusion, sinners get down on your knees and pray for absolution.

How, Is the world not saying something? Why, This total disconnect?

They grabbed our ancestors from thier paradise to work on stolen land, no matter what civilization in the process they wreck.
Leader of the free world I lol with discontent.
This whole situation is parallax completely wrecked

Now that they have build you your nation, in return ask for a little respect
Suddenly you forget
There was a entire civalisation living peacefully before you on horse back

You completely wiped them out

Then proceeded to cultivate that blood land on their enslaved ancestors back
Now they suddenly not welcome
Like a reject, you want to send them back
They have no home, you made sure throughout history, made sure of that fact.
That is their home now, equality a notion you intentionally hiding from or is it attempting to forget.

The land you stole it, but it was "slaves" that made the biggest impact, nations stolen from homes knees placed on their neck. Their culture captured in musuems, then as  slaves they were tagged.
From a conscious mind, how messed up is that.

Don't get me wrong, I know it's only a certain sect. Then make your voice heard, don't just disconnect, it's a world problem we need to dissect, let your voice fly united for bigger effect.

It was our ancestors, the retort Then, Why, Is this still happening?

All we want is for everyone to be able to walk down the street without fearing death because of colour of skin.
Something we have no control over, unless made in a dish
I pray for a shooting star so this I can wish
All they hear is gun fire, and they fear the grims scythe
Keep them safe.

By the hand of ignorance

Please not like this, not by someone that spews lies and hatred on a daily basis yet no one even bats a eye or blinks. Money truly equals power, by now you should be sold on this.
A guy that that don't know the meaning of words, it alludes him, yet he's running the "free" world
To us this should be a diss.

What does this say about the state of human consciousness , it's a miss.

This causes dismay..

This world is currently sinking
It's way past a point of decay
If this was the Titanic we would running for the life boat, which they control.

This world is currently dying, I feel its cold.

They have it by the throat, It's life slowly fades
Unless the world United make a tremendous noise
I fear nothing will ever change.