Stephanie

Stephanie Feb 2020

We are all disorientated.
Awaiting that glorious moment,
for that individual to pour water over you so you can grow.
Like the blue rose in a winter field, even when there is a speck of snow.

You have pain and you are sorrowful.
You are that flower in the desert who needs water.
You are the baby girl who needs her mothers warm hugs.

You need warm hot chocolate in a red mug.

The thing is that individual knows what you need.
He is there to keep you safe,
To keep your heart sweet ,
He is there to hold you when you are afraid in the movie theater's backseat.

That individual is not me...
For I already found my bittersweet love story,
and for now it is incomplete.
All I am waiting for, is for you to find me.

Stephanie Feb 2020

Grains of sand

On the beach,
lying on the sand.
With grains brushing through my hair.

I see how the lion plays between the stars.
I hear how the waves dance together,
and imagine the sweet melody that reminds me of you.

For a small time I thought I was one piece of a puzzle,
but then...
Your fingers touch myne.

I turn around,
and look in to your bright nox caelo eyes.

Alas, I fall -
I fall all over again.
In to your arms.

There on that moment we sail the night away
and all I am yearning for is that very moment.
Hoping you will stay.
Hoping those minutes will never sail away...

Stephanie Dec 2019

Monsters

I am lost inside my mind.
Staring at the stars at night.
Hoping that they can read my cards.
Hoping they can find what's s wrong with me in the inside.

Monster running wild in my mind,
I can't t silence them.
Not tonight.

Why can't anybody see I'm m not the person I wish to be.

The only thing you see is my smile,
but you are blind.
You cannot see how lost I am inside my mind.

My own mind cannot lie to me.
My nightmares have become a reality.
Monsters everywhere and they look like my anxiety,
but all you see is the way I beam.
You cannot see I'm m without my gleam.

Stephanie Sep 2019

Purple butterfly

Imagine a purple butterfly floating and suddenly landing on your hand:

Ownership will squash the butterfly not because of hate, but because of love.
The butterfly then dies and fades away.

Fear will let the butterfly sit on its hand,
and just because of being insecure they will let the butterfly fly away.
They dont want to try.
They are scared the creature wont stay.

Love shields the butterfly from the wind.
It will shield it and doesnt care whether it flies away.
If the butterfly appreciates love,
the purple butterfly will stay.

Be like love.
Have confidence to give love and not wonder whether they will stay or not
because you are worthy of love even if you think you are not.

Stephanie Aug 2019

Passionate silence

Feeling lonely.
Feeling miserable.
Feelings of despair.

Giving and not receiving is one of an odd pair.
Not knowing what's wrong,
not knowing what to do.
It's like a white dove without it's coo.

Then comes an epiphany, a slight realisation if I may:

Love is kind.
Love grace.
Love is the one who gives you space in a strange place.

But one cannot live without love and for not having love is for not having peace nor air to breathe.

My love I give to you so you can breathe even if I have lost my heart underneath.
My love is like Roars of lions.
You I love with passionate silence.

Stephanie Aug 2019

Christmas rose voice

Your voice is like a peaceful breeze.
Almost like the sounds of the wind blowing through the windchimes and the reeds.

Your voice reminds me of the sweet smell of Jimsonweeds , almost a licoricelike sweet.

Your voice makes me calm:
It makes me feel sleepy,
Hushed,
and restful like a chirping bluebird.

Your voice is a safe haven
A refuge if I may,
almost as if there is a ray of sunlight on a dark, cloudy and gloomy day.

Your voice makes me think of sunshine,
it's like Christmas roses and snowdrop flowers not growing in May.

Stephanie Aug 2019

Like Roses

You brought me great sorrow
but great Happiness too.
You led me to Peace, to "pax" if I may.
You led me to faith even when the sky's were gloomy and grey.

You were there when i needed you.
You were there with the utmost grace.
I wish you all the happiness I wish you find your faith.

For I know happiness does not come without expense.
There must be a great sorrow before a rose can make its presence.

For you already are a rose you just do not know.
(Being oblivious is your weakness
it's like the sun behind clouds.)
All you must do now is just grow...

Your love was precious,
In every way.

You are kind and bright as the stars on a calm summers night.

You made me smile even when you never knew,
to me you were like a peaceful morning with beautiful flowery dew.

"MEMENTO VIVERE"(remember that you must live)