you smile and lie
and i would have to lie
if somebody asks me if it hurts
this is just the normal game of you and I
If I would hear your Songs
could I find myself in them?
My soul or only my warm Body?
If I would watch u sleep
Could I observe nightmares about us?
If I would Kiss your Lips and ask you if you don't feel anything at all
Would you be honest?
If I would ask you how you feel?
Could you tell me everything is ok?
If I would ask you if u love me
Would you say anything at all?
I have been the bright one at partys
the funny one in groups
the cute one for boys
the wild one
i am more and more losing myself in the rain
and its like my tears about him
i am starting to feel this ****** kind of numbness
like even the persons who make me laugh the most dont even trigger the slightest feeling
like all energy just got ****** out of my body by a small dwarf
and he just took my laugh my speech my love and ran away
give me back my feelings
just a very very odd mood the last time
You pressed the repeat button
by crushing our lips together
I should have stayed on my side of the sidewalk
It was calm and nice there and everything went in the right direction
You were on the other side
And we already tell little kids
To not cross the street without looking
The infinite Idea of -us- hit me like a truck
And I didn't even arrive at your side
If u love a person
It feels like diving in the Caribbean Sea on a big luxury ship with everything u need
If u lose the person
U don't only lose her
No.....no you also lose the ground under your feet
And before u can remark and observe
You find yourself underwater
You can't gasp for air
Your body feels numb
And everything is just a big wild mess
You can't even remember where up and down is
U might get yourself out of water
Your body still in the ocean but sad eyes looking for somebody
Somebody to help
And it's not gonna end there huh
Cause the waves keep crashing and crashing over you when you least expect it
U may also find yourself
Finally on land
Without expecting it
So no matter how hard life is
how many times u keep getting thrown off the boat
That there will always be a land
So just keep on swimming
And remind yourself
that the more u swim
the better u become at it
This is aaaa very old one. I always loved the metaphor water..(u may find it in other poems of me too)
And no poem
No pretty words
No melancholic art
Could sum up
In my heart
short but yeah
May u be happy with her
Like u couldn't be happy with me
May u think of me
When u are looking at her
May u miss me too like if it was yesterday when I lost my eyes in yours
May my tears will stop to flow
May u helped me grow
May I'm gonna heal
A kinda uplifting one:)
So now I know
l i n e s
okay so this is like my absolute favorite metaphoper :) hope u enjoy
Now he is feeling my Puls
in the intimate parts of my body
i let u take it almost all
And you took my breath away
Took my thought of him
and turned it into Bits on my
L i p s
is not you
And thats ok
Cause it is just
O n e
N i g h t
D e c o r a t e
S k i n
I get so
C o l d
C r y i n g
But I crave the pain you put me through
Cause if I am bleeding
that u touched me at least
Sounds a bit better in german :)
Do I need that?
the passionate feeling of hot skin close to mine?
the teasing words and thoughts, the way your eyes watch all of my movements?
how your finger is always kindly stripping the soft parts of my body?
the intimate Feeling of me and u?
Do I need ur heart to fill in the missing parts of mine?
To feel whole again?
But you keep being one of many
gosh I'm so sorry
I don't want u to be this, don't want us to be this.....
I don't want this
I'm so sorry but I think I'm going to break you, or you gon break me first
Is it too much?
Am i too little?
is it too much to wish for a person who loves you?
maybe I am not made for love, maybe I am too complicated, maybe I make problems just in my head and bring them on stage to destroy the act of u and me?
I am not the problem
maybe it is u, or him, or my ex-best friend
but what would it change?
to find somebody who is the bad guy who took every smile out of the others face?
cause it would just be too much.
And i don't know how much more i can take
cause I am too little
And my feelings are way too big
im feeling very productive today. if the pain is real the words come clear huh
We could have had it all
the rainy kisses
the long nights
the warm tights, the love, the storm, the screams, the fights the lights
in our eyes
when we found what we were looking for in everyone else
we could have had it all
but when we almost had everything
u just f*cking cut everything into pieces
and now I'm only left with
my own mind
kinda messy one. imagine it read out loud :)
God, I know it is useless and dumb
But I can't stop my thumb
Scrolling down her newest pics with her pretty face and pretty laugh and pretty eyes
I see how u see her
And it is not like I don't care
I bet u didn't think of me
when u lost my kiss on her lips
With ur hands warmed by me
on her pretty hips
I think that I found her smile in your eyes
You taste like heaven,
But make me feel like hell
A person seeming so soft, so pure and wholesome, slowly melting on a love hungry tounge
but gummy bears are sticky and if you eat too much of them u will get ******* diabetes.
they jam between your teeth and drive you insane.
You are trying to get it out but cant reach the part of your body that they occupy.
And when i am looking down my shaking hands,
i can see the sugar dripping
and i cant distinguish
if its from you
and our lips
match like lost puzzle pieces
finally ending up together
You will never find someone who watches you the way I did
Who laughed about your sillyjokes like me
Who thought as much as me the he could not live without you
So I am just saying
Be happy with her pretty face
like if they would take with every breath I take,
a bit of my pain away.
Very slow the flash hits me
and grabs my body to swirl it around my own kiwi smoothie eyes.
We all know
that the unknown
leaves a special taste on its tounge
on, on my body, in my mind.
the smoke keeps on whirling and i see small bits of your smokey eye
may it be allright?
But i keep forgetting
to not let you become another habit
sooooooo here comes my first poem. enjoy :)
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